VERY VERY MUCH, BLESSED. :D

SERIOUSLY, I FEEL SO LOVED, PAMPERED AND BLESSED. (:

I shall let the photos speak first. (:

Thank you Jaslyn ( The One In Purple Tee ) for organizing this steamboat with the skaters and Happy Birthday to Vivian and Andrew too! ^.^

My very funny, sporty people. :D

Ex Hubby. Been ages since we took photo together. Oh by the way, HE'S MY GOD-BROTHER. (:

Skater girls FTW!

Me.Andrew.Vivian. Birthday Boy and Girls. 3 Taurus!

Thank you Lynn and Xiaozhu! (: love this bracelet! :D Favourite Colour, Both Gold and Pink. And my very lovely blink blink! ^.^

Thank you Vivian! :D

Last BUT NOT LEAST,
Thank you Sharon, Eric, Francis, Kenneth, Alex and Vernon! (:

See what I mean? I've already received so much love from so many people even before my birthday. (: And there's a lot more coming my way! Dinner with Secondary School mates, dinner with bestie, dinner with so many many many lovely people. And I just can't get enough of them! Love them so so so much. (:

And today, colleagues are gonna have birthday luncheon with me and at night, dinner. (: I can't wait for everything! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Enjoying life much? Am LOVING IT MUCH!

Thank you everyone. (:
You Made My Day. :D

 

P/S: To the moron who tried to bring me down yesterday, LOOK AT MY LIFE! You will NEVER have all these. And just this, I WON YOU BY FAR. I shall give you a quote ;

To win yourself, use your brain. To win others, use your heart.

But I doubt you're gonna win anything cause you don't have either. You're just a selfish jerk. (:

Ex-Hubby.

SHAWN TING (: !

Admit it, I know we're cute.  HAHA. :D
And I know it too. BLEAHS! ^.^

He's always been there to cheer me up, like even when I was having my very down times.
Thank you Shawn. :D

 

GIVE ME WINGSSSS. :D

Yes! I'm craving for this right now!!!! ^.^

And as for my birthday's wish-list.
It's quite unachieveable.

1. New Notebook.
2. 999 Blue Roses.
3. Underwater Camera!
4. Chanel's  Chance Perfume.
5. Ralph Lauren's Romance.
6. New Bag. :|

Okay. Carry on dreaming, kat. ):

Things Will Never Be The Same, Even Though You're Still You & I'm Still Me.

I had this very sweet dedication from Serena on Facebook as a tagged note and here I am, wanting to share with you all. (:

Moving on is similar to healing a wound.

The wound is the heartbreak and in order to get it healed, you got to move on.
If wounds have medications, so do heartbreaks.
But this medication usually causes another future wound; We call this medication "new love".

Guys treat girls like tissues, they use and crumple us up then throw us out like we're nothing.

With all these lies, it leads to endless cries, and ends up with sad goodbyes.

You can never let go of the feelings; But you need to let go of him.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Sometimes, in your life you wish for everything.
Then suddenly, there comes a moment when you stop wishing.
It's not because you got what you wanted, but you finally accepted that not all wishes come true.

The truth is, we keep on doing and end up hurt by the same things over and over again.

A heartbreak is not always as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a falling feather, and the most painful thing is that no one really hears it except you.

I know I'm better off without that person,
yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go.
But I guess emptiness is better than constant hurt, right?

 

And here's a big FUCK YOU.
To the calls I waited for,
The dates I hoped for,
The love I wanted,
The tears I cried;
and for the heart you broke.
Asshole.

I hope someday you'll realise what a fool you were to let someone like me slip from your grip and that you'll see that the one you've been looking for was the one whom set you free.

I Loved You.
P/s: Take note, it's past tense.

There’s always going to be those 4 different guys in your life:

Guy #1: YOUR BEST FRIEND.
He’s there for you, always. He would never let you down, cares about you, comforts you when you’re down, protects you when you’re put down. He would never betray you. Keep him.

Guy #2: THE PLAYER.
You can’t help but to fall for him. He seems to do everything right, so you think you love him. In the end, you find out he played you, lied to you, used you, and probably didn’t really even care about you. Forget him.

Guy #3: THE ENEMY.
The one who would do anything just to bring you down. He’ll humiliate you, judge you, and embarrass you, anything he can do just to make you feel smaller than what you are. Ignore him.

Guy #4: YOUR SOULMATE.
He tells you how it is, even if you don’t want to hear the truth. He’ll hold you, kiss you, protect you, and love you no matter what. You can talk to him about anything. He’ll see you at your worst and still think you’re beautiful. He’s there for you no matter what. Love him.

Life can never promise you to be always happy, but life gets better after you accept things you just can't change.

This is why I like the whole idea of “forget regret”
When it's over, it's over. Simple as that.

 

 

And yet, most of the time, it is Pride that ruins everything.

 

Don't you play with my heart taking it for a rollercoaster ride.

