hellos.

Haiz. Tomorrow is my sister's jia min's birthday. Hmm. don't know watt to get for her. Kinda feeling low. Haiz.

Yesterday to yuzhen's BBQ, at ECP. Pit 8. I went after band practise, which was like, evening time lerx. Haiz. Reach ECP around 7pm. Before that sent Kris darling to cartel for work. Yupp. After I reach ECP, went to rollerline, take skate from dear. Cause pit very far. I don't want to walk there. Then Terence sends miee to the pit. Just right before I reach the pit, I fall! Cause I try not to bang into two people in front of miee. Then I fall. Haiz. They just walk away. Then Terence helped miee upp. Then he went to parkway to but the antiseptic and the don't know watt for miee, which I don't know at first. Then I wash my elbow (second time at the same injury on last Sunday!) with mineral water, clean with a tissue. Then after a while, it stopped bleeding, then I skate to ford road, alone. Hahaz. Then skate back to pit. Cause nobody wants to pei miee maa. Dear having lesson. Then, err, when I want to go seven eleven but things then saw dear going towards pit, then call him lolz. Then he turns around, ask miee if I feel hurt or anything, I said no but he don't believe. Cause really not pain lerx. Then he see my elbow, wanted to tend to my injury but I refuse to let him to. Hahaz. Then he pass miee the things lolz. Say that no matter watt he wants miee to apply that. However, I just take and did not utter a word of promising. Hahaz. Then he pei miee skate to seven eleven. On the way saw Terence and dear's students. Then Terence insists that I apply the antiseptic. Then apply lolz. Hahaz. At first, I thought it was painful but it wasn't actually. Hahaz. Then Terence pei miee go seven eleven, cause dear gotta go and teach his students. Terence help miee bought liquor. Hahaz. Vodka ice. In the end a aunty say treat him. Then heng lolz. Not caught or anything. Heheez. Then again, he pei miee skate back to pit. Cause helps miee carry all the drinks etc. aiyaa. If I really going to write everything that happened yesterday, it is going to be very long lolz. Hahaz. Err. Yaa. Terence says yuzhen is cute! Hahaz. After that, Darryl sends miee and dear home, because patience has to go home lerx. Then blah blah blah. Hahaz. I reach home around 1:30am. Mom scolded miee, because I made her worry. Haiz. Again. Then blah blah blah lolz. Reach home called dear. Talk a while then put down. Haven't been talking much to him. Ohhh yaa, Terence say he going to BDS band on Monday to help. Hahaz. He was once a patrician, but now in outram. Heheez. Kris, once a PATRICIAN! Hahaz.

Then message dear a while before I fall sleep. Cried before I sleep. Cause of mom. don't know watt happened to her, keeps telling miee weird weird things like ''I don't know how long I can hang on'' etc. weird right? Haiz. Kinda worry abut her now for all the weird things she told miee! I don't think i'm going ECP tomorrow. Going to stay at home pei her lerx. Though going ECP once every weekend has become my habit, but I think i'm really going to stay at home to see how's my mom. Haiz.

Okiee laa. Going to stop here lerx. Miss youu my honey, hope youu get home earlier tonight after work cause youu didn't sleep yesterday. Wants youu to have more rest. :) take care to all!

heyys.

ohhh. Back. Haiz. Today had my social studies timed-test. Hahaz. Fail! Heheez. Don't know laa. Like gonna fail lolz. Heheez.

Never mind. Hahaz. Yesterday finally got to see my Kris darling!!! Miss her so much! Gave her hug when I saw her! Heheez. *oops!* Heheez. Hmm. She came for band lolz. Hahaz. The feeling of having her playing beside miee was sooo great! I just love her so much! Heheez. Then we choose 14 pieces for the band to play. I mean, try out? Yaa. Hahaz. In the end will be playing 10 pieces only. Heheez. =)

Today went to meet Aidah for TPJC's concert ticket. Heheez. Yupp. Err. Nothing much happened laa. Yuzhen laogong maybe celebrating her birthday tomorrow. Having BBQ at ECP. Hahaz. Actually wanted to go night safari de. But in the end many said don't want. So change plan. Hahaz. Everything was planned well actually lolz. First was we'll have steamboat before going to night safari. Hmm. Never mind laa. As long as my laogong happy, i'm happy! Heheez.

Err. Kinda look forward to tomorrow. Cause i'm gonna see my Kris darling again!!! she's coming for band again!! Hahaz. Hmm. Heheez. Ohhh. I miss my dear lerx. Hahaz.

Okiee laa. Lazy to write lerx. Update again bax. Take care peoples!

heheez

Ohhh like watt the fuck lolz. My mom quarrel with daddy then scolds miee. Asshole him laa. And don't know watts her problem laa. -_-''''

Recently have been slacking, and I don't know why am I doing this. Prelim is round the corner and I still laze around like nobody business. Really don't have any motivation to study lolz. Haiz. don't know watt to say laa. Haiz.

Just called dear. He's very unhappy with Alan again. I mean. Alan piss him off again. Fuck off laa Alan. Who the hell do youu think youu are. Asshole. Just a useless guy lolz. So watt if youu work in rollerline longer than my dear does? Youu are nothing but just a fucking asshole lolz. If not, why Kelvin don't make youu the supervisor from the start? Youu think now, by scolding dear in front of Kelvin, finding faults in him can make youu a supervisor? Youu can just DREAM ON man! There are too many things youu don't know! Don't try to act smart when youu are stupid. Youu fucking asshole. Always bully my dear. Make his life so difficult. I'm not going to make your life easy also lolz. I'm not those who will give way to such moronic person lolz. Go home sleep laa. Stupid moron. Find one day I shall make youu mortify in front of all the people in rollerline!

Ohhh. Forget it. Don't wanna talk about that bastard lerx. Heart aches to see my dear kena bullied! Hmm. Visited Kris darling's blog today. She sounded so sad. Darling. Don't be sad okiee? Anyway. Are you coming tomorrow? Message miee tell miee okiee? I miss youu darling!
Okiee laa. Enough of nonsense. Hahaz. Update again bax. Take care to all.

happy!

*happy mood*. Hellos! Back. Heheez. Yesterday anniversary, had a fun but tiring day! Hahaz. Yupp.

