Insane.

I think i went insane. over Dota. =/

i didn't sleep on Thursday just to play Dota. i Dota-ed for total of 17 hours that day. =X I'm going crazy.. Shit. =S Was so damn tired. =/

Last night training, nothing much. Do the normal stuffs.
Rookie Com in two weeks?
EEks. I'm so sick of competition actually.
but ohh wells.

I've got Photos to upload. But I'm so Lazyyyyyyyyyyy.

okays, actually I'm troubled. By my own thoughts and feelings.
Me, as a person who is always cheerful and happy, I don't like this feeling of being troubled.
I'm someone who loves laughter and nothing in mind.

I read Lynn's blog few days back. and she was there grumbling about the truths and lies issues.
PERSONALLY, if I'm her, i would mind a lot as well.

I, cannot stand my boyfriend to be with me after he slept with a girl.
I, cannot stand my boyfriend being a bastard like that.
and this incident definitely is gonna cause some distrust for me in my boyfriend.
and it's definitely not gonna be any better if the truth is not out.

Sometimes when i know/ found out things that i shouldn't know about my Prince. It's not i don't wanna confront him or question him. I'm just waiting. to see if he's the heart to confess himself or admit his wrongdoings. And i call this, Chance to repent.

But apparently, sometimes he thinks his Princess is dumb enough or really that stupid that she doesn't know a single shits. He forgot his Princess will always have her ways to figure out the truths. and of course, I've got this sixth sense that tells me whether I'm right or wrong. And I did told/warn him before not to ever lie to me cause i REALLY REALLY hate liars.

I'm someone who can break up with my mate because he lie to me for your infor. Cause as i said before, when i'm harsh, i can be hasher than you ever imagine.

Cause to me, Trust is very important in a relationship. and what builds up the trust is truths. You use your Heart to treat a relationship and not just using your fucking mouth to sweet talk. That's why i never like guys who sweet talk a lot. To me, guys who sweet talks are just talking to cover up their lies. Pathetic people, cause they can't even be true to themselves.

okay, never mind. back to myself. Yes i'm troubled. I'm unhappy now. I'm frustrated now. I feel like slapping someone real hard or let me punch somebody. Too bad, the one who will always cheer me up isn't here. Ben, i miss you. It's always at these point of times, I'll think of Ben and miss him so much more than usual. Cause he's someone who's always there for me no matter what. He's someone who really know how to cheer me up. and i need that now, Ben. =(((

=((

I'm sad.
cause my Garena is not working today! =(((
i wanna Dota.

I've been stuck at home, doing chores instead of Dota-ing because of this! =X
I sweep & mop the whole house already. I'm a good girl, why Garena wanna bully me. =((
I even wash the toilet already. =((((((

I've been such a good girl, you know? =(
I wanna Dota! =((


Damn, i'm so not addicted to Dota. =)

New Song. =)

i added a new song to my playlist. =) enjoy! =) put it down to the second song. click it whenever you like k? =)


