While Waiting...

TGIF but I'm in office waiting for Mr.I to pick me up. 

It's 7:06pm now and I'm still waiting for Mr.I to reach my office. Times like these I always tends to over-think a lot. Like, is he driving safely? Is he rushing here? Cause if he is I hope he don't cause I don't want him to drive recklessly and I don't want anything to happen to him. I will wonder if he's too tired to drive or if he's okay. All these thoughts will not go away until I see him standing in front of me. I guess I've always been like this.. As long as the person is out of my sight, I will always over-think. Maybe because of the insecurities in me, I always worry too much. No point worrying for the inevitable but I just can't help it. It's just in me. 

So now, I'm hoping you can reach here safely and we will have a good night today! :) 

Please drive safely and be safe. 

X

因为我不知道下一辈子还是否能遇见你，所以我今生才会那么努力把最好的都给你

Phuket/Krabi?

I'm not sure if I'm ready to step into these islands again.
Too much memories.
But I know I have to start somewhere.

Going with different people, creating different memories.
But what I'm afraid of is what will trigger during the trip.

I Smile More When I'm With You.

It has been a while since I update with photos. So here are they, for now.

First meal of yesterday but I can't eat after 3 mouths.
Thank you for always finishing my food for me. :) x

After skating, going home to take my passport and off we go to JB! ^.^

My companion, transportation and listening ear lately. :) :P

My slipper, his shoes and the red light that matches the red car. :)

Thank you Mr.I. With you, I seems to be smiling much more.
Your silliness is sometimes too irresistible. :) XX
Thank you for being there always. ^.^ 

If you ask me how's life. I would say it's good. I have a group of people who's trying so hard to make me smile again. :) Of course, not forgetting Mr.I who's constantly on standby. :) Thank you. For always not rejecting my requests and bringing me to everywhere I wanna go or accompany me whenever I needed someone. Thank you Francis and Jek who's there as well. Yes, BOB The Cat too. As well as Sharon, thank you darling. :) 

As you know, going through a break up was never something easy. But with these people, I guess they made things much easier, especially with Mr.I. :) Thank you for being so attentive especially when I wasn't feeling very well last night. Thank you for keep checking on me to see if I'm okay. I know you care and you just wanna make sure I'm okay. :) I love to be taken care of! :) I'm looking forward to March! Everything will be good, even better than now and of course, our Bintan trip! >.< 

Can't wait for this Friday's dinner at Lorong 5 and bowling after that! :) Thank you Mr.I for always accompanying me to do what I wanna do! And thank god you love bowling too! :) Heh. A pity Francis can't join us this Friday due to exam! But it's okay, Mr.I said we will plan another with Francis when he's done with his exam! YAY!

Sick.

Dear nose, please just stop running and blocking.
Dear throat, please do not become sore and stop itching.
Dear body, if you decide to give up on me, please let it collapse completely.

懦弱的你。

Can't believe this is your best. You were so harsh on me, insisting your principles, wanting to keep your pride and ego that day, and today you ask your friends to come and collect your things on your behalf. Honestly, what's this? Don't dare to face me? Or don't dare to face my family? Being ashamed of what you've done? Didn't you 理直气壮 that day? Didn't you happily tell your friends nasty stuffs about me? Wasn't I the one at fault for this failed relationship? You're right, no? Then why don't you take your own things yourself? Why don't do it yourself? 

Want to 理直气壮就理直气壮到底。Don't do it half way. You insisted you're right all the way, then continue to insist, why want to make it seems suddenly like you're guilty of something and don't dare to face people? Just like your best friend. Claiming to never do anything but still dare not face me. It's still a mystery to me as to why he dare not face me. I thought you would be 坦坦荡荡 and face anyone since you insisted that you're always right. I cannot believe that you're so 懦弱.

我以为你是一个勇于面对一切的男人。

我以为你是一个坦荡荡的男人。

我以为你是一个不会逃避问题的男人。

我以为你是一个很有责任感的男人。

可是我以为错了。。

你让我对你刮目相看。

你让我看不起你的作风。

你让我看到男人的懦弱。

你让我对你彻底的失望。

你这样还能算是男人吗？

我觉得你只是个男孩。

I don't hate you for what you've done/said, I don't hold any grudges towards you. I don't have hard feelings towards you either. I took everything as I owe you and accepted everything that you've done to me the past two weeks was just repaying what I've owe you. I guess I'm done repaying. 我不再欠你. You said we could be friends, then why are you behaving like this? 

You really beguiled me. 

Thank You! :)

Thank you for picking me up from work.
Thank you for waiting for me to finish work at 6pm when you finished at 3pm.
Thank you for bringing me out for dinner.
Thank you for finishing up the food that I can't finish.
Thank you for worrying about me.
Thank you for getting me your jacket from the car just because I said I'm cold.
Thank you for remembering to switch sides with me when crossing the road.
Thank you for going that extra miles to see smiles on my face.
Thank you for making me laugh.
Thank you for keeping me company though you're tired.
Thank you for sending me home.
Thank you for giving me your undivided attention.
Thank you for your care and concern.
Thank you for going all out.
Thank you for spending time with me.

谢谢你视我如宝. :)

See you tonight. :)

Died.

To the things I've been hearing..
And how I felt about what I heard..
I guess it really died. lol

It's Still You.

it has always been you and no one else.

every part inside of me is dying. 

really feel like dying..
tears threaten to fall but i kept holding back.
i just feel like disappearing from this world.
i'm not that strong after all..
i really need you to keep me going..

somebody pls just kill me....

我的天后

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹

像个人气高居不下的天后

你要的不是我而是一种虚荣

有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容

成全了你万众宠爱的天后