Wild Honey!

Met this 3 girls for dinner. 

Before going for dinner I dropped by at Chanel Taka with E to accompany her to collect her Chanel earrings. L & S met up with us at Chanel itself and we make our way over to Wild Honey @ Scotts Square. I made a reservation earlier on and thank goodness we don't have to wait! :) 

So it's my first time there at Wild Honey.

They serve all day breakfast. 

I'm not a breakfast person. So it's quite interesting to me. HAHA. 

S & I ordered the same dish while E & L ordered the same dish.

I love my meal. I finished every bit of it. :) 

Seems like my appetite is back and it's a bad sign. 

My weight is gaining again and it's depressing again. 

I need to seriously go on extreme diet again. 

Cannot eat so much anymore. 

I'm so angry and frustrated with myself. 

I worked so hard to lose like almost 20kg. 

Why is it that I gain back so fast again?!?! FML. 

I need to fucking control my diet.

E is right, I've been spending too much time outside and spending way too much money. 

Need to stop going out!!!! 

After the dinner we drop by at Balaclava for a while to attend S's company farewell. It's interesting to know new people from the same shipping industry but err, I'm not exactly related so yeah. It's a great exposure, to know bosses this way. -.- Haha. 

I left with L & E and took train together with L. :) 

Okay, next post. 

BATAM!! 

Daily Thoughts.

just like any other days.
as I'm going home..

I always tend to ask myself a lot of questions.
especially when E is not with me.

like..
what is he doing now?
has he eaten his dinner?
what did he have for dinner today?
is he going anywhere later?
if he is then who will he be going out with?
who is he talking to?
what has he been doing today?
etc etc..

I don't know why but I've been like this.
somehow I guess it's the insecurities that he caused from hiding things from me previously.

sometimes I wish I was stupider so I won't end up having my sixth sense proven right.
but I guess the past relationship with Z has taught me to be this smart in relationship.
I've learn to see people's eyes to find out the truth. because Z was such a good liar back then and I was such a fool.

now that I've learnt how to.. it hurts so much each time I found out the truth.
truth hurts. but I rather be told of it than to find out myself.

because finding out myself will only make me feel more insecure towards E. I rather be the first person he tell everything to than to be the last person to find out what things were.

somehow I need to get myself out of this. I can't stay on like this. telling myself to be positive is not gonna help when all E did was nothing.

he's done a good job in making happier. but he's also done a pretty good job in making me feel insecure.

I'm upset. tears keep swelling around my eyes when I think of stuffs but I kept telling myself to hold them back.

don't know how long can I hold anymore.
I just want to worry about nothing and be happy.

Mother's Day 2012.

Like I mentioned before, mother's day was simple. 

We celebrated a day earlier this year hoping we could avoid the crowd. 

But well, being typical Singapore, there are a lot more people who are more kiasu than me. 

Nonetheless, I'm glad we got a table after 15mins of waiting for FatFish Steamboat. 

The varieties there are pretty common but what's good is that they provide each guest their own individual seafood platter, which I was too happy eating and forgot to take photos. -.- So pardon me. 

Only bad thing I felt is that the ice cream is not free flow. ): I'm super auntie nowadays okay! 

But after all, everything was worth it as long as my Queen is enjoying it. :) 

Price for the steamboat: 

Adult Weekday Ala-Carte Buffet (Mon-Thur excld Eve&PH) $25.90++ 

Child Weekday Ala-Carte Buffet (Mon-Thur excld Eve&PH) $12.90++ 

Adult Weekend Ala-Carte Buffet (Fri-Sun, Eve&PH) $25.90++ 

Child Weekend Ala-Carte Buffet (Fri-Sun, Eve&PH) $12.90++ 

Additional $3 surcharge during Fri/Sat/Sun, Eve of PH and PH.

So yes, I paid $29.90++ for 4 of us cause it's a Saturday and they said 12years old is an adult when my sister is only 11, going on 12 but she's tall. Freaking attitude. -.- I rather have steamboat at Seoul Garden next time! Pfft! Maybe for the coming one I'll have it have Seoul Garden, it's gonna be Princess A's birthday next Friday!

Okay, so after dinner we walked around before heading home. 

Good thing about going to SSC for dinner is we saved on the transport fees cause there's free shuttle bus from my house's bus stop. HAHA.

E didn't join us cause he was in Hong Kong with his family. :)

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOM!!

You know I always love you. :) 

XOXO

Why..

Somehow I cannot remember when was the last time I never ask you ' really meh? '.

Seems like it's difficult for me to fully trust again.
I really hate PMS.
Because that's the time I start to thinking a lot, about the past, the present and the future.
The good, the not so good and the bad.

My mind is so tired.
Haven't slept over the weekend cause I was sleeping on other's bed and only managed to catch some rest last night at E's place.
It's always good to be sleeping next to him.
Because that's the only time I probably won't think so much as he's next to me.
That's probably the only time when my mind is in peace and can finally rest.

This issue has been in me for long enough but I just can't seems to let my mind free from all the thoughts and it's getting exhausted.