《一升的眼泪》3月9日 歌词


流れる季节の真ん中で
在流动的季节里

ふと日の长さを感じます
忽然间感觉到时间的长度

せわしく过ぎる日々の中に
匆匆忙忙流逝的每一天

私とあなたで梦を描く
我跟你编织著梦想

3月の风に想いをのせて
3月的风乘载著想像

桜のつぼみは春へとつづきます
只要春天到了樱花就会持续绽放

溢れ出す光の粒が
洒落而下的阳光

少しずつ朝を暖めます
一点一点的温暖了早晨

大きなあくびをした后に
打了一个大大的呵欠

少し照れてるあなたの横で
有点害羞的你在我身边

新たな世界の入口に立ち
站在一个崭新的世界的入口

気づいたことは 1人じゃないってこと
回过神来已经不是孤单一个人

瞳を闭じれば 偁侧偨偑
☆闭上双眼

まぶたのうらに いることで
你就在我的眼眸里

どれほど强くなれたでしょう
能够变得多坚强呢

あなたにとって私も そうでありたい
对你而言 我也是这麼的希望著

砂ぼこり运ぶ つむじ风
旋风拌著沙尘

洗濯物に络まりますが
把晒在外面的衣服缠绕著

昼前の空の白い月は
中午前天空上那白色的月亮

なんだかきれいで 见とれました
觉得好美好美而看得入了迷

上手くはいかぬこともあるけれど
虽然也会遇到不顺遂的事

天を仰げば それさえ小さくて
抬头看看天空就会发现 那有多微不足道

青い空は凛と澄んで
蓝天那麼的清澈

羊云は静かに揺れる
像羊群般的云静静的飘荡

花咲くを待つ喜びを
等待花开的喜悦

分かち合えるのであれば それは幸せ
如果能跟你一起分享 那就是幸福

この先も 隣で そっと微笑んで
在那之前 也有我在你身边 静静的微笑著

☆瞳を闭じれば あなたが
闭上双眼

まぶたのうらに いることで
你就在我的眼眸里

どれほど强くなれたでしょう
能够变得多坚强呢

あなたにとって私も そうでありたい
对你而言 我也是这麼的希望著

San gatsu Juu nichi
Lyrics: Ryota Fujimaki
Music: Ryota Fujimaki

Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de
Futo hi no nagasa wo kanji masu
Sewashiku sugiru hibi no naka ni
Watashi to anata de yume wo egaku
San gatsu no kaze ni omoi wo nosete
Sakura no tsubomi wa haru he to tsuduki masu
Afuredasu hikari no tsubu ga
Sukoshizutsu asa wo atatame masu
Ookinaa kubi wo shita ato ni
Sukoshi tereteru anata no yoko de
Arata na sekai no iriguchi ni tachi
Kiduita koto wa hitori ja naitte koto
*Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni irukoto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai
Suna bokori hakobu tsumuji kaze
Sentaku mono ni karamari masu ga
Hirumae no sora no shiroi tsuki wa
Nan daka kirei de mitore mashita
Umaku wa ikanu koto mo arukeredo
Ten wo aogeba sore sae chiisa kute
Aoi sora wa rinto sunde
Hisu ji kumo wa shizuka ni yureru
Hanasaku wo matsu yorokobi wo
Waka chiaeru no de areba sore wa shiawase

Kono saki mo tonari de sotto hohoen de

*Repeat

Happy Things!! ^^

I've some announcement to make. And since it's Happy Things, I'll share it with the world. =)

READY?

1. Lynn and Lucas's One Year Anniversary, 20th February! =) CONGRATULATION! ^^
2. 24th February is Prince and I's 79th Month-sary. =) 5 more months to go and it'll be 7th year! =) I Love You My Prince! =)
   

okays, end of announcement. ^^


P/S: i'm glad my relationship is not like someone's.

Sick.

I'm not sick. But my Prince is. Been sick since last Saturday actually. =(((
now he's resting. hope he get well real soon. =S

the day before yesterday, he played Dota with me for 12 hours. -.- and after Dota-ing, went to eat breakfast with Lynn, Lucas and Terry Buddy. by the time we're back home, it's almost 8:30am. damn. and by the time we sleep, it's already 9+. It all started off with cough. he was having sore throat actually. then his Mom gave him this bamboo salt thingy and ask him to suck it. I personally think it taste awful lahh! =X but it didn't help much for his sore throat. then it become cough.. and on Saturday before we go and play LAN, he's already running fever. and when we're home after LAN, bad bad bad! =((( shouldn't have played LAN that day... =X

and on Sunday, Monday and Today, he'll still having fever here and there. it's just so on and off. hais. and cough's not getting any better. hais.. just hope he'll be okay.. =( he's working tomorrow.. i told him to call Steven to let him know he's still sick. but he refuse. just pray that work don't make him more sick. maybe i should go down east coast? i don't know. if he's really not feeling well, i rather he stay home and rest. don't exert himself because of work. not worth his health for work.

okays. that's about it. i wanna play dota! =D



OHH! LET ME SHARE SOMETHING WITH YOU ALL.

i was told that,
the guy don't love the girl as much as the girl love the guy.

pathetic isn't it?
good game. =))
it's just a matter of time. HA.
joke of the day, for me at least.

LAN

-.-

the past two days, ICians have been playing LAN. LOL. needless to say, it's Dota. -.-

now, ICians have two girls playing Dota, Lynn and Me. hahahaha. and Lynn is improving! =) hahaha. she can be a hard core game player man! =X which i don't think i'll be doing that..

yeahs, so last friday and saturday after training, we went to LAN shop.. Friday went to the one at Katong Shopping Centre, Home Of Pool. Played until 6am. -.- back home, sleeeeeppppp. Saturday went to Katong Shopping Centre but there wasn't any com left for the 12 of us. so walked to Joo Jiat's Zion. -.- i'll never wanna go there anymore. Com sucks, Boss is unreasonable. We were there like 2 hours plus but we only get to play 1 hour ? was all busy helping to do the fucking connection. LAN is only applicable to those of the same roll. so different cannot go on LAN. -.- how stupid.

okays, i'm so not gonna ever go back there anymore. -.- sucks big time there. -.-

and so, back home at 5am. sleep soon after i bathe. =)

and, TODAY!
i wake up at 3:30pm. eat my branch at 4:30pm. -.- Prince's brother ordered Pizza Hut for dinner later and it'll be delivered at 8pm. hahaha. GOOD. ^^ gonna stay home the whole day i think. Garena whole day. LOL.

okays, byebye!

