Birth Date.

What do you think? Is it like you?? Kinda true for mine. 

Best Match is 4,6, 8. LOL. My Boyfriend's and Part-Time Boyfriend's birth date is number 4. My Ex-Boyfriend is 8. Tsk. -.-

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3, 5 and 7.

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You

learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5.

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5.

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

Go Little Bad Girl.

IRA'S BACHELORETTE NIGHT.

Preparing at Ira's House.

Final look. Haha. I know I looks weird.

At The Arena.

Finally, Rebel and we saw friends. HAHA.

Want some kiss? PAY ME. LOL

End of the night. Legs are like jelly and super pain already.

Can't capture any clear group photo cause my camera dropped and spoilt. ):

No I'm not the bride. HAHA.

FINALLY. :D

My Baby! (:

GENTING.

My Little Princess just woke up. (:

Now she knows how to walk on her own, she doesn't want us to help her anymore. ):

My old man. (: >.< 

Princess Jiamin's hand. (:

Old Man tired want to sleep. LOL

I love Jeorgina. She can just make me laugh to my screen. LOL

Granny! (:

(: Outdoor Theme Park.

Spaceshot. We didn't sit this cause the queue was ccccrrrraaaazzzyyyy! -.- 

I think queuing for the dinosaur boat or something. -.- Damn stupid.

Yes, I'm scared of cold. -.- 

Not very haunted actually. LOL

Dinner at Hou Mei. Super expensive. LOL

Queen.

Boyfriend taught her the '7' sign now she keep doing it. -.- wth.

Queuing for her ride!

Love her!

Still queuing for her ride. LOL.

See she smile until so happy!

Little girl wanna help with the luggage!

Our Lunch. 

My Baby Lynn and my hair before I cut, trimmed and rebond. LOL

Aftermath. :\ I cut my fringe to bangs without rebonding it and trimmed about 3inches of my hair length. :\ Previously it was almost touching my ass crack already. :| Heh.

New addition to our Lai family, 阿吉! (: 

He wants to go out when everyone is leaving.. So he's like ' begging ' my cousin to bring him along. LOL

And so as you saw, I went to a few places and an event. A short vacation back to hometown and a night crash at different clubs the night before. It was totally tiring and no, I'm still suffering from the accumulated amount of tiredness for the like more than one week? -.- Great. Let me just update a little bit here and there. I've quite a few things in mind lately, all random and doesn't really link but I just feel like blogging it down. Or maybe before I publish I shall re-read again and see if I should move some of the content to my private blog instead. Hmmm. 

I'm probably gonna get lengthy here in this post but meh whatever. Doesn't matter if you like it or not. IT'S MY BLOG SO TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT. >.< 

Ira's Bachelorette night was a blast. We started with dinner at highlander then go around the clubs at Clarke Quay. It was really crazy and funny. Imagine having to walk on the 4inches heels and carry signboards and like all the barang barang with us walking around with the sexy outfit. -.- Yeah we wore corset top and a flarry skirt with gutters stocking. LOL It was damn funny because we're like flashing our ass to everyone. I have perky and big ass so that makes it even more obvious to be shown. But well safety pants we wore. Hahaha. So yeah. The night was crazy and Ira was gone at like 1am? HAHA. :\ So we ended the night having ourselves at Attica before going home and my poor poor Boyfriend was waiting for me at home cause he couldn't get me on my phone as it's on silent and was in the car boot! :\ And no, I didn't sleep. I napped for 15mins and had to get up to go to Genting. Sucks to be me. But oh well.. -.- 

