Updates.

16th July 2009, Thursday.
Went to work. Tried to call Ben in the morning wanting to bid farewell to him and Caity but he didn't pick up. :( After work went home with Pris love. Home about 6:15pm. Stay at home. Did nothing. Watched DVD and have been watching the taiwan drama ' Bu Liang Xiao Hua '. Watched it with my family. It was some kinda of a hilarious show. Haha. Well laughed almost the whole show. Cause the way the female lead talks is funny. Hehe. Slept at about 2am?

17th July 2009, Friday.
Worked. Went to meet my girls at Parkway after work. :) Had dinner at Swensens. ^.^ Been some time since I last ate Swensens. Haha. Oh! Joon Jek joined us for the dinner. :) Hehe. We all got our rings! So pretty! Haha. After dinner went to send Joon Jek off to take cab cause he's going home and going to Wisma after that. So yeah, after sending him off, I went back to find my girls and we went to sit at Mac cafe for a while before I head to east coast. Cheryl called me shortly after I sat at Mac Cafe so I called QQ to come over to Parkway's tunnel to meet me. Yeah he came with Steven's bicycle. Yeah, I did something super unglam. -.- I wore a skirt and I cycled. Wth. LOL! Met Cheryl at east coast Mac. She couldn't regconise me at first. :( Cause I trimmed my brows! LOL! And she went to the C3 shop with me. Shawn couldn't regconise me either! :( What happened? Everyone can't regconise me! :( So sad. And everyone's telling me I look different and more girly. -.- Well, they said it's a good thing. :) Hehe. Sean came to find us after that. Yeah so slack at rink with skaters. And I don't know why Sean can mingle around with the skaters so easily. -.- Retarded. After that head to Cineleisure for movie ' Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince '. Well, I rate the show like, 3.5/5? Cause it was a disappointment actually. Didn't have a lot of fighting scenes and it's more like just letting you know the storyline. Worse was Dumbledor died! :( I nearly teared when that happen! :( Sobs. I like Dumbledor. But he died. He's really powerful in the show. He's like so so pro can! :) *Admire* LOL. But yeah he died and that part sucks. -.- After the movie, went home with Jas and Dennis. Home about 4:30am. Slept at 5am.

18th July 2009, Saturday.
Woke up at 12:30pm. Eat lunch and get ready for work. East coast by 2:30pm. Then went to get my skates. Paul was nice to send me to E2 and QQ came along. ^.^ Haha. Work until 8:30pm and had dinner with Shawn and Ken. :) Then went back to rink. Skate two rounds and went to find Mummy Ting. Then slack at rink again. LOL. After that went off with Micro skaters and went to geylang for supper. Frog Porridge! ^.^ Aloy Daniel was on the way to rink when we saw him but because not many people is there anymore, he left with us to Geylang! :) Went back with the skaters after supper. Thanks Jireh for sending me home! :) Home about 12:45am. Watched DVD until 6:45am. Slept at 7am.

19th July 2009, Sunday.
Woke up 2pm and help Queen with some chores and packing of stuffs in the kitchen cause our kitchen is gonna be under renovation tomorrow morning! =S House gonna be dirty! :( Helped her until about 4:20pm then went to get ready to go out to Paul's daughter's Birthday. :) Paul came to pick me up at my house and we went to pick Shawn, Zhu, Lynn and Ivan( Paul's Friend ) before heading to Paul's place. Party was alright. For a 4 years old girl, it's consider quite good. ^.^ After the party went to Marina Barrage with Zhu, Shawn, Lynn, Eddy and Bong. Took a lot of nice photos! ^.^ Shall wait for eddy to upload them to facebook and I'll grab them! Hehe. After that Zhu send Shawn home and send me to MRT station. Home about 11:30pm. Eat, bathe and help Queen with the rest of the packing. =S Darn a lot of things I swear!!!! =X Pack until about 3-ish. Slept at 4am. =S Tired.

20th July 2009, Monday.
Woke up at 7:30am! Yeah, late for work. Was darn tired can. -.- :( Stay back for a while after work. Then went home at 6pm. Home about 7:30pm. Rest for a while and went out for dinner with Queen and two young princesses. :) Bought some stuffs and went home. Home about 10pm. Dota for a while. LOL then bathe and it's now 12:20am. =\ Gonna sleep already. Really very tired. :( Need a lot of rest! My eyebags are coming back! So is dark circles! :( I need more sleeps. I don't wanna look like some idiot. -.- Grr. LOL. Ohh well. I wanna do a lot of things! I wanna go on diet! I wanna lose my fats! They're atrocious! =S And I need to take a break from Singapore. Meaning to say, I wanna go back Malaysia soon! Who wanna go with me? Probably a 3 days 2 nights? :) Hehee. Lynn? Tsktsk. Jas? :) Probably like, Friday to Sunday kinda thing. Or maybe Saturday to Monday. :) Either way I have to take a day leave. I need to go back and dye my hair, trim my dead ends and maybe a rebonding? Hehee. Since I wanna keep my hair long, I don't want it to look so messy. -.- It's really messy now. :( Omg. I wanna do manicure! Who wanna go with me? I want something pinkish! ^.^ Gel with Pink glitter? Haha. Omg I'm like, getting to be girly. =S Yeah, so people, bear with me for a while alright! :) I'll be a WOMAN soon. LOL! Been too much of a tomboy these years. Not attractive. LOL. Of course, I'll stay bubbly still. GENTLE GENTLE GENTLE! Buddy, I'll prove to you that I can be lady-like!! ^.^Just wait okay! Kinda like a drastic change eys. :) Girly, gentle and lady-like is so not Kat. But yeah, this is gonna be the new Kat. :) Elegant. Tsktsk. :)

