24.08.13

"I just want something perfect and I think we're perfect together"

I said Yes. 

"I hope you won't regret saying yes but I'm gonna make sure you won't regret. We're gonna be better than before and we will be." 

I still can't believe this is true. 

I gotta be the happiest person on earth now.

I trust you.

=')

Happy Birthday Part 2!

Two more days!! I cannot wait!

I miss you.

The other day visit your place to see your mom and brother triggered the past memories. =\

I remembered the days when I was sick and how your mom took care of me, cooking me porridge, feeding me medicine. I remembered the days when I used to annoy your brother by watching him play dota and I got all excited and agitated but he would still be very patient with me when it comes to teaching me dota. I remembered how I used to wait for you to come home and I run into your arms even though you're all dirty, sweaty and smelly. I remembered how I used to always go groceries shopping with your mom and brother and your mom will always buy the things I love to eat. I remembered how I used to accompany your mom to watch tv in her room while your brother is playing game and your dad isn't home. I remembered how your mom used to wait for me to come home when you're in camp, calling me everyday asking me where am I.. I remembered the day your mom asked me to move in to stay with your family and handed me the house key. And I remembered how you told me 'welcome home' when I come back from work.. I remembered.. everything.. :')

Ahhhh. Memories.. =)

Happy Birthday!

Happy happy birthday to my Savior, my soulmate, my happiness, my sunshine!

It was a simple celebration, just you and me. =) but the smile on your face was priceless.

Baked rainbow cake for you as one of the present and cufflink from EA was a second. =) I'm glad you are happy last night.

It was nice to be seeing your mom & brother after dinner. I should visit your place more often and spend more time talking to your mom like how I always do in the past. Just that I hope your mom will be less emotional.. each time I talk to her she have tendency to cry.. =/

You're in Vietnam now and I hope you do enjoy this one week holiday! I'm counting down to your return on Saturday evening and get to see you on Saturday night! :D

And oh yes, I miss you right from the min you're out of my sight.  =( please be safe and come back safely. I'll pray for you.

And now, time to finish up part 3 of your present this year while you're away. =)

Bangkok 2013.

Here we gooooo!

Sister~

Cousin~

Three guys. All first time to BKK. LOL

The road outside our hotel! :)

Mango sticky rice!!!!

Platinum mall!

Happy guys!

Tuktuk!

I hate chatuchak. Other than the animal section.
So freaking hot and makes me so so messy! 

Massage!

Good morning!

Yeah, we were very lucky to have flood. -.- 

  

I'm not that dark after all. Heh.

  

Ohaiyoooo~ 

Annoying sister who kept throwing tantrum. -.- 

Manicure.
This is the first time I'm doing nails at BKK. LOL

Pedicure.

A&W!!!! Must!!

Having my own 'me' time in the morning at 6:30am.

Ice milk tea! :D

Last day. 

    

A proper group photo. :)

     

They were sitting on the tuktuk that brought us around on the last day!

Last day, we went to visit the temples.
And cause it's the start of 7th month, I bought amulet for my family & of course, Mr.I. :)

Our flight was on 03 August 2013, last Saturday. Mr.I was busy with work so he didn't managed to send me to airport. :( But it was okay, he spent Friday night with me. Haha. And he called me and talked to me for a while before my flight. Well, I was sure I was gonna miss him a lot. :( Maybe that's why I choose to give up SIA cause I can't stand having to keep saying goodbye to him. HAHAHA. :/ 

The trip was so so. It's by far the least I walked BKK trip. I used to walk so much and bought so much stuffs but this trip everything was limited and probably I wasn't really in the mood to do much shopping. Haha. My sister had to quarrel with her husband during the trip and kinda spoil our mood here and there but luckily it didn't last too long. She and her princess temper... Omg. I need to reconsider having her for Taiwan trip next year.. It's gonna be with Uncle etc and I can't afford to let her spoil everyone's mood especially if uncle is to flare up during the trip... I think everyone will be ' oh fuck '. =X 

Overall the trip was not bad, yet another experience with different people. Haha. :) 

