SENTOSA.

eh. went to sentosa with zac, amy and aloy yesterday. well.. things were okays until we went back to vivo. hais. cause zac insist me to hold his hand.. kiss him. all the PDAs. gosh. i just don't like all these in public. can't i just walk next to him? hais.


after all the lectures and naggings, he came to me and tell me all the sweet things. i'm like.. it on me. don't try to push things too hard and try to get it soft after that. useless. total turn off. i just don't feel like talking to him or anything. hais. i think i'm gonna let it be.. yeah.

don't feel like blogging. photos..


amy & i














FOR OF US.





zac and i





zac and aloy.




random photos.

12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS & 6 DAYS TO 2008! (:

christmas last for TWELVE days. yeahs.. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. (:

and YES! i'm gonna be AWAY from work for FIVE DAYS!

DID CLOSING JUST NOW. and SHIDAH AND I WAS FUCKING PISSED! -.- cause SYNN MIA! -.- didn't call or anything to say if she's coming or not. then me and shidah did closing ourselves. like what the fuck. was damn tiring lahhs! slamming all the way since 10pm. i was handling POS and shidah did BAR & FRAP. fuck shit. i pity shidah! really. cause tomorrow she's doing closing also. hope partners all turn up. if not she's so gonna be so so tiring. what the hell..

anyways, i'm going back to malaysia with my mom tomorrow. going for a hair styling show with my family members. what the hell. like as if i'm a hair stylist yeah? -.- i'm a BARISTA. haha. though i like to have fanciful hair. but i don't like to do it myself ALL the time. YES. (:

and i think i'm gonna be back on friday? MAYBE? or saturday morning. haha. so can go powerhouse with the ICIANS! (: hehees. celebrating eric's birthday! ERIC'S TREAT THEN! (: hahaha.

hais. sort of have some kinda arguement with zac. over a stupid issue, to me lahhs. cause it's not a MUST to have it you see.. so it's kinda stupid to argue over that. total retard-ness. i don't wanna argue no more. be it whether we spend enough time together or not. or whether we seen each other enough or not. my question is, FOR WHAT? if you're confident enough with yourself and this relationship.. probably you wouldn't even worry if you guys could still see each other or not. i bet that. relationship doesn't have to depend on how much you guys spend time with each other to prolong it. if it will, it will..

okays.. i have nothing much to say already. blog when i feels like. BYE! (:

5 days off! MERRY CHRISTMAS.

i'm having 5 days off next week.. not really off lahhs.. 2 off days, 2 PH, and 1 annual leave. fuck. they're trying to clear my leave. CB! i wanna have long holiday next year. -.- go overseas or something. keep clearing my leave. what the hell..

CHRISTMAS EVE! merry christmas eve! well, I'M WORKING. merry working KAT! -.-

went back to malaysia with mom and cousins on thursday's morning. and celebrated my baby boy's first birthday. so fast.. he one year old already. took some photos with him. he's so adorable. i'm so gonna love him! and i BET. he's so gonna be the ONLY one who won't HURT me emotionally. YES. I hearts HIM! my baby boy. photos up later. (:


faith gave all of us christmas cards. feel so sad after reading her card. so touching. i miss her. :( SO SAD LAHH! upload the photo later. i took the words she wrote. :( though she transferred out. but we know she still misses us.. :( so emo.. sad.. hais. shall visit her soon. :( she's the first manager that touches me so much. and makes me feel like staying here for her. and now she left.. i feel like following her. but i know she won't want me in her store now. cause dzul just got promoted. she will want us to stay and help him. well, for her, i'll listen to her. :(



went down to IC before i go for work yesterday. to collect my christmas present from steven and vivian.. (: so nice of them. i got a necklace. so sweet. (: haha. LOVE THEM ALL! i shall wear it in front of him next time. (: so he'll be happy! (: yay! hehees.