Okay, off to bed.
Photos another time! ^.^
Goodnight to all the people I love. :)

Ohh!
SKATERS!
25TH JULY 2009, SATURDAY.
SENTOSA SUNTAN!
9AM AT HARBOUR FRONT HAWKER!
WHO WANNA GO? ^.^

On the list I have,
1. Kat
2. Lynn
3. Amy
4. Jas
5. Rohi
6. Ken

To be confirm,
1. Ziyi
2. Maria
3. Walter
4. Jordan
5. Javier
6. Becca
7. MBT
8. Zhuzhu
9. JoonJek


Interested parties please either contact me via my handphone or simply drop me a tag on my tagboard and come back to check it again eys. ^.^ I'll update again! AND AND AND! After Suntan we can go to Powerhouse! ^.^ It's nearby so yeah, good deal? ^.^ I'm so sorry for those who are underage. =\ I'll go with you when you're 18 okay! ^.^ LOL!! =\

And yes, It's yet another skaters gathering! :)
Hope to see you all okay! :)

Updates.

OKAY! Last week was rather fruitful. =)
With skaters. ^^

Alright, so nothing much about my work side from Monday to Friday. =)

Friday:
Ended work and went to Vivo City with Love to get the GUESS bag for Angela's birthday. Then she wanted to go to Bugis for some shopping so she dropped me off at Bugis and I went to East Coast from there. =) So yeah, Reach East Coast about 7pm. Then went to Mac's with Zhu and Shawn to meet his Friend, Zach. COOL. -.- Then head back to rink, get changed and we head to Lagoon. =)) Eat at Lagoon. =) But I wasn't having much appetite. =( Eat a little and went back to rink. Well, was about 15minutes late for ermm, training. Then all i did was, burning my wheels cause they're new. -.- So, yupps. After training, Micheal came to pick me up, together with Maria and Auggie. Went fishing at Betty Jetty. =) Fish until about 4am then Micheal sends us home. Back home about 5:30am. Slept at 6am. -.-

Saturday:
Woke up at 9am by Micheal to go and collect my Work Permit. Damn shag! -.- Then head to Paya Lebar to meet Buddy for Lunch. Lunch-ed at Ajisen Ramen. Then walked around and bought roses. LOL. So out of the blue can! =)) Then walked to East Coast. Been ages since I walked to East Coast from Parkway. -.- ANYWAY, buddy called our lunch as a Date. -.- OH NO, let's hope my darling don't see this. LOL. AHEM. okok.. Then went to meet buddy's Twin by the sea and I called Darling and he's at East Coast already, so went over to Mac to find him. LOL. Always at Mac. -.- So yeahs, went to Lagoon again after going back to rink. =) Ziyi, Felicia, Jireh and Rohi went with us this time! =) Cool shit. I love to be like this. So much more fun! =) After training, went to watch movie with Maria, Tai, Shawn Darling xD, Jeremi, Jordan, Auggie and Lynn. =) 17Again!

OMG OMG. I'M IN LOVE, IN LOVE IN LOVE!!!!!!

with Zac Elfron. =)))

Ohh well, Same name, Different Person. Ha.
Zac Elfron is cute k! =)
Oops Darling, I didn't cheat on you. =D

ANYWAY, I'M MARRIED K. =)
To-You-Know-Who. ^^

Sunday:
SENTOSA WAS A BLAST.
love it so much. =)
Photos on forum and Facebook. Enjoyy.. =)
And, i love Rohi's camera!~
Underwater! So cool! =))
And Rohi broke my nail when we're in the pool of Cafe Del Ma. =(((


Today, I'm not feeling well. Went to see doctor, I'm feverish due to the long hours under the sun and My Arm's Fibre got torn. -.- and now it's swollen. =(( Need to take medicine! OMG! I hate medicine. Ohh well.

Ohh, Darling promised that we'll go on Honeymoon soon! =)) LOL!!!


TS! <3

Sentosa!

i miss sentosa. and i wanna go sentosa before i go back malaysia!

so, everyone, grab your bikinis and beach wear!