First. Meet dear 7am at his house, but he's late! Cause lazing around maa. Every time like that de laa. can't stand him and his sleepiness! The night before don't wanna sleep early, the next day can't wake upp on time. Haiz. Yupp. Then after that go ECP lerx. Reach there 7:50am. Cause took cabbie. Diaoz lolz. Hahaz. But before that went to buy breakfast. Then after that I went to buy drink when we reach ECP. Hahaz. Then take breakfast etc. Dear went to teach lesson around 8:45. then I do my study there. Then Kelvin came to take things. Then go teach ice. With Stella. Then Alan came around 9am. Then also don't know watts he's doing lolz. Come only do all the extra things. *diaoz*. Then, err, Darryl came. For the 10am lesson. About 13 Australian kids. Poor dear. Gotta have lesson after another. Ohhh goshh. =X. so sad. He hardly have the time to even talk to miee for a second lolz. So da sad. Sobs~. Never mind. Hahaz. Then patience came around 1+. We study together for a while then her dear Darryl ask her to go skate. Then she pull miee along. Then I go skate with her. Hahaz. It has been a long time since I last touches skate. Heheez. Then after that we wanted to skate to Jetty. But when we are reaching lagoon, at the slope there. I fall! *OuChH! PaiN pain!*. then patience say skate back to rollerline. Have to clean my wound. Then skate back lolz. Err. Like so the fast lolz. I mean, we were talking then after a while reach rollerline. Hahaz. Then rest a while. Go rink slack. Heheez.

Then Terence teach miee T stop. Cause I was wearing patience's skate. No stopper. Hahaz. Arghh. can't get it right man! hmm. But I know if I wanna learn, I sure can do it! :). Hahaz. Now elbow not that pain lerx. Heheez. Yesterday was painful. Hahaz. At first didn't tell dear I fall down. Cause patience is scared that dear will scold her. (dear asked her to take good care of miee maa). Then she very scared. So I told her not to tell dear. i'll tell him myself. Cause it wasn't patience's fault. I didn't wear elbow guard. So it is my fault. Hahaz. Then yesterday cause dear worry about miee, we went home straight after dear knock off, which was like, 9:05? Yupp, if I didn't remember wrongly. Hahaz. =). Then send dear home. He insist that I go to his house to say hi to his family. By watt youu know? Make miee carry one of his skate, then he don't take it back. Idiot! Then I no choice but to follow him. Then I thought only his ah ma at home. Cause normally is his ah ma and brother at home wadd. How I know his daddy is home too. Then he want miee to go into his house to say hi to his dad. Hahaz. Then I talk to his brother a while. Then go home lerx. Hahaz. Then sms dear. Hahaz. Then fall asleep when I messaging him. Diaoz.

Today nearly late for school. Like lazy to wake upp lolz. Hahaz. Then. Err. Slept the whole day in class. Not really laa. Last four periods is awake! Hahaz. Then go home after lesson. Then err. Sleep again! Hahaz. Then just called dear he didn't pick upp. I guess he's skating bax. Hahaz. Wanna call him again. (can't ease my mind until he answer my call!).

backed.

Today is dear and I, third year anniversary!

now is 1:30am. Today is dear and I, third year anniversary. Hmm. No idea watt to buy for him. So, err, I thought of getting him something later? I just bought him a pouch lately. Yaa.

Hmm. Haiz. Just now, yesterday I mean. Went to my relative's wedding dinner. Was like, super duper da late lolz! Ohhh goshh. Hmm. Saw my cousins. Hahaz. Chatted with them. Kinda miss them, cause the last time seeing them was actually Chinese new year! Hahaz. My cousin got almost drunk while drinking red wine. Err. Hahaz. Daniel and Samuel. Hahaz. That naughty twin. Went to NS this year yeah? Hahaz. Like watt the lolz. Heheez. I had some red wine too. Then told dear, he was soo the unhappy. Then punish miee tomorrow, today I mean, meet him early in the morning 7am at his house there. So the dotz lolz. Hahaz. Now listening to titanic medley. Kinda miss dear. Cause he always like to use his suona to play this song for miee. Heheez. Yupp. Later go ECP so early do watt sia. Study laa. Bring books there. Heheez.

Okiee laa. Kinda tired lerx. Wanna zZzZ lerx. If not later cannot wake upp then die! Hahaz. Nights peoples. Take care!

heys.

It is about 15mins to 12am. Going to be like 22 July? And two more days to my anniversary? With dear. And. I still haven't gotten anything for him. Hmm. Like watt the. Haiz.

Just had a tiff with him. This was hilarious but I don't want to write it out here. I mean. It is a joke a crake yet he took it so seriously. Haiz. Can't I crake jokes? Hahaz. I doubt so. Yaa. Tomorrow must purchase a gown for Saturday's wedding dinner. I mean like, for so many years that I've been to wedding dinner, why must we be so prepared for this coming one? Just because the relative is from 'this' ah ma? Like so the watt lolz. Sianz.

Haiz. Tomorrow, another day of school. Kinda feeling sianz towards studies. Don't seems to be able to do well. I mean, I want to do well for 'O's. But I don't seems to have self-motivation towards studies lehz. Some more now a days, occasionally, miee and dear will like become so the 'cold'. Cause of stupid reasons. But they affects miee in my studies. Because I just can't stop thinking of him and watt he had said. Haiz. GOD! I NEED YOUR HELPP NOW!!!! Ohhh my. Guide miee out of here. I need to leave this illusion as soon as possible. Ohhh.

Received a missed call from dear just now at 9:55pm. So I called him back. Asked him why and he told miee Maria messaged him, ask him to tell miee that she change phone, that's why she didn't reply my msg, cause she lost my contact. And because her com spoilt, she can't tag my board. Okiee. That eases miee from one worry. Hahaz. =X. Hahaz. Now watt really worries miee most is still dear. He tends to get very worked upp recently, over works? Or is there anything else that I should know that he did not tell miee? Ohhh. I don't know. He just seems to be keeping things from miee yeah? And I don't know watt the reason behind each 'keeping'. Haiz. I miss Kris. At least Kris doesn't hide so many things from miee. she's my eternity love! Heheez. The thought of her made miee happy! =D

Hahaz. Okiee laa. Enough laa. Tired le. Take care dudes.

...

Today. Went to school. Just for the 6 periods of chemistry. Ohhh goshh. I'm actually worried about my Chem? Yaa, I am.

Went to school, muddled headed. Like a sotong lolz. Hahaz. 'cause. Sick. Then kinda like blur about everything. Hahaz. Yaa. Just simply blur! Ohhh my. Had my Phy and Chem timed-test today after school. Phy was alright. But I screwed my Chem man! I know nuts about it. Like watt the fuck lolz. Do experiments can, but watt it forms all don't know. Damn it. Fuck!

Forget about it. Today is really my bad day man! Firstly, I forgot to call dear to wake him upp for work, secondly, I screwed my Chem. Like watt the fuck am I doing lolz. Can't concentrate at all. Been like so sleepy and distracted. Everything don't go well man! Just NOTHING GOES WELL!! So damn fucking pissed with myself. Yaa. Just pissed. Very pissed. Caused dear to be late for work, no off day again, 3 consecutive weeks!!!!!! He hasn't been resting for 3 consecutive weeks!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so damn pissed with myself. Miee caused him no off day, no rest. Shit youu CheeSim! Caused your dear to be sooo tired! Youu asshole! Can just stuff your head into a hole and bury it man! Such a small task also can't do it well. Ohhh damn. Feeling absolute low now. Dear, SORRY!!! So sorry, cause youu to have no off day. I promise I will make upp for it one day okiee? Sorry. *muackz* for youu now. Okiee? Love youu.