And oh well, that's Life.

 

A very nicely done dedication from her.
Speak my heart.

And all I want to see in your eyes is just, happiness from now on. (:
Take care.
Xoxo.

Snow Flakes.

They say ' Time is the best medicine. ', but to me it's not just the time, it's the people, the company, the things we did and had so as to lighten the heavy heart. (:

So Thank You. :D
To whoever was there all the while. ^.^

Yeap, had a nice weekend Ice Skating. Heh. Hmm, DON'T question me about the photos.
It's a pity that Kenneth didn't make it cause it was funny to see how Francis was being brave and trying to learn Cross Over on his first lesson.
Funny to see Alex skating like a little duckling.
Funny to see Eric struggling yet trying so hard to be on his own. (: Thank you.

Most of all, glad to see the smile on Sharon Darling's face. :D

We met 3pm, supposedly but as I expected, I WILL BE LATE. =X Haha so everyone was late.
I'm supposed to meet Eric at 2:30pm at Bishan Station, ended up I message him at 2:24pm ' I tell you a secret. I just left my house. ' HAHAHAHAHAHA. Yeah and so he waited for me at the Station for 15 mins. =X Sorry! Told you I always take my own sweet time! =\
But thank you for waiting patiently. (: Heh. >.<

So we reach Stadium close to 3:20pm and settled our lunch at KFC. After that was killing time at Arcade while waiting for Francis that Kukubird to reach. -.- Haha. Went in the Ice Rink at close to 6pm then it was hilarious at first. Really very priceless looks on Francis and Eric. HAHAHA. More to come.  (: After that we're gonna go for inline. (: Heh. Eric, you better get ready to FALL. >.< Bleahs!

After we left the rink at 8pm, went to eat at KouFu. And we're there for two freaking hours talking. HAHAHAHA. Then had more talking and we went home. LOL. Went back together with Eric and as we were going down the escalator, we both was like ' Walao, here like ariport. ' -.- And I was complaining about that's where all our taxes, GST etc go to. -.- And they built a freaking MRT Station that doesn't have seats!!!!!!!! HORRIBLE. -.-

I was home pretty late. Then Keith came to pick me up for supper at 925's Prawn Mee together with Xeathor. Had a good chat with them and home at 3am. Haha. (:

Good weekend, simple and nice. (:

Revealed.

"Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out, I just didn't know what to do."

Sometimes.

"Being too simple minded is not a good idea."

FUCK YOU.

"Fuck off with your self-created stories about me to my friends and causing the separated groups, KNNCCB. YES, YOU."

To The New Beginning! :D

I think I seriously have a lot of great friends. And for that, I thank god. (: Love all my friends, to bit and pieces. :D
Not forgetting my naughty, mischievous, nonsense, excellent and cool Queen. (: I love me mama. (:

Okay, today I'm going Ice Skating! HAHA. Not with skaters, but with colleagues. (:
Hope it's gonna be a good day though i sucks on ice. -.-
Meeting them 3pm at Kallang Leisure Park. But I'm pretty sure we're all gonna be late. :|

Gonna meet up with Eric first cause he doesn't know how to get to stadium. LOL.
Okay, I'm smarter than him so I shall lead the way. =X hehe.

I had an awesome saturday being a pig at home who just eat and sleep. Cool isn't it?
PIG = HIGH MAINTANENCE!
Haha. Who wants a pig now?? Heh.

I'm gonna find food now and get ready to go out. Hopefully I'm not late okayyyy.
And I gotta wake somebody up. Boo! (:

Byebyeeeeeee.

Pepper Lunch! :D

Steph.

This is when the food just arrive.

I can't freaking cook la!

and I'm scared of the oil. -.-

See the aftermath's mess. -.-

Thank you Uncle Vernon for the after lunch's Milkshake.

I had a good night with Steph Wifey. yesterday. Met her up and had dinner at Pepper Lunch. Haha. First time there and I was like, ' wtf is this thing. ' -.- Nonetheless, I still cook the food and eat. :\ though I don't really know what's what and how. Well, at least it's edible and didn't have diarrhoea. Thank god. Hahahaha. After that was walking around for a while and we settled at Starbucks for a coffee. Nice catching up with her and like finally, she doesn't have to worry about me so much anymore. HAHA. Well girl, I hope you know what you want too and work hard k. (: See you soon! And yeah, she booked me two weeks in advance for dinner on the 5th as a belated birthday dinner with the rest. (: Hehe. ^.^ Love you darling. (:

Wednesday was bowling day. Had our dinner at KFC Marina Square. Then head to super bowl and we played two games. Started off with everyone being freaking noob. Then we were all warmed up and was doing good. I had two strikes in total and Lynn had 3 consecutive strikes in a row. Felicia started off doing the best among us all. Boo! Hahaha. After that was Lynn going to the North side with us. Then she followed Felicia back to her house to accompany her while I go home and change etc. -.- After that they came to pick me up at my house and after I got up the taxi, heard a news and I got totally cheated up to the taxi. I could have stayed home to sleep. -.-

And so, to Butter Factory we went and we got bored of it and we head to Supperclub. Now my impression on Supperclub is; Bedroom. -.- Beds all over and it's like meant to sleep. -.- after that went to eat and home we go.