TUESDAY, 16TH DECEMBER 2008.
MEETING TIME : 9AM AT HARBOUR FRONT HAWKER!


calling all those who wanna go sentosa!
ziyi, ask jireh along also! cause i'm asking IC's boys to go also. jireh can be close to them, but not gay k! =)
ICIANS, IF YOU HAPPEN TO SEE MY BLOG,
PLEASE RESPOND! =D
thank you very nice! ^^


bevan beh called me just now. and told me about his first day in tekong. -.- he cut his hair again.. not short enough mehhs? haha. ohh well, guys with short hair are nicer. =) don't fancy long hair guys. damn gay.. unless your face features fits the hair lahhs.. but still, i prefer short hair. looks fresher. =) i don't like to see guys with sloopy and listless face. guy suppose to looks as vibrant as possible. then it's show their confidence level and like the chinese said, forehead for guys must be seen so as to see brighter future. =D good. so all the army boys got bright future? have yet to be tested and proven eys? LOL.

well, glad that everything is fine for that brother of mine. just hope he'll be strong enough to go through everything. =) jiayou brother! =) he may not be able to see this but he will when he's out on christmas's eve. so yeah brother, be strong for this two years and you can go back to aussie for your uni k! jiayou jiayou! =)

alright, today is 12 december, so meaning i'm left with 8 more days in singapore. and i'll say byebye singapore for about 3 months. and i think by then when i'm back, bevan already POP and got posted to his unit. HAHA. not to worry, it's not very long.. it's just three months. =) i'll enjoy myself and keep you all update about me k. =) of course, i'm gonna miss my mom, my sisters and friends here. =(

ohh! my NCO friend wilson just call me.. ask me if i'm going to any clubs tonight. -.- why is there so many people asking me to club this today? lOL! i told him if it's next week then i'll go. not today. too tired already. woke up so early. -.-

and ohh! i fell in love with someone................ KIM SUN JIN! like two years since i last saw him???? =) he damn cute i swear! i asked him to take photo with me.. he just smile and knod his head... AWWW~ mesmorised by him. LOL. i'm so in like with him lahhs!!!! =D okay, that's beside the point. he's world slalom champion. maybe i should start learning to meet his standard. lOL. it's impossible man! i don't really fancy slalom.. a bit the gentle for me ah.. -.- okays, I SHALL START TO BE A GENTLE GIRL! =) when i'm back from malaysia, everyone shall see the different me. let me think of what i wanna do to myself.. =) of course, gonna have a different hairstyle.. hehees.

eh, i just realise i took so long to type this entry. -.- cause here and there got people call and message me. -.- and bevan just called me, again. so funny lahhs he. was talking to him about his day there and suddenly he said ' fuck light out already. ' then he was asking him campmates what to do for tomorrow. that blur cock. -.- stupid blur boy. -.- just hope he's gonna be used to the life soon bahh. if not he's losing out.. ohh and queen bet with me that he's gonna be an officer. -.- i say he might be in guards. HAHA. let's see who's closer. HAHA. lame sia my queen. but she's cute and i love her! =)

okays i wanna hurry type finish and get some rest. =D
actually, i don't what else to type already. -.-
damn it.

okays, byebye.
update soon.




if you only just get to realise i'm good to you,
it's a little too late.
cause i've been doing all these little things,
yet you never even realise.

resignation.

i tendered my resignation yesterday evening. on the 12th. went there with my sister, saw vivian and then pass her the letter. expected her to ask me why. yeah so told her. studies.

and surprisingly, she told me steven knows i'm resigning. -.- i didn't tell him before. how would he know? hmm, he's like shirley? read people's blog silently? maybe. don't know. don't wanna know either.

all i know is, do my job well this last one month and i'll say byebye Singapore for two months. or maybe i'll come back for a few days for NYP open house. i wanna get my studies stuffs done ASAP. don't wanna waste time working already. like queen said, no time to waste, time to plan for future.

i've played enough. and it's time to get serious. and, i'm really serious this time. yes i am.

well, tendering the resignation letter, i hope it doesn't affect the friendship i have with them. it's nice to learn more about skating stuffs. it's nice to once worked with them. but.. my queen definitely doesn't want me to stay in this industry forever. i know she never like it. and i do agree with her that skating, can somehow only be for hobby, for that little passion but never for career unless i'm thinking of setting up a company and run it, with enough asset to start off with. but no, i've never thought of that. so yeahs, i took my mom's advise to continue my studies.

with my very badly affected mood recently, i don't wish to be thinking so much anymore and just relax myself before my school starts. therefore i choose to return home ( Malaysia ) for a long break. byebye singapore for two months. my relatives are there and they will take care of me. so people, don't worry about me. two months is not very long. i'll try to go online and keep you all updated about me. and try to blog at least k. ^^ i'll still be alive and kicking. no worries. (:

after i come back, i'm sure i'm all ready to start my studies life again. which i wanna make sure i do make it through to school this time! my diploma, my degree ( if possible ). and if i can, i would go all the way.. i don't wanna waste time on all these working stuffs anymore. maybe a part-time job will do. but not full time. (:

that's about it for my work and studies part now. (:
i don't wish to complicate things.
and i don't want things to turn sour.
so this is it.

now, prince and i! (:

we're doing well.. don't worry about me.. heh.

my favourite rose, from the man i love most and a sweet note from him = forgiven. (:

yes okay, i'm soft hearted okay. whatever. but i don't wanna just give up on him when we're not happy etc. i love him and need him more than anyone else does. IF you think you love him and need him more than i do, confront me you bitch!

bear this in mind;
HE'S MINE, NOT YOURS! (:

this love we shared, i know it all along, when we're loving, we're very loving. but when we're quarrelling, we're damn bad. meaning, when we're good, we're very good. when we're bad, we're very bad. no in between. because we both are stubborn. but i'm more stubborn. =x so most of the time, prince can't win me in talking. cause his doesn't make sense, sometimes. mine, logical but unreasonable. LOL!

