When I Say No, You Go Away.

You know, there's a limit to everything in life. 

• A limit to sacrifice.
• A limit to willingness.
• A limit to keep trying.
• A limit to initiate.
• A limit to asking.
• A limit to telling.
• A limit to tolerance.

I may be the girl with the most mood swings. I may be the most unreasonable girl. I may be the most willful girl. I may be the most annoying girl. I may be the most irritating girl. I may be the most bad tempered girl. I may be everything bad you can think of. Really, I guess everyone is pretty much about the same. The things you don't like about me, are the things you probably have already done so or is doing. 

In life, we meet a lot of different people who taught us different values and then make us a stronger/weaker person. It's how you see it, handle it and deal with it. Most importantly, I feel it's how you feel. 

If you feel good about doing something, there's no limit to keep on asking because you're interested. If you feel good about being heard you don't have a limit to tell, to share. If you feel good about the results, there's no limit to keep trying and initiating to learn. If you feel that that's what you love, there's no limit to willingness to sacrifice and to tolerate whatever shit that may come. BUT... when everything is opposite, there's a limit to everything that you're gonna do. Irony. Yeah, it is. Because we're human. 

Okay, talking about this because I don't feel good having people whom I'm not close to to be part of something that I have with people whom I'm close to. I've already said before, to get close to me, you need to win my trust. I have very serious trust issues. And of course, I know everyone has it too. So it doesn't makes me an exemption. You want to be close to me, gain my trust. And how to? Be real in front of me. Don't fake everything you do. You bunch of people are people whom I regard as 无事不登三宝殿. Yes, you all are. Period. 

P/S: I'm sorry I always put you and two other boys in difficult positions but I can't help it. They're too fake to even be my friends. I can't stand the way they do things therefore the only way to not involve anymore anger is for them to stay away from me. I don't want to have anything to do with anyone of them other than in this workplace. Unless one day I can feel their sincerity, if not there's no way for me to even want to befriend them. I'm sorry.. 

1st May 2011.

I'll love you still, even when you're old and saggy! :D 

Bruce gave me bird nest. Tsk! (:


I WANT THIS BAG. T.T Nice? Lol.




I've been a good girl okay. I finish my homework and pay attention in class lor!




Went to play bowling with Boyfriend last night. I did tremendously bad. -.- Super jialat.

First lesson has been good and I'm still able to catch up with what the lecturer has taught. Business Accounting, I'm gonna master it well in one month. Exam is on the 7th May so mean time, I'm gonna be very busy with school, revision, revisions and homework and assignments. Tsk. I'm sorry if I missed out any of you to go out with. But really please do pardon me as I'm really trying hard to juggle my time with work, school(which includes lessons and assignments and exam), family, friends and of course, Boyfriend. It's only the 7th and now my calendar is almost full. So yeah, imagine the amount of things I have on hand. Really no time for other things. Because I only have one chance to make things right so I'm not gonna waste this chance. Every lesson is money. It's not $10/$20. It's $51.50. I'm already gonna waste one lesson for my birthday celebration. Boo. ): I really need a lot of understanding friends now. (:

Time is passing so quickly that it seems so scary now. We're racing with time, running after time and chasing time. We all complain how much we're lack of time doing the things we want to do and need to do. We're just not satisfied with 24hours a day. But I can assure you, even if there's 48hours a day, it's never gonna be enough. Why? Because it's human's nature to complain about every fucking thing in this world and that includes time. Tsk. 

Time management, good thing to learn but not all can master. Tsk. There's always this ' last minute ' thing that seems to be in the trend now that everyone is doing. Or maybe, all the while. I think it's part and parcel of learning that we learn to appreciate time. Learn to plan things and make time enough for everything you want and need so you shut your own mouth and don't complain anymore. 

Sometimes I laugh at myself. For being so pissed off everytime I miss the train that I normally take even though the next train is in 2mins time. Why? Because I'm gonna be 2mins late for everything. Then I'll think, ' why didn't I walk a little faster? ' ' Why didn't I leave the house earlier? ' ' Why didn't wake up a little earlier? ' and I'll get so pissed off, with myself. -.- So gradually I realised, the problem is Time. The one thing that we've been complaining about this whole time. True, no?