Genting wasn't as fabulous as I thought it would because the weather was good on the day we arrived but not the subsequent two days. -.- Outdoor Theme Park was like a waste because couldn't play much. But thankfully for the indoor theme park that we spent most of our time on cause we had Jeorgina with us. (: So in fact we spent like almost the whole time sitting at those kiddy rides with Jeorgina. But seeing her smiling and laughing really made my day even though the queue was like !$%^&* long. -.- And with the fact that my menses came right on the day we go to Genting, I wasn't really enjoying myself there. And at the same time, some stuffs happened when I was there so yeah. The trip was quite a down one other than having Jeorgina to be so happy. Meh whatever. But yeah still at least I don't have to go to the bloody office to face those adulterous and fake people. -.- Lalalala. >.< 

And so I've got some thoughts lately in my head going round and round. Firstly, I don't know why but thoughts of my very bastard ex-boyfriend kept rushing in. For some reasons I think somehow I guess I still do care about whether he's dead or alive. LOL. Well, I meant it in a friend way but weird thing is, I just don't have anymore topics to talk to him about. -.- So I also don't know why the thoughts of him. I even asked myself, 'Am I gonna still be with him if he wasn't attached one month after I reject his patch-up request and actually waited for me?' It's funny cause I guess that was the only reason why I would wanna never go back to him ever again. Because he bullshit me. -.- If he had actually kept to what he said when we broke up, I guess I would probably still be with him. But oh well, I will never forget the day I cried so badly in my office after seeing the photos of the girlfriend and him back then, in his room. He told me 'Not I go after her one' But fact is, you two are together already so why the need to tell me who go after who? That's not even the point. -.- But honestly speaking, just today, I miss my youth days. Or maybe I miss our past, I miss us, I miss everything I used to have. Yeah, very 犯贱 but hello, I'm sure everyone will miss their past. Be true to yourself. -.- 

Secondly, I was reminded of how dramatic my past relationship with my ex was like when I saw something. It reminded me of my break-patch relationship with my ex. Too dramatic and too much talking and preaching about how to make it better etc etc etc but end of the day? Still break up. -.- I don't know and I know I'm in no position to say or comment anything but I feel that when you feel that a relationship makes you keep crying and feeling upset, it's time to let go. Regardless of the amount of happiness you both once shared. Holding on will only cause more hurts in the future, this was said by someone to me. But whether the person who said this to me still think the same or not, I don't know. We all say, human change, true enough, I changed too. Just like everyone else. No doubt I miss my past a lot. Hmmm. 

And lastly, I thought of my Boyfriend too. >.< Heh. He's not someone with very good looks, neither is he the smartest or the richest guy. He's just an average looking, average guy. But he has one thing that my past doesn't have. A heart that only do things for me. He's not someone who can give me the luxury I desire but he try to give me what he can best give. He's not the most good looking guy (among my ex-boyfriend la) but he has a character that is more beautiful than them. He's not the richest(among my ex-boyfriend too) but he's always working hard to give me the best that he can. And he, by far is the only one who can tolerate all my nonsense, temperamental character and always giving in to the male personality in me. And by the way, I'm not saying things to put my Boyfriend down and I bet with you a lot of girls are jealous of me because I have such a faithful, caring and willing-to-do-anything-for-me Boyfriend. He may not be the most good looking boyfriend I've had nor is he the richest boyfriend I've had but he is indeed one special Boyfriend I've had. I don't normally praise my Boyfriend but just cause of my recent thought I'm actually having thoughts like these. Haha. It's funny I know but I love my Boyfriend. >.< I have always love him. Just that sometimes I guess it's my ego playing me out that I don't want to admit how much I do love him. Okay fine, I guess he loves me more than I love him. HAHA. But that's not the point because the point is I love him. HAHA! And hunny, I'm glad I have you. (: 

Time flies so fast that I'm going to be in Raffles for the second year in no time. It's just like how time flies and I'm with Boyfriend for a year already though in between so many things happened. Heh. 

In life, we always hear people saying things like ' it comes a point we realized who is worth it, who isn't, who will always stay, who wouldn't ' those kind of thing. I guess it's a phrase in life, it's about how we look at life and how much we've seen in life. But one thing for sure is that every minute we're learning something. Everyday we're learning something. Today I learnt that no matter how bad things are, a smile warm our heart. 

