one day!

and it'll be my birthday. =]=]=]=]=]

today is wilson's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILSON! (:

thank you those who wished me an advance birthday. (: thanks for remembering.. hahas. much appreciated.

okays. went to watch movie with my friends today.. ' doomsday ' yupps. the storyline is okay lahhs. but i like the female lead. so cool...

rate : 3/5.

hahas. not bad..

okays. i wanna sleep early today.. (:

Loyang Tau Pek Gong.

just reached about an hour ago from loyang.. went there with jaslyn and leon.. went to pray and help my family to pray also. before that was at chong pang with jaslyn, leon and DM. then the sudden thought of going to loyang.. so after sending DM to admiralty, we went to loyang.. was there for about an hour.. then leon send me home.. yupps. took the ping an fu for baby boy and my family.. just hope he don't vomit and cry so much already. :( see him like that i heartache sia.. :( hais..

my birthday is just 2 days away.. and i'm 20.. hahas. (: yayy! next year is 21. and i can have my golden keys.. =] hehees.. LOL. hahahahaahahahahahahaha.

had a chat with chloe today on msn.. she seems to be still feeling very down from her break up. just hope she'll be better soon. well, actually i'm in no position to tell her anything. because my relationship wise is not even stable. but well.. just hope she'll be fine.. asked her out to join me for supper actually. but she say she's full.. and was telling me maybe on my birthday.. told her about the possibility of going to double o for chilling session. then asked her along.. she say see how.. well.. wait till thursday bahhs. yupps. hmm.. most probably will be watching the movie, IRON MAN with the skaters on thursday bahhs. hahas. still thinking where to have dinner eys.. hais.. hmm.. hahas.

omg.. i'm so in love with songs by Secondhand Serenade lahhs! (:(:(: their songs are so nice. lyrics very meaningful.. DM say i'm the sentimental kind that's why i'll like.. -.- lol.. hahas. but well.. i'm a girl wadd. -.- idiot. hahas. (: I KILL YOU! >.< hahahas.

okays lahhs i wanna sleep early tonight. (: so i'm gonna post some photos first.. (: photos of my baby boy!!! (: gonna miss him so so much since he's going back already.. :( sad sia... :( sobs sobs..















this is the elder brother of my baby boy.. (:


amy and kat. vivian's birthday celebration at east coast hub. =]


oops. end up still have my photoss. =x

facebook. LOL.

i shall let pictures speaks k? (: tsktsk.

BBQ at DM's place.

firstly, thank you those who came. really appreciate it a lot. (:

those who didn't turn up, i'm sad.. but i understand that everyone of you have your own reasons.. so it's okay.. (:

i had fun and i enjoyed myself.. thank you.. (:

thank you pris.. you have been tossing here and there for me the past two days. troubled i'm sorry. but thanks for everything. i love the present you guys gave me. makes me feel like a princess. really. (: love the present! i know you love me too! anyways, good luck to your first day of work! (:

thanks leon, troubled you too. thanks for the big present you gave me. thank you so much. (:

michael.. thanks for lending your place to me.. hahaas. really appreciate it.. (: and thanks your mom for the present too. (: biggest bunny i ever had. (:

thanks denise and quimei for the present.. (: hahas.

omg. i wanna put pictures of my pressiesssss. wanna show you all..

okay lahhs. after i got my photos then i post.. (:

when you look me in the eyes..

JONAS BROTHERS LYRICS

"When You Look Me In The Eyes"

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

fell in love with this song. so much. yeah.. haven't been blogging. sorry.. don't have much to talk about. and don't know what to say..

anyways, my cast's removed. there's still a bit of bruises.. but it's healing well.. (: don't worry people.. i'm dead remember? ha. nothing to worry about then.. yeah.. scar on my face.. well, it's okay.. though looks does matters to like, every girl.. but it's okay. i'm fine with it. (: most i be single forever. hahas. go and be nun. (: then sorry pris and eric.. you all will have no more god-children. hahas. =X

for the past two weeks i'm like, in my motherhood. -.- looking after a 2 months old baby.. and really love the baby so much. and i concluded something.. which, everyone agrees.. -I'M READY TO BE A MOM. hahas. - tsktsk. (: i just love babies so much. they're just so cute. but somehow they really brought me a lot of happiness. just by looking at them.. when they try to talk to you, when they keep wonder what's around them.. their expressions. all so adorable. (: babies are love!~

well, gonna have a be-early birthday bash at DM's place.. BBQ.. it's for seductive members though. but i invited some skaters along too. (: hahas. was thinking if wui boon still remembers my BBQ. told him long ago.. but oh well, call him tomorrow bahhs. (: thanks leon for having this BBQ as a birthday gift. really thank you very much.. hahas. (:

of course, i'm celebrating my actual birthday with the skaters. gonna go for a movie and dinner i guess. anyways my birthday is a public holiday.. everyone is free. hahas. i hope to spend this year's birthday with the skaters. (: last year spent it in club. with secondary schoolmates. this year have two different celebration.. i feel so lucky! kat is a lucky girl.. she's loved by all her friends, deeply. =] thank you everyone.. (: those who have been with me.. going through everything for the past 3 months.. billions of thank you..

