i think i'm down with flu. coughing and sneezing the whole time today. gosh. fuck. plus there pain at the lower rib bones. god damn it.
and the medicine keep me so drowsy. sleeping and sleeping the whole day. i slept at 1 plus am last night and woke up about 45 minutes ago. -.- what the hell. like a log. queen said i seems to be dead cause she called my name and i didn't respond. -.-
didn't go work today.. on MC. kinda having worries in my heart.. worry if everything goes well.. worry if anything is missing. worry if it's busy.. hais. feeling so bad. i didn't wanna go on MC. but queen insisted me to have the MC. she was even thinking of getting more than one day. but i told the doctor one day is good enough.
i don't wanna be look upon as a ' MC-er '. i don't like that. even when i was at starbucks, i don't usually have MC.
hais.. why does time seems to pass slower when i'm working in IC than when i'm working in starbucks? am i really enjoying myself over at IC? am i? is this what i really want? or it was a mistake all along? that i mistaken the benefits of it. what i truly wants.. is a place, where i really enjoy working at. where i truly want to treat as my second home... but... am i having it? or am i just deceiving myself, forcing myself to blend in to this new life i'm trying to cope with?
fighting hard, fighting strong. that's why i'm never engage in any sales or retail line. i'd rather choose F&B though it's tougher. but i enjoy myself. i like the way customer is being served. i like everything there. if, ever i have a chance to overturn the situation, i will definitely do.
cause i came to realise,
i'm not happy working here at all. all that they ever provided me with, was the companionship and the fun of everything but, never work. the difference is too huge for me to take.
suddenly, i feel so weak in emotion. just need someone to be there for me, yet again.
*baby, i need your presence. :(
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
shit.
my lower rib bones hurts like nobody business. =x :(
it feels like muscle over stretch. but no, it's not. i didn't fall recently, not BAD fall i mean. yet it's just so painful. :( and so, my mom dragged me out of bed today and brought me to polyclinic to see doctor. ohh god, i reached thee like 3:15pm and i left there like, 5:30pm? see how long it took me? waste time! i could just stayed home and sleep.
wasted my time never mind, still have to pay $60. for consultation, X-ray and some crap medicine. -.- after that, went to shop for some medical plaster for in-case-next-time-skating-i-fall-and-get-abrasions. and it cost me $8. what the hell.. why are medical stuffs so expensive nowadays? well, this is singapore i forgot. =x everything is rising except for salary, which sucks big time.
sometimes i feel, 'government' are just a word. nothing else. what else do they do? other than collecting those stupid taxes from our parents and putting the GST to 7% and earning so much of our money? other country don't have all these.. even their own citizen, they subsidised their school fees all the way until university. does singapore do that? come on, be truthful to yourself. everything also wanna charge us. like we full of money like that. -.- IF, everyone of us is, singapore will be one of the richest country. -.- sucks to be us eys.
BUT, i love my life. i'm not rich, nor am i poor. and i have my royal family members with me. and, i have wonderful friends and people with me. (: which, not many others have. i'm lucky, to have all these.
i'll upload the photos later. i've got tons of photos to upload eys. -.- gosh. i'm so lazy to upload can! =X
hmm.. time to clear my room, it's in a mess. =x oops.
and, baby boy i miss you so much. (:
it feels like muscle over stretch. but no, it's not. i didn't fall recently, not BAD fall i mean. yet it's just so painful. :( and so, my mom dragged me out of bed today and brought me to polyclinic to see doctor. ohh god, i reached thee like 3:15pm and i left there like, 5:30pm? see how long it took me? waste time! i could just stayed home and sleep.
wasted my time never mind, still have to pay $60. for consultation, X-ray and some crap medicine. -.- after that, went to shop for some medical plaster for in-case-next-time-skating-i-fall-and-get-abrasions. and it cost me $8. what the hell.. why are medical stuffs so expensive nowadays? well, this is singapore i forgot. =x everything is rising except for salary, which sucks big time.
sometimes i feel, 'government' are just a word. nothing else. what else do they do? other than collecting those stupid taxes from our parents and putting the GST to 7% and earning so much of our money? other country don't have all these.. even their own citizen, they subsidised their school fees all the way until university. does singapore do that? come on, be truthful to yourself. everything also wanna charge us. like we full of money like that. -.- IF, everyone of us is, singapore will be one of the richest country. -.- sucks to be us eys.
BUT, i love my life. i'm not rich, nor am i poor. and i have my royal family members with me. and, i have wonderful friends and people with me. (: which, not many others have. i'm lucky, to have all these.
i'll upload the photos later. i've got tons of photos to upload eys. -.- gosh. i'm so lazy to upload can! =X
hmm.. time to clear my room, it's in a mess. =x oops.
and, baby boy i miss you so much. (:
forgive and forget.