anyways, saturday zac went to cathay to fetch me from work. it was a surprise. and he surprise me with my favourite blue rose. 6 of them in a bouquet. so sweet of him. * seems to be like he did something bad then trying to coax me.. -.- * NO lahh. kidding. but it's nice of him.. thanks darl. but i feel bad.. cause.. my mind and heart is confused. and he's still trying so hard.. i felt like a devil. really.. :( naughty katty. smack smack. :(



anyways, had store meeting yesterday.. freaking 4hours long. fuck. but okays lahhs. paid to go there and sit down. -.- LOL. and they're talking about me as the only full timer left.. my responsibilities and stuffs. asking me to go for learning coach workshop and to get my coffee master by february. well, okays. time to brush up and study. -.- work also must study.. cool ehs? yeah yeah.. envy? JOINME! (: haha. okays. i'm startin to feel stress.. afraid i won't be able to cope. afraid i won't be able to handle. afraid i can't perform well.. struggling.. within myself.. what to do? how to make it better? what should i do? i kinda feel lost in everything i'm doing.. work.. relationship.. friends. family.... i'm worrying about my family.. worry about my work. this two are my main concern now. i'm having a family problem.. which is not gonna be so easily solved. and my work is giving me more stress.. everyone is pushing me. i feel the stress.. just because nazhimah is converting to part time.. and my expectations are rised too. i have to be at tip top condition. everything i do, must be PERFECT. nothing less than that. i have to keep reminding myself.. i have to i have to.. STRESS! i'm going nuts. :(


people, don't add on to my stress.. don't provoke me. i'm leading a stressful life right NOW. when i say i don't want, DON'T force me. when i want, DON'T stop me. let me do things my way.. let me handle myself.. don't worry about me. i know some of you is out of concern.. but i know what i want for my work and family. so don't advice me on this two matters. maybe other things you can. NOT this two. thanks. stay away from my work and family matters. thanks.




okays.. i guess i'm wrote long enough. photos time! (:

MY BABY BOY!!! (: <3

MY NEW HAIR! (:

THE ROSE I GOT FROM PRINCE. (:

I HAVE A BABY ' GIRL' YOU DIDN'T KNOW? NOW YOU KNOW. (: hahaha.

FAITH'S CHRISTMAS CARD!!! :(

OFF LIKE WOW~

this week, i've got THREE, listen, THREE days OFF! -.- and next week, FOUR!~ COOL MAN! (:

hahaha. dzul needs to clear away my off before nazhimah's leaving.. as in convert to part time. and now, it's gonna be hard for me.. cause i'll then be the only full timer left. like wtf? LOL. SHIT. ha. wow! -.-

sleeping and sleeping and sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. ----> this is what i have been doing. retarded.. like, ermm.. nothing better to do? fuck. get a life kat. make yourself useful.. east coast is calling out for you. time for you to go training on your own! LOL.

well well.. i'm bored anyways. HA. bye.

lalalala.

BORED.

i'm bored. and from what i know, i'm going back to malaysia next week.. clearing away my PH. -.- ha. gonna go back and do something to my hair. haven't decide what to do yet.. HAHA. cut short? perm? reborn? RAHH. or maybe, shave? HAHAHAHAHHAA. LOL.

okays. that's all for now.. BYE.

cause i've got nothing to BLOG.

confusion..

did this on facebook. kinda true. but not totally agree with it. hahaha. but more or less.. quite true. (: hahahahahaha. boredom. LOL. it's me anyways. (:

hais. in a state of confusion. after a long chat with zac that day by the beach at east coast. i'm lost. he asked me a lot of questions that go straight to my heart and pass the message of ' what the fuck you want now, kat? ' to myself. hais. lost.. maybe i expect too much. or maybe i wanted something else. i don't know. i'm confused. very confused. if there's a light that can lead me to the right path now, i'll be truely thankful. YES I WILL.

don't wanna think so much. just wish someone can guide me. someone can be with me. have been feeling down, or rather EMO recently.. no idea.. don't know why.. gosh. this is a fuck up feeling. i wanna smile. i wanna laugh. HAIS.

anyways, FAITH LEFT CATHAY. so sad. she's going over to suntec convention. :( yesterday was her last day at cathay. feeling like transferring out. but... hais.. cathay need people too.

well well.. i shall think about my work now.