Dear called miee when I'm having dinner with my friends at simpang today. Ask miee to go and find him. I was telling him I'm going home lerx. He sounded sooo sad. Sorry honey. I wasn't feeling well. And I left my medicine at home. So I gotta go home. i'll look for youu tomorrow okiee? Heheez. Cheer upp okiee? I know youu want miee to be there to cheer youu upp. Sorry. Ohhh. All I can say to him is sorry. Really sorry okiee? =x

Haiz. Watt a fuck day for miee. Damn da not good lolz. Sianz laa. Okiee laa. No mood for blogging lerx. Take care peoples.

kris...

Specially dedicating this entry to my one and only Kris darling, my eternity love.

I read darling's blog yesterday, I miss her. Read her entry for miee. So sad. So touching. Feels like crying. =( and now, it's my turn to write an entry, especially for her. Really, miss her. Like she said. Though June holidays brought us together again, but school reopens, separate us again. Now, with the addition of Ze yi and Jaryl, it is an addition of laughter and joy. Darling, I hope we will stay side by side with each other. Regardless of time, of distance. Kris darling, I love youu, always and forever. Youu are the first person, or rather the one and only, who I have the most confidence that no matter what, youu will be with miee. That youu will never leave miee for anything. And I mean anything! Youu are the only one, whom I am absolutely deeply in love with, with lots and lots of love for youu. My love for youu never dies. Never fade away. This feeling is the feeling that until now, Zhanyu cannot assure miee. However, I found it on youu. Darling, I need youu. Please don't ever leave miee. We spent many time together, the memories you left miee is indescribable. They come in dozens. They will never be erased. Darling, I need youu alright? Don't ever leave miee, okiee? Every now and then, I will think of our past. The times we had in band, playing our instruments. And all your 'how' after band's performances. All your complaints about miee being loud. About my piccolo being sharp or what. And being tolerant towards my late coming each time we meet out. For concert or what.

Darling, thank youu for being so thoughtful. For being so understanding towards my weird character. This is why I love youu so much. Youu are the one and only who understands miee so much. Knows what the reason behind each time I cried is. Youu are the only one who never fails to cheer miee upp from my sadness. Never failed to make my day rocks with your lame stuffs. And all our wearing sunglass in concert hall. When it is actually dark til we can't really see lerx. And our crapping while shopping. Our jokes. Our 'why's. I think that is when our love started to grow so strong, right? And our testimonials in friendster. Always so long. More than 1000 words. Sometimes upp to 3000 words, right? Which is like, continuous from the previous testimonial? Just like when we message each other. Sometimes it's so long. And your Christmas card last year which made miee cried. Our band Christmas dinner at takashimaya. At Seoul garden. Our photos. Kris darling. I miss youu! I need youu to ease my missing towards youu! I need youu now. Very much. =(. Feels like hugging youu now. Feels like being with youu all the time. Feels like wanting the time being controlled by us, so we will have all the time we want on earth. That it will never end with youu by my side. I want the both of us to always be together. That we will never be parted. And our distance will never be drifted apart due to time. I know we will never leave each other in lurk, I know we will stay by each other, no matter what happens. I know we will, 'cause within us, we care a lot for each other. Darling, youu are my love, youu are my everything. Everything will be in a mess without you. Everything will be boring without you. I need youu for almost everything in my life. I hope youu know this. And last of all, as I told youu many times, youu will always be in my heart. Never will I forget youu. And I mean, NEVER.
Darling, I love youu always and forever. =)

Loving youu always,
Your CS Darling.

heyyz.

today. Dinn go school. Sick. Wanted to go actually. But really feels very xin ku. Then never go lerx.

Hmm. Today. Have been sleeping throughout the day. Like a log, like a pig! Hahaz. Then wake upp at 12+, by mummy. Ask miee help sister tie hair. Then send her to school. I sick still treat miee like that hor? So bad right? Hahaz. Never mind laa. Then after that I go back to sleep again. zZzZ. Hahaz. Then just now at night went to see doctor. Ohhh goshh, I've been visiting doctor very often this year, which I seldom do last time. Watt the fark! I hate visiting doctor! They sucks! Like whatever! Hahaz.

Yaa. Feeling so sucks lolz. Stay at home do nothing but sleep. Miss school sia. Hahaz. I'm feeling stress. Dear! I need youu. I need your hugs and kisses. (-_-''). Hahaz. =). Bao Bei. I want youu by my side now! youu know?!?! Haiz. I doubt youu knew it. ('',). Haiz. Still no news from Maria. Watts wrong with her? Has she gone overseas? Or watt? don't know lehz. Haiz. Feeling so sianz. *sianzations*. Hahaz.

Okiee laa. No mood for blogging now. maybe later? Yaa. that's about it. Take care guys! =)

hellosz....

hellos! Back le. Hmm. Just came back from school. Hahaz. Yupp. Err. Celebrated racial harmony day today. I wore kebaya. The one I bought last year. Hahaz.

Ehh. Recently. Hmm. I mean for the past few days. Hahaz. Sunday pei dear go changkat. For performance. Then go ECP. Haiz. I see Alan there, trying to curry favour with Kelvin. Kinda pissed off lolz. Watts his motive man! just an idiotic asshole! So damn farking pissing lolz. Ass him!

Forget it. Talk abut today. Hahaz. Had fun today. Heheez. Seeing all the students in the traditional costume is so nice! Hahaz. In the Japanese suit, Korean suit, all the races traditional costumes. So nice lolz. I love especially the Korean outfit. So cute lolz. But it's kinda complicated to wear. Hahaz. =D

Ohhh yaa. Last Sunday went to dear's house before going to changkat. Then happened to saw watt Maria wrote inside his diary. (jealous!). then tried to contact her, wanna ask her how come she wrote in his dairy, is it because she went to his house? But she never reply my message. *Ohhh. I tried messaging her the next day, still no reply. Today message her, ask her if there's anything happened to her, why she never reply my message, but still no reply. (kinda worry le.) hmm. I mean. i'm trying very hard to have the kind of mother-daughter feelings towards her since she started to call miee mummy. can't be reject her ask her to scram kinda thing right? i'm not that hard-hearted laa. =P. don't know why when it comes to feelings kinda things, my heart will soften down. Unless I really feel damn, bloody farking hurt laa. If not there's still room for discussion to talk out better laa. I mean. Who wants to have more enemy? Right? Dumb then wanna have ahh. Hahaz. Haiz. I kinda still wondering why lolz. Hmm. Maybe when she reads my blog, she saw my watt I wrote here, she'll explain to miee bax. Sorry daughter, your this mummy is way too sensitive le. I think among all your mummies, i'm the only one like that right? =X

Hmm. Anyway, had a great day with dear. Hahaz. And all my darlings at changkat! Heheez. After going to ECP, Edmond send miee to botanic garden. Hahaz. Then meet all the NCO peoples. Cool man! see catholic high is like as if i'm watching their concert again! Hahaz. Voted them for the grooviest band! But ended upp Marsiling got the award. So sad. But still congrats azam and ahmad. Hahaz. Hurray! Ehh. After that went to far east eat! Our old place man! the old aunty shop! Where NCO peoples went to eat during NCO camp! Hahaz. =D. cool man! Heheez.