To : All My Beloved ICians Who Recently Got Angry Over Some Tags.
let's just have a bigger heart and not be so calculative over the tags, alright? let's just drop the matter and let it rest. else it will do both teams no good. and end up, we will make our beloved ziyi from the opponent team being put in a spot.
even if we don't really care about the others, we care about ziyi isn't it? for the times we spent with her, making her a happier person from the past already showed we care about her. so now, it's just a step away and we'll turn her back to where she was. let's prevent the step and we, U-turn k. (: hahas.
let's just live our live happily and not be affected by any of them. we, shall not waste our time being bothered by some tags whom we don't even know if he/she is the real shirley. (: we still have a lot of programmes going on and let's not care about those little things which make us unhappy k. (:
anyways, ICians, we're going out with ziyi soon k. BUT ONLY THE GIRLS! (: hahahhaa. no boys allowed! (:
and, no matter what, INLINE CULTURE NEVER DIE. (: no one will be able to tear us apart or caused any dispute between ourselves or with any other people. because we, are FROM INLINE CULTURE. and this is the culture that we have been following. (:
*ziyi, everything here is just because of you and no one else.
let's just have a bigger heart and not be so calculative over the tags, alright? let's just drop the matter and let it rest. else it will do both teams no good. and end up, we will make our beloved ziyi from the opponent team being put in a spot.
even if we don't really care about the others, we care about ziyi isn't it? for the times we spent with her, making her a happier person from the past already showed we care about her. so now, it's just a step away and we'll turn her back to where she was. let's prevent the step and we, U-turn k. (: hahas.
let's just live our live happily and not be affected by any of them. we, shall not waste our time being bothered by some tags whom we don't even know if he/she is the real shirley. (: we still have a lot of programmes going on and let's not care about those little things which make us unhappy k. (:
anyways, ICians, we're going out with ziyi soon k. BUT ONLY THE GIRLS! (: hahahhaa. no boys allowed! (:
and, no matter what, INLINE CULTURE NEVER DIE. (: no one will be able to tear us apart or caused any dispute between ourselves or with any other people. because we, are FROM INLINE CULTURE. and this is the culture that we have been following. (:
*ziyi, everything here is just because of you and no one else.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
STOP!
i'm gonna keep all my anger and frustrations aside.
for just that one person, ziyi.
cause i don't want her to be caught in the middle for whatever that has happened.
i don't want her to lose the freedom of talking to us.
i don't want her to have the need to avoid us.
i don't want her to be unhappy.
just for her, i'll stop everything.
smile baby girl! you know i'll do this just to make you happy. (: i'll talk to the rest of them. don't worry.. they'll understand. and they're not cold-blooded who won't care about your feelings. (:
you know all of us love you. even though you're with another team. (:
for just that one person, ziyi.
cause i don't want her to be caught in the middle for whatever that has happened.
i don't want her to lose the freedom of talking to us.
i don't want her to have the need to avoid us.
i don't want her to be unhappy.
just for her, i'll stop everything.
smile baby girl! you know i'll do this just to make you happy. (: i'll talk to the rest of them. don't worry.. they'll understand. and they're not cold-blooded who won't care about your feelings. (:
you know all of us love you. even though you're with another team. (:
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!! (:
BEFORE I START RANTING,
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY BABY, ZAC LIM ZHANYU!! (: 73 MONTHS LERS! AND STILL COUNTING! (: I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE. =D and, be back to me sound and safe. i missed you so so so so so much! 16 more days till you're back! ^^
OKAYS, now i shall talk about something else. if i were to ask you, what is LEADERSHIP? what will be your answer? probably you'll tell me, the capability to lead. well, a stupid idiot also will know. but what makes a leader successful? what makes a leader gain high respect? what makes a leader a leader? can you now answer me all these?
how about i ask you.. what do you think of a leader who is abusing her authority and throwing her weight around just because she's got such high ' rank '?
to me, it's disgusting. i feel and think it's DAMN DISGUSTING.
i was once a leader. a drum major who take charge of the whole band. who needs to organise things for my band. i've gone through so many leadership courses. gone through NCO ( national cadets officer ) camp and interacted with so many leaders before, exchanged thoughts and ideas of being good leader who will GAIN respect from our fellow members. just think, the members i have to take care and gain their trust and respect is not just 10 or 20 of them. it's freaking 40-60 of them. facing such a large group, it's even harder. yet her team is, so much lesser than just a band? and, what makes her thing throwing her weight around is what she can do? wow~ her leadership is so damn good you know. the BEST i ever came across.
