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| From Sharon Darling. :) |
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| My stupid pimple and dark circles and eyebag. -.- |
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| My Korean classmates are damn sweet! ;) |
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| Carebear from Kris Darling! :) |
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| I choose this! :) |
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| My look today. Look like some sick people. -.- |
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| Didn't even put eyeliner cause I'm having shoot tonight! Leaving the rest of the makeup later! :) |
As my title says, NO! I don't think I'm anorexic! -.- I just don't feel like eating and if I force myself to eat something, I will feel like vomiting? I mean I will still eat something when I'm feeling hungry.. But the problem now is, I DON'T! -.- Sigh. It's going almost 2 days of no solid food since Tuesday's lunch, which was my not-finished-chicken-rice. -.- I just feel very thirsty most of the time and my tummy is always feeling bloated. -.- I never liked water so most of the time I will drink coffee. BOO. I think this can go on until Saturday when I finally meet my girls for steamboat. -.- Gosh. I swear that steamboat is gonna be so not worth it for me! Cause I'm probably gonna just keep drinking the soup and not eating much. GRRRR. But it'll be worth it to be spending the eve with my two most important girls. :)
Baby Jeorgina's Birthday is in Malaysia this year.. But I doubt I'll be going back cause it's kinda rushing for me. :\ Queen is going back later today with the two girls and I'm not gonna spend my eve squeezing with people in Malaysia going back. And I don't wanna rush out on 26th to meet my girls for dinner. So yeah, giving it a miss this year. So, I'll be going to Vivian's house for the Christmas party instead! :) Can't wait for all the good food and drinks! :) It was 2009 since I went to the last Christmas party! :) Feel like baking something! Maybe I should stayover? HAHAHA. I'll decide soon! :)
I'm hoping for this two weekends to be good. :) and I hope 2012 will be a good start. :) Many shoots have been arranged! And I'm pretty excited! :) Hope I can continue to lose my weight until like I'm back in Secondary School. HAHAHA. >.< I think I'm gonna cut my hair after Chinese New Year. Haha! :)
Don't know why but my heart is kinda feeling heavy. Haven't been wanting to go out in large group. First time in so many years, I rejected to meet you all in late nights. I guess I'm starting to give up trying to maintain that friendship we share. Yes, you all been through all the tough times with me. Bring me out of darkness and be there when I needed you all. But really, why must it always be me who take the initiative to call you all before we can finally meet? I'm tired of being the one who have to always do that. Because it's always me fitting into the timings that you all want and it's always late at night. Ever spare a thought for me that I have got work the next day? Always telling me a time to meet but end up always not being able to make it and cancel it last minute or always call me like half an hour before hand and expect me to be free to meet? Really, I'm not like you all.. I don't have that much of free time to keep waiting and waiting. Your time is precious but so is mine. You all have your priorities and so do I. I hope you all know that I'm not someone whom you all look for just cause you all are bored. I hate that feeling. I hate to be put as an option when I put you all as my priority! You all still can call me out, if you all still remember me? But no, I'm not gonna be like before anymore. I'm not gonna be the one who's gonna call you all anymore. Enough is enough. I'm done being Miss-Nice towards you all for the past almost 4 years? My tolerance towards you all has finally reached.
Update soon.
And YOU! Honestly I have no idea why I keep thinking about the you last time. Not now but more like last time. Rewind. Too much rewind these days. Hate every single part of my house that has you in it. I hate the minute I open my eyes I still see the photos there. I hate the minute I walk to my hall and I saw that photo there. Looking back at those photos reminds me of the good old days. Good old days before I feel different, which is more than a year ago. Seriously I hope you can get out of my mind now. The last time you. The you when we went to Batam and Bintan. The you when I still would want to go that extra mile for, that I would accept anything for. But you lost it all, just in one night. I guess maybe it's time to pack everything that has you in it. I need to do that soon, real soon.
