Thankful.

I do a lot of self reflection and I have always been. 

I think about how people treats me and how should I treat people with what kind of attitude. 

Very often, I came back asking myself, 'is it worth it? Why am I so stupid? They don't even bother or care.' 

Yeah, this applies to anyone in my life. 

I came to realize that a lot of people misunderstood the meaning of "being there for someone" and somehow I feel people abused it. 

I can't say it all in words now but I just want to say that I'm very very thankful for having Love at this moment. Very thankful he was the one who was involved in walking me out from that shit relationship with Eric, the biggest mistake in my life. I used to think falling in love with Love back in 2002 was the biggest mistake in my life but later I realized that to let Eric enter my life was in fact the biggest mistake of all. 

Every night I look at Love's back facing me and him, facing the computer screen busy working yet he still have to give me the attention I need to lay next to me so I could fall asleep before he continue with his stuffs again, I told myself that marrying this man, is the best decision I ever made and I know I will still tell myself the exact same thing even when we grow old. Sometimes he had to sleep in with me, just to make sure I'm able to sleep but he ended up falling asleep together with me yet he will still wake up half way through and continue with his work. 

No complaints, just nonstop of showing me how much I mean to him and how much he loves me. Just because I told him before that I'd be scared when I wake up half way through and I don't like that feeling. He respect that and he will do all he can to make sure I have a sound and safe sleep. The man who would do anything for me, not every girl get to have one. I count my blessings everyday because I feel so fortunate now. 

They said happiness have to come from within yourself if not you'll never be happy. I agree, I'm optimistic about life and I think it's very important already. Yes, relationship is important to me. Any kind of relationship. Kinship, friendship or a love relationship. They are bonus to my happiness now and I'm so thankful for all of then who are atill around. =) 

Update soon!

Parcels of life: Missing the different groups of friends.

I miss Taiwan, that's needless to say.
Freaking miss every bit of it!

I miss V & S the most. Been so long since I last saw them! ):

My CATS girls. I'll be meeting them soon! :)

Skaters.. 

I miss this three tiny pretties. ): 

V & S. Miss talking to them and feasting! 

Team Kukup. 

My Classmates.

I miss, yes, Avatar.

I miss partying, and a bit of drinking.

My seconday school friends that I last met in December. ):

My nephews.

My little precious Baby J. ):

Last but not least, my beloved E. 

Maybe I'm hitting an age whereby I think a lot. 

About the past, present and future.

I miss certain parts of my past. 

I adores every part of my present.

And I'm feel excited about my future. 

I don't know why but somehow what is revolving in my life is pretty much the same therefore whatever I say seems to be repetitive. Oh well, maybe because I'm aging. 

I've not been socializing these days or rather, I'm catching with my current friends. 

I have a lot of friends.

Friends who will always be there for me and love me in all kinds of situations. (I've figured some who would)

Friends who will party and play with me. (I've figured I have a lot)

Friends who will only find me when they need me. (I've figured some as well)

Friends who just call themselves your 'friend' for the sake of it. (I've deleted them off as well) 

So you see, out of the 1000+ friends on my facebook. (I do really know them) 

I don't even think half of them are people who would really be there for me. 

Honestly, I've deleted a lot of 'friends' at the beginning of the year.

Those whom I kept are there for a reason. 

I used to mind pretty much when my friendlist decrease.(I don't know why but I just get annoyed) but now, I don't even care. Because to me, only the true ones stay. 

So whoever is still keeping me on their facebook, thank you. :) 

I've been trying hard to keep friends, selectively. 

I've been rather mindful about the people I mix with, I talk to and tell things to. 

I guess the person I talk the most to and tell the most things to now is E.

He's like my boyfriend, my best friend, my soulmate and my confidante. 

Of course, other than him I have other friends whom I share almost everything with. 

I just feel that nowadays I'm isolating myself, to my limited friends. 

People who constantly cross my mind and I want to see them. 

Or like people who at least make a little effort to want and meet me.

Okay, I realised I've been blogging a lot about E. 

Can't blame me cause my life is hugely revolving around him now. 

Suddenly, mind went blank. 

Okay, update soon. 

Can't wait for the weekend! :) 

台湾之旅, Day 3.

Day 3 started off with my journey having this two with me. K & L.

宜兰. A really beautiful 'Kahang' feeling place. 

Just in front of J's house is a patch of bright green grass!

Their family portrait.

J invited us to his house for lunch, done by his maid Wati. :) Very nice!