too good until i think i shouldn't show respect. ha. mama mia.
cool.. another person i've met who simply just abuse her HIGH authority and being SO BOSSY in SOMEONE else's blog. wtf?
ha. my menses is here. and i can tell you, i would be REALLY nasty and mean if i feel offended. and yes. i do feel offended. by the ' shirly head judge ' from lynnee's blog. seriously it's like WHAT THE FUCK????
never did i know, the shirley i know from hvper since like, many years ago is like that. wow~ how AMAZING can that be? head judge, chief od judge is JUST A TITLE. nothing else. she don't even slide, nor did she slalom. well, maybe she did slalom before, that's what i heard. but ever since i started skating in 2005, i've NEVER seen her on skates before. not even for national runway. well, i don't care. what i was told is that, a judge needs to be able to be a good slider ( for a slide judge ) and good slalomer ( for a slalom judge ). but is she? ha. i don't know.
tell me, what do you think after reading what's below.
message from ' shirley head judge' to lynnee.
Shirley head judge: After reading your comment. This is my view point as a head judge. Nothing personal but just want to my things clear.The fact that out of 3 judges if 1 judge scoring is = for contestants.
Shirley head judge: What other ways can we possibly determine the winner but to take the 4th/5th attempts into account.
Shirley head judge: No.2 The reason there are 3 judges for a competition is to eliminate the possiblity of an = decision.
Shirley head judge: No.3 Finally all judges decisions are final if we have to consider every athelets point of views we will never have a concludsion. What terms and conditions contract you are refering?
Shirley head judge: Everybody is competiting under the same conditions
Shirley head judge: What contract have you sign with us? If it is a really GREAT eye opening and jaw dropping competition to you.. Then PLEASE ask IC to host competition in the future.
Shirley head judge: We as a organiser do not need an award of appreciation for organising skating event
Shirley head judge: however we do not appreciate any unproductive criticism.
Shirley head judge: In every competitions you can never please everybody. If you are so unhappy with the judging system, why dont you form a judging association.
Shirley head judge: then we follow your rules
Shirley head judge: As a "JUDGE", you should respect the final decision and should not instigate discontenment among participants.
Shirley head judge: The decision is final.
Shirley head judge: Dont talk like a child.
Shirley head judge: FYI: my team went for many international competitions. WE NEVER EVEN COME CLOSE TO TOP 10 POSITION ( SLALOM). CAN WE BLAME THE JUDGES OR OUR COMPETITORS. "NO" BUT CAN ONLY SAY WE'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH
Shirley head judge: The solution is TRAIN HARDER. Thats call SPORTSMANSHIP.
Shirley head judge: One thing for sure IF IC really host competition all MTS sure support.
Shirley head judge: IF we dont win, we will not argue too because we're also awesome people too
Shirley head judge: But if is unfairness then we will not shut up like you think. We will sure voice up like gentleman
Shirley head judge: For sure we will not just written in the blog.
Shirley head judge: In my eye and heart not only Nigel or my team mates who did not win are winner. All participants including SA, SE, Zenearth or even IC
Shirley head judge: are winner too.
Shirley head judge: Wake up girl..
cool. i literally copied and pasted everything. so yeah, tell me what you guys think about this shirley.
forget about the unhappiness. craps. full of craps. who doesn't want her own team to win the whole game? ha. she sounded very fair eys? but well, who doesn't know deep down in her heart she also want her team to win. it's just like what sky said. so fucking true. ohh well. this world is full of people who are sarcastic and fake.
like i said, i can be REALLY nasty and mean when i'm offended or rather, moody etc. and i'm the most stubborn person you can ever fight with. when i think something is right, no matter what you do or say just to convince me, i can just tell you ' fuck that ' and i turn away. trust me. i do that. even to prince. sometimes he tells me things and i disagree.. i'll just ' fuck that, i don't care about those shits. ' and i just turn away. if i can do that to someone so dear to me, what makes you think i wouldn't do that to someone whom i'm not even close to? HA. the more i'll do it.
okays, i'm tired after such a long post. =/
time to end this long entry..
shouldn't be bothered by some pussies. (:
ha. ohh! i heard before she told her team not to have politics. but she's showing such good example. PERFECT YOU KNOW!! (:(:
and, let's not forget today is TWO person's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRLFRIEND, JAZREN. 19 YEARS OLD LERS! (: ALL THE BEST TO YOU AND HOPE YOU HAVE A SPLENDID DAY! ^^ LOVE YOU GIRL! ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAITAI! DON'T BECOME THAI K. AND, JIAYOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO. GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS TOO!! ^^
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY BABY, ZAC LIM ZHANYU!! (: 73 MONTHS LERS! AND STILL COUNTING! (: I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE. =D and, be back to me sound and safe. i missed you so so so so so much! 16 more days till you're back! ^^
OKAYS, now i shall talk about something else. if i were to ask you, what is LEADERSHIP? what will be your answer? probably you'll tell me, the capability to lead. well, a stupid idiot also will know. but what makes a leader successful? what makes a leader gain high respect? what makes a leader a leader? can you now answer me all these?
