Baby Let Me Blow Your Mind Tonight.

I Can't Take It Take It Take No More!Never felt like felt like this before
C'mon get me get me on the floor
DJ whatcha whatcha waitin' for!? THOR.


Bestfriend for 9 years. (: Kris.


My Dinner. Didn't finished it. LOL.


Elize. Secondary School Mate! (:


2 Clarinets VS 1 Flute. Dang!


Super Cute!


Elize's. (:


Elize's.


Felyn's!


Kris's.

Met up with Elize, Felyn and Kris on last Thursday to watch ' Thor '. Haha. The movie is..... Fucking awesome. Makes me want a ' Thor ' Boyfriend so fucking badly! ): Dinner was at the newly renovated Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe at Cineleisure after going to Somerset 313 to get Kris's falsie. (: It's really good seeing Felyn after like since we graduated from Secondary. So yeah, imagine how long have we not met. (: She's still so pretty! (: All of them are pretty! (: The rest of the photos are with Kris and Elize respectively. Hahaha. When I get them then I upload. Haha.

CHANGI!(:

Carpark 5.


Lyn Lyn. (:


Yes, the photo is very reddish.


Because of my Casing!


*BLEAHS*


' I LOVE BLOOD ' - See that on Lyn's shirt. HAHAHA.


(:


After taking out the casing! So much better!


But now it become so ' yellowish ' -.- Grrr!


Super Yellowish. Too close to the camera??


Okay, better. HAHAHAHA! I keep cam-whoring.
Emilyn's camera.

:D


=o


不同年，同月同日生的 brother. LOL.


;o


>:d


:d


>:o


LOL. Super messy photo.


SEXY ASS. And please do not misunderstand! Sunny was just trying to help me to sit on the railing but I humji, don't dare to sit cause I can't swim, scared fall into the sea. LOL 

Friday night is a rather relax night with a supper at Changi V and then chat at Changi Beach Carpark 5 while watching the planes taking off. I wanted breeze and there, they brought me there. (: Changi V actually brought back a lot of memories. It reminds me of skating, reminds me of people, reminds of the past and reminds me of moments. Moments like when skaters actually skated from East Coast Park to Changi in the middle of the night, taking about an hour. It's really damn fast already. We were on skates, late at night with limited visions but we managed to go through it. (: Should I say I'm really proud? Heh. I miss skating, really. The company, the place, the talks, the things we did and laugh at together. Not forgetting that skating rink. (: Time pass, people changed and we can't go back to where we once were. We grow up and eventually we need to move on with our life, doing things we're suppose to do. We leave people who are not as important and we quit things that aren't suppose to be in our life. Life..... Sigh.

 POWERHOUSE!

Saturday night when I left my house. (:


Never hold iPhone too near you when taking photos, FLASH BANGED.


Alex, my driver for the day. LOL. From morning 11+ fetch me from home to eat lunch to school to home and waited for me to get ready and then to fetch Lynn and to Powerhouse and then send me home after Powerhouse. LOL.




SUPER CAM WHORE.


Front Camera of iPhone 4, not very clear. HAHA.





 WAHAHAHAHA. I'm sorry I'm spamming photos of myself. I just love this new app that Emilyn intro-ed to me. HAHAHAHA.



Baby Lynn! (:


Andrew. (:


Zack and Marcel.


Ah Pu! See you in July in School! (:


Ah Pu and Lynn! (:


<33!


My Lockscreen photo at 5:15am on 15/05. (:



When makeup was fresh and good.


Picked up Lynn! (:


Arrive at St James.


Marcel, sober. LOL


LOL. Damn cute.


Lynn baby and Marcel.


Me, Ah Pu and Lynn baby!


Marcus and Me. (:


Alex. (:


Andrew.


The crowd. Apparently they said the girl in stripes like want guys to see her panties or breast. LOL.


Aloy!


<33


Brandon!


Birthday Boy, Zack Smith.


He's Marcel's friend from Zouk. LOL


My Favourite! Vodka Cranberry!


Finished alr! (:


My Baby Girl!


Sexy Lynn and Cute Zack.


Lynn's friends.


Lynn and Aloy.