GARENAAAA!

Moody.

fuck the world.

Back In Malaysia =)

had a good weekend and now i'm back in Malaysia. =)
not gonna be a long trip i guess. =)

and first of all,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED DARLING STEPH! =) hope you'll have a really good one. i'm sorry i can't be there to celebrate with you cause i'm back here in Malaysia... =X nevertheless, you know i love you as much too! ^^ 5 years of friendship and still counting! =D

okays, now a little update yeahs, =)
Valentine's Day was spent half a day at Prince's place, with his family and the other half with Skaters at ECP until 12:30am, the next day. LOL. then continued our celebration until the next day 7am. We ( Prince, Me, Lynn, Lucas, Jordan, Tingfei ) went to Cenileisure for a movie ( Bride Wars ). yeahs, Prince was half asleep and Tingfei was totally sleeping after 5 minutes from the start. -.- waste money. then we went to play Dota at the shopping centre next to Istana. LOL. i don't know what's the name. haha. Dota for two match and it ends at 7am. Lol. Won both match. HAHA. okay lahhs, not because i'm good, just cause of luck. heh. =) Back to Prince's place at 7ish then bathe etc.. i went to sleep and Prince head for work. =( he didn't sleep since Friday.. =S

Sunday, i slept the whole day. -.- Prince came back home at 6ish-pm and woke me up for dinner. after dinner, which was around 8pm.. We went back to sleep. okays, call me a pig k. -.- I'm tired! time of the month is always the most tiring days. -.- GRR. yeahs, slept the night away~~ -.-

Monday, woke up at 5pm. had dinner.. then Dota with Lynn, Lucas, Terry and Prince. =) hahaha. Dota until almost 11pm. then me and Prince left home for my home. HAHA. back home 1:20am after supper at Yishun S11. then continue Dota on Garena with Terry. =) okays, a bit Dota siao. -.- Slept at 5am. haha.

Tuesday, woke up 2pm.. -.- slack around, get ready etc then leave home 4pm for lunch with Queen and my Princesses. =) of course, my Prince also lahh! after lunch we head back to Malaysia.. MASSIVE jam at the custom. -.- and i'm damn angry with those inconsiderate people who doesn't even queue and just get up the bus when the bus arrive. who the fuck they think they are? fuckers. i don't give a shit who they are, i complaint LOUDLY to Prince after we got up the bus. and telling Prince that they're all idiots whose primary school teacher never taught them how to queue. NO MANNERS, what a good family up bringing. THUMBS UP. damn fucking grumpy. my cousin fetch us at Malaysia's custom and send us to the Interchange cause i don't wanna squeeze with idiotic people. -.- got up the bus back to Kluang at 8pm. my Uncle fetchy us at Kluang, 10pm and we head for supper. =) It's Prince and I's dinner actually. =S after supper, head back home.. Install dota on my cousin's computer. HAHA! then had our cockles. as usual.. -.- and we went to sleep at 3am after some nagging from my uncle. LOL.

that's it. i'm gonna bathe! =)
update soon!
AND, DOTA TONIGHT! lol

Surprise! =)

i woke up today, turn to my left, a bouquet of blue roses is lying next to me. =) and it comes with a little card, with all those lovey dovey words. ALL FROM MY BELOVED PRINCE! =) thank you my Prince! ^^

actually i started the day feeling grumpy cause i had to wake Prince up in the morning but he took me forever to wake him up. so i got fed up! -.- but seeing the roses, everything was gone. =)

my Dearest Prince is working now. maybe i should go and find him later. =) NO TRAINING TODAY! =) so we can go out! =) but i guess Prince is very tired.. =X cause we Dota until like 6am.. he only got to sleep a few hours and needs to get up for work.. =X so maybe we're not going out... =) well, as long as we're happy, everyday is valentine's day! =) valentine's day is just a day to make people feel special.

okays. time to eat and get ready to go out. =)

photos time! =)

Prince decorated this with chilli and the green thing. -.- a heart shape. =)

haha. <3

my surprise today! ^^

I Love You Too. =D

3 Stalks = I Love You.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! =)

happy V day to EVERYONE I LOVE! =)

that includes,
my Family,
my Prince,
my Friends. =)


i love you all! =)

p/s: V day is a day to express love isn't it? ^^