Mr Super Sweet Sunshine. <333

He surprised me at the airport when I touched down! I was so so so so very happy to see him! :D:D:D:D Cause the day before I texted him and asked if I'm gonna see him at the airport but he told me ' Maybe ' and so I really thought he was busy with his work and can't pick me up cause I know he has been very busy with his new project and he had to keep going down to site so I didn't expect him to be free to pick me up!!! And when I touched down he asked if I've touched down, I told him yeah and I asked if he's still working he said he was still in office.. which I really believed! And the next thing I know he's standing right in front of me!!! Ahhhh! Sweetness and happiness overdosed! I'm like a little girl jumping inside and I was smiling like a stupid idiot. HAHAHA. After that he send my sister and brother in law back home first before going for supper at Chong Pang Nasi Lemak. So yes, this was my simple and very happy touch down. Being all safe and happy, I can't ask for anything more already. 

Thank you so so much. Thank you for all the things that you've been doing and efforts that you've been putting in to put a smile on my face. Thank you for always trying to make me smile, make me happy and make me learn things in so many ways. I'm sorry that my over thinking sometimes could have annoyed you but I hope you know how much you mean to me, and always will be. I cannot be any more thankful for having you in my life once more. I cannot be any happier for whatever is happening right now. xx

08th August.
Me: "Argh my dark circles and eyebags damn jialat"
Rick: "Koreans say dark circles and eyebags are sexy"

Met up with Kris yesterday in the longest time. I don't remember when was the last time I met her alone without anyone else. I don't know if everything is good now. I hope somehow the talks that we had helped to clear the air that we had and maybe some doubts that we have on each other. There are a lot of things in life we need to learn that once it's gone, it's gone and if it's given again, it's a second chance and it's up to individual whether are we gonna take it or leave it. I know it myself what I've been doing so far and I've not done anything against my conscience. I know what is right and what is wrong. I controlled myself well enough to know what I should have and shouldn't have done. I hope you know where is my stand now rather than doubting what I've been doing. I understand you have your own life to lead and your own paths that you choose to walk. Maybe in times to come, I will not be in your path anymore or maybe you choose not to cross path with me and walk on your own. You choose the paths and I know I will never blame you because you're someone so dear to me even until now. I will let you walk away and lead your own life because friends don't blame each other for choosing their own ways, especially when you're someone I see as a sister rather than just a friend. I will learn to understand why you made those decisions and I will learn to be understanding as towards your decisions. But whatever that might happen in the future, whether am I gonna remain or be removed, I wish you all the best in whatever you do and I will always be there when you need me. This is what friends are for. I cannot control what you're gonna do to me but at least I know I can take control of what kind person I'm gonna be. And I choose to let you do what you want. :)

Touched down, of course I went to meet Rick for a beer while Mr.I went to leisure world with his friends! We went to Pasir Ris Park's Summer Breeze for beer and it was a long long talk for us. Talked about almost everything and exchanging thoughts as usual. Left Pasir Ris Park about 5:30am. Haha. Okay, that's my PH! 

Update soon! :)

Nothing Makes Me Happier.

I'm a happy girl. :D

Its Not Who You Want To Spend The Friday Night With..

It's who you want to spent the whole of Saturday with.

I'm loving my Saturdays so much now. :) we have been spending Saturdays together and being happy about it.

Simple but happy.. That's all I want and I'm having it. Be it just sitting in the car watching him drive or just having little eye contacts. I can watch him all day and do nothing. I don't mind just watching him drive or being completely obsessed about telling me his work and what happened at work. Seeing his passionate attitude towards his work motivated me to work harder for my career.

We have been talking about cars lately cause he wanted to sell his car and maybe drive his company's car so as to save money but I could tell he really can't bear to sell his love away. Haha. So I told him last night that if he really love his car so much then just continue to drive until COE ends, which is in about 3years time. He smiled and said that's what he thought and added he might even think of extending the COE if the condition is good after 3years. Well, I agree with him that if the car is still in good condition, he should extend.. His road tax, insurance and inspection are all coming soon. Another sum of money. Sigh. Cars... I know he can afford them all but as much as I hope he could save more money so that he can start his business soon but I can't bear to see him struggle so much for his love for his car. So I just hope he can be happy. :) and I know that driving his car makes him really happy.