1. You rather be stuck in front of your computer using Facebook, Twitter or MSN than to get ready to go out and result in you being late and you got your friends pissed off. You deserve it.
2. You rather be stuck to your TV watching your favourite TV show than to leave your house to meet your friends at an arranged time and place then you're late. You deserve it.
3. You leave your house late and then the train comes late and you're late then you piss your friends. You deserve it.
4. You're late, you piss your friend, you piss your boss, you're being punish for being late, you get scold for being late and you get fucked for being late, YOU DESERVE IT. 

Blame it all on yourself for being late. No one else. The bus and MRT arrive at almost the same time everyday. It's only SOMETIMES when there's delay and probably that's when you're fucking unlucky. I think sometimes it's good to do self-reflections. It's like you know something is happening everyday, at the same time, same place, it'd have been a ROUTINE for you and you should be used to it after 3months of doing it. Eg: Going to your office. Stated you're suppose to report to work by 9am. But you arrive even later than the boss, you think you're right? Even if you're late by 1min, you're late. End of story. So you either come in before or on the dot at 9am. Tsk. Full stop. (: 

Great apart from all these ranting. Because somehow I find it quite ridiculously when someone in my office tells me ' I'm not late ' when it's 9:12am. Yeah, you're not late in your own company. Period. Tsk. I'm not god, I don't make time change to 8:12am when I lift my head up and see the clock every morning. Too bad for you, be early next time. (:

Okay, I'm getting really wordy.. Gonna end the post with some of my wishlist. HAHAHAHA.

Nice???  Lumix GF2.

IT'S TAKEN WITH THIS CAMERA! Who's willing to sponsor me some money to buy this? Or who's kind enough to get me one. >.<

D90.
Or you can get me this and I'll shut up.







A new and BIGGER oven! -.-

A new Super Single bed.


A new Wardrobe! I want sliding doors and mirror one! >.<

Okay, kind of impossible to get all of them. Heh. Boyfriend say my wallet is kiddy and it's time to change new wallet. So he asked me to look around for something I want then tell him. HAHA. I WANT CHANEL BAGGGG! Kidding. I won't even carry it out even if he really buy for me. HAHA. So he said ask me to look at other brands and now I kinda set my mind on Feragamo wallet. HAHAHAHA. Not confirm yet but I'll still look around before I tell him what I want. Tsk. Sunny told me to ask Boyfriend to buy me stuffs from Hermes. I think if I really own any of these too-expensive-over-one-thousand-branded-stuffs, I'll lock them up in a safe and not use them. -.- So wtf? No point buying me something so expensive cause I won't use it. Boyfriend initially asked ' Chanel purse can? ' I was like thinking in my mind ' WTF I WON'T EVEN BRING IT OUT LA OMG. ' -.- I am a very careless person and I can lose anything like a thousand times. It's not I don't cherish or treasure, I'm just super careless and clumsy. :\ So I rather want something not so expensive and I'll use it. (: HEHE. 

Plus, I don't really know much about branded. Yes, I don't. I'm not a very branded person so you see, when Boyfriend tells me to get other brand stuffs, I'm like ' what are there to buy? ' -.- I know Longchamp(because my bestie has it), I know Coach(because my godma gave me one as my 21st present), I know LV(because my Queen has it), I know Burberry(because Francis told me about it), I know all the Armani(s)[because Boyfriend tells me], I know Chanel(because all the girls are crazy about it). -.- I know their names. But I don't even know what are they good for. Why people wants them and what good do they bring? It's like super pricey for me? Zzzz Yes, I'm like this for your info. I don't mind spending money on FOODS & DRINKS but not all these kind of luxury, branded stuffs. Tsk lucky for my Boyfriend hur. Haha. :P

Okay, so much for now. 

Please don't forget to remember me even though I know I'm gonna be so busy with school. 

P/S: From now on, I know I'm gonna be really busy with school and won't have much time for you.. But I'll still try to make time for you okay. (: ILY.

2 x 2 = 4.