These few days, messaged dear. Talked to him. Hmm. don't know how to say lehz. Feelings towards him. Is strong. But I hope it won't fade away in years to come. Or maybe later part of the year. Get watt I mean? Hmm. I also not sure watt am I talking here laa. Like so suddenly talk about this right? Hahaz. I wanna love him for the rest of my life, but my heart has to stay firm. Hopefully there won't be any other guys who can touched my heart so deeply as he does. =P. I hope if he ever visits my blog, dear, don't ails over this okiee? Smile always. Remember our promise? Yeshh. I hope youu remembers! And youu've got not choice BUT to memorise it! Heheez. I made it compulsory for youu to do so! So youu've got no choice! NO CHOICE!

Ahh~ hmm. don't know lehz. I miss dear lerx. Hahaz. =D. miss his voice, miss his face. Miss his everything. Hahaz. Wonder how long will I be able to see him from now. hmm. Yaa. that's my '?'. hahaz. Scarly tmr I meet with accident sia. Hahaz. *touchwood!* Heheez. I know I shouldn't be pessimistic. Hahaz. i'll try to laa. Heheez. =D okiee. Look at the bright side of life! Hahaz. Wa kau. Like siao cha bo like that sia. Hahaz.

Diaoz lolz. Hahaz. Okiee laa. Enough of crapping around. Gotta go lerx. Need to search for SYF photos. Take care peoples! Miss youu guys. Ohhh yaa. Maria. If youu think explaining to miee in message is better, message miee okiee? Cause I can't get youu. =X

harlooo....

hellos! Back le. Hmm. Just came back from school. Hahaz. Yupp. Err. Celebrated racial harmony day today. I wore kebaya. The one I bought last year. Hahaz.

Ehh. Recently. Hmm. I mean for the past few days. Hahaz. Sunday pei dear go changkat. For performance. Then go ECP. Haiz. I see Alan there, trying to curry favour with Kelvin. Kinda pissed off lolz. Watts his motive man! just an idiotic asshole! So damn farking pissing lolz. Ass him!

Forget it. Talk abut today. Hahaz. Had fun today. Heheez. Seeing all the students in the traditional costume is so nice! Hahaz. In the Japanese suit, Korean suit, all the races traditional costumes. So nice lolz. I love especially the Korean outfit. So cute lolz. But it's kinda complicated to wear. Hahaz. =D

Ohhh yaa. Last Sunday went to dear's house before going to changkat. Then happened to saw watt Maria wrote inside his diary. (jealous!). then tried to contact her, wanna ask her how come she wrote in his dairy, is it because she went to his house? But she never reply my message. *Ohhh. I tried messaging her the next day, still no reply. Today message her, ask her if there's anything happened to her, why she never reply my message, but still no reply. (kinda worry le.) hmm. I mean. i'm trying very hard to have the kind of mother-daughter feelings towards her since she started to call miee mummy. can't be reject her ask her to scram kinda thing right? i'm not that hard-hearted laa. =P. don't know why when it comes to feelings kinda things, my heart will soften down. Unless I really feel damn, bloody farking hurt laa. If not there's still room for discussion to talk out better laa. I mean. Who wants to have more enemy? Right? Dumb then wanna have ahh. Hahaz. Haiz. I kinda still wondering why lolz. Hmm. Maybe when she reads my blog, she saw my watt I wrote here, she'll explain to miee bax. Sorry daughter, your this mummy is way too sensitive le. I think among all your mummies, i'm the only one like that right? =X

Hmm. Anyway, had a great day with dear. Hahaz. And all my darlings at changkat! Heheez. After going to ECP, Edmond send miee to botanic garden. Hahaz. Then meet all the NCO peoples. Cool man! see catholic high is like as if i'm watching their concert again! Hahaz. Voted them for the grooviest band! But ended upp Marsiling got the award. So sad. But still congrats azam and ahmad. Hahaz. Hurray! Ehh. After that went to far east eat! Our old place man! the old aunty shop! Where NCO peoples went to eat during NCO camp! Hahaz. =D. cool man! Heheez.

These few days, messaged dear. Talked to him. Hmm. don't know how to say lehz. Feelings towards him. Is strong. But I hope it won't fade away in years to come. Or maybe later part of the year. Get watt I mean? Hmm. I also not sure watt am I talking here laa. Like so suddenly talk about this right? Hahaz. I wanna love him for the rest of my life, but my heart has to stay firm. Hopefully there won't be any other guys who can touched my heart so deeply as he does. =P. I hope if he ever visits my blog, dear, don't ails over this okiee? Smile always. Remember our promise? Yeshh. I hope youu remembers! And youu've got not choice BUT to memorise it! Heheez. I made it compulsory for youu to do so! So youu've got no choice! NO CHOICE!

Ahh~ hmm. don't know lehz. I miss dear lerx. Hahaz. =D. miss his voice, miss his face. Miss his everything. Hahaz. Wonder how long will I be able to see him from now. hmm. Yaa. that's my '?'. hahaz. Scarly tmr I meet with accident sia. Hahaz. *touchwood!* Heheez. I know I shouldn't be pessimistic. Hahaz. i'll try to laa. Heheez. =D okiee. Look at the bright side of life! Hahaz. Wa kau. Like siao cha bo like that sia. Hahaz.

Diaoz lolz. Hahaz. Okiee laa. Enough of crapping around. Gotta go lerx. Need to search for SYF photos. Take care peoples! Miss youu guys. Ohhh yaa. Maria. If youu think explaining to miee in message is better, message miee okiee? Cause I can't get youu. =X

hihihihi.

Hello! Hahaz. Back here le. Yaa. Yesterday dear's mom birthday right? Hahaz. Called her say happy birthday le. I mean last night. Hahaz.