how about i ask you.. what do you think of a leader who is abusing her authority and throwing her weight around just because she's got such high ' rank '?
to me, it's disgusting. i feel and think it's DAMN DISGUSTING.
i was once a leader. a drum major who take charge of the whole band. who needs to organise things for my band. i've gone through so many leadership courses. gone through NCO ( national cadets officer ) camp and interacted with so many leaders before, exchanged thoughts and ideas of being good leader who will GAIN respect from our fellow members. just think, the members i have to take care and gain their trust and respect is not just 10 or 20 of them. it's freaking 40-60 of them. facing such a large group, it's even harder. yet her team is, so much lesser than just a band? and, what makes her thing throwing her weight around is what she can do? wow~ her leadership is so damn good you know. the BEST i ever came across.
too good until i think i shouldn't show respect. ha. mama mia.
cool.. another person i've met who simply just abuse her HIGH authority and being SO BOSSY in SOMEONE else's blog. wtf?
ha. my menses is here. and i can tell you, i would be REALLY nasty and mean if i feel offended. and yes. i do feel offended. by the ' shirly head judge ' from lynnee's blog. seriously it's like WHAT THE FUCK????
never did i know, the shirley i know from hvper since like, many years ago is like that. wow~ how AMAZING can that be? head judge, chief od judge is JUST A TITLE. nothing else. she don't even slide, nor did she slalom. well, maybe she did slalom before, that's what i heard. but ever since i started skating in 2005, i've NEVER seen her on skates before. not even for national runway. well, i don't care. what i was told is that, a judge needs to be able to be a good slider ( for a slide judge ) and good slalomer ( for a slalom judge ). but is she? ha. i don't know.
tell me, what do you think after reading what's below.
message from ' shirley head judge' to lynnee.
Shirley head judge: After reading your comment. This is my view point as a head judge. Nothing personal but just want to my things clear.The fact that out of 3 judges if 1 judge scoring is = for contestants.
Shirley head judge: What other ways can we possibly determine the winner but to take the 4th/5th attempts into account.
Shirley head judge: No.2 The reason there are 3 judges for a competition is to eliminate the possiblity of an = decision.
Shirley head judge: No.3 Finally all judges decisions are final if we have to consider every athelets point of views we will never have a concludsion. What terms and conditions contract you are refering?
Shirley head judge: Everybody is competiting under the same conditions
Shirley head judge: What contract have you sign with us? If it is a really GREAT eye opening and jaw dropping competition to you.. Then PLEASE ask IC to host competition in the future.
Shirley head judge: We as a organiser do not need an award of appreciation for organising skating event
Shirley head judge: however we do not appreciate any unproductive criticism.
Shirley head judge: In every competitions you can never please everybody. If you are so unhappy with the judging system, why dont you form a judging association.
Shirley head judge: then we follow your rules
Shirley head judge: As a "JUDGE", you should respect the final decision and should not instigate discontenment among participants.
Shirley head judge: The decision is final.
Shirley head judge: Dont talk like a child.
Shirley head judge: FYI: my team went for many international competitions. WE NEVER EVEN COME CLOSE TO TOP 10 POSITION ( SLALOM). CAN WE BLAME THE JUDGES OR OUR COMPETITORS. "NO" BUT CAN ONLY SAY WE'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH
Shirley head judge: The solution is TRAIN HARDER. Thats call SPORTSMANSHIP.
Shirley head judge: One thing for sure IF IC really host competition all MTS sure support.
Shirley head judge: IF we dont win, we will not argue too because we're also awesome people too
Shirley head judge: But if is unfairness then we will not shut up like you think. We will sure voice up like gentleman
Shirley head judge: For sure we will not just written in the blog.
Shirley head judge: In my eye and heart not only Nigel or my team mates who did not win are winner. All participants including SA, SE, Zenearth or even IC
Shirley head judge: are winner too.