In case you guys don't know, I love my eyes more than I love anything else. Because my eyes are my asset. I have abnormally huge eyes that differ from the rest of my family, I don't know why and that's what made me special among them all. And I was the only with such eyes, perfecto since young. But now, I have to wear spectacles. ): Myopia and astigmatism. ): I'm damn sad now. ):

If you're interested. I'm in Kaplan now.


So many people's birthday on 1st April? -.- I know one of them is fake. Lol.


Saturday morning, Boyfriend went to collect my work permit with me. (:


Wahaha too bored while waiting and there, that ah neh in the middle of us, so weird.


(:

Boyfriend and I at Bugis, last Friday. I lost that hairband on Saturday at the swimming complex. ):
Jurong East Swimming Complex.2nd April 2011.

Happy little girl. (: Heh.


Getting ready to go swimming.


Letting her get use to the water. (: Okay I know I'm fat shut up. :\


Loving the water already. Hahahaha. She actually didn't want me to hold her! -.-


Want to take photo with her also difficult, keep moving, turning her head and all. Lol.


My mom say she love this tyre. I don't know why also.. Hahaha.


She keep bouncing herself around. Damn funny!




Tired already I think. Hahahaha! Super cute!


Princess Jiamin bring her to the playground.


Princess Jiayi playing with her at another children pool. Haha.


Ended the night with some group photos. (:


<3


>.<


My naked face. Okay, ugly I know shut up.


My hair is super messy.


Bleahs!


What are they looking at?


This!


And this!


On the way to Northpoint in the cab. (:


Super serious looking at the camera cover.


I asked her to pose and this is what she gave me. Damn cute!


Jeorgina and her friend. Lol.

Lazy Sunday.3rd April 2011. 
Banana Walnut Loaf! :D


Sleeping Baby!


Finally he can get so close to her. Haha.


And take a picture with her. Yeah that's me sleeping. LOL.
Too tired okay! -.-

I had a fulfilling weekend! (: like 90% of the time was spent with my family, together with Boyfriend. (: heh. It was really good to be around them the whole time. Seeing the little naughty baby Jeorgina walking around me, don't allow me to do things and keep pulling my shorts and seeing her so happy playing with water at the swimming complex, it's a complete blessing. (: I love how close me and my family is now. (: 

Friday night was going to Boyfriend's Polymates dinner at Bugis. Some of them I already knew, like James, Alvin and Cheetong. The rest of them were first time meeting. And thank you Alvin, trying so hard to introduce me to their Polymates! -.- That's because he wants to tell them my full name! -.- GRRR! But it was nice to see them talk about their past. (:

Saturday was spent at Jurong east with the little ones and Queen, together with Boyfriend. Sunday was cooking Mee Hun Kuay and then baking Banana Walnut Loaf. (: Great lazy Sunday isn't it? I LOVE TO GET LAZY ON SUNDAYS! :D

Today is Monday and it's kinda blue because I slept at 2am last night having Baby Jeorgina to cry in the middle of the night. ): Didn't have enough sleep, that's why. I'm so going home to read up my study guide tonight and sleep early. Tomorrow is the first day of school, it's rather exciting and at the same time, my heart's already feeling tired knowing it's gonna be a long day. ): Never mind, soon I'll be used to this life. I know I can do it! :D 

Taiwan Taiwan. This and that and that and this. Here and there and there and here. Why do I feel like I'm always the only one who's enthusiastic about organising trips whereas everyone else is like, being spoon fed? Why is it like everyone cannot confirm everything all at once instead of like all the ' don't know don't know ' ? Don't they know it's causing hell lot of inconvenience for the person organising the trip/event? There's a reason for planning things ahead. So that you can fucking block your dates. If not what's the fucking point of ' advance notice '? I'm learning this. It's okay, people take people for granted. I'm not gonna be nice anymore. Only to those whom I want to. I'm gonna always give last minute shits again. (: You don't like it? Look into the mirror and tell yourself that. Fuck you all seriously. 

Yes, going to be time of the month soon. Don't provoke me, I'll bite. 

I need my DVDs and potato chips.

P/S: Sorry you gotta bear with my nonsense again.