我以为。

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

我可以抱你吗爱人 
让我在你肩膀哭泣 
如果今天我们就要分离 
让我痛快地哭出声音 
 我可以抱你吗爱人 
容我最后一次这样叫你 
你也不得已 
我会笑笑地离去

Chloe came to office last Friday and she said she drew me in this picture. LOL.
The ' I ♥ U ' made me smile! :D

Baby Bryant is 5months old! (: So cuteee!
He keep quiet when I carried him! And that amazed Emilyn and Xinle! LOL

Banditz! :) 

Bestieee!

Ming Yao, our woodwinds instructor! :)

Elise. :) 

He said we're his 'kids' LOL

HAHA!

Mirror is loveeeee!

My sunshine went back to Malaysia already.. Now my days are rainy.. ):

Feeling like this.

Yes? No? I don't know.

I spent my weekend relatively well. Being with the girls, surrounded by people whom I'm familiar with is what I really need now. 

Surrounded by the sound of music by all the musicians at Victoria Winds and KTV session that helped to let me release whatever that was in me.  

Meeting up with Secondary School girlfriends and had a really good time at MindsCafe after not meeting them for such a long time was really awesome. It's always good to know that all my girls are doing well and good. Of course, most importantly, they're happy. :) 

Cousins and Granny is in town last night and they went to USS this morning. They can't be here for too long and today is the only day available for them. Too bad I can't join them this time. It's just too last minute. But I'm really glad that the weather is having mercy today by keeping it cooling the entire day! I was still worrying that it's gonna be heavy downpour in late afternoon! Please let them enjoy themselves today first! ): Queen updates her facebook so frequently that I know that they're having fun there and I'm happy seeing them happy. :) 

Apart from all the usual routines and having the same old people with me spending the weekend together.. There just seems to be somehow a little emptiness in me. Somehow, I just can't smile like before and I wonder why. Jeorgina's return to Malaysia made that worse. Breathing tube contraction is one of the causes I suppose. It's been ages since it relapse and it actually choose to relapse at this time. I feel out of breath most of the time and it's kinda suffocating me cause it makes me keep breathing through my mouth, hoping to catch a bigger breath but it's not and it caused chest pain. :\ I refuse to see my doctor cause I think it's gonna be over in no time. But it's going on for almost a week. Okay, I'll give it another week to observe further. I hope I don't die in my sleep when I can't breathe well. -.- 

Breathing tube contraction makes me really moody cause I keep feeling out of breath and I'm feeling really terrible the whole day. Even my girlfriend feels that I'm asthmatic. -.- Zzzz HELP!!! ): 

Gonna head home today and try to rest early! I haven't been resting well and my face condition is telling me that I lack of rest! 

Okay, update soon! (: 

P/S: 我没有答应自己离开你以后，我会过得很好。

Sorry.

Hmm, will sorry mean anything anymore when you've heard it a lot of times?
When one is not even remorseful after apologies?

Hmm, maybe I'm the stupid one who always accept apologies from the same old person. And not only that, being nice enough to forgive and forget and giving chances one after another. Cool. Smack me please. -.-

Anyway, no point. =)
Cause Sorry from the same person, now means nothing to me.

This is not hatred, more of ' sick-of-it '. AWESOME. Who created it? Ha.

I'm hearing what BDS Symphonic Band is gonna play for their SYF on the coming Wednesday. I feel so proud of them. Really, from the bottom of my heart. I feel like tearing when I'm listening to the piece.. I feel that I'm such a failure. I didn't bring my band to this standard and made them being look down by the Chinese Ochestra in BDS. But now, I'm sure CO is definitely scared of my band. Cause my band now, can definitely own them flat flat. This competition, they're aiming for Gold and I'm sure they can do it this time. With the Piece they're playing now, and the standard they have.. They surely will succeed. And I'm sure, CO's conductor is gonna definitely shut his fucking mouth and my band gets Gold this time. Plus the one I'm hearing now, is their not-so-good-time-playing. So now, I guess they're very very prepared, so definitely is gonna be much much better. =) Happy for them, Really. ^^

Anyway, the past few days, I've been slacking and Emo-ing after helping my uncle at his saloon. Just now went out with Ling Hui, An Tong and Ling Hui's uncle and cousin. Alwyn wasn't in Kahang so he didn't join us. Chatted etc and was then talking about celebrating birthday......... Jordan offered to celebrate together.. =\ I don't know if I wanna really celebrate it. =\ Was thinking of going Clubbing and let loose. LOL. 21st birthday in Club, NOT BAD WADD.hurhur. Well, I'll discuss with my Queen first. =)

GOOD NEWS FOR PEOPLE WHO IS WAITING FOR ME TO GO BACK!
I..
WILL..
BE..
GOING..
BACK..
ON..
SUNDAY..

but by the time I'm back, it should be night time I guess. Cause I'm going for job interview on Monday..

Ohh, I think I didn't tell you all what happened. Why the sudden of going back and looking for Job.

Firstly, I got rejected by RP during the DAE. ( Blow #1 ) Am trying to appeal again to see if I can get through. Hopefully I can. If not, i don't know when can i study again. Cause I still wanna throw my Diploma Cert at someone. -.- This is my aim now.
Secondly, my Queen is sick. (Blow #2) So she might need a sum of money to go for operation. Hopefully she's fine. This is the reason why I wanna go back to work first, earn money and save up for my studies cause if RP really don't want me, I'll go for private. I'm determine to get my Diploma Cert. Wait and see for that someone who looked down on my Os cert. I'll definitely throw my Diploma Cert at you. -.- Now, I just hope my Queen is okay. I don't really care about anything else.

Yeahs, I'm going back. So don't miss me too much. =)

Alright, I'm gonna upload BDS's piece to my iPod. =)
Hmm, thoughts are running through my mind and it's sort of killing me bits by bits.
Or rather, I'm stupid enough to grief over it.
Ohh wake up Katty. =)



Love that be easily replace,
Can be easily destroy.

Missing doesn't cure.
So the only way to cure,
is not to miss.

i miss band..

i miss my flute. i miss my piccolo.. i miss band.. everything that has gotta do with music.. i miss.....

how could i missed that golden opportunity to go lasalle to continue my music? how could i?? :( did i mention lasella sent me a letter and offer a music course for me and ask me to continue my music.. buttt...... that time, queen was saying that the fees is a BOMB! so she ask me to drop the idea.. okay..

IMAGINE.

i'm in lasalle studying my music.. what would i have become? =x i was so so so so crazy over band. did almost everything i could to help the band and do my best in band.. i gave up my study hours for band. ( can you imagine me doing that people? ) i don't go for classes in the morning, but i appeared in band room in the afternoon for band session. -.- thinking back, i think i'm really a bad student. =x BUT, no one can deny the fact that i love that band!!! in that band room, where every single things was, i know. i memorised everything that was in the room. just IMAGINE, i studied my music and now, where will i be at? i MIGHT be sitting in singapore conference hall for a concert of my symphonic band, playing my flute. or i MIGHT be a musician, a music teacher, anywhere. my future would have been so darn bloody bright. but, just because i listened to queen, my future is another way....... i just can't live without music.... :( band was my everything, my soul, my life...

guys, listen to few of the pieces i love A LOT. feel the music.. :(
Jericho
Persis Overture.

sobs sobs... band band band band band band band band!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!