kat is turning 20 in 4 days time.. and next year she'll be 21. gosh.. time flies. sians. getting older. -.- RAHH. i wanna be young can? hais..

okay lahhs. i shall update soon bahh. with more pictures~ (:


photos timeee..


my baby! (:





nissan - skyline r34



i, me, and myself. -princess-

i'm still dead.

yes. kat is dead. long time ago. lifeless. everything seems meaningless no more.

not getting any better. not thinking of anyone anymore. i'm serious. already let go of the one far away. since this is what the one from far away have been wanting. yes. i've let go. maybe it's unbelieveable. but well, i did.

yes, the one near by is coming back. not just one. it's like, so many of them and they're getting scary.. maybe what DM said is right. the power from pris's necklace is passing to me. -to be a queen and be loved by people. and to meet someone who really loves me.- well, maybe it's working on me. -.- getting too close until it affects me? -.- LOL. cool~

but one by one.. i'm rejecting. DM ask me to choose slowly. since there's so many of them.. just choose slowly. but i'm not the type who likes to give false hopes. ohh well.. see how things goes.. if really cannot then cannot. no point letting them wait. HAHA. so please, stop asking me if you stand a chance. if you do stand a chance i'll let you know, someday. hahahahaha. friends is good enough for now. (:

who say kat cannot find boyfriend? hahas. can lohh. (: just that i don't want one.. i feel that i'm not ready yet. before i get myself hurt again, i rather stay as who am i now. i don't ask for anything more. i just wanna be happy. and i'm happy now.. with my friends around me. and my friends AREN'T GANGSTERS! they may look fierce but they're nice people. so, to SOMEONE, STOP USING YOUR RETARTED BRAIN TO JUDGE MY FRIENDS. such a jack ass. stupid.

well.. leaving a simple life.. still on cast. the fucking cb doctor put back the cast for me. knn. actually take out already. then put back. idiot. i was like, scolding the medic and stuffs lahhs. want to cry lohh. i'm worry about my june's asia pacific comp. i want very much to go for that comp lohhs. :( well, i cried actually. for a while.. then i hold back my tears. hais.. somebody kill me please. i really don't want to miss my asia pacific.. :( hais....................................

kat's sad.. kat's down.. kat wanna cry.. kat wanna scream.. someone hug me tightly please.. let me cry out loud please.. let me your shoulder please.. skating was my life.. and i'm like, so far away from it. so near yet so far.. every friday i go down to east coast to see the skaters. but i can't skate. hais.. omg, so kat do have her weak side. hais.. i'm a girl afterall.. hahas. (:

okays.. i shall stop here. before i gets more emo..

all or nothing.

confused.

i'm just so confused now. why must this always happen to me? why must whenever i try to let go of someone, that person will start to linger around me and make me feel so terrible and difficult? why must he make things so hard for me? why do this to me? if you want to end it, make it a clear one.

i cut off all forms of contacts with you since that day. then just stay as that day. why come to me and tell me you're not hiding anymore? why tell me all sorts of things? don't confused my feelings. i'm confused enough. and too much heartaches. i don't want to be hurt anymore. i had enough. enough of all the shits a relationship needs to go through. i don't have so much tolerance and patience anymore. enough of all the distrusts and disbelieves. enough is enough. i don't have anymore energy to fight anymore. i don't have the energy to continue anymore. feel so terrible.
all or nothing. yes. all or nothing. i can give nothing. relationship is about giving it all or nothing. not hanging half way. it's either ALL or NOTHING. i can give nothing. i'm not ready for anything. i just want to be the little princess of my life. nothing else. i had enough. i used to fork out all of my heart but i got too much disappointment. enough of disappointments.. enough of heartaches. UNTIL YOU ARE SURE YOU WON'T HURT ME ANYMORE, IF NOT DON'T EVER COME TO ME!

feeling down.. really down.. want to cry, but my tears are dried up. want to scream, but my mouth is not moving. just wanna be quiet. that's all.......

all or nothing..

updateeesss.

here to update cause someone said i didn't update my blog also when i ask him to. RAHH!

recently, had the rookie competition last sunday. the results were craps. -.- suckie. never mind.. june's asia pacific cup, is now my aim. but before that i need to let my ankle recover first. yeah yeah.. (:

recefnlt didn't have much programmes. have been meeting up with DM, pris, eric and jaslyn.. lunch and dinner.. HAHAS. it's LUNCH AND DINNER K! not breakfast and supper anymore. hahas. (: then DM and pris have been skating every friday. (: so nice of them.. trying to blend in with the skaters. just hope the skaters wouldn't mind so much and welcome them though. hahas.

today went to appointment with pris and eric. thanks guys for accompany me! (: hahas. after check up went to bugis. had swensen as branch.. then went to get my baby-G watch! (: have been wanting to get one so badly since last time. (: hahas. then went to bugis village to get my hoodies. hahas. (: shop around and stuffs. hahas. cool~ hope my love love's love life will be good. (:

have been sleeping very early recenly.. yeah.. good right?

OKAY I GOTTA GO.. DINNER TIME!~~~~~