Guess the level of perfection in life, will and has always been up to an individual judgement. 

Uhh~ I miss Ben gong gong and his girlfriend. (:

So Tell Me How...

这个世界上，总有个人，他治得了你。只要看到他，你的坏脾气自然收敛起来，变得驯如羔羊。只要看到他，你的沮丧会消失得无影无踪。跟他一起，你才发现自己从没这么温柔过；跟他一起，你会努力表现得聪明些。----爱上了他，你有点怕他；爱上了他，你开始相信命运；是否前世你欠了他什么？

I met someone like this almost 5 years ago. When I was with him, I became who I'm normally not. I felt like a weakling in front of him, I felt like I was able to rely on him forever. I felt like I could just follow him and do nothing together. With him, life was simple, life was easy. We were laughing, smiling, spending hours and hours talking until the next day and we're happy. We spent almost every moment talking to each other, calling or texting or seeing. But I don't get sick of seeing him, he don't get bored of meeting me. We're always eager to meet and see each other. We fell in like, we fell in love. We had each other and then we lost each other. We fell out, we fell apart but deep within, we know we still care for each other just that it's one sided love then. And in the end, I'm still in love while he moved on. And since then, I told myself never to love someone more than he loves me. Because in fact, I couldn't take another blow having to bid goodbye the way I used to in the past.

Just two days ago. I had this ' I want to fly home to see you ' feeling. But today I'm thinking, is that feeling the same as what I felt back then? Sometimes I wish that I could have someone like him as my boyfriend but I know we can't compare and contrast a person like this. I know the more I try to find someone like him, the more I won't move out from his shadow. And I know the more I want someone like him, the deeper I am gonna be in love with him. Yeah I moved on. But why is it that sometimes I still actually do hope for myself to be like who I was when I was with him? And then I realized, there's one thing that he had from me which my others don't. The trust level I had in him.

I don't know why but he made me trust him completely. He made me felt like everything is gonna be okay and I don't have to worry about anything and all I had to do was, laze with him and follow him wherever and be with him. I miss that feeling. Miss how it feels like to trust someone completely. How can I ever break these walls that are built around me that are to prevent anymore lost of trust? But now, walls are building higher and higher.

So tell me how? How can I be like the past again?
Honestly, I'm tired of trying so hard to protect myself.
Really..

I'm Strong, But Not That Strong.

请原谅我不够爱你，因为我还要留点爱自己；请原谅我不够爱你， 因为还要留点力气让我站立；请原谅我不够爱你， 因为我做不到你离开我拒绝联系而不放弃；请原谅我不够有爱你， 因为我把最后的表情用来微笑而不是哭泣。

I don't remember when was the last time I tried breaking down in front of people. I came to this point in life whereby I swallow everything and keep everything to myself, bottle everything up and not even make a sound when I'm feeling upset. I only show my anger and frustration. And very often, people thinks I'm willful, unreasonable, spoilt etc etc and I don't even care. 

I know, everyone have their own shits to worry about yeah so why should be an emo nemo when all you can get is people asking you ' eh why you so emo? ' Haha. Human's nature; kepo. It can be in a good and bad way in terms of kepo. But oh well, I guess only we ourselves know who are the ones who really cares and ask sincerely. Like what everyone will say; We're not dumb. 

I used to cry a lot, like a cry baby. I used to smile a lot, like a fake fucktard. And now, I'm always in bad mood, I'm always getting angry, I'm always throwing my temper and all kinds of any other bad things you thought you saw and thought it was really me. We all live in pretense. We pretend not to care when we care, we pretend to be happy when we're upset. We pretend it's alright when it's totally not. I remember someone said something similar as well. True.. so true.. 