DJ KZEEE. TIU TIU TIU!


Brandon.


Alex and his orange juice.


Lynn & Brandon. (:


Zack's high and so are the girls next to him. LOL.


Tired face. Still want to cam whore. HAHAHAHA.


THIS GUY AND HIS ANGRY BIRD DAMN FUCKING CUTE OMG! CANNOT TANK!!


My renewed complimentary membership card. (: <333

Alex was with me since morning 11+ until the next day morning at 4:30-5am? LOL. He picked me up from home to go for lunch near our school then send me home to let me get ready for St James. I asked him to come up to my place and wait for me but he refused. -.- So he waited under my block for like 1hr 40mins. LOL. BLEAHS. That's why I ask him to come up! Hahahaha! But oh wells. We went to pick up Lynn before heading to Geylang's 豆浆油条大王. Hmmmm Yummy! (: After that we head to St James and went straight to Powerhouse. Heh. Been a LONG time since I step in there with my own friends. (: Awesome night, crazy night. Crazy people, crazy fun. (: Totally love it! (: I didn't drink a lot, just stood there watching the people doing funny stuffs, went up the podium for a while with my Baby Lynn. The night ended with Alex's cigarette butt burning my thigh for a bit. ): Sigh. He sent me home though. Thanks Alex! (: Great night. Drink, drank, not drunk. HAHA.

My schedule for this week. FULL.


Breakfast  Emilyn bought for me today. (:

I was looking at my diary to check my schedule. I'm fully booked for the entire week. Queen asked me to bake cookies soon to bring back for Uncle cause school holidays are approaching. (: Emilyn help me buy the very yummy Mr bean. (:

Has anyone of you ever have this question in mind like ' Why does someone need someone with them? ' Like, why does a guy need a girlfriend and likewise, why does a girl need a boyfriend? Companionship? Someone to hold? Someone to talk to? Someone to be there with you all the time? Someone who share things with you? Someone you can tell everything to? Someone to go everywhere and anywhere with you? Someone to do everything and anything with you? Or you just want someone to have sex with?

I don't know. I'm starting to feel like this world is just about sex, money and drugs. There's not really a thing as ' True Love ' anymore because people are changing. It's more like they WANT sex because they need to ease their cravings, they WANT money because they need to spend on branded stuffs, they WANT drugs because they need them to ease their ' stressful life '. If you realised, there are so many cases of girls being raped, so many cases of people who went bankrupt because they gamble (thinking they can make money out of money) and there are so many cases of drug addicts. Yes, all these existed since the past but what I'm upset about is the fact that people misuse the fact that Boyfriend/Girlfriend is not a thing, they're human, they have feelings. They're not sex machine, they're not ATM, they're not drug dealers. Seriously, they're neither. I cannot stand people always tell their partner ' I have my needs ', ALWAYS. Those things are not a NEED, Sex, Money or Drugs. They're not a NEED in life. At least to me, that's what I feel. 

We're all greedy people, really. Just that maybe all our greed is different. I'm greedy when it comes to love from family and friends. I possess their love for me. Some people are greedy for other things like money, positions, authorities, power and etc etc. I don't know, I'm greedy for my family, for my future. I want a stable future because I'm the kind who needs a family to keep me going. Be it whether is it like current, I have my Queen and Princesses or when I'm gonna get married in the future with my future husband. I'm a family oriented person. I NEED a family to keep me going in my life. It's not a want. People often mistook 'wants' and 'needs' in life. People don't realised the differences and neither do they see the importance to realise them. It's quite sad you know, when your partner/loved ones doesn't think the way you think and often, it's because of different perspectives that causes separations for two people who are so close. I've asked myself, ' How am I suppose to make sure that we both share the same values in life? ' Nope, I never get an answer because I know there's no such thing as share the same values. Because time pass and people change, our values will keep changing. This is something not even heart to heart talks can solve. Get it? It's either we take it or leave it. 

For the first 1/3 of my life, I've been living for someone, doing things for someone, changing myself for someone and fitting their world into mine until I've lost myself. Now that I've finally found myself again, I'm not letting it go. Recently there's too many things in my mind and somehow, somewhat changed my mentalities and beliefs in this  life of mine. 