Shirley head judge: Wake up girl..
cool. i literally copied and pasted everything. so yeah, tell me what you guys think about this shirley.
forget about the unhappiness. craps. full of craps. who doesn't want her own team to win the whole game? ha. she sounded very fair eys? but well, who doesn't know deep down in her heart she also want her team to win. it's just like what sky said. so fucking true. ohh well. this world is full of people who are sarcastic and fake.
like i said, i can be REALLY nasty and mean when i'm offended or rather, moody etc. and i'm the most stubborn person you can ever fight with. when i think something is right, no matter what you do or say just to convince me, i can just tell you ' fuck that ' and i turn away. trust me. i do that. even to prince. sometimes he tells me things and i disagree.. i'll just ' fuck that, i don't care about those shits. ' and i just turn away. if i can do that to someone so dear to me, what makes you think i wouldn't do that to someone whom i'm not even close to? HA. the more i'll do it.
okays, i'm tired after such a long post. =/
time to end this long entry..
shouldn't be bothered by some pussies. (:
ha. ohh! i heard before she told her team not to have politics. but she's showing such good example. PERFECT YOU KNOW!! (:(:
and, let's not forget today is TWO person's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRLFRIEND, JAZREN. 19 YEARS OLD LERS! (: ALL THE BEST TO YOU AND HOPE YOU HAVE A SPLENDID DAY! ^^ LOVE YOU GIRL! ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAITAI! DON'T BECOME THAI K. AND, JIAYOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO. GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS TOO!! ^^
Saturday, August 23, 2008
da yi ma. -.-
nabei. da yi ma is here today. wth...
-.-
gosh. i'm gonna be damn bloody moody already. =/
hahas. kidding.
-.-
gosh. i'm gonna be damn bloody moody already. =/
hahas. kidding.
i miss you baby.
days without you seems so hard to pass.
especially when knowing you're not in camp,
but somewhere out yet you're not with me.
told myself to be strong,
you'll be home soon.
but the missing is there,
killing my emotions, bit by bit.
miss your hugs.
miss your kisses.
miss your laughter.
miss your smiling faces.
miss your naughtiness.
miss your stupidities.
miss your silliness.
miss everything of you, baby..
and so, the ICians left shop at 7am and head for LTA this morning while i stayed behind and continued sleeping. -.- hahas. well, i'm tired eys. feel like going home after work to rest since tomorrow i'm working full shift. =x
two days since prince left. he called me yesterday when i was on my way to work and when i was skating at night, before he sleeps. well, it's not really nice to hear his voice cause it makes me miss him even more. :( sobs sobs. anyways, i just hope everything is smooth and well for him. and hopefully he take care of his wounds else they'll get infections. :(
ohh, that's about it. byebye. and, weather sucks.
*yawns~
especially when knowing you're not in camp,
but somewhere out yet you're not with me.
told myself to be strong,
you'll be home soon.
but the missing is there,
killing my emotions, bit by bit.
miss your hugs.
miss your kisses.
miss your laughter.
miss your smiling faces.
miss your naughtiness.
miss your stupidities.
miss your silliness.
miss everything of you, baby..
and so, the ICians left shop at 7am and head for LTA this morning while i stayed behind and continued sleeping. -.- hahas. well, i'm tired eys. feel like going home after work to rest since tomorrow i'm working full shift. =x
two days since prince left. he called me yesterday when i was on my way to work and when i was skating at night, before he sleeps. well, it's not really nice to hear his voice cause it makes me miss him even more. :( sobs sobs. anyways, i just hope everything is smooth and well for him. and hopefully he take care of his wounds else they'll get infections. :(
ohh, that's about it. byebye. and, weather sucks.
*yawns~
Friday, August 22, 2008
emptiness. LTA.
prince left for thailand last night. went to send him off with eddy, marcus and steven. not feeling very upset though cause i'm kinda used to sending people off for trips. (: but when i was walking to the bus-stop with eddy an steven, i was telling eddy that i'm feeling lonely suddenly. and my heart felt so empty. :( hais. it's gonna next month till prince is back. =/
can't imagine how am i gonna survive without him this coming close to one month. -.- well, kinda feels very attached to him now. =x which makes me not able to be on my own. feels like i'm no longer as independent as i was, as i used to be when i was single.
was that suppose to be a good thing? =x
hmm, look at things on the brighter side. (: i've got so many things i wanna do! and probably i can do it without prince's presence. cause whenever he's around, i tend to spend almost every minute i can with him and the rest of my time, i spend on working etc. (: i'm a hardworking girl k! ^^ hahaha.
i wanna :
yesterday i called dzul, my starbucks's store manager. talked to him about my work permit thing and he was asking me for help. for hari raya. 21 August just passed. if i'm still with the nice team over at starbucks, it'll be a year since i worked there. :( hais. i missed the coffee beans grindings and miss the strong aroma of coffee. missed my lamazocco. =/
i missed everything in starbucks. hais....