okays, i'm mean. i made used of my talent in arguing on him. -.- sorry.
but hey, no matter what, at the end of the day, i still feels hurt when i see him upset k! cause i love him too much to see him so sad. =x

okay, i'm mushy. i shall stop this. HEHE.

anyways, baby i love you! (:

if anyone wanna compare whose love for him is deeper, dare me. cause for him, i'm willing to do anything and sacrifice anything. you, definitely won't be able to do this. =D

anyway, the rain is over and now the rainbow is up once more! (:
i have too many things i wanna do before i go back to malaysia! i wanna go suntan! like for once!!!! -.- i've been missing all the good suntanning days! -.- i need to get an even tan! i've been coaching and it tanned me in a very uneven way. -.- wth..

and i need to eat zen with my beloved prince before i go back! (: thought he might be going back with me. (: and jaslyn! you too! if you wanna go with me let me know. who else???? ^^ i think my house should be big enough for you all to play. LOL! but help to clean k! =D

i need to clear my room before i go back! my clothes are everywhere and i need to throw away unwanted stuffs!

hmm, okay so much for now. i'm tired from all the medications etc.
and ohh! i'm sick! -.-

updates.

sorry, i failed to update regularly. been busy eys. =x

lots of stock check and lots of datas to key in. :( see until my eyes pain. like going blind already. =/

anyways, let me just do a quick recap on what i've done the past few days.

and ohh, by the way, BLOGGER SUCKS. the other day i blogged but my entry is just gone like that. to think they still have the autosaved thingy. sucks thingy lahh. GRR!


Sunday :
worked. -.- prince was with me until i go to work. (: worked until 9pm. and got this crazy last minute plan to go prawning at pasir ris. =x IT WAS, fun. hahas. nice seeing them trying their best to prawn. (: was there with prince, bong, eddy, sky, wilson 1, wilson 2, javier, marcus and rick. basically i sat there cause the rest of them hardly prawn so i let them play. drink a bit and chatted with rick since it's been a long time since i talked to him. he told me about his plans after he ORD. and prince, where's yours? stop playing my PSP! GRR! and, long catch up and it's nice to know how he's been doing. (: by the way, rick is prince's camp mate. we prawn until 2:30am. then headed to simpang bedok for supper. and ohh, it's really been a long time since all the old birds gather together. it's nice, really. it felt as if it's back to the past. (: headed home after supper and i got home at 5am. =x and slept after i bathe. too tired.

Monday :
early morning and i got spamming calls. =x cause i didn't wake up in time for sentosa. so regret it now. I WANNA TAN!!! :( and, sorry ziyi.. i know you've been looking forward to it. i promise i'm gonna make another one for you k. (: anyway, made it up to ziyi by asking her to go out in the later afternoon. asked her out to town, went to plaza singapura and accompanied her to buy some cloth.. she wanna make something for jireh. how sweet. (: by the way, prince was saying he wanted me to make an underwear for him. then ziyi was saying if the underwear is made, sure not elastic, so prince can only pull it up and down. LOL! after walking around at plaza, we went over to cathay. cause prince and i wanna bring ziyi to eat the cheap sushi! (: so nice and cheap lahh! 1 plate 99 cents! salmon sushi also! (: hehees. *saliva dripping* then headed to starbucks to get my drink and left cathay. i left for admiralty and prince went home first. took the train ride with ziyi and had a long chat. (: meet micheal at admiralty to get back my laptop. then head home and grab my two sisters to meet prince back at cathay,AGAIN. and bring them to eat that sushi, AGAIN. hmmmmm.......... i been to the same place twice in a day, and ate the same thing, at the same place, twice in a day. how cool... -.- after that prince head back to camp and i head home with the two littles. home around 11pm. =x slept at 4am. -.-

Tuesday :
worked. and after work i went to meet micheal, jaslyn, pris love, eric, qiumei and denise for dinner at chomp chomp. it's a birthday celebration for micheal, qiumei and eric. (: had luxurious foods and enjoyed the night with everyone as companion. hahas. and me, as talkative as i am. LOL! headed to micheal's place after everything and up for a drink! (: had chivas 18 and talked to micheal's mom. told her about prince and told her i wanna bring him to let her see. (: told her about me and prince's plan next year. and about moving in with prince and his family. hmmm... it's always so nice talking to her. (: hahaha. and prince, YOU MUST MEET HER! (: i wanna proudly show you to her! (: anyway, she asked about bevan. nothing much just casual talking and concern about him. (: BEVAN BEH WEI WEN! you better pay her a visit when you're back. she still remembers you k!

and, TODAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHEAL HO! like i told you last night, one year older already, be more sensible and must grow up ler hors. time to plan your future well since now you ORD already. work hard for future eys. career comes first! have a strong foundation then you will succeed! (: jiayou! (:

worked. and i think i'm gonna skate after work. (: feel like skating. HAHA. yeahs. will then.. (: and, i miss prince! (:

and, watch this video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPSUpAFsMQ0

sky did it before he go NS. feel so sad after watching it. :( reminds me of the time when there was only demo team and nothing else. it was just so fun. :( hais. time change everything...

where i belong?

i don't know.. i just don't really feel homely recently. even though they're there as companions. it just don't feels like last time anymore.

all good things come to an end. is this what it's suppose to be?