Hmm. Dear bought her cake. And foods for her to eat. Heheez. Hmm. Then watt huh. Yaa. He went out with Edmond last night. I mean EARLY this morning. Like watt the hell lolz. Have to work still like that. Every time only know how to make mii worry. it's like how old le lolz. don't know people will worry for him is it? So inconsiderate. Hmphh. Never mind. Since he don't care about himself, why must I care? So da not fair lolz. >.<

Hahaz. Hmm. Last night jazren called mii. Twice. One is ask mii go bugis. Second time is to ask mi go play pool today. Coz hani wanna play. But I say I not going. Coz gotta do all my stuffs. Then have to look after my two young sisters. Hahaz. But it has been a long time since I last played pool laa. Kinda miss playing also. Hahaz. I miss Stella!!! Hahaz. Weird right? Hear mii say this. Heheez. Stella like my sister like that. Talk to mii. Teach mii a lot of things. Hahaz. =D. hmm. Miss dear also. But watt he always do is so damn farking pissing! Arghh. Forget it.

Tomorrow going to meet dear in the morning. Go changkat together. Like madd lolz. Guess watt time he wanna go? 7am! Ohhh. I don't know how to go. Then he ask mi to meet at his house there. Go together. Its so early and I guess i'll be sleepy lolz. I go there nothing to do. Hahaz. But gonna see all my dears and darlings. Chu ti, yuzhen, qianhui. Hahaz. But no Kris. So sad. I miss Kris. Haiz.

Diaoz. Like so da emotional lolz. Watt the. CheeSim CheeSim. Watt are youu thinking? Aiyoo. Hahaz. don't know laa. I think Iskandar should be at home now right? Then gotta go back to camp on Monday le. Right is? Hahaz. Hope he's doing well. Coping well too. Haiz.

Waiting for aidah to give me TPJC band's concert infor. Hahaz. On 5 August right? Yupp. Hahaz. After which I gotta pei Kris go St Pats concert. On the 14 August. My O level EL oral is on the 16. Ohhh fark. I know i'm not prepared. Damn it. Never mind. Stay back ask mrs mah for help bax. I guess that's watt I can do now. =X

Hmm. don't know watt to say le. Okiee laa. Gotta go do my E-Maths TYS le. Take care peoples.

dear's mom bdae.

Heyy! Back here le. Hahaz. TODAY IS DEAR'S MOTHER'S BIRTHDAY!! Hahaz. Hapii 46th birthday auntie!

Yuppie. Yeshh. One more 'O' level paper cleared! Hahaz. CL listening. Hmm. After all. Everything goes well. Hahaz. Hopefully can score a full mark for this section. Heheez. Checked my answers with my teacher. Only one question different from hers. Hmm. But I still think mine is the correct one! Hahaz. =P Yupp.

Last night can't sleep also. Ended upp sleeping at 3:30am. *diaoz*. Hahaz. Talked to dear also. Ohhh goshh! I'm so damn farking pissed off with dear!!! Ass (kidding). He watched initial D with his friends. Asshole! If I knew who his friends was. I'm really gonna curse them upside down man! stupid dear! But he promised to watch movie with mii one day. Yeah. ONE fine DAY! ('_')

So sad today! Trevor made mii fall off the chair. it's like watt the hell. it's not because i'll embarrassed in front of the students. I don't give a damn to this. But I injured my elbow! Though it's just a scratch. But it hurts! Haiz. I told dear just now. Dear was so pissed off. He say he wanna find Trevor. Ohhh goshh. How? But I told dear Trevor apologized. But will dear not find him? (hopefully he don't). Haiz.

Today went to spoke to ms shek regarding dear studies thingy. Coz dear seems to be very worried about this issue. So was thinking of helping him to talk to ms shek. See how the situation is now. stupid penguin (principal) wasn't in school for the past few days. Then ms shek can't talk to her about dear. I pray that nothing goes wrong!! Age shouldn't be a problem bax. I hope dear can go back and study. If not he's really gonna give upp hope on studying le. Haiz. God ahh god. Please give him the chance to alter his mistakes. Hmm. i'll just have to wait for ms shek to tell mii the details again bax. Hahaz. =P

Hahaz. Haiz. Gotta finish upp my E-Maths TYS. Unit 1-3 by this weekend man! next Wednesday is timed-test le. I don't wanna fail ahh. Yaa. Ohhh goshh. Today mrs mah talked about our prelim's oral. i'm so dishearten. With my performance. Haiz. I screwed my conversation. Watt is my problem?? Haiz. Forget it. No use crying over spilled milk.

I have to meet dear early in the morning this Sunday. Pei him go changkat. Got CO performance. Like so the first time hear mii say will pei him go changkat ahh? First time in my life I go there man! hahaz. For dear's sake. Yupp. Then after that go ECP with him. Then leaving in the afternoon for botanic garden. Hahaz. Top ten school bands. Cool yeah? If one day BDS band made it to top ten. I think i'll be the first one landed in hospital. (happi until I faint! Coz can't believe my ears!). Heheez.

Okiee laa. Wanna do my works le. Update again bax. Take care peoples! Miss youu guys lots. Hahaz.

back-ed.

finally! Back from school le. So tired! I'm sooo sleepy! can't get to sleep last night. Haiz. Then talk to dear til 2 plus. Then finally sleep at 2:30am. I think. Hahaz.

Yesterday went to band. Which I'm not suppose to be going anymore. But somehow. I miss band. So go back lolz. Hahaz. =P. *stubborn!* Heheez. Haiz. Yesterday told dear he no need to quit smoking le. it's not because I don't care. Coz I know I can't stop him. he's addicted to it. The more I want him to stop. I guess. he'll lie to mii even more. I don't want him to lie to mii. I feel absolutely hurt when he lied to mii. Haiz. I know i'm taking a risk here by doing this. Coz I know if mommy found out. i'll lose him. Completely. Which I don't want. i've told him how I feels towards this issue. Just hope that he'll think through himself bax. Coz I really don't wanna lose just like that. =(

Nah. don't talk about this le. Just pray hard he knows what's really good for him bax. I don't wanna hear him telling mii he regretted again. Hahaz. I had prelim English oral yesterday. Read aloud was okiee. But when it come to conversation and picture discussion. I screwed them. Fark! So pissed off with myself man! watt am I doing? Watt was I doing? Damn it! Never mind. it's over le. *cool*. Yupp. Err. Watt else to say?

Ohhh. Nearly forgot. Wilson's birthday coming!! Hahaz. 18 July! Heheez. Hmm. NCO pplz say wanna celebrate for him on this coming Sunday when we go for the band fiesta. Hahaz. Watt should I get for him? Necklace? Wrist band? Hahaz. Watt nonsense! Heheez. don't know laa. Tmr den think of watt to buy laa. Ohhh yaa! Tmr is dear's mom's birthday!!!!!! Should pay her a visit yeah? Hahaz. Buy fruits for her? Hahaz. Later kena scold again! Last time bought her fruits. Then scold mii waste money. Haiz. Hahaz. Nvm laa. Tmr buy her fruits laa. Hahaz. =D

Err. I'm sooo damn bloody stressed upp and fark upp recently lolz. Haiz. Also don't know how to say lehz. Maybe I'm unlucky bax. Hahaz. Take it as I am. Yaa. I am. Yeshh. I am. Hahaz. Ohhh goshh. Watt am I doing? Something is missing. Hahaz. Yaa. My DEAR!!! Heheez. Ohhh goshh. Watts happening here lolz. CheeSim, stop watt you're doing now! hahaz. *siao le*

Hmm. Okiee laa. Crapping for quite some time le. Gotta go le. Take care pplz. Wish mii luck for tmr's listening comprehension okiee? Hahaz. Miss you guys. =P

hellloz

Hello! Back here again. Hahaz. Hmm. Yuppie. Heheez. today's feeling. Kinda not very happi. Haiz. How should I putt it? Hmm. don't know lehz. Aiyaa. Nvm laa.