anyways, tomorrow we're going for a performance over at the new expressway at macritchie ( i don't know how to spell. =x ) it was an offer by LTA. ^^ team elite and some selected members are going. (: cool... but we ALL have to be in full gear! full gear = helmet, elbow, wrist and knee guards. it has been a long time since i last had full gear on. (: hahas. and after which i'll be back to shop to work and after work, we ALL will be going to happy pot for dinner and we're gonna catch the fireworks festival as well. (: i love IC. we always have so many programmes going on. it just won't get bored with them around. (: hahas.
talking about fireworks festival, last year i was there with prince. it was awesome! extremely awesome. and last year's was on prince's birthday. (: hahas. it was amazing how the fireworks actually go so well with the music. both blend in together like as if they're just side my side. damn cool! best fireworks i've ever seen! and it lasted for more than half an hour. so imagine, during national day, new year etc was just like, five minutes or a little more? and it cost already a bomb. what about fireworks festival? tsktsk. (: but fact is i can't deny that the fireworks are really something. there're so many varieties that we've never came across over the years. serious! (: you wanna watch? hahas. unless you're ICians, cause we book tables at happy pot, so we can actually sits there, enjoy our food and watching fireworks at the same time! woots! heaven! ^^ wonderful people, wonderful foods and wonderful scenery! (: tell me where else can you find all these wonderfuls! ^^
alrights, beside all these.. i wanna annouce something!
i.......
realise.......
my.......
stamina.......
is.......
much BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WAS! -.-
cause wednesday we went for urban skating. a long night skate with prince before he fly off. (: journey was..
EAST COAST RINK - CHANGI VILLAGE - LOYANG - LOST IN SINGAPORE - PASIR RIS - TAMPINES - SIMEI - BEDOK - EAST COAST RINK. =/
it took us almost 6 hours to be back at east coast again. it took us only one hour fifteen minutes to be reach changi village. and we had nasi lemak there. ahaha. wilson came to find us and he was so happy with his chicken wings. LOL.
then we started playing slopes and we got lost at loyang area... -.- going round and round. so funny. it was fun, but super tiring. i can bet with you, not all girls can take this. and yes! i'm one of the strong girl! (: effect after which, feet cramp / blister. LOL! lucky mine was just cramps. sky got blister. LOL. hahahahaha. and sadly, prince fell. injured his hand and shoulder. ouchh. it looks damn painful already... so imagine... :( but well, as long as he had fun, that's good enough. ^^
alrights. i think that's all i wanna blog for today. ha. god knows who reads my blog. or maybe somehow certain people can't take facts/reality and will start to be a pussy/punjabi/punani and start complaining like some big fuck. well.. i don't care, really.
freedom of speech always exist. if you can't take it, then just leave this blog. alt + F4. (:
love the awesome people and hate the pussies... ^^
hahahas.
kat is being lame. LOL.
can't imagine how am i gonna survive without him this coming close to one month. -.- well, kinda feels very attached to him now. =x which makes me not able to be on my own. feels like i'm no longer as independent as i was, as i used to be when i was single.
was that suppose to be a good thing? =x
hmm, look at things on the brighter side. (: i've got so many things i wanna do! and probably i can do it without prince's presence. cause whenever he's around, i tend to spend almost every minute i can with him and the rest of my time, i spend on working etc. (: i'm a hardworking girl k! ^^ hahaha.
i wanna :
- suntan!
- club!
- drink!
- go out till late night!
yesterday i called dzul, my starbucks's store manager. talked to him about my work permit thing and he was asking me for help. for hari raya. 21 August just passed. if i'm still with the nice team over at starbucks, it'll be a year since i worked there. :( hais. i missed the coffee beans grindings and miss the strong aroma of coffee. missed my lamazocco. =/
i missed everything in starbucks. hais....
anyways, tomorrow we're going for a performance over at the new expressway at macritchie ( i don't know how to spell. =x ) it was an offer by LTA. ^^ team elite and some selected members are going. (: cool... but we ALL have to be in full gear! full gear = helmet, elbow, wrist and knee guards. it has been a long time since i last had full gear on. (: hahas. and after which i'll be back to shop to work and after work, we ALL will be going to happy pot for dinner and we're gonna catch the fireworks festival as well. (: i love IC. we always have so many programmes going on. it just won't get bored with them around. (: hahas.
talking about fireworks festival, last year i was there with prince. it was awesome! extremely awesome. and last year's was on prince's birthday. (: hahas. it was amazing how the fireworks actually go so well with the music. both blend in together like as if they're just side my side. damn cool! best fireworks i've ever seen! and it lasted for more than half an hour. so imagine, during national day, new year etc was just like, five minutes or a little more? and it cost already a bomb. what about fireworks festival? tsktsk. (: but fact is i can't deny that the fireworks are really something. there're so many varieties that we've never came across over the years. serious! (: you wanna watch? hahas. unless you're ICians, cause we book tables at happy pot, so we can actually sits there, enjoy our food and watching fireworks at the same time! woots! heaven! ^^ wonderful people, wonderful foods and wonderful scenery! (: tell me where else can you find all these wonderfuls! ^^
alrights, beside all these.. i wanna annouce something!
i.......
realise.......
my.......
stamina.......
is.......
much BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WAS! -.-
cause wednesday we went for urban skating. a long night skate with prince before he fly off. (: journey was..