people change, i know. but if a person changed because of the authority/position of theirs is higher, i can tell you that person is a total failure. and i hope this is not the truth. yes, i'm jumping into my own assumptions. who cares? it's mine, not anyone else.

freedom of speech, my queen says it always exist. and i said before, whoever pass by my blog and read some post of me bitching them. too bad, cause to me, you're worth that bitching. HA. and i did said before, if you don't like me, i'd probably don't fucking like you either. so, i don't fucking care about people i don't like. too bad for those i don't care.

life is short, live it well. say what you wanna say and do what you wanna do to the fullest, isn't this well said? and, i'm doing it well i think. o.0 haha. and it's not the first time i say, people sometimes hates me for my super straightforwardness. but ohh well, that's me. IF i have to be wary of what i say every time, i'm making myself unhappy for not being myself and IF by listening to what i said will make a person so unhappy cause you're not realistic enough. this world, is never fair nor is it like fairytale.

why i'm saying all these, cause i used to be an idiot, a stupid piece of shit, a moron, whatever you can think it is. why? cause i'm always wearing a mask wherever i go. afraid people around me will get offended by what i say and people will hate me. so i have to watch what i say and be careful not to make people hate me. but i came to realise it's damn tiring doing so. cause even when i'm sad, i dare not say or do anything. i was just a piece of weak shit then. but thanks to my friends, who actually helped me to overcome all these shits and make me a better person. and, THAT guy from far away, thank you for creating a turning point in my life and make me realise what life should be. even though you're no longer that close to me, i'm still very thankful with what you're done to make a change in my life. (:

well, this is life isn't it? there's always a turning point when you really change. and i'm met mine and is changing. well, life is definitely better as compared to last time. a lot of people say i changed a lot and say i've become worse. well, why? cause i started going clubbing. and those comments just keep coming in and nasty comments are passed around. well, those people who thinks clubbing is just to find a partner to fuck, then you can just go and fuck spider. cause clubbing is not just about that. okays, look at it this way, IF not for people who thinks clubbing is to look for a partner to fuck, why would there even be people like that? it's always because there's this fixed mentality in you, that's why it'll happen. i admit i do change a lot. but no, i don't agree i've become worse. in fact, through clubbing, through whosgoing, i've learnt a lot. seen a lot of different types of people. and learnt what kind of precautions i need to have in order to protect myself. and learning how to drink is just one of the ways to help myself. i've always know what i'm doing and know what i shouldn't be doing. eg, i've never, NEVER touch drugs. not even a single one. and IF, smoking is taking drugs, police would have caught me long ago. (:

hmm.. it's just part and parcel of life lahhs. everyone will have their own paths to go and meet their own turning point. prince met his in NS. or rather, a lot of guys will have their turning point in NS. why? cause from what prince said, NS will teach you a lot. teach you how to endure, both physically and mentally. why? cause at the end of the day, it's either you LL suck thumb or you sign extra. so, which one you want? -.- well, prince did change a lot, but he's still as childish as ever. -.- though at times, he's trying to act mature. HAHA! ^^ and, for guys who go NS and don't meet their turning point, it's gonna be 24, 25 or even 26, 27 years old before they really meet. -.- it's not easy to meet THAT point. some people met it in schooling times but some people just don't get to meet it so often. i only met mine last year. HAHA. 20 years of living but most of the years i've spent being a clown, wearing mask. damn dumb when i think about it.

anyway, sky is enlisting next tuesday. hmm.. probably prince would wanna spend some time with him, together with the skaters on monday. and monday, SENTOSA!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ hahas.

okays, i'm hungry. time to find food! (:
byebye.

and ohh! weather is kinda suck thingy. =/

Burning~~

yes, the burning sensation from sunburn is like, WOW~~~~~

-.-
damn painful. can't even sleep properly. next time i'm so not gonna apply the ZERO SPF anymore!! it's like, doesn't help me to reduce the sunburn!! eric, thanks ahh! -.- it's like, so OMFG lahh! pain and pain and pain and pain! nothing else but pain! :( and i have to go to work today. :( carry my bag also pain sia. :( but well............. sobs sobs.

never mind, it'll all be OVER SOON!!! (: hahas. but well well, hopefully. :( both me and prince can't sleep well eys? because of the pain. :( and prince gotta go out field some more, which is worse for him. hais. just hope he's alright. :( his condition seems worse than mine. =X but well, we enjoyed tanning together, that's the main point. but after effect, DIE! :( hahas!

okays. just gonna upload some photos nowwww... (: enjoyyy.


meet my buddy, terry! (:


see my tan!




before going sentosa, i'm talking to prince's mummy.





AT SENTOSA~~ (:

eddy's kena bury! (:


prince took this! -.-


lol. this picture of me like like, -.- my butt!


burying in process.


-prince&princess-



98% done. (:



hahahas. eddy got breast sia.