He brought us to eat ice cream. Nice!

On the way to 九份!

Railway track!

This is the part where the sea and the yellow colour water from the fountain meet.

View from a higher place.

I've been searching for this shop cause E said his mom wanted the 太阳饼 from this shop!

九份老街！

So cutee!

One of the alley. Damn cool. The air coming from this alley is cooling!!!

Love the view!! 

This dog wouldn't move no matter how I call him. -.- 

Here is where we bought our condoms. HAHA.

Night view of Taiwan.

The view from where we're seated.

K Darling.

YY & Myself.

L & myself.

J & myself.

JUMP!

This was a funny one! LOLOL

Day3:

台北

宜兰

九份

阳明山

We woke up really early this morning to buy breakfast for everyone at the breakfast stall nearby. J came to fetch us from our apartment at about 10ish. K was hogging the toilet and I was the last to be out of the house though I woke up being one of the earliest. LOL. 

So the journey started with us going to J's house for lunch at 宜兰. 宜兰 is a really very kampong feeling place to me. Both me and K agreed that it reminds us of my hometown, kahang. :) J has like 4 dogs at home. 3 of which are outside of the house and one inside the house. Didn't know there was one inside the house and L got scared when we opened the door and she started crying. LOL So J went to pick the dog up and lock her upstairs. J's house is big, compared to Singapore's houses. They have the land and it's really cool cause you can't even see such a big land in Singapore, for a household. -.- I mean, the price for just a HDB flat in Singapore, I could buy a mansion in Malaysia. -.- This is the difference. Even for cars as well. They claim to raise the COE so that people don't buy car but the rich can afford it and they're still buying. That's why the rich gets richer and poor get poorer. While us, being in the middle, is stuck because we're not moving anywhere. So idiotic. -.- 

ANYWAY, 

宜兰 was a relaxing place and according to J, just one 宜兰 is already 10 times bigger than Singapore. Haha so imagine the land size..... -.- So after the delicious lunch, we left to another area of 宜兰 and J showed us their new house which is still in the process of building. 宜兰 reminds me so so so much of my hometown! Really! :) He then brought us to eat ice cream and 葱油饼.. I only ate the ice cream cause I'm never a fan of spring onion and the whole thing was filled with spring onions so no thank you. LOL. 

After the ice cream session was traveling to 九份, it was uphill and a lot of curves and turns and slopes. But I like 九份 cause it's just slow walking. Nothing much to buy there other than all the almond tea and almond products. That's where we ordered all our 太阳饼and凤梨酥. They do delivery to our apartment so it's still okay for us cause we no need to carry the food around. Haha. :) I enjoyed 九份 cause I love the view from the top of the mountain and the weather wasn't that cold. It's just nice, cooling. I'm scared of cold so being at 九份 without my jacket more than half the time is consider a good thing already! :) 

Our last stop is 阳明山. Our dinner at this restaurant. The dinner was a bomb but the food was suuuuuppppppeeerrrbbbb! :) Love the food there especially the soup!!! And I swear the weather is so cold I needed both my scarf and jacket! But I freaking love the view up there! Too fantastic. No words could describe my feelings cause happy is not enough to describe, excited is not enough to describe either. I don't know. I feel like, I'm at the top of the world and I'm just so so so happy! :) It's like, looking at the view, talking to the girls and enjoying the food, what more could I ask for? At that moment, I was like ' This is the kind of life I want. I'm simply loving every bit of it ' Oh well, dream remains as a dream until I succeeded in achieving it. But meh, Singapore won't give me such feeling. Not even when I'm at the top of mount faber. -.- BLEH. 

And so, after a super good dinner, J sent us girls home and dropped by at the apartment for a short rest before he continue his drive home. Well, this was the day that I spent the night awake until about 4am, doing all the laundry cause my girls needed their clothes to wear. And they're all dead tired and I decided to be the nice one to stay awake and help them with it! And L, actually stayed up later than most of them and talk to me at the balcony listening to my grumbles before she eventually can't take it and left me alone to fight the silence in the apartment. It was scary cause I hate silence when I'm at home. But the fact that I saw the girls sleeping soundly made me feel much better. Yeah I sounds like a mother looking after 6 kids. -.- But well, we're all treating each other like sister throughout the entire trip! :) It's unbelievable how the friendship between the 7 of us grow just through this trip! :D 

Okay, done for Day3. 

Day 4 soon! :)