Err. Having my MT listening comprehension this Friday. Haiz. Hopefully can score high for this section bax. Yaa. Hahaz. (trying to cheer myself upp!). yaa. Hmm. So sianz. can't go band le. Haiz. Mr. Roskhaider say if I wanna visit band can. But not playing with the band. So sad. Haiz. Watt he wants? I love band maa! Hahaz. So sorry banditx. can't hang out with you guys so much le. Sorry wor. =X. Heheez.

Ohh damn it. Like watt the fark today lolz. Forgot to bring school tie. Then kena punished. Arrange the tables and chairs for oral in the hall. Damn it. Hit my leggie some more. Watt the hell lolz. Damn it. First time never bring only. Fark laa.

Haiz. I MISS MY DEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like so long never see him. Yaa. 2days le. Haiz. Damn sick of this man! miss him but cannot go find him. Haiz. I just hope Os can end earlier! The last time I saw him was on Sunday man! Haiz. Yaa. Edmond sent mii home that day. Then dear followed. Yaa. Then. Err. He came to visit my mommy. Heheez. Then told my mom he's going back to study next year. Then mommy say GOOD! Hahaz. =P. yaa. He told mommy he regretted not studying. Then hmm. Yaa. Mommy asks him to study hard. Hahaz.

Yesterday helped dear spoke to ms shek. Asked her to call him to talk to him. Guess watt? Today when I ask her if she has called him. I kena scolded!!!! So lame lolz. She ask mii to study hard. No need to care about this. I'm like. he's like my who lolz? Of course I will be concern about how the things is like maa. Haiz. Kena scold for nothing sia. Nvm laa. In the end I still pester her until she tell mii. Heheez. She say dear told her he realize the importance of certificates. Ohhh goshh! Dear actually said that? Last time when I tell him. he's like ' no lehz. No need certs also can survive one lolz. ' totally change in attitude man. but it's a good thing laa. Heheez. Thank god that he actually thought of it this way. Dear told mii that day he wanna go NAFA. To study music. But I told him there's no need to go NAFA or LaSalle de. Coz Poly also offers music courses. Yupp. So far I know NYP and SP. Offer? Hahaz. Therefore, I actually aim for these two poly laa. Hahaz. Yupp. SP band very good lolz. Hahaz. Yaa. NYP. Hmm. Its near my house laa. But I don't quite like. Hahaz. Coz if I go SP. I can take life sciences or business courses. And most of all. I CAN JOIN BAND!!!!! Hahaz. So happi when I mention band yeah? Yeshh. Hahaz. Haiz.

Listening to ' Fate of the Gods ' now. Kris. I MISS YOU le. All our duets!! Haiz. When can you sit beside mii again? When can we have our duets again? Haiz. Sobs. Wonder how are you. Must keep mii updated about you okiee? My darling. Heheez. Take care hor. Your darling not by your side ahh. Hahaz. =P

Hmm. Feel like going to ECP now. Yesterday quarrel with mommy. Coz I went to Jaz's house to study til very late then reach home. She not happi. Scold mii. Then anyhow accuse mi. say I give her excuses. Damn her. Tell her the truth oso say mii. Piss mi off nia. Na beh. Sianz lolz. Yesterday never talk to her. Fark care laa. can't be bothered now. wasn't feeling happi today. All coz of her!! I mean. Though I love her. But that doesn't give her any rights to scold mii as and when she feels like. Ass. Hmphh. -_-''''

Haiz. Dono watt else to say about my life man. so many ups and downs. Especially after I met dear. My life seems to have lots more burdens. Also through him. I realize watt true love really is and watt is life all about. Definitely, watt is happi all about. Towards him. I have tons and tons of loves and hates. I love him for being so sweet towards mii. Nevertheless, I hate him for making mii love him sooo much. Hahaz. (Like so confusing yeah? Yaa. it's merely I love him. Heheez.). I hate him for always telling mii how much he needs mii. How much he wants mii. How much he loves mii. Coz all these made me can't bear to leave him for the second time. I love him when he is scared of my mommy! When he visits my grandma. When he gave me my favourite blue roses on Valentine's Day. When he took his time to spend with me on my birthday. When he actually remembers our first time holding hand. When he remembers I love dolphin. When he know how to make me smile when I'm feeling sad. (of course not when I quarrel with him). Hahaz. Towards him. Other than loves and hates. Watt else can I have right? Heheez. that's why he's the most important man in my life now. hahaz. That day at ECP. Nothing to do. We were sitting outside rollerline. Then he suddenly tell mi next time our first child name 'simyu'. The next one name 'zhanzi'. Then I was like 'diaoz'. Hahaz. Then I tell him 'simyu' is alright. However, 'zhanzi' don sound nice lolz. Then both of us started laughing. Kinda stupid but cute laa. Hahaz. Watt a cute topic of the day. Heheez. =P

Hmm. Kinda misses my primary schools friends le. Wonder if they're going back for teachers' day. Hmm. Doubt most of them going back bax. Got time also will study for Os de lolz. Haiz. Miss my god-ma so much. Miss Tan Eng Cher! Wonder if she's married. Hahaz. haven't been going back man. =X. hopefully we'll another gathering again lolz. Hahaz.

Hmm. Yaa. that's about all for today bax. Once again. Same old words. Pplz. Take care!! Hahaz. Miss you guys. Lurbe you guys lots. Hahaz.

hahaz. backed

Today is Nicole's bdae. Nicole is one of my dearest mei mei. God-sister. Hahaz. She's pretty. Cutes. Hilarious. Friendly. Outgoing. Kind. Hahaz. Yupp. Just a brief introduction about her. Hahaz.

Hmm. I cant celebrate her bdae with her today. Must do my homework. Then can't go out. So sad. Hmm. Just hope she will have a wonderful day bax. God bless her. =P. hahaz. I hope she will stay hapii always. Recently she lost her hp. I think she must be very upset bax. Cheer upp dude. Heheez. Yupp. Hope she will be hapii.