DONE! (:


died in the sand. LOL.


all lying down and tanning. (:


irritatig prince! -.- keep taking my butt! GRRR!


hahahas.


i was looking at hunks. hahas. joking.


cafe del mar. (:


mwaks. >.<


after.


sun rays shining on us. (:


(:(:


bleahs.



okays. i'm so damn tired. goodnight people. (:

Seventeen Magazine's Summer Hunk & Babe Event.

event was held at sentosa's cafe del mar. hahas. from 3pm-6pm. but i went there much earlier, like 10:330am with zac, eddy, wilson and eric. hahas. then played volley ball, frisbee etc. suntan until around 3pm then go to cafe del mar. slack there etc until 6:30pm. left there and had dinner at vivo's kopitiam with zac, eddy and jaslyn. lol.

back home with zac around 9:30pm. then KO-ed damn early. was feeling feverish as well. so went to take medication an i slept all the way. cannot wake up sia. and i didn't go work cause i couldn't wake up. i'm sorry nadia, i couldn't wake up. zac say he tried waking me up but i just couldn't. :(

still feeling damn tired. :( woke up in the afternoon today. around 2pm. like, so late? -.- whole body still burning. damn jialat. :( and still feeling damn sick kind. :(

anyways, my store manager just called me. telling me tomorrow i'm working morning shift. i apologised to him about today's shift. :( still feel so bad. hais......

well, bevan left already. went back at 6pm just now. hope he have a safe trip.

okays. i'm lazy to blog now. i'll update soon k! (:

I'm Sorry Dear..

called zac just now and chatted for about half an hour. cause he wasn't feeling happy for his change in job scope. ( in army. ) he feels he's losing his carefree life in army and have to start chiong-ing ( doing all sorts of shits. ) again. and also because his weekends might be burnt. so he was pissed and unhappy about it.

tried to cheer him up, by doing all the talking, hoping by talking i could change the topic and make him feel better and not think about the unhappy thing so much. but all the while he didn't talk much other than initially telling me about how unhappy he was over the changes. hais. but even after all the talking, he didn't got drifted away from the unhappiness. and yet, he told me he'll cheer himself up. and told me that it has been a long since i last fetched him from his camp. it's not i don't want. i don't have the time. or rather, to be exact. it's only about 2 weeks i didn't fetch him from camp. the first week was because i met up with javier and sky. second was because i'm working. but well, this week i'm working too. so i doubt i can fetch him again. hais. i'm sorry dear.

anyways, was at work today.. from 1pm - 11pm. like 10 hours shift? -.- okays. well, i'm kinda used to it. they're always down with partners and when it's time for me to punch out, the crowd will start coming in. it sucks. but i'm happy for the sales is going up. afternoon was pretty quiet. the crowd only starts to come in at night. -.- and all the frap and cream mix were slamming. -.- was on floor until around 10pm. then i went to back room to do prep works. did 20 litres of cream mix, 18 litres of frap mix and 6 litres of chocolate mix. and when i'm finally done, it's 11pm. :( waited for eddy, sky, gavin, marcus, shawn and shayler ( i don't know how to spell his name ) to come and find me at cathay. then went to the MRT station with sky. eddy and gavin took a bus home, marcus ride home. while the two brothers went to parklane to meet their mother to eat supper. yupps. was home around 12:30am. as usual, limping from MRT station back home. -i got a painful ankle every night i'm home. :(

after i bathe and rest for a while, i went downstairs to get food from the coffee shop. bought carrot cake and fried oyster. and while i was waiting for my food to be ready, there's this guy sitting right opposite me, eating his carrot cake. he was giving me this sad, lonely face. which makes me feels that he's very lonely. at that moment i was like, pity him. cause it's so late at night and he's eating alone. but guess what? just a while later, i saw this lady, sitting next to him. i was like, -.-. but i'm happy for him, at least he got a companion. (: and actually, the whole coffee shop is full with people. -.- all watching the EURO-CUP 2008. lol. i used to catch world cup last time. rushing back home from school just to watch the matches. but not anymore. hahas. anyways, after i packed my food, i went home. ( like duhH! )

ohh like my eyes are really heavy? and i feel really listless. i'm forcing myself to open my eyes and finish this entry as soon as i can. and, it's ending! (:

and, pray for me that it'll be a good weather when the night turns to day. (: and yes! saturday is seventeen beach party for summer hunks and babes! i'm so gonna be there! (: suntan!!!! (: yupps.

so, princess kitty is off to bed now. (:

* baby, i'm sorry i can't always be there for you. but if you can feel it.. i'm always watching you, just like the star right above you. the only star beside the moon, will always be me, watching over you. and remember, the star will lose it's glow whenever you're down. and, i'm always by your side. believe and i will. (:

357

this is the number 357th post i post since 2005.

3 years i've been blogging already. so many posts. so much memories. so much to miss and so much to remember.

feeling emo recently. probably cause of PMS. tends to think a lot.

