我以为。

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

我可以抱你吗爱人 
让我在你肩膀哭泣 
如果今天我们就要分离 
让我痛快地哭出声音 
 我可以抱你吗爱人 
容我最后一次这样叫你 
你也不得已 
我会笑笑地离去

Chloe came to office last Friday and she said she drew me in this picture. LOL.
The ' I ♥ U ' made me smile! :D

Baby Bryant is 5months old! (: So cuteee!
He keep quiet when I carried him! And that amazed Emilyn and Xinle! LOL

Banditz! :) 

Bestieee!

Ming Yao, our woodwinds instructor! :)

Elise. :) 

He said we're his 'kids' LOL

HAHA!

Mirror is loveeeee!

My sunshine went back to Malaysia already.. Now my days are rainy.. ):

Feeling like this.

Yes? No? I don't know.

I spent my weekend relatively well. Being with the girls, surrounded by people whom I'm familiar with is what I really need now. 

Surrounded by the sound of music by all the musicians at Victoria Winds and KTV session that helped to let me release whatever that was in me.  

Meeting up with Secondary School girlfriends and had a really good time at MindsCafe after not meeting them for such a long time was really awesome. It's always good to know that all my girls are doing well and good. Of course, most importantly, they're happy. :) 

Cousins and Granny is in town last night and they went to USS this morning. They can't be here for too long and today is the only day available for them. Too bad I can't join them this time. It's just too last minute. But I'm really glad that the weather is having mercy today by keeping it cooling the entire day! I was still worrying that it's gonna be heavy downpour in late afternoon! Please let them enjoy themselves today first! ): Queen updates her facebook so frequently that I know that they're having fun there and I'm happy seeing them happy. :) 

Apart from all the usual routines and having the same old people with me spending the weekend together.. There just seems to be somehow a little emptiness in me. Somehow, I just can't smile like before and I wonder why. Jeorgina's return to Malaysia made that worse. Breathing tube contraction is one of the causes I suppose. It's been ages since it relapse and it actually choose to relapse at this time. I feel out of breath most of the time and it's kinda suffocating me cause it makes me keep breathing through my mouth, hoping to catch a bigger breath but it's not and it caused chest pain. :\ I refuse to see my doctor cause I think it's gonna be over in no time. But it's going on for almost a week. Okay, I'll give it another week to observe further. I hope I don't die in my sleep when I can't breathe well. -.- 

Breathing tube contraction makes me really moody cause I keep feeling out of breath and I'm feeling really terrible the whole day. Even my girlfriend feels that I'm asthmatic. -.- Zzzz HELP!!! ): 

Gonna head home today and try to rest early! I haven't been resting well and my face condition is telling me that I lack of rest! 

Okay, update soon! (: 

P/S: 我没有答应自己离开你以后，我会过得很好。

Things Are Really Changing For Me, At Least.

Semi-Finals. 5 mins before we start the show.

My box!

Felicia and Jaslyn.

I got to do hula hoop! ): 

Last challenge, post with Subaru car.

Finals' Day. went down to support the girls. :)

Finalists. :)

With Ben and Shawn!

So cute!

This is my Mummy Ting and two god-brothers!

Emilyn & Becky.

MBS. We went to Chocolate Bar for chocolate Buffet.

The usual group of girls. :)

Two Birthday girls!

Change my parting. Hopefully it stays!

The reason for my smiles now. :)

Kris and Kel. :)

On the way to meet my girls!

Marie, Sherine and Steph.

Little Precious playing with my earring. Super love her.

I ask her to take photo with me and she doesn't want! -.- 

Peekaboo! 

Jojo!

Girls from CATS-Classified.
Denise, Jojo, Me, Eileen, Merilyn, Jaslyn and Felicia.

SUBABULL. HAHAHA. Inside joke.

We're cute, I know!

We're all from Whosgoing!

She's my sunshine. :)

OKAY. I AM BACK. Yes I know, I haven't been updating. -.- MEH. 

So, CATS Classified is over and I didn't make it to finals. ): Oh well. It's okay. The experience and exposure is good. (: Though I was quite affected. But oh well, I make sure I do better next time if I take part. BLEAHS. I'm glad I know the girls cause they're really sweet and cute! (: Last Sunday's outing was awesome! (: 

Been to a few places and done a few things but I've been staying home and I kinda love how I'm always at home nowadays. Don't really feel like going out cause  my mood was not very good for the past 2months and it got worse lately. Can't seems to find a reason to smile anymore other than having Jeorgina with me. Truth hurts but sometimes, things are unavoidable. We can fool ourselves with our actions but we can't fool what our heart wants us to do. 

I've been doing a lot of thinking for the past almost 1.5 months. Pondering over some serious decision (maybe not really) but having a hard time deciding what I should do. After deciding what I should do, it's now about how should I do it. 

My girlfriends tell me that the problem with me is not that I don't know what I should do. It's because I care about how other people will feel more than myself. I know things gotta be done soon. I just don't really know how to start. 

There's nothing really wrong but just... Sigh. 

I've been feeling really blue thinking about what should I do. This 1.5 months of being almost everyday alone has given me more than enough time to think about the whole situation. 

I guess, I already gotten my answer long ago. Just yet to make known. I'm really losing everything and I'm tired of trying and trying. 

My indecisiveness will cause a lot of problems. 

My softhearted problem will cause a lot of hurts.

I failed to notice the seriousness of not doing things fast enough. 

I'm sorry.

Update soon. I know this is gonna be tough for you. But I'm really sorry, I'm letting you go because I know this is not what I want.

Birth Date.

What do you think? Is it like you?? Kinda true for mine. 

Best Match is 4,6, 8. LOL. My Boyfriend's and Part-Time Boyfriend's birth date is number 4. My Ex-Boyfriend is 8. Tsk. -.-

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3, 5 and 7.

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You

learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5.

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5.

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

I Wish?

This is every girl's dream. 

To walk on Victoria Secret's Fashion Show.

Exam tomorrow and my mind is filled with rubbish. 

I need to focus. 

Update soon. 

XX

Oh by the way, I didn't know losing 2kg in 2 days could be done easily.

Hmmm.