MAIN PRIORITY : WORK & FAMILY.

haven't meet up. and QUARRELS!

feels like saying STFU. but have to consider his feelings. talk to him just now. on the phone. was then arguing about me failing to meet him tihs morning to accompany him to see doctor. cause i was really tired. slept like, 5am.. and need to meet him at 11am. the day before i didn't sleep well. like, can't you let me rest? i don't wanna argue with you about not meeting you or what.i'm sick of all these. i wanna be freed from all these, like when can i???? ha. a couple that always quarrel over the slightest thing. like what the fuck? i don't like to be questioned.. i don't like to be controlled. why keep questioning and controlling me? can't i have the freedom to do what i want and think what i want? craps. really craps. life sucks.

sometimes i just feel.. single is the best. to be attached for many years ( not married ) makes me feels tired. why must we be 24hours together? makes no sense to me. why can't we do what we individually wanna do? OMFG. nuts, i'm going nuts. really nuts. help!

are we really not meant to be? or are we not suppose to be? craps. am i not being a nice girlfriend? am i such a lousy one? why? i have my temper and stuffs. i have my own personalities. i feel so tied up. feels like shouting out loud. feels like screaming.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(

FORGET IT. I'M NOT GONNA SAY ANYMORE. IRRITATING.

just chat with lev. he's at sentosa house with his family.. i've got things to pass him. so i guess i'm meeting up with him soon. yeah. wanna catch up with him too. and see how his family members are. especially baby chloe. she was so small when i last saw her. hais. wonder has she grown taller, fatter or skinnier? don't know. but i hope all of them is well and good. (:

okays. that's all for now. i'm going out to meet skaters. update soon. (:

THEY ARE BACK.

yes. bev and ben is back in singapore about an hour ago. haha. welcome back to singapore. (;

keegan is back too, on the 4th. dylan will be coming over after christmas. hahas. nice to see them all back to singapore. RAHH! (:

okays. short entry for today. gonna go work.

CIAOSSSSS.

bye.

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HITMAN! (:

watch HITMAN with ICians. at plaza singapura on wednesday night. hahas. after which we went to eat touhui at parklane. LOL. (: nice night out with them. LOL. so much jokes and stuffs. hahas.

prince came over my place that night. and we went downstairs to have supper after bathing and stuffs. home 3:30am. i slept at 4am. and prince was playing maple until 5am before he eventually sleeps. -.- forever mapling. boring~ lalala.

work on thursday, yesterday from 3:30pm-1am. LOL. well, closing after soooooooo longgggggg. was damn slow today. cab home with jason. -.- boring~ money gone to cab fare. fuck. no money already.. when i just got my fucking pay like fucking last week.. -.- like what the fuck.

okays. stop, too much vulgarities.

missed priNce. he booked in last night. booking out tonight. lame. -.- haha. it's 4am already.. i'm gonna sleep soon yeah.. but am hungry....... LOL.

sunday might be going jurong swimming complex.. with prince and skaters probably.. hahas. (: have been spending a lot of time with prince and skaters recently. LOL. but it's nice lahhs. (: hahas.

I LOVE MY PRINCE AND SKATERS. (:


sians.. saturday working closing.. until 4am sia. wanted to go for WG milkshake event.. but but but but but............... CANNOT. sad-ed. :(

this week also cannot go for elite's training. sorry guys. i've got work.. i try to go next week yeah.. :( RAHH. talking about elite.. nigel left elite and head to micro... well, it's his choice. IC has never ill-treated him before or what. i, personally thinks he's being selfish. though it's expected he'll do that. and this has been a topic for some time. well, i doubt i'll talk to him like last time.. the feeling is different.. really. no longer the same.

RAHH. sleeping time.. nights.

before that, some photos. (:

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ESCAPE THEME PARK WITH MY LOVES! (: LYNNEE & ZHUZHU.







OUR DINNER @ SAKAE SUSHI. (:






DINNER @ ZEN.