sometimes i really wonder.. of my past 6 years' life. what have i really become? what have i achieved and learnt? what makes me who i am now? and why am i who i am now? for the 6 years many things happened. 6 years.. 5 of the years i spend with the same guy. whole 5 years was just him and no one else. sometimes i wonder am i just being silly or am i too stupid? or maybe i'm naive. spending so much time on someone who doesn't even appreciate me for 4 years. and finally when i'm appreciated, i lost hopes and faith. everything is just too late. reading my past posts. i realised i was really crazily in love with this guy for the first four years. no matter what happens, i just stay with him faithfully. even though there're quarrels and stuffs. but i still stay with him. for feelings. for all my first time was given to him. my first kiss.. first hug to guy. first guy i bring home. first guy i thought of marrying. first guy i gave a couple ring to. first guy i fork out so much time and efforts on.. first guy i sacrisfy my friends for. first guy who go back my hometown with me.. first guy my family approve.. first guy i go almost the whole of singapore with.. first guy whom i have so much dreams with. first guy i thought would be my last. but everything changed.. ever since 2004. relationship was deteriorating.. everything got worse. gone really bad. until today. it's still deteriorating. even after we're separated. why can't be still be friends? why do we have to still argue and stuffs. i never understood why. each time we're parted, we would argue still ( like what kris said ). never.. never know what's the reason behind it. of all my ex boyfriends.. be it lin ting or whoever.. he's the only one.. only one whom i can't be friends with after separation. don't know why.. life is never the same no more. with him not around.. it's weird. but i can no longer have the feelings i once had for him. it's lost.. vanish into the thin air. together with the wind to far away.. i don't know since when i started losing it. but probably after 31st december 2006. after what he told me on the phone when i was at wilson's place. with maria. hais. everything started losing after that day. my determination is gone. my will is lost. everything is gone. sorry is all i can say.. til today.. i realised my feelings is no longer there. people tell me it's wasted. people tell me not to end it. people ask me why.. the care and concern from them i appreciate.. but what can i do? salvage it when i myself know it's pointless? retrieve the feelings when i can no longer do that? be with someone whom i have no feelings anymore? pretend to be happy when i'm not? then have they ever spare a thought for me? whether am i comfortable being with him? whether am i really happy to be in the relationship? who really care about my feelings? who really think for me? not many. but some.. and the 'some' who think for me are the ones who really care about me, concern about me. my friend once told me ' i can see he really likes you, but you'll never be happy with him ' which i think i agree so much. peharps if things didn't turn nasty on 31st december 2006, it wouldn't be like now. i questioned myself many times.. what so good about me that makes him wanna be with me. i'm not good at anything. i have nothing to provide him with. i'm not the kind of girl he has been looking for.. why me? and i asked myself.. what's so good about him for me to stay with last time? he's good at nothing other than his sweet talks. why do i stay on.. why? a lot of 'whys'. but at least i got my answers now. it's simple.. we're just not meant to be. and even if we are.. we'll meet again when we are. this is the only reason i could give myself. and now that we're separated.. all i hope is both of us can still lead our life happily.. nothing else. i don't wanna have anymore arguements.. so i'm gonna be ignorant. all i can tell him is, ' if you think your assumptions are right, then so be it. i no longer wanna explain.. i no longer owe you answers. i owe you no living and i'm clear of what i'm doing. never a day i let you down other than losing my feelings. things have come this way and i hope to let nature take its courses. forcing is never my style and being myself is what i've been seeking. you can never accept the me now is a fact. so i see no point forcing yourself. nor forcing myself to find back the feelings i've lost. sorry is all i can say. goodbye and take care are my last words. '

said what i wanna say. at least now my heart is more settled. i hate explaining myself. but i have to do this to untie the knot in my heart. i've never wanna be enemies. but it's just so hard to be friends. maybe because of the years we've been together.. hais. don't wanna say so much anymore. what's done is done. and i always believe what's mine will be mine. no matter how long it takes, if it's mine.. i'll have it at the end of the day.

the process of growing up and learning about life is so unpredictable. is everything really destined? maybe. well, life is like that. i miss myself as a child. everyday is just playing.. nothing else. or when i was still a student. all i need was to study and nothing else. no need to worry so much. haiss. now, so much to think and stuffs. fuck up life. sometimes really feel that life is so meaningless. fucking meaningless. why do we even exist? have to go through so much shits. fuck life. i need a break from life. a long break..

tired.. tired and tired. tired of everything i've gone through. wanna sleep. close my eyes and never wake up. though life is short. hais. fuck LIFE!

okays. i'm tired. gonna stop here before i really collaspe from all my wild thoughts.

bye.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. ^^

yeah. finally it's 2008. a year had gone. and so much memories for 2007. yeah.

break ups. sadness. Whosgoing. gelare. cedele. starbucks. clubbing. drink drank drunk. hahaha. so much of memories. happy and sad. (: :(

rahh.. did so many things last year. know so many friends. so much shits happened. and things seems to be in a cycle. -.- rather stupid having things is cycle. LAME. hahahaha.

thanks to those who came into my life last year.. made me a happy person. made me a cheerful person. (: thank you to those who pampered me and loved me! (: I FELT LIKE A LITTLE PRINCESS. (: really. (: all those who cared and concern about me. asking how am i everytime. talk to me online when i'm bored. entertain me.. hahas. those memories.. never be erased.. it's in ---> ("V")--> my heart. (: and those who made me cry.. YOU BETTER WATCH OUT. cause i think i'm gonna make you pay back DOUBLE THIS YEAR. hahaha. *curse you*. hehees.

well well.. i like whatever that happened last year.. (: new life experiences for me. cause these are things you never know how is it if you don't try them yourself. (: yupps. getting to know friends on webs. getting to go out with them. clubbing with them.. all these.. are fond memories. yupps. (:

I FEEL LIKE DOING A SHORT RECAP FOR THE PAST 12 MONTHS. (: they're past.. :(

JANUARY:
broke up with zac. and met bevan. (: he turn me into the happiest girl ever in my life. (: hahahas. i broke zac's heart.. well, at this point of time.. i felt hurt too. -.- cause he calls me a....... ( shall not mention ). and days with bevan is so nice and sweet. haha. (: though the time is short but he's so nice to me. (: pampered me the way i've never been. felt so loved that time.. (: but soon.. he left me.. back to australia on 27th. and i cried.. :( hahas. but he's back there to study. i should be happy for him. on the surface though. :( RAHH! we're still friends. (: that's the good thing. we didn't turn things nasty between us. yupps. i'm glad to have known him. (: though i grieve over his leaving. red rose, movie tickets, dxo, baby chloe, vivo..