Hmm. Now slacking here. Later gotta Cheong all the works le. If not tmr I die ahh. Now listening to 'say it isn't so'. Miss someone now. Wonder how is he. Somehow, this song brings mi memories of him. Haiz. Well. That's the past le. Hope he's doing well. Sometimes I wonder. Without dear. Watt will happen to mi and him? Hmm. Hahaz. Just a dream. It's a fact that i've got dear now. yaa. It is a dream. A normal dream that anyone would have. =). Yupp. Now listening to the CD he burned for mi. hmm. 'All or nothing'. Yupp. Haiz.

Now that i've got dear. I think I should not think of him so often. I mean. Recall our past. Haiz. Yaa. Shouldn't le. Can onli miss my dear. Think of my dear. Haiz. Hahaz. Okiee. Let mi stop this 'sad' feeling bax. Hahaz. Heyy. Now listening to 'right here waiting'. Memories of mi and dear. Listen to this song really reminds mi of dear. Hahaz. I once asked dear 'is there any song will reminds you of mi when you listen to it?' guess watt? He said 'Right Here Waiting'. He then ask mi the same question. And I say 'same'. Hahaz. So coincidental. Hmm. Like so sweet ahh? Hahaz. Kidding laa. Yaa. Hahaz. But in fact we are sweet laa. Without quarrel. Heheez.

Hmm. Going to ecp tmr. Find dear. Miss him so much. But next week might not be going. Coz wanna go botanic garden. Watch catholic high symphonic band's performance. Hahaz. See how laa. Heheez. I scared later see my NCO frenz there then dear will be unhapi. Hmm. Yaa. But I bet my NCO frenz sure will be there de lolz. Since when I never see them at concert or anything that involves band de? Haiz. Nvm laa. If I don go den wish Ze Yi all the best lolz. But if I tel Kris about this. I think she will want mi to go with her de lolz. Coz of 'Edison'. Hahaz. I doubt she has forgotten him yeah? Hahaz. Hmm. See how bax.

Okiee laa. Crap a lot le. Update again. Meanwhile. All my dearest frenz. Pls take care. Stay hapii always okiee? Lurbe you guys so much. But of coz. The precious guy in my life must take care oso. I don't know if he'll visit my blog. But I still want him to take care. I love you dear!

hellos. back here.

hahaz. Back from band le. Heheez. =P hmm. Yupp.

Hmm. Yesterday dear tell mi he wants to study again. What a sudden decision. Yuppie. Very some more. Hahaz. Yaa. don't know him lehz. Out of a sudden tell mi that. Haiz. BUT. I'm hapii that he actually wants to continue his study laa. I mean. that's what I hope he can do laa. All along. 'cause I don't want him to regret next time. Though last time coz of this we quarreled a lot. But im glad he has straighten out his thinking. =D I just wanna wish him all the best and will support him for whatever he wants to do. Of coz. Help him when he needs help. Kekeke. I hope he can pass his N level with flying colours and can then proceed to Sec.5 for O level. I hope he will really put in his heart and soul to do his best coz he's actually a smart guy. If he's willing to work hard. He can make it to the top de. I have lots of faith in him. I know he can. If he wants! Heheez.

Today heard from ke wei that mr. Boo talked about dear in CO. kinda weird. Haiz. don't know how to say. I kinda find him somehow make use of dear in a way or another. Anyway. Just assumption. But if he bully my dear. I don't even care if he's the conductor or what. i'll just scream or shout at him. Nobody can bully my dear. he's my life! Hahaz. To those CO members who read my blog. Im not referring to you all. Im talking mr.boo. to prevent misunderstanding. Just now dear told mi he told mr. boo that he've decided to go back to study next year. Then dear was thinking of going back to help him with the last time for the next SYF. Haiz. If not coz he's my dear. I think I can't be bothered to know how CO is doing now. coz I don't want him to go back and is being looked down at. As if he's an extra. I just hope CO people will treat him better. he's the best suona player i've ever came across. Hahaz. First time hear mi praise CO player hor? Hahaz. My dear only. Heheez. I like to listen to his playing. Hahaz. =D anyway, wish him all the best. Good luck. Hahaz.

Though I sounded as if im very fang xin to let him go back to BDS to study. But somehow. Im worried. Im afraid he'll be influenced. Im afraid his determination is not strong. Haiz. He can be easily influenced when no one is there to guide him. I won't be in BDS next year. Im gonna be in another institute. Must be there. Wondering how's my bao Bei doing at the other institute. Hahaz. Maybe go back as an instructor of the band. But not gonna study there. I can't see how is he. I don't know whether he's fine or not. I don't know whether anyone bully him or not. (but I doubt people will bully him laa. Hor? Hahaz.) but still. My heart is worry about him. Can ease myself man! Haiz. Am I over concern? Am I overprotective? don't know lehz. I don't him to be hurt. I want him to be fine. Very very fine! =P. hahaz. Hmm. *laughing here but heart keep asking myself how?* hmm. I haven't tell mommy about this. Wonder what's her reaction sia. Hahaz. Is it gonna be like 'ohhh izzit?' or 'huh?' or 'so?' or 'what has it gotta do with mi?' -_-'' dono lehz. Hahaz. But I sure hope for a positive one. =P

Hmm. Recently trying hard to catch upp with all the works that I've missed out. I mean. Those im not very sure de. Yupp. Today ms loo spoke to mi during morning assembly. Ask mi to change my negative mentality towards studies. Haiz. Dono how to tell her. I felt so demoralized after my mid year result. Everything I do seems to be redundant. So hurt. So sad. And she brought upp the issue about mi and qianhui quarrel that time. Haiz. I can't stand teachers like that man! I mean. I know she cares laa. But she's like talking to mi in such a farking attitude until Im indifferent! Ohhh goshh. Watt a good counselor? Hahaz. I hate counselor! I find counselor madd. And kepo! Yaa. Very! Jiak ba bo sai pang. Kepo people's stuffs.

Hmm. Today went for band. Hmm. Okiee laa. Step down le. Hahaz. But I will still visit band laa. I mean. I don't give a damn to watt ms shek's gonna do to mi. bar mi from exams? Suspend mi? hahaz. Den mommy will call school le. Hahaz. Hmm. Watt else happened? Yaa. I change my blog's song. Change to ''my happy ending'' hahaz. Nice? Heheez. Finally know how to put the song into my blog. Hahaz. Anyway. Gotta thanks Iskandar for this. Hahaz.

Hmm. Yaa. I wanna organize alumni BBQ in September holidays. Gathering for the alumni. But of can't be I pay alone laa. Im broke le. I need someone else to chip in with mi. '_'. Yaa. Anyone willing? Hahaz. I mean alumni laa. Heheez. Feel like setting upp alumni association oso. Den alumni won't forget each other. Hahaz. =P err. Dono watt else to write le lehz.