Suddenly tears is overwhelming and I feel like crying. I hate this feeling.
Been trying so hard not to think negatively but somehow negativity just hit me.
My heart feels so heavy. It's like a million pieces of rocks are pulling me down.
Feel so suffocated.

I just hope this week will be over with a blink of an eye.
It's Monday but I already feel like I'm in hell.
Grrrrrrr. ):

I'm feeling so fat and ugly.
I need to go on diet.
Lose all my fat thighs and arms and tummy.
Omg, society's 'skinniness' has officially put a stress on me.
Feel like killing myself.

PMS?

is it true that when you're having pms you're thinking a lot and feeling a lot?

somehow maybe it's true.
so much emotions in me now.
and it's all so negative.

I'm in need of so much attention and affection right now. ):

Last Two Weeks.

Sembawang Shopping Centre's Kungfu Paradise!

Minestrone.

Princess A.

Queen & Princess M. 

4 of us.

Chocolate Lava Cake.

Dinner with my wifeys.

TGIF at Katong I12!

M & S.

Dinner with skaters. Pontian Wanton Mee!

I've been wanting to eat dessert! Finally!

Our skates. Radius & Twister.

Rochor!

Stop at Ion Orchard!

My super messy room!

All my clothes, unfolded & folded.

Tadah! Changed the bedsheet, pack my clothes, packed my bags and my accessories!

Tampines!

Fried Oyster.

Clay Pot Rice!

Mother's Day Dinner! :)

Kranji War Memorial Park.

The entrance.

The interior.

Woodlands Waterfront.

My photographer say it's a good place for dating. But it's super out of the way! -.-

Super extreme fruit juice.
Pineapple + Papaya + Banana!

Lunch with E nearby his house.

The fishball noodles that took forever!

Dessert!!

Long time no eat Ah Chiang!

And oh I started reading again. LOL

This book is inspiring!

One of my favourite part!

Happy girl with the new love.
#Chanel #Necklace.

The day after my insomnia. ):
Super chui face. ):

The last two weeks I haven't been out much. 

Just a brief one about what happened. 

02.05.2012

My family had a belated birthday dinner with me cause usually that's what they will do on actual day with me. But because this year I spent my dinner with E and slept my lunch away, so yeah, they had to do it the next day. :) 

Dinner was at Sembwang Shopping Centre where we were suppose to eat the newly opened steamboat at the basement but because we went too late, the shop was closing already. ): So we had to find alternative, which was Kungfu Paradise. It's my second time eating Kungfu Paradise but I still choose to eat their pasta menu. Haha. The food there is simple and nice. Fusion of chinese and western food. :) Was a short dinner but the four of us are happy. :) I guess we just needed each other's company, that's all. Don't know since when, it's like a routine to have birthday dinner for our birthday. :) But this year Queen is going back Malaysia to celebrate with Uncle and Granny. :) But I'll be paying for her Tioman trip with Uncle they all as a birthday present this year! :)

05.05.2012

E & I woke up early and we went to Lor7 market for lunch before I eventually get out of the house to go and meet my girlfriends at Katong I12! It's just so hard to get out of bed when I'm napping after eating and with E just nearby me! ): Feels super lazy. But anyway, I met the girls for dinner at TGIF and they bought my favourite tiramisu! :) Hehe. Ended the night going to Cash Studio for some throat screaming session and me going home on bus 854 reading Eat Pray Love. 

06.05.2012

I woke up in the afternoon, with a very welcoming thunder followed by a heavy rain! My heart sank because that was the day for our urban skating! ): So my group chat was just spamming talking about waiting for the rain to stop and updating each other about the weather from their respective location. Thank goodness when I left my house the rain stopped. But unlucky us the rain started again when we reaching parkway! ): But anyway, we went ahead with the skating and I'm glad it all went well! :) Been a long time since I last skated and I'm super glad I didn't fall down! :) Hehe. Ended the location at Orchard Ion! :)

Apart from all these, I've done packing my messy room but I guess it will be messy again soon!  >.< I made the effort okay! Hahaha. 

And I've started reading again to keep my brain cells working and at the same time keeping myself occupied. 

I met up with my Taiwan girls for clay pot rice at Chinatown and went to sing karaoke with them at 10 dollar club! 

Went to the steamboat at Sembawang Shopping Centre with my family for Mother's Day dinner on eve of mother's day while going to teo heng on the actual day. :) 

E went to Hong Kong last Saturday morning and he's coming home tonighttttttt! But I'll be leaving for Batam tomorrow morning and I'll be back on Sunday afternoon/evening. :) 

And I did a photoshoot with A last Sunday morning. The weather was bad but the theme was just a fashion shoot at Kranji Memorial Park. :) The outcome was great. I will post some photos soon! :) Hehe. 

I went to gym with E last night, my body is feeling so sore now! ): Super upset. But I kinda like going to gym now. Feel like signing the package for 2 years to tone up my body and maintain it. But if I really sign up for it I guess I'll be going everyday after work but rest during the weekends. >.< Since I already paid for it, MIGHT AS WELL wad. Still thinking but I'm not sure. ): Sigh. 

Spending the night with E tonight at her place before batam tomorrow morning. :)

Gonna buy yummy food from Old Airport Road before going over her place! Maybe I should get Lao Ban! >.<