There are a lot of reasons to why we become who we are now. We all have our own stories but yet we can't accept others having their own stories. So what if people is pedophile? So what if people choose to go back to their fucked up ex? So what if people come from China? So what if they're from different culture and religion? BUT yet, we still will discriminate. I don't like China people because of all the abusive videos I'm watched online about the poor animals! They're just inhuman to me.  Seriously I think everyone has a way or two to find fault in someone who's different from us. But let's just face it, the world don't revolves around you, you're just a part of this big big world. Sometimes we just gotta learn to accept I guess, TOUGH JOB. 

I feel tired, to be always seeming so strong in front of people. To be always taking care people around me. How they feel, how they think etc. I actually came to a point whereby I'm starting to be selfish, really selfish. I started to question myself nowadays, ' What do I gain from helping them? ' or like ' Why do I even bother to help when they're not gonna appreciate? ' Yeah, selfish but so what? Who isn't? 

I don't know. This world sometimes seems so small because of all the fake people around us. So when can everyone be real in front of each other? When can everyone be just themselves and not afraid of people discriminating them? 

Honestly, I have no idea.. I wonder.. when will I be able to break down like I used to in the past again? Like crying to my pillow, sobbing and say ' why are you breaking my heart again?! ' or like locking myself in my room, feeling emo and just sleep my day away.... 

So yeah, when? Hmm..

School + Skate.

Ma Maison for school's assignment! (:

Yeah so you see... I was a good girl to go to a restaurant for my assignment. YES, FOR MY ASSIGNMENT'S SAKE. -.- it's like going there to survey the place etc. Haha. (: Shida, Nick and myself had an enjoyable night! Really! We were like laughing, joking and talking nonsense the entire night! HAHAHA. (: But it's really the company that matters! (: Just that I was in heels and suffering from too-long-never-wear-heels-pain. T.T Overall, love the entire night! (: The food the was not bad. My first time trying escargot and it's not really my kind of food cause.... It's too big! I don't mind eating like many mane cockles.. But escargot... I find it weird. :\ Plus after my lecturer told us how the escargots were prepared.. I was like, omg I'm not gonna eat it anymoreeeeee! EEEWW! 

BBQ @ Yishun Dam!

 

Meeting up with old friends is one of the things I love to do! I haven't been out with this three awesome people for the longest time! Though I still see Mic but not the other two. (: So the BBQ at Yishun Dam last Friday was a good reminisce for us all. (: We used to do that, just the four of us as well! (: Have I mentioned before how well they took care of me when I met my accident in 2008? And all my ex-boyfriend did was humiliating me and insulting me rather than being there for me and take care of me? If not for this three friends of mine, I think I'd probably sink into depression with that fucking scar on my face. They never failed to tell me how beautiful I was even when I had that dressing on my face. They're the ones who brought me out because I have cast on my leg and they're the ones who bring to places I want to go and they're the ones who accompanied me through that tough period to accept the 'new' me. So even when I don't meet them in the longest time, I've always have them in my mind at times when I'm alone or reminiscing my past. (: 

My life is rather more or less the same every weekend now. I'm trying to make it a habit to go and skate every weekend, like the past. Maybe not so much of sliding but I'll just try to slide a little like I used to. I believe once a slider, always a slider. But first, I think I need to find my knee guards. I lost one side of it and I have no idea where the other side went to!!!!! T.T I've been trying really hard to slim down because I think I'm already over my ideal weight even though my BMI shows that I'm fine. I'M TOTALLY NOT FINE WITH THAT TUMMY! Boyfriend has been really nice to run with me every week and keep encouraging me when we're jogging around his house areas. (: And I've been eating a lot of fruits.. An apple a day keeps the doctor away! (: A lot of people are asking me why am I so health conscious lately, yeah, you got your answer here, I'M FAT OKAY? -.- so Shut the fuck up and keep your comments to yourself. Thank you.

I have a lot of things in my mind recently, just maybe need to find some time to type them down. So yeah, bye for now. (: It's jogging tonight and I wonder which route Boyfriend has prepared for me. <3 xx

And oh, Happy One Month Old to Baby Bryant. (: