Ex-Bf. =)

Third Day of work. =)
So far so good.

Today is Wayne's birthday. Celebrated for him in the office with the rest. Chocolate cake, I don't like. =\ He was nice, brought one BIG piece with strawberry for me. =\

Ohh, Pris told me yesterday that next month have Dance & Dinner to go. Lucky me. LOL. =)
Then it's time to wonder again what am i suppose to wear. =(
Ohh well.

Today sms-ed Ex-Bf. haha.

ME: Ex-bf! lol. cheesim here. =x How're you?
EX-BF: Change number again? Haha.. Not bad lo.. Serving my stupid ns.. you?
ME: Temporary number lahh! =x i'm working.. Ohh well. And Ohh! I WANNA MEET UP WITH YOU MR CHUA! :)
EX-BF: where you working?Wanna meet up with you too but the timing will crash lo.. Haha.
ME: Working at Joo Koon. Where's your camp?
EX-BF: Freaking quiet place? Work as wad? Haha.. Now serving at changi fire station..
ME: Omg. So far from me! Working as telemarketer. =x yours is what kind of shifts?
EX-BF: thought you plan to go back to further your studies?Work 1day off 2day? Haha.. but still will be recall back if they need help..
ME: Yeah i wanted to go back school. But got rejected by RP and my mom's body is not very good recently. Might need to use a big sum of money. Don't wanna burden her now. So i go back to work lohh. Hmm, WHEN ARE YOU FREE THIS WEEK?
EX-BF: Your mother will be fine after my blessing.. Haha.. This week i working on friday.. I try to get you back on thursday? Most likely we will meet sat or sun?
ME: YES PLEASE. Botak! =D you let me know again bahh. My mom is strong girl like me! Lol. Of course she'll be fine. Hahas. Thanks for your blessings anyway. ^^

Work half way, Queen called and told me her result of her check up at SGH today. Doctor suspect both her kidney has stones. And now, my Queen suspect herself to have kidney failure. If really so unlucky, I think I'll see if my kidney is suitable for her and transplant one to her. I can live with one kidney. Just hope nothing of such will come true. Doctor asked Queen today if there's pain all the way to the back. Queen told doctor yes. And doctor suspect these two things. Queen is gonna have her city scan on the 28th. I can't wait for that day to come. How i wish today is already the 27th. I can't bear to see Queen in pain and yet can't do anything about it. Doctor didn't give her any medicine. Just hope she won't pain until she faint.

Vex enough, worry enough.
I'm so tired.
I can't really sleep due to worries. Afraid in the middle of the night, Queen will be in pain until she can't even come to me for help. Just wishing all my worries won't come true..
Queen is being very positive, I need to be positive too.
If not she'll worry about me too.
It's not a time for her to worry about me..

I'm so tired, yet... hais..
Byebye.

Ohh! Before I end this. Let me just upload some Photos bahh. =) It's been a long time..

Malaysia, Youngest Princess.


Blue Eyes? =)


Nephew.


Blue Enough?


ooo. =)


He wants to sit alone. -.-


Damn cute.


MEE HUN KUAY. =)


MY FAVOURITE! ^^


CUTE?








My two Nephews. =]


My Youngest Nephew.





=)


This was early this year. OMG! MY hair grow damn fast! -.-


Hmm, one of the morning at his place?








Japanese Cigarette.


Malaysia's CHEERS Sarsi. LOL


See the difference in my colours. -.-


The day we go clean tombs. =\


The sky damn nice. =)


My Great Great Grandpa?








Sun Rising. =)


Notice the Clouds. =)


NICE?





The Golden Retriever. 5 Months old.


She's cute. =)


My Cousin helping them to bathe.





Going to Sun! =)


He's stuck on the table. LOL

















Tying hair.


Coconut tree., LOL





1st Day of work. =\


I wanna cut my hair again! I want the bob to be more obvious!


NO LAUGHING AT MY ATTIRE!!!


Sun is nice! =)





Office.





Today's Sky when we're going home after work. =\


Look into the Mirror, See the Orange sky? =)



OKAY! Time to say goodbye~ =)

Hypocrite? Lies?

I AM SO DAMN BLOODY, FUCKING, KNN, PISSED TODAY. CB.
Why?
READ.

* ALERT : THIS IS A HIGHLY OFFENSIVE ENTRY. SHOULD YOU TAKE YOUR OWN FUCKING RISK TO READ, BEAR YOUR OWN FUCKING RESPONSIBILITIES AND HANDLE YOUR OWN FUCKING EMOTIONS.

Zac: My dream will come true one day. Im doing it for u.. Just to let u know why i give up u for my dream & passion.
Zac: Btw, we will be happier if u show some support for me.. & we wont ended up like what we r now. Im not blaming u but to advise u not to make the same mistake for your future love's one. Take my advise a not, up to u. Its your own future. Its all in your hand.

SO NOW, ZAC LIM. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCKING PROVE?
DREAM COME TRUE? ABOUT WHAT?
DOING IT FOR ME? ARE YOU USING THE RIGHT WORD? DO YOU EVEN STILL REMEMBER WHAT YOU TOLD ME WHEN I ASKED YOU TO SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OUR FUTURE? LET ME REFRESH YOUR MEMORY IF YOU FORGET. YOU SAID : ' NOW, I'LL ONLY THINK FOR MYSELF. ' SO NOW YOU SAY YOU'RE DOING IT FOR ME? IS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE TRUTH OR LIE? AM I SUPPOSE TO BE TOUCHED BY THAT? TELL ME, WHAT'S YOUR POINT NOW? WHAT'S YOUR MOTIVE NOW?
LAST TIME, YOU LIKE TO TELL ICIANS THINGS LIKE ME AND BEVAN CHEAT ON YOU BLAH BLAH BLAH WHENEVER WE QUARRELED/ARGUED/BREAK UP. NOW, TRYING TO SHOW PEOPLE YOU'RE NICE TO ME? WHEN BEHIND THE CROWD WHEN WE'RE AT HOME, THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU DID?

NOW, I SUPPOSE YOU'RE SO GONNA GET ANGRY WITH THIS? OHH, I RUIN YOUR ' WANNA-BE-PROFESSIONAL ' IMPRESSION FOR EVERYONE? PLEASE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU SHOULD JOLLY WELL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FAMILY AND IF YOU'RE THAT SENSIBLE AND UNDERSTANDING, YOU WOULDN'T BE ADDING SALT/VINEGAR TO MAKE ME FEEL WORSE. SO YOU THINK IT'S FUN TO SEE ME FEELING MORE STRESS? SO YOU LIKE TO SEE ME BEING UNHAPPY? IS THIS YOUR MOTIVE? IS THIS YOUR TRUE SELF? YOU WANT ME TO SUFFER. THAT'S ALL I SEE FROM YOU AND THE THINGS YOU SAID/DID.

' I DON'T BLAME YOU BUT JUST ADVICE YOU ' OHH IF YOU REALLY MEAN IT, I'M GLAD. BUT FROM THE YEARS I KNOW YOU, NO YOU'RE NOT. YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW YOU'RE TELLING PEOPLE I DON'T LET YOU SKATE? I KEPT QUIET. SO YOU THINK I KEPT QUIET MEANS YOU CAN CARRY ON DOING THAT? TOLERANCE HAS LIMITS I MIND YOU. I'VE NEVER, I REPEAT, NEVER SAID I DON'T LET YOU SKATE. DON'T FUCKING PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH. WELL, THAT'S ZAC ISN'T IT? AND YOU'RE GOOD AT DOING THIS KIND OF THINGS, ESPECIALLY TO ME.

I DID NOT WANT TO TALK TO YOU BECAUSE I KNOW IF I DO, MORE STORIES WILL BE COMING FROM YOUR MOUTH. BUT IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE NOT HAPPY THAT I DIDN'T TALK TO YOU? SO? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? YOU KNOW MY TEMPER AND SO YOU WANNA KEEP AGITATING ME UNTIL I'M DOING WHAT I'M DOING NOW? SCOLDING YOU IN MY ENTRY FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE AND MAKE EVERYONE THINKS THAT I'M ALWAYS THE BAD ONE, THE BAD AND LOUSY GIRLFRIEND? COOL. I FORGOT THAT'S WHAT YOU'VE BEEN DOING ALL THESE WHILE. THEN OHH YES, YOU SUCCEEDED MAKING ME ANGRY AND POST IN MY ENTRY LIKE THIS. HAPPY? I SUPPOSE YOU ARE. CAUSE IT MAKES YOU HAPPY TO SEE ME UNHAPPY. ALWAYS.

IT'S ALWAYS YOU, WHO WANTED TO BE TOGETHER SO BADLY YET IT'S STILL YOU WHO WANTED TO END IT. WITH WHATEVER REASONS YOU'RE GIVING. I'M SO USED TO IT. PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY ARMY WILL CHANGE A BOY TO A MAN. BUT I DOUBT YOU CHANGED? OHH YES YOU DID CHANGE. CHANGE IN YOUR TEMPER? AND PROBABLY NOTHING ELSE? OHH AND MAYBE YOUR SIZE.

YOU ALWAYS BLAME ME FOR NOT SHOWING YOU SUPPORT ETC. BUT HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN WHAT I'VE SAID TO YOU BEFORE YOU ORD? DO I HAVE TO REFRESH YOUR MEMORY, WHICH I JUST DID THIS MORNING VIA SMS? YOU'VE GOT SHORT-TERM-MEMORY? YOU DON'T WANNA TAKE IN PEOPLE'S SUGGESTIONS AND WHEN I ALREADY MADE THINGS CLEAR BEFORE ANYTHING HAPPENS YET WHEN PROBLEMS ARISE, ALL YOU KNOW IS TO BLAME ME BLAME ME AND BLAME ME. WOAH, IMPRESSIVE. WELL DONE ISN'T IT?

SO NOW, WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO NEXT? LET ME GUESS. GET PISSED OFF WITH WHAT I'VE WRITTEN HERE AND START SPAMMING EITHER MY TAGBOARD OR MAYBE TELL ANYONE/WHOEVER YOU SEE THAT I'M DOING THIS? COOL. I THINK I'M GONNA BE SO RIGHT. CAUSE YOU'RE ALREADY FUCKING DOING SO.

AND SO YOU THINK GIVING UP THIS SEVEN YEARS RELATIONSHIP FOR YOUR CURRENT CAREER IS SUCH AN HONOUR THING TO DO? SHOULD I TELL YOU WELL DONE? SHOULD I THANK YOU FOR HURTING ME NOT ONLY ONCE BUT MANY MANY TIMES? SHOULD I ALSO THANK YOU FOR LIKE, LEAVING ME WITH SADNESS LIKE THESE? OR MAYBE I SHOULD AGREE WITH WHAT YOU TOLD ME? THAT YOU SAID STEVEN TOLD YOU TO GIVE UP CERTAIN THING FOR CERTAIN THING? SHOULD I BE PROUD THAT YOU CHOOSED YOUR CAREER OVER THIS RELATIONSHIP? SHOULD I BE HAPPY THAT, A GUY I'M WITH FOR SO MANY YEARS, TELLING ME THAT HE'S GONNA GIVE UP THIS RELATIONSHIP FOR HIS PASSION/DREAM THAT HE NEVER WILL KNOW HOW LONG IS HE GONNA BE PASSIONATE ABOUT/FULFILL THE DREAM?

OHH SO NOW, I HAVE TO BE THANKFUL TO STEVEN FOR TELLING YOU THAT SENTENCE? DON'T FORGET, ALL THESE, YOU SAID TO ME YOURSELF. EVERYTHING YOU SAID, I REMEMBER THEM LIKE THEY'RE ENGRAVED IN MY HEART. THEN I SHOULD BE GLAD THAT YOU'VE TOLD ME TONS AND TONS OF TIME THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO GIVE UP ANYTHING FOR ME? CAUSE YOU'VE NEVER AT ONCE MEANT IT. CAUSE YOU KNOW MY WEAKNESS. YOU KNOW I WON'T STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU REALLY LIKE. SO YOU'RE SAYING IT FOR THE SAKE OF SAYING? AND NEXT, MUST I THANK YOU FOR FOOLING/LYING TO ME? MUST I ALSO BE THANKFUL THAT YOU'RE SO SELFISH? MAYBE I SHOULD?

IF SO, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. HAPPY?

ALL THESE, WAS NEVER FOR ME, NEVER FOR 1.4 BUT FUCKING FOR YOURSELF!!!

ARE YOU FUCKING ANGRY NOW?
THAT'S HOW ANGRY I AM WITH WHAT YOU'VE SAID/DONE.

ENOUGH.

First Day.

=)
Okay, 8-12 was a bit bored cause there was nothing to do.
I was sitting at my table, reading about company's profile.
Ohh by the way, My company is Toppan Forms, also know as TFS.
My job scope there is a telemarketer. Yeahs, Office work for me now.
I hope I can take it. =\
Okay, like boss said this morning, I GOTTA HAVE CONFIDENCE!
I totally have no confidence in myself for office work.
Cause my impression for office work is, boring. -.-
But well, after what boss told me, it don't seems like it's that boring after all. =) Which is a good motivation.
Boss is a nice person. Good pay at a start. Of course, I can't expect them to pay me like A LOT when I just started working and with no experience of telemarketer. =\
Boss said all I need is just more on hands on and of course, gain experience slowly.

By the way, a short intro of my current company.
Toppan Forms (S) - TFS.
Does printing for all sort of Business Forms (BF)
Does plastic cards printing ( 2008 Grand Pix's Cards were done by us, NTUC, M1, MOE, MOM, MOH are also our big clients. A lot more of course. )
Does Ez-Stick for requested sizes and of course, customizations, like printing names on it etc.
We produce Printers that's of good qualities, heavy duty and printer that folds paper into the shapes you want it to be. Of course, standard ones. =)

Okay, For more information, visit the following link:
Toppan Forms Singapore.

People who reads my blog and is interested in the above mentioned things, please contact us. =)

First day was alright. Walking around to familiarize the place and know some people. It's quite a nice thing to see everyone dressing in Office wear. =) Including myself. I'm so damn not used to it. =\ I was wearing a black dress with a white vest. -.- hmm.. Don't imagine me in that please. =\ Girls looks pretty and guys looks handsome. LOL. No lahh, look smart. =)

I'm working with Pris. She's boss's secretary/PA. So yeahs, anything I need, go to her. LOL. =S

12-1 was lunch time. Had KFC cause I forgot who suggested that. =\ one of the girls. LOL. Ohh well, KFC just reminds me of someone who always bugs me to go KFC almost everyday last time. -.- Until I got so sick and tired of chickens. -.- But today, I miss chicken a lot. LOL. So we went to the one near Jurong Camp. Passed by the gate, where I used to wait for and send someone to camp, almost every weekend, LAST TIME. -.- I should have told Pris to detour. Shouldn't have passed by there and thought about the past. -.-
Ohh well, SMACK YOU KAT. Wake up.

Maybe Pris is right. Change of working environment, No longer F&B and nothing to do with skates. Be away from an Used-To-Be environment. And maybe like what she said, I should learn to open my heart and let someone else in to prove himself to me. I shouldn't sealed myself up. But the thing is, if I can do it now, I would have done it long ago. But well, I know she meant well. And I know she just wants me to be happy, not thinking about the past and dwell in it. I know, I know. But sometimes, I just can't go against what my heart tells me. Maybe moving on is the best solution but ohh well, I'm still me. If I cannot do it, I won't force myself. Slowly I guess.

Work was until 5:15pm. Office hours, what you expect right. =)
Went off with Pris cause she drove to work. Went to her old house to help her out a bit with the clearing of rubbish stuffs. She's now staying at Eric's place. Cause her flat is sold. And they've already looked for house, waiting for the hand over of key. She's passing her keys to HDB on thursday. So tomorrow her buyer is gonna go up her place to take a look. After packing until about 6-ish, Eric called and we went for dinner together. Eric agreed when I complaint about my office wear. -.- Grr. He said it's weird to see me in that too. LOL. After dinner it was about 7-ish. Back to Pris's place to carry on packing until about 8:45pm. Then Pris send me home and came up to visit Queen for a while. Ohh, Pris gave me a lot of the things ( especially clothes ) that she thinks it might be useful for me. -.- Yeah, she gave me tons of skirts for work. LOL. -.- And THICK books. -.- I think I'll take 4 Years to finish them. 4 of them and 1 year each. LOL. I don't like reading. And she gave me some branded bags that hmm, looks cute. =) HAHA. okays, I'm her rubbish bag. =\ And yeah, she and my Queen chatted. And me, very tired. =\ Pris left around 10pm and I go and do my things. Now blogging and I'm gonna sleep soon.

Queen asked about him just now when she was chatting with Pris. I don't know how to tell her what happened. I just keep pretending in front of my Queen. But I know, this pretendence ain't gonna last long. Pris looked at me when I was pretending, giving me that ' it's time to tell her ' kinda look. But I turn my head away, yet pretending I didn't see again.

I'm not happy, I know.
But I don't wanna keep looking back and things are just gonna be in a circular formation.

Time for bed cause I'm gonna wake up early.
Anyways, I don't wanna get emotional anymore.
I need to be strong so I can take care of my Queen.
I'm on my own now.

OMG. That guy from Malaysia just tell me on Msn that he's reaching Singapore tomorrow evening. OMG OMG. Hmm, anyone have good skills in Avoiding? =\ Hopefully his Human Resource is not that good. =\

I'm starting to get freak out by this guy.
Damn. It's turning me off.

And ohh, I feel like seeing someone so badly!
Ex-Boyfriend, Lin Ting. =)
Time for meet up, Botak. ^^

Goodnight.
Please pray for me that I won't have nightmares. Thank you. =)
God, Please give my Queen her health back. Amen. =\

Heart To Heart.

The supposed plan was to go and collect my stuffs back and return what don't belongs to me. Then to meet Maria and Shawn..

First half was followed. Second half changed. =\
Went to ECP instead. Didn't plan to go there and didn't wanna go there.
But ohh wells.
Thank god I didn't see what I don't wanna see.

Went to bought Ice Cream with Maria and Adeline.
Then went to breakwaters with Maria to have a heart to heart chat.
Afterall, I haven't seen her for so long. A lot to talk. =)
THEN, we WERE supposed to skate to lagoon for dinner. But guess what happened? HA.

We CYCLED. Twin bike. LOL.
So me and Maria shared one and Tai and Jeremy shared one.
While the poor Charles is on Steven's bike. LOL.
So yeah, imagine we paddle one time is equivalent to Charles paddling THREE times? =\
Poor thing. LOL.
Cycled to Ford Road cause Young Man wanted us to wait for him to finish work.
So we so called like, testing the bike.

And ohh, call me and Maria Pro please! =)
We spoiled the brake and the chain came off. -.-
Thanks Jeremy and Charles for repairing them. LOL!

Me and Maria is PROUD of ourselves.
Cause we EXERCISE A LOT today, with the twin bike. -.- haha.
After Young Man knock off, went to lagoon for dinner with QQ, Eddy, QY, Maria, Tai, Jeremy, Jonas and Steven. ALL OF US WAS ON BIKE. LOL. cool? None of us wear skates. hahaha. =)

Back to shop at 11:15pm. My Princess called and said Queen's palm is badly swollen. Then I rush them all and go home immediately. =\ Took a bus back since Queen called again and say she's not so painful already. A little relieve but still, worry.. Hais. I think I'm born to worry for people, just like my Queen. Be it friends or boyfriend. -.- Worries and worries. Hais.

Home about 1am. Queen's hand is fine now. I need to wake up at 6am later. Yet I have no bloody idea if i can fall asleep. I'm tired, but I'm worry that Queen might be in pain... =(

Bad things are all falling to me now. How nice. This year, Began well yet going worse.

And ohh!
Did i mention that the guy whom I talked about the other day who asked me funny question? -.-
He's crazy. He wanna come all the way to Singapore to find me. OMG, freak. Grr.

Alright, I'm gonna sleep ( try ).
I need rest though.



I don't know if there's anything else I've left there.
But if that thing i requested from you is still with you,
please kindly return it.
It belongs to me and I demand you to return to me.


You wanna play punk,
I'm better at it.

I'm Back.

Change of plans cause,
My Queen was hospitalised last night.

Thank god she was discharged this morning. That's why i came back early.
7:30am today, My granny came into the room, shouting ( in cantonese ) ' AH YEN, YOUR MOTHER LAST NIGHT GOT HOSPITALISED. FASTER GO BACK SG NOW. '

Yeah i got up, washed up and rush back here. Hais.
She was hospitalised because of abnormally fast heartbeat. =(
Just now when i just reach home, i went to her room to see her, she was so weak that i can't even hear her talking properly.. =(
Thank god after some rest, she's now eating already. Which is good. =)

I'm gonna meet up with Maria and Shawn later for movie. Evening's show. Fast and Furious 4. Wow, it's been long since I last watch movie. -.- Almost 2 months I think. =)
Ohh life sucks without money. -.-
I'm going broke soon. GRR.

Well, I hope I won't see people I don't feel like seeing and talking to. =)
Bye for now.
I'm gonna collect my belongings and return what don't belongs to me.

One Last Day.

Truth be told I miss you.
Truth be told I'm lying.


Ohh yes, last day here today.. -.-
Hmm, should I feel happy? I don't know.
Cause going back there only reminds me of unhappiness.
Well, I still have to go back there. My Queen is waiting for me at home. =)

Alright, I realise I can't hide from my Queen about what happened for long. Cause eventually, she'll find things fishy. So yeah, I'll still have to tell her what happened. -.-

Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be another long day. Cause I'm going to go and pray for my Cousin. Gonna remove his coffin from the tomb and bring him to the temple after a ceremony. It's been 12 years since he passed away. Hais.. After that I'll follow my cousin out to JB then I'll go home on my own unless my cousin is fetching me home. =)

OHH! I think I might even start work on the interview day itself. So yeah, no time for meeting ups until weekends eys. =) And people, stop asking me what's my number. I can't remember what's my prepaid number. =\ I'll message those who asked for my number. =X When I'm back of course. =)

I HAVE YET TO PACK MY STUFFS! GRR! I'm so lazy. The thought of packing stuffs made me feel so tired. =\ But ohh wells. -.-

I'm gonna pack my stuffs now.
See you people soon. =)

Sorry.

Hmm, will sorry mean anything anymore when you've heard it a lot of times?
When one is not even remorseful after apologies?

Hmm, maybe I'm the stupid one who always accept apologies from the same old person. And not only that, being nice enough to forgive and forget and giving chances one after another. Cool. Smack me please. -.-

Anyway, no point. =)
Cause Sorry from the same person, now means nothing to me.

This is not hatred, more of ' sick-of-it '. AWESOME. Who created it? Ha.

I'm hearing what BDS Symphonic Band is gonna play for their SYF on the coming Wednesday. I feel so proud of them. Really, from the bottom of my heart. I feel like tearing when I'm listening to the piece.. I feel that I'm such a failure. I didn't bring my band to this standard and made them being look down by the Chinese Ochestra in BDS. But now, I'm sure CO is definitely scared of my band. Cause my band now, can definitely own them flat flat. This competition, they're aiming for Gold and I'm sure they can do it this time. With the Piece they're playing now, and the standard they have.. They surely will succeed. And I'm sure, CO's conductor is gonna definitely shut his fucking mouth and my band gets Gold this time. Plus the one I'm hearing now, is their not-so-good-time-playing. So now, I guess they're very very prepared, so definitely is gonna be much much better. =) Happy for them, Really. ^^

Anyway, the past few days, I've been slacking and Emo-ing after helping my uncle at his saloon. Just now went out with Ling Hui, An Tong and Ling Hui's uncle and cousin. Alwyn wasn't in Kahang so he didn't join us. Chatted etc and was then talking about celebrating birthday......... Jordan offered to celebrate together.. =\ I don't know if I wanna really celebrate it. =\ Was thinking of going Clubbing and let loose. LOL. 21st birthday in Club, NOT BAD WADD.hurhur. Well, I'll discuss with my Queen first. =)

GOOD NEWS FOR PEOPLE WHO IS WAITING FOR ME TO GO BACK!
I..
WILL..
BE..
GOING..
BACK..
ON..
SUNDAY..

but by the time I'm back, it should be night time I guess. Cause I'm going for job interview on Monday..

Ohh, I think I didn't tell you all what happened. Why the sudden of going back and looking for Job.

Firstly, I got rejected by RP during the DAE. ( Blow #1 ) Am trying to appeal again to see if I can get through. Hopefully I can. If not, i don't know when can i study again. Cause I still wanna throw my Diploma Cert at someone. -.- This is my aim now.
Secondly, my Queen is sick. (Blow #2) So she might need a sum of money to go for operation. Hopefully she's fine. This is the reason why I wanna go back to work first, earn money and save up for my studies cause if RP really don't want me, I'll go for private. I'm determine to get my Diploma Cert. Wait and see for that someone who looked down on my Os cert. I'll definitely throw my Diploma Cert at you. -.- Now, I just hope my Queen is okay. I don't really care about anything else.

Yeahs, I'm going back. So don't miss me too much. =)

Alright, I'm gonna upload BDS's piece to my iPod. =)
Hmm, thoughts are running through my mind and it's sort of killing me bits by bits.
Or rather, I'm stupid enough to grief over it.
Ohh wake up Katty. =)



Love that be easily replace,
Can be easily destroy.

Missing doesn't cure.
So the only way to cure,
is not to miss.

Thanks.

Thank you Shawn, Tai Tai and Maria.

Thanks for trying so hard to cheer me up. Especially Shawn. =D
Thanks for the effort, really appreciate them a lot.

Shawn was really trying his best to make me smile and cheer me up. =)
Thanks for the be-early invitation to stay at your place for the 11th event. =)
Thanks for the joke video to make me smile and talking to me almost everything you see me online just to crack jokes for me to smile. =)

Of course, Tai and Maria too. Thanks for the encouragements and Words that soothes my heart. =)

Thank you guys.
I love you all. =)