FEBRUARY:
patched with zac. so much shits happened still. well.. we promised to give it a shot. try things out. but.. we ain't happy.. cause i was still having bev in my heart. so it's kinda hard for us too.. :( hais. nothing much happened.. working at gelare.. was fine initially.. well well.. look where am i now.. -.-

MARCH:
broke up with zac AGAIN. cause he lied. -.- and again he calls me a...... i cried again.. hais. called mom to tell her what happened. met him the next day to return the presents i owe him. -.- what the hell.. okays. then home i go. sleep! (: then few days later henry call me up to go and find him. i remembered i was at party world with steph. then i was telling her what happened and i was crying. :( then henry ask me go east coast.. end up i went.. zac ask for one last chance. and he cried.. which makes me feel soft hearted. -.- got back with him again.. -.- like every month must break up once then happy. -.-

APRIL:
went to batam with skaters. ivan, zhu, ron, zac and chee mai. had fun there. played sports like go cart and ATV. hahas. so fun. (: and again, me and zac broke up. just before he enlist.. whatever that happened after that night.. i don't wish to say. people who knows know. people who doesn't, too bad. ahaha.

MAY:
i'm leading my clubbing life. left gelare. and got to cedele. yupps. know a lot of friends in WG. a place i call 'heaven' cause i feel happy with my clubbing kakis. (: they're so funny and cute. hahaha. -bev days...-

JUNE:
hmm.. left cedele.. and still clubbing away.. couldn't count how many times i clubbed. -.- edison.. desmond.. vin.. HAHAHA. (: those people. nice and cute. HAHA. gone back to malaysia. hahas. well, yeah. had fun though. haha.

JULY:
back to singpore a few days before WG anniversary. hahas. nice! clubbed with the usual people. fun fun and fun! (: i love my clubbing life. (: my nightlife. YEAH! zac started to contact me again.. well, i ignored him at first.. CAUSE HE'S ATTACHED. -.-and he's telling me things that he told people how he feels about me. -.- met up with him & terry. cause promised him to see him before he goes to confinement. -.- i regret meeting him. cause it's not fun at all. -.-

AUGUST:
patched with zac. -.- i know i shouldn't. and my mom also don't agree. but again, he cried in front of me.. makes me soft hearted. i enjoy being single though.. we were supposed to be trying out for a month. things were sweet at the beginning. no problems.. nothing.. just sweetness. FIREWORKS FESTIVAL. (: and, STARBUCKS.

SEPTEMBER:
things were still alright.. i promise zac i'll try to let go of bev. though i know it's kinda impossible. but i still ask myself to try.. yeah.. cried over that. hais. over bev i cry again. :( hais. went to sentosa with zac for the FIRST TIME. lols. had fun though. ^^

OCTOBER:
well, nothing much happened. just that zac has got a lot of MCs. -.- meet him almost everyday. -.- like damn what lahhs. see each other everyday.. -.-

NOVEMBER:
club on the 7th. -.- once a MONTH. what the fuck. asking someone who clubs almost everyday last time to club ONCE a MONTH! dying.. really feel like dying.. -.- but i was working like mad also.. wanna find time to club also hard.. :( SO SAD. i miss my clubbing life and friends. :(:(:(
national freestyle competition.. i got 3rd.

DECEMBER:
went back to malaysia. bev's back. met up with him. catch up. it's a nice feeling. (: he grew FATTER. hahaha. double chin. LOL. the first sentence i told him was " you grow fatter! " LOL. and after he's back.. zac quarrels with me so often.. :( hais. went back to malaysia. cut my hair.. dyed my hair. went for hair show. pub with mom, uncle and aunt. cool right? SENTOSA with zac, aloy and amy. yeah..

that's the rough idea. LOL. whatever happened, it's part of my life. and i love them all. ahahaha. even the sadness. cause it's something that allows me to grow. grow to become a better person and know people from different angles. (:

okays. time to zZzzZzzz

bye alls. (:

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SENTOSA.

eh. went to sentosa with zac, amy and aloy yesterday. well.. things were okays until we went back to vivo. hais. cause zac insist me to hold his hand.. kiss him. all the PDAs. gosh. i just don't like all these in public. can't i just walk next to him? hais.


after all the lectures and naggings, he came to me and tell me all the sweet things. i'm like.. it on me. don't try to push things too hard and try to get it soft after that. useless. total turn off. i just don't feel like talking to him or anything. hais. i think i'm gonna let it be.. yeah.

don't feel like blogging. photos..


amy & i














FOR OF US.





zac and i





zac and aloy.




random photos.