Hmm. I miss my NCO frenz. But dear don like it when I hang out with them. he'll get jealous. Haiz. So im trying hard not to always hang out with them. Hahaz. Had a joke with dear last night. Was like making fun of him. Saying that if he not going NS next year den I not fun le. Hahaz. Joking of coz. Hmm. Haiz. Dono lehz. Feeling so fan. So many works to complete by tmr! English. Add Maths. E Maths. Gotta study geography. Haiz. Im going crazy le. I need a break. I need to relax my mind. Haiz. Hmm. Okiee laa. I tired le. Night pplz. Take care! Hahaz.

hihi. better le. heheez.

hello! back here le. hahaz. hmm. mi & dear okiee le. heheez. so hapi!!!!!!! hahahahahahhahahahahaha!!!!

yuppie. mi & dear okiee le. so hapii yeah? :p so long nv feel sooo hapii. for the past (jazren here!!!) week have been so sad. hardly get to slp properly. haiz. hahaz. but now okiee le i oso very happi. heheez. feeling so high! hahaz.

recenly maria msg mi. coz of watt i've said in the last post. hahaz. hmm. As tagged on the board laa. hahaz. have been talking to her these few days. hahaz. hmm. dono watt to say lehz. now at trevor's house. gonna meet abaish lata. wanna look for Nicole's bdae present. hahaz. Jaz is juz rite beside mi! hahaz. hmm. dono watt to get for Nic lehz.hmm. juz hope to buy her something that she doesn't have before. hahaz. haiz. dono lehz. hahaz.heheez. mi & dear's anniversary oso. dono watt to buy for him lehz. but i trying to find the skate pendal for him. the one like stella de. coz he say he likes. so was thinking of finding him one. but cannot find lehz. went to so many shops. all the jewellery shops. still don have lehz. den tot of customizing. but expensive sia. $350 lehz. haiz. :x nvm. hahaz. pendal next tym den buy. now tink of other things first. hmm. watt should i buy lehzz? hahaz. dono. heheez. *i miss my dear!*. =D

hahaz. dono watt to write le lehz. hmm. update agn lolz. now wanna edit my template. heheez. take care pplz.

haiz.. still no progress.

today back here. Feeling sad oso. Miss dear so much.

Haiz. i've tot thru the whole day. Feeling guilty & sad. Last night. Due to impulsiveness. Nearly ended tis love tat we had for 3yrs. After giving a serious thought. I've finally come to a conclusion. Tat i'll stay by dear's side to give him all my support. Recently he's trying very hard to quit smoking for my sake. he's feeling very terrible. I saw it myself last night while sending him home. & yet when I did not know anything. I threw tantrum at him over Maria's msg. coz im over sensitive. Sorry Maria. I tried my best to treat u lyk my fren. But each tym I see u. it reminds mi of the past. & regarding u wanting to work in rollerline. Though I have no say over it. But I kinda don feel comfortable. Sorry for my straightforwardness. I just cant ease myself from all these worries. I really try my best to make u my fren. But I seems to be having some guards towards u. sorry. I think I need time.

Today. Tried to talk things out with dear. Coz I really feels very terrible always quarreling with him over Wilson.. Jaryl.. & Maria. All is coz of jealousy & sensitiveness. Ohh goshh. I feel so sad. All the way to the floor of the earth. I don wanna end tis relationship. For I wan it anyone else. I don wanna let him go. For I need him more than anyone else. I wan him to be happy. For he's my love. I just hope all these can end earlier before it even started to affect my studies & affect dear's work. He hasn't been sleeping recently. All because of mi. I feel guilty. Coz he cant do his things well & right. Bao Bei. Sorry. I know he needs mi the most now. so I cant leave him just lyk tat. Dear. I once promised I won't leave u agn. Means I won't le. i'll walk through tis period of time with u. show u more care & concern. Be more nice to u. Haiz. Ytd see him feels so terrible. I feel so bad. Haiz.

Hmm. Okiee laa. I update agn. Take care pplz.

haiz.. sad week man!

hello! Back here agn. Yaa. Back here le. But somehow. Feeling dinn change much. I tot I would be happier by den. But still. Seems no progress. Haiz. Tmr is Qianhui & Jun Feng's anniversary. Congrats them in advance bax.

Today pei qianhui go buy present for Jun Feng for their anniversary. Went to bugis junction. Den she wans to buy couples ring. Lyk dear & mine. But cant afford. So we went round looking for other things first. But still. She prefers couples ring. Den she tott PS there might have cheaper rings. So we went there. But no. cheapest is $42. bugis's cheapest is $38. Haiz. But she juz buy the one at PS lolz. Aft tatt I go ecp find dear. Den she go mit Jun Feng. Den at ecp slack. Den quarrel with dear agn. Over soon very sensitive stuffs. Don wish to say. Haiz. I cried. Den I go beach alone. Cry my heart out before I go back to rollerline. CK came. To console mi. thanks for tatt. Aft tatt I go back to rollerline le. Wore my glasses. Coz scared they know I cried. Den. Nv talk to dear. Lyk as usual. Aft tat go home together. He walk damn fast. I cant catch upp wif him. Den. Onli at bus stop den get to talk to him. Send him home. *some private conversation on the bus. Don wanna reveal.* den. Feels better aft seeing him go home. Aft I go home le. Reach home called dear. Talk to him a while. Den now here I am. Typing in blog lolz. Haiz.

Boa Bei. Sorry. & I love you!

Okiee laa. I gotta slp earlier tonight. Coz tmr gotta study. Take care ppl.

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today is the last day of june. Yupp. Last day le. Haiz. Recall all the tym I spent on doing things. Majority seems to be useless de. Yaa. Haiz.

Recently quarrel with dear. Don seems to be hapi aft tat. Have been down for a few days. Yaa. I'm feeling sad. As for reason. I don wish to say. Kinda P&C bax. Yaa. Hmm. Have been trying to do my best in everything this week. Today is staying upp til quite late to complete my EL assignments. it's lyk. Damn lot! Haiz. All compre & summary. Den gotta do writing. Etc. hmm. Anything happened recently? Don tink so. Have been a good gal this week. Go home aft sch. But Wednesday went for band. Hmm. Was fun. Coz 'timpani' nv come. Hahaz. I tink band room is the only place I can go when i'm down. Sad. Feel lyk crying bax. Yupp. I love band room! I love band!

hmm. for the whole week. i haven been smiling much. i hope to smile more. dear. i noe the reason is u. but i kept quiet. i shall see watt u're gonna do next. dear. i miss u. but now. im sad. coz of u. Haiz. new term. new start. i learnt something from Mr. Edward. "BEGIN WITH AN END IN MIND". watt a gd phrase to be used. yupp. tis whole week. i noe im moody. but i hope my frenz won't hold it against mi. sry guys. haiz. hmm. mi & qianhui. seems to be okiee. hopefully bax. dinn ask her abt the ms loo thingy. don wish to worsen things. juz hope everything goes well.

Haiz. Okiee laa. I don wanna write le. Got tym write agn. Take care pplz. Miss u guys!