EAST COAST RINK - CHANGI VILLAGE - LOYANG - LOST IN SINGAPORE - PASIR RIS - TAMPINES - SIMEI - BEDOK - EAST COAST RINK. =/
it took us almost 6 hours to be back at east coast again. it took us only one hour fifteen minutes to be reach changi village. and we had nasi lemak there. ahaha. wilson came to find us and he was so happy with his chicken wings. LOL.
then we started playing slopes and we got lost at loyang area... -.- going round and round. so funny. it was fun, but super tiring. i can bet with you, not all girls can take this. and yes! i'm one of the strong girl! (: effect after which, feet cramp / blister. LOL! lucky mine was just cramps. sky got blister. LOL. hahahahaha. and sadly, prince fell. injured his hand and shoulder. ouchh. it looks damn painful already... so imagine... :( but well, as long as he had fun, that's good enough. ^^
alrights. i think that's all i wanna blog for today. ha. god knows who reads my blog. or maybe somehow certain people can't take facts/reality and will start to be a pussy/punjabi/punani and start complaining like some big fuck. well.. i don't care, really.
freedom of speech always exist. if you can't take it, then just leave this blog. alt + F4. (:
love the awesome people and hate the pussies... ^^
hahahas.
kat is being lame. LOL.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
failed myself and team. =x
i've failed myself and the team. i'm sorry. =x but i've done what i can. so yeahs, no regrets. just feel that i could have done far better.
well, wasn't happy with that. but what can i do? and i believe a lot of people IS unhappy. not because they've lost or what. but because we felt unfair. yes, everyone say life's never fair. but we're trying to make it fairer for ourselves. yet there're little things here and there which make things so bloody unfair.
we don't organise the competition. we don't set the rules and regulations. we can't change the rules. we can't change no shit. wtf? well, in the first place, i didn't even sign that bloody paper. steven took my number tag on my behalf. well, then did i sign that piece of stupid ' contract '? like what lynnee said, that paper has got a meaning and there must be a use for it. it's not just a ' black and white ' paper. wth.
just imagine, next time, they organise a competition and we don't take part. they're just competing against SA and SE people. let's just look at the womens category, zhuzhu has always been a champion, a league champion. and if one day she doesn't take part in the competition anymore, and they took over her position, do you think that's call a win? or rather, was that even suppose to be a glory? fact is, zhuzhu didn't take part, that's why they won. and if zhuzhu did take part, will they even stand a chance to win? maybe i believe just that one girl can, not the rest. the rest can't even reach their team mate's standard. what more to say reach zhuzhu's?
this world is full of people, who are just born to make people's life miserable. ' you're not even first, why you so happy? ' fuck. at least people won something. you freaking got nothing wanna say people. somehow, the person who said this, was there just for 'show'. that's what i saw. cause it's not performing. neither did it really improve from the last time i saw it. ( * using ' it ' cause i don't wanna mention name or gender ) what it did was exactly what it does the last time i saw it in competition. how hilarious can it be tell me? self proclaiming to be good but actually nothing. actions speak louder than words. this is what i've always believe. and these people, are people whom i really called as ' miserable '. cause they don't know how to appreciate. don't know how to be a good person. don't know how to see other's good. thank god i'm not born like that. though my mouth is mean at times, but i do know how to appreciate others. and know how to spread my love around.
never mind. one day, just that one day. WE will make a come back. WE will win all. WE will be the ones standing on the platform, being announce as the winners. and wait till that day, i shall see the sore faces displayed by them. they'll never be up there forever. just you wait and see.
okays. i shall not blog so much already. it's just my opinions. i speak my mind. if you can't stand it or don't like it, the question goes back to ; WHY THE HELL YOU COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE? don't like, get the hell out of this blog.
remember this,
if you don't like me, i'd probably don't fucking like you either.
do not dismiss my warning else you'll regret. i'll make sure you do.
i love my team.
i love my ICians.
i love my friends.
others whom i don't love, can jolly well fuck off. cause you don't care, and i don't bother.
