你难道不明白吗？

Why is it that you just have to argue with me about everything? Can't you just say things that please my ear for that moment?

Do you know the kind of insecurity in me that all my guy friends had inculcated in me? Why is it that you just can't make me trust you more? Why is it that you can't make me believe you more?

Why do you have to keep making me lost trust, just when I'm not believing?

当我有疑惑时，我要的不是你对我发脾气，也不是你对我说甜言蜜语，我要的只是你给我一种安慰，一种让我可以不用担忧的心情，一种可以让我今晚安眠入睡的心情。

为什么要一次又一次让我对你失去原有的信心？可以不要让我为了你再流泪吗？

Day 2.

So my school finally started again after two weeks and Jason has left for home as well. First day of school after a long break did makes me feel weird. Sigh, I was enquiring about my Degree programme earlier and came to realize that I need to defer my Degree cause I can't apply for my Study Loan. ): I'm upset cause I wanted to get everything done and start my Degree in May! I don't really wanna take a long break! Now it seems like either I take the September intake or next year January. ): I need to get the fucking PR shit done! 

Really crossing my fingers that I'd pass with one try! ): Please please Singapore, I've stayed here long enough to be localized and my education has been taken all in Singapore! Give it to meeeeeee! ): 

Going to 四马路 for 拜拜 later during lunch! :) 

And I need to stop procrastinating about my assignments! 

Online Shopping!

Bought this cover for my Polaroid! :) 

Bought 10 boxes of films for Phuket & Taiwan already! Can't wait! :D 

One of them that I really love! It's like Sephora's set but this is from Victoria Secret! :) 

New Bikini for my Phuket trip! Looking forward!!!!

Looking forward to March and April already!!!!!! Can't wait!! :D:D:D:D:D 

Day 1 today. 

With You.

Life is so much better with her being here!

Mariaaa! :)

Blu Jaz.

Bestie. Going to Kukup.

On the bus. :)

Love her. X

Our apartment. (: Loe tide.

Booze for the night. Madness.

Our apartment from the front.

FIREWORKS!!!

The only photo that I captured! ):

Jagebombs!

Waking up to high tide! (:

Going for the Kelong trip!

Baby sharks! 

Horse shoe crab! LOL

Kukup with the bestie and a bunch of super alcoholics was good! It brought back the 'Kahang' feeling for both bestie and I. (: And I do miss Kahang! But Kukup is definitely not a place I'll be at for more than 2 days. -.- I'll be bored to death! But I think anyone who's used to city life will not be able to stay long either. Well and I concluded that I really cannot drink beer. -.- It was the easiest to drink among all but it got me all high and drunk. LOL. 

Tomorrow is the day and I'm not feeling okay still. What should I do? Trying hard to distract myself from all the unnecessary thoughts. Sigh. 

Different kind of people.

When I off my group notifications, this is what I get. -.- 

Saturday's drinking game. We're so dead. -.-

Queen bought this for keeping our shoes! 

Cheval @ Kranji Riding Place. Love this place! 

Ordered my polaroid films for Phuket and Taiwan already! :):) 

Queen always tell me not to care about what other people say/think but me being me, I do get affected somehow or rather. I never like people to try getting involved in my things unless I'm wiling to let you to. So if I don't tell you things, means I don't want you to know anything and don't want you to question me or try to find out about it. To me, as long as I don't mess with you, please leave me alone. I'm really nasty when I'm offended. And once I'm offended, it's probably gonna take super long for you to regain back what you've lost. And when I don't like someone, I really don't like people who's close to me to be in contact with them. 

You were a nice girl in my eyes one month ago. You were such a beautiful girl but not anymore. You're so ugly in my eyes now. Very very ugly. With what you said and the things you do, it showed me how ugly you are deep in your heart. You shouldn't have got involved in this you shouldn't. You shouldn't have comment so much when there's nothing to do with you. You should really learn to keep your mouth shut and shallow your own comments. Because you could create shits and you think it's okay? No it's not. I don't like the way you think meddling with people stuffs is okay. So honestly, who do you think you are? Think about it. 井水不犯河水. Don't meddle with mine and I can't be fucked with yours too. You ask me to stay out when you step in to mine? You kiddy me miss? Seriously, I didn't do anything to you. You started this shit so please do a proper closure to this entire shit. I don't wanna get into this kind of stupid arguments with you cause I believe my heart is bigger than yours. But I can warn you, you can get away from my side, you probably might not get away from other people. Sorry to say but your attitude sucks. You can never steal my limelight cause you don't even have one. So fuck yourself. 

I don't exactly feel good about your trip. I guess I can't trust completely. I can't trust that you're gonna really behave when you're there. I can't trust that you'll resist the temptations that you're gonna have. Or maybe, I just can't completely trust you. 

Simplicity.

Yes, this is the kind of simplicity I want.
Nothing fanciful. Nothing so grand.
I just want to be the one whom you'll find the time and effort to bring me somewhere that I like.

Nobody knew how much I love quietness and peacefulness for I'm chatty by nature. Everyone thought I needed 'noise' to be around me.

But no, I love silence actually.
So thank you. For doing that.
Thank you, for noticing what I really need.
(:

The changes you're making, will make me change. So prove to me, that you're worth the while.