Other than that, we have been talking about me going to take my car license. Haha. He has always been driving and times when he's tired he will still send me home first before he eventually drive himself home. =( looking at him being so tired yet still needs to drive.. I feel the ache. So yes! I'm gonna sign up for driving license soon! Probably after my Bangkok trip next month. He's going to Vietnam next month with his friends.. it's has been months since he took a good break. He deserves it. =) I foresee myself being really busy until I'm on leave. Been doing OT the last one week and still have so many things to do. =( hopefully I can get to see him on weekend as much as I can. We both agreed on working hard on weekdays so that weekend will be good for us. So far it has been like this and we are both happy about it. =) quality time spent together and that's enough for us. =) even though it's just once a week but it's really enough.

Simplicity, that's what we are looking for. Trust him, I do. Believe him, I do. Miss him, I do. Care for him, I do. Faith in him, I have. We are more like each other's pillar of strength to become a stronger person in life. Be it work or daily live. And I guess that's already enough for us both. =)

I don't want to care about what others are gonna say anymore. We know what we are doing and in what position are we in. We keep our appropriate distance and we clearly know how to deal with this. I'm gonna be selfish this time cause I'm done being selfless. Fighting for what I want cause I know what I want. People who don't know what happened will judge but I don't care anymore. Be judgmental and go ahead and judge. I'm not gonna be bothered anymore.

Like he said 'pls don't be bothered by anything. I love your smiles.' So I'm gonna smile for him. =)

Okay! Ending today's post with photos.

What Is Precious..

I don't mind waking up next to you every morning.
I don't mind holding your hands forever.
I don't mind sharing my life with you.
I don't mind whatever that's gonna come between us as long as we get through them together.

things haven't been smooth.
But Thank you for whatever that has happened and how you helped me in so many ways.
Thank you.

I Can't..

I thought I could slowly let you go..
I thought I could slowly forget you with a sub.
I thought I could keep my feelings for you.

But when I saw you last night..
I just want to drop everything and run into your arms.
I doubt I can ever run away from you.
You will always be that someone special in my eyes.
So special that the moment I see you, there's nothing else I want in this world.
I wouldn't mind being lost in your eyes for the rest of my life.

Pack Of Bullshit.

Needed a thumbdrive to let me store my photos which I'm gonna print. 

Happen to use the one that you put the slideshow in. 

Itchy hand opened it and saw what you wrote inside. 

Give you a chance? To destroy my life.

Never abandon me even if the whole world did? Bullshit.

Give me a life that I want? A life that you want me to have no life. 

Hold my hand forever? You had the chance, but you destroyed it, or I should say, your friends. 

We've been through a lot? Not exactly. Not enough for you to listen to me rather than your friends. 

Want to be part of my life? You did and you got out of it! Congratulations! :D

Anyway, the slideshow was a duplicate of what you've given to another girl so I guess I was just a backup plan. Maybe I should view things this way so that I can feel better. Shouldn't have been touched by that slideshow back then. It was a mistake, huge mistake. 

I want to watch all your friends fall. And I will because they deserve it. :) 

And now, it's time I continue to go and print my photos to be place in my office. :)

Gonna bake rainbow cake later. It's something that Mr.I like and I want to master it before his birthday! :)  

Hugs & Kisses.

Everytime I type 'xoxo' to you I wonder if you know What that means.
Everytime I greet you goodnight I wonder if you know I hope you'll dream of me.
Everytime I calls you 帅哥, I wonder if that makes you smile.
Everytime I calls you on the phone, I wonder if you know hearing your voice makes me smile.
Everytime you work until so late, I wonder if you know I stayed up and wonder if You're home.
Everytime you said You're tired, I wonder if you know I can be your pillow.
Everytime you smile, I wonder if you know I'm so Happy to See your smiles.
Everytime you talk to me about your work, I wonder if you know I'm so proud of your achievements.
Everytime you clinch a deal, I wonder if you know How Happy I am for you.
Everytime You're there when I needed you, I wonder if you know How thankful I am to have you with me.
Everytime when I watch you drive, I wonder if you know I feel it's a kind of happiness for me.
Everytime I get to See you, I wonder if you know I feel so peaceful and calm.

You are such a wonder.
And I wonder if you know.

And I miss you so.