P/s: Sometimes in life, you cannot always say ' I don't know ' and get away with problems. You cannot always says ' I don't want ' to avoid problems. Because, you and everyone knows, only you yourself can make a difference. Be afraid, and you'd fail.

Wake Up Call.

Sometimes, we just need that one call to make everything else right. (:
Thank you.

You cant make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
Please dont waste my time, time, time, time, time
Im not tryin to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

But now, it's just a past.
I'm not gonna even try anymore. (:

Before I Know It. (:

How often do we actually realised and noticed what we really wanted all the while?

Ever question yourself once in a while to make sure your first answer to yourself tally with the last answer to yourself? Weird uh?

That's only because;
Human changes and that's a fact that no one can change.
Because we are human and that's our nature.

' I'm no normal girl, so don't communicate with me as a normal person. ''
' I'll forgive you. But I'll never forget your name. '
' Give me shit, and I'll give you double of what you gave me. '

 

Well, those three are the few things that I always tell myself to remember.
And at times, I actually forgot who I really is when I just keep telling myself to follow my own principal.
And at times, I do things my ways such that I rather be the one who gets hurt than hurt someone else.

Like my Queen always tell me ' 你要自爱 '. Meaning asking me to love myself more. Yes, my Queen, I heard you since long ago. But you too, realised this is my problem because I care about other people way way way before myself. Queen always tell me to think for myself, care about myself and do things only for myself. But think about it, I'm not that selfish. Even though sometimes selfishly, I wish certain things/people would just die or never existed. But on a second thought, I always ended up questioning myself, ' What if all the things I ever thought of really happened? ' Then it will lead on to a lot of conclusion by myself and conclusion; I'll stop thinking of them. -.-

Okay, I don't normally share this much of personal thoughts. But today is gonna be a little special. Because I was listening to a song that some sort relates to how I feel. And there's always a reason behind the things I do or say. And if you feel that suddenly I have a change in the way I handle things or the things I say, don't ever question me more than once. Because if I want you to know, I'll tell you and if I don't want you to know, you'll never find out no matter how hard you try.

Being the eldest at home, I held the highest responsibility and I had to set a role model to the younger ones. Given the fact that my youngest sister is only 10. And I have a niece that's only 3.5 months old. And I'm taught/trained to be the  strongest in emotion. I'm taught/trained not to cry that easily. I'm taught/trained to hold everything to myself. Though I'm allowed to share with my Queen but I'm taught/trained to be independent. So don't question me, why do I have to do this/that for my family? I don't wish to repeat myself; Because being the eldest, this is my responsibility. And it's a responsibility that I can't run away from. It's like taking care of your parents until the day they die. And they're my family. A family is a family for a reason and there's no way you can change this. You're running your parents's blood and blood is thicker than water. When you think you dislike any of your family members, think twice. Because at the end of the day, everybody view you as part of the family and you just can't run.

And since young, Queen brought me up in such a way that I grew up being realistic and practical. I wished I have those fantasy times that I dreamt of being a princess and met my prince charming and tadah! Happy Ending. But no, that's not what reality is. Reality smack hard on your face such that there's no way you can accept it and you break down. But lucky enough, I grew up together with reality. And in fact, it's true that reality is cruel. We just gotta learn to take things as they are and not grumble about it, because at the end of the day, you'll know it's damn pointless. -.- But, how often do we NOT want to just dream and hope that dream come true all the time? ZERO. But I've learnt that since young yet how many people can fully accept their own life? None. I couldn't accept my own life too. But at least, I'm grateful for the family I have. The perfect Queen of mine, even though I argue/quarrel with her at times. But I love her, because without her, I'll never see the reality. (:

Okay, I'm not gonna make this too wordy.
But I just hope everybody will learn to accept reality (Which is tough, but do-able.) and be happy about life.

AND, STOP BEING EMO. -.-
I totally hate emo people. That's why I hate myself so much whenever I feel upset. I'd always scold myself. -.-

 

I've been letting you down, down
Girl I know I've been such a fool
Giving in to temptation
When I should've played it cool
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

It can happen to..
Anyone of us,
anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'cause I made a stupid mistake It can happen to..
Anyone of us,
say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me

I can't take my heart will break
'cause I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake

She was kind of exciting
A little crazy I should've known
She must have altered my senses
'cause I offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand
I hope you understand

A stupid mistake
She means nothing to me
(nothing to me)
I swear every word is true
Don't wanna lose you

p/s: Before I realise it, I could have just forgetten you already. Whatever it may be, I just hope you're happy and take care. xoxo