感觉有点。。

累了。
努力的挽回可是为什么一直觉得今天所付出的以后不会有回报？

不求回报。
以前的我是个不求回报的人，可是经历了那么多的事让我不得不不求回报。
但是我求回报到我自己很累。

好想回到从前那个什么都不管，敢爱敢恨，轰轰烈烈的去爱的我。
好想有一个可以让我好好找回自己的地方。

好想有一个可以永远紧紧抱着我的人来疼我。
):

Keep That!

Last night's feast! 

ECP. (: 

I WANT A SHARPER CHIN!!!

I bought this for lunch. But in the end didn't even eat at all. -.- 

Preview of Race Queen shoot. >.<

So last night we went to East Coast Lagoon for the Chilli Crab and other seafood together with the boys and I'm glad they liked them. :) The expressions on their face was priceless! Hahaha. It's nice to see people enjoying every moments! :) A pity I won't be able to fork out time for USS with them but I do hope they'll have fun at USS! :) I'll enjoy Kukup! :D 

I've been trying hard to keep that smile on my face. Been telling myself everything's gonna be over in no time. Everything's gonna be just fine. I'm Kat, I'm stronger than who you think I am and nothing is gonna ever bring me down. Nothing. 

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012.

Filter on 30.12.2011.

NYE at Siloso Beach. :)

For Kukup!

Strictly Pancake! :)

Sherlock Holmes!

04.01.2012

Almost a year ago, my eyelashes were suffering. -.-

Forte. HAHAHA.

30.12.2011

Zack Smith arrived at SG on the 27th so we went to Filter on the 30th. I've been hearing Filter for one of the longest time but it was my first time there on 30th. I have friends knowing that I'm going to Filter and asking how did I manage to get in there cause it's for VIPs only? Hmm, thing is I never knew it was only for VIPs. -.- I thought anyone with spending power could go in. Open a few bottles, sit down and chill etc. But I was wrong? LOL. Anyway, upon arriving and getting in there, I somehow knew why it's only for VIPs. -.- The place is really small! And with that small space, in order to make money out of it, it's therefore necessary to FILTER the people going in there. I think they do welcome those big spenders. Bleah. Oh well, I was fortunate that I have connections to get in there. :) A night filled with a lot of laughters. :) With my two favourite girls. :) And, Jagermeister sucks without redbull. -.- Left at 3am I think and went home. :) 

31.12.2011

Spent my NYE this year with all the awesome people! :) Stuart, Jason, Lynn, Jaslyn and Dennis! :) Dennis and Jaslyn picked me up from my place close to 6pm and we head down to meet Lynn at Vivo for dinner at Marche. :) Our last dinner for 2011. After meeting up with Stuart and Jason, we head in to Sentosa at about 9+? Started off from Wavehouse and ending point was at Azzura. :) Vodka, and more vodka together with some beer and some Champagne. Ended the night shuffling with Lynn at Azzura. It was a funny scene! And it's great to see Marcel and gang there as well. HAHA. Left Sentosa about 3+ and head to Simpang Bedok for some food before Dennis send Lynn and me home. He's always so nice to send us home! You know, drivers are tired in most time cause they have to stay awake! :\ Reach home at about 5:40am, packed my stuffs and left for Kahang. Cousin-in-law pick me up at Malaysia's checkpoint at 8am. -.- 

01.01.2012

Spent my whole afternoon sleeping with Baby Jeorgina, hugging each other to sleep and waking up having her next to me is such a sweet scene. Love the moment when I wake up, open my eyes and it's her that I saw. :) It's just so heartwarming. And I love it when she hugged me soooooooo tightly and give me a kiss. :) I just love hugs from anyone. It's like another way of saying 'I love you' without using words. Spent my whole day with her, bathing her, playing with her, feeding her, watching her play and bringing her out for supper etc. Love every moment with her. :) Ended my night having her next to me taking a lot of photos before we turn in. And again, I love waking up next to her. She was hugging me when I woke up. :) Such a sweetie pie, how not to love her?! But I left with such a heavy heart. She didn't know I was leaving and she cried badly after realising that I'm not there anymore. ): I don't know why but I can't stand kids crying like that. ): It's a different kind of crying compared to trying to whine to get a toy? Jeorgina don't do that. Talking about her makes me smile already. Can't imagine my life without her now. Wish she could stay with us forever but oh well, she's not my daughter afterall. Sigh.

03.01.2012

Spent my day working and night with the lovelies to watch movie. Before that was going to strictly pancake for dinner. It's my 3rd time there and still, I can't finish my food. -.- But it was nice! :) HEHE. Love the food there! Movie was great only towards the end, I doze off at the beginning, just like when I watch the first one 2 years ago. -.- The movie's not bad though. :) HEHE. 

Queen was telling me a few days back that she wanna reshuffle my room's arrangements. Gonna throw away my bed and shift the cupboards around. She ask me if I want a cupboard or like those with drawers to put my clothes. I have too many clothes! -.- I don't know which one should I get! ): Time to picture my room and decide! There's so many clothes that I don't seems to be able to wear now cause of the sudden loss in weight. Sigh. Happier note, I'm skinnier now. 

I'm 47kg now. And I want my 42-43kg weight. 

I'm dead serious. 

23.5inch waist, you're my aim now. 

No joke.