well, wasn't happy with that. but what can i do? and i believe a lot of people IS unhappy. not because they've lost or what. but because we felt unfair. yes, everyone say life's never fair. but we're trying to make it fairer for ourselves. yet there're little things here and there which make things so bloody unfair.
we don't organise the competition. we don't set the rules and regulations. we can't change the rules. we can't change no shit. wtf? well, in the first place, i didn't even sign that bloody paper. steven took my number tag on my behalf. well, then did i sign that piece of stupid ' contract '? like what lynnee said, that paper has got a meaning and there must be a use for it. it's not just a ' black and white ' paper. wth.
just imagine, next time, they organise a competition and we don't take part. they're just competing against SA and SE people. let's just look at the womens category, zhuzhu has always been a champion, a league champion. and if one day she doesn't take part in the competition anymore, and they took over her position, do you think that's call a win? or rather, was that even suppose to be a glory? fact is, zhuzhu didn't take part, that's why they won. and if zhuzhu did take part, will they even stand a chance to win? maybe i believe just that one girl can, not the rest. the rest can't even reach their team mate's standard. what more to say reach zhuzhu's?
this world is full of people, who are just born to make people's life miserable. ' you're not even first, why you so happy? ' fuck. at least people won something. you freaking got nothing wanna say people. somehow, the person who said this, was there just for 'show'. that's what i saw. cause it's not performing. neither did it really improve from the last time i saw it. ( * using ' it ' cause i don't wanna mention name or gender ) what it did was exactly what it does the last time i saw it in competition. how hilarious can it be tell me? self proclaiming to be good but actually nothing. actions speak louder than words. this is what i've always believe. and these people, are people whom i really called as ' miserable '. cause they don't know how to appreciate. don't know how to be a good person. don't know how to see other's good. thank god i'm not born like that. though my mouth is mean at times, but i do know how to appreciate others. and know how to spread my love around.
never mind. one day, just that one day. WE will make a come back. WE will win all. WE will be the ones standing on the platform, being announce as the winners. and wait till that day, i shall see the sore faces displayed by them. they'll never be up there forever. just you wait and see.
okays. i shall not blog so much already. it's just my opinions. i speak my mind. if you can't stand it or don't like it, the question goes back to ; WHY THE HELL YOU COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE? don't like, get the hell out of this blog.
remember this,
if you don't like me, i'd probably don't fucking like you either.
do not dismiss my warning else you'll regret. i'll make sure you do.
i love my team.
i love my ICians.
i love my friends.
others whom i don't love, can jolly well fuck off. cause you don't care, and i don't bother.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
birthday big fuck?
fuck lahh. why must everyone treat their own birthday LIKE SOME BIG FUCK?
fuck it. it's not like the birth of king or queen.
hate it when someone is trying to be like some kinda big fuck for their birthday.
yes i know it's your birthday. but no need to freaking make it as though it's something HUGE! cause it's not.
it's not like it's the 18th or 21st birthday.
well, yes i'm moody.
tiredness + fucked up feeling = fucking moody.
and prince, you jolly well know i don't like you to be in any form of contacting that FUCKER who whacked my queen. fuck it. i don't even wanna see her. still tell her you're going my place tonight. I DON'T WANNA SEE THAT FUCKER AND HER FUCKER BOYFRIEND AT ALL.
if possible, don't even talk to them. they are bad influence.
seriously, i've never hated a person as much as them. the sight of them just turns my happy mood off and turning my bad mood on. they should just DIE!!!! two idiots. two morons. two fuckers. hate them to the core. if i could choose, i wouldn't want her as my sister, and i wouldn't want to meet both of them either. never ever planted as much hatred before. but they made me reach my hatred point.
and, weather sucks to the max. KNNCCB.
fuck it. it's not like the birth of king or queen.
hate it when someone is trying to be like some kinda big fuck for their birthday.
yes i know it's your birthday. but no need to freaking make it as though it's something HUGE! cause it's not.
it's not like it's the 18th or 21st birthday.
well, yes i'm moody.
tiredness + fucked up feeling = fucking moody.
and prince, you jolly well know i don't like you to be in any form of contacting that FUCKER who whacked my queen. fuck it. i don't even wanna see her. still tell her you're going my place tonight. I DON'T WANNA SEE THAT FUCKER AND HER FUCKER BOYFRIEND AT ALL.
if possible, don't even talk to them. they are bad influence.
seriously, i've never hated a person as much as them. the sight of them just turns my happy mood off and turning my bad mood on. they should just DIE!!!! two idiots. two morons. two fuckers. hate them to the core. if i could choose, i wouldn't want her as my sister, and i wouldn't want to meet both of them either. never ever planted as much hatred before. but they made me reach my hatred point.
and, weather sucks to the max. KNNCCB.
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