 

Moments shared can never be erased. But future moments that hasn't been created, can be changed.

Maybe I've just learnt to care, even lesser than before.

Anywhere You Are, I Am Near.

What are words If you really don't mean them When you say themWhat are words If they're only for good timesThen they don't When it's loveYeah, you say them out loudThose words, They never go awayThey live on, even when we're gone.

Yes, you can say I'm too bored. Lol.


Inherit my Queen. -.-


Last night while waiting for Tang Tang to fetch me, CAM WHORE FIRST. HEHE.






Tang Tang! (:


Geylang's Famous Beef Kuay Teow. (:


Hi, this is Tang Tang. He's my ex-crush from Whosgoing. LOL. Now we're good friends. (:

  This is on 7th May, when we're going for Mother's Day dinner. (:

I've a surprise visitor today. Baby Chloe! :D All grown up compared to that little baby still crawling on the floor when I first saw her! (: But still so adorable!


Aunty Cora! The one who likes to talk to me everytime she see me, smack my butt and tell me she miss me while she's doing her things. HAHAHA. :D I missed her too. (:

Aunt Jess and Baby Chloe. (:

Little Sweetie preparing for her ballet class. (: 

Okay, I'm really trying very hard to be consistent and blog everyday. But then I realised that I'm actually run out of things to say. LOL. 

Okay, I met up with Tang Tang last night and had supper at Geylang. Haha. So funny cause it's been so long since we last met. LOL. WE WERE BOTH EMPTY STOMACH so we decided to eat something filling. Hahaha. And so, he asked me to decide before he came to pick me up. He came rather late cause he was playing soccer before he met me plus he stays like Queenstown. Hahaha. Okay, thank you Tang Tang for coming to fetch me and go for supper together. LOL. It was a nice catch up. I love that familiar feeling even though we didn't meet for like ages. Almost 2 years? or 1.5years? I can't remember when was the last time he met me man! LOL Told Queen I was gonna meet Tang Tang and she was like ' Oh! That guy! You never mention I'd have forgotten about him. ' LOL. So we talked A LOT and after eating, he send me home and came up to my place for a while hoping to talk to my Queen but too bad my Queen was showering so he stayed for a while and went home. Next time eh. Timing wrong! HAHAHA. But it's really funny to be talking to him as well. Haha. We kept talking about the past. Like those days when we club everyday, with those clubbing kakis etc etc. (: It's good to reminisce. TSK! MEET UP SOON! :D

Really, thanks for sharing with me your feelings. But you know we can't turn back time. It's time you move on. This is a game that ended long ago and it's not like what you've said. This isn't a chess game that was left there and waiting for you to come back and ' checkmate ' and you win the game. You've lost the game because I quit that game. I'm sorry, but I just want you as a really close friend to me. Nothing more than that so please don't ruin it. *if you ever get to read this.* (: Let's just stay what we are now because in fact, I guess we'll be better and happier this way. (: Thank you. (: You're amazing, I'm sure you can find the right one for you. (:

Sorry, because there's no more room for another person in my heart.
我过不了自己那关.

Recently, my mind's messed up but I still do know what my heart is thinking. It's just that maybe I'm too tired to even want to do anything about what I'm feeling and thinking.

你永远是我心中的女王。

Okay, I'm trying to make it a habit to blog every single day. TRY. I realised nowadays I don't really have the heart to blog anymore. I guess partially because of Twitter. -.- I'm always on Twitter. LOL. Plus I guess, school? Yeah. Anyway let me update on Mother's Day Celebration. (:

Princess Jiamin and I. (:


Queen!


Little Princess Jeorgina.


Too Boredddd.


On the way to 313 Somerset. (:


Our table of food for sharing. (:


She just cried because she doesn't want to sit on the baby chair. -.-


So my Queen had to carry her. Haha.



姨丈 and cousin. (:


Mother's Day cake. (:


Queen hand made that top for her. (: With alphabet J.


Princess Jiamin and 姨丈 (:


Caramel Ice Cream. Yummyyy!


She was playing with the phone so Queen asked me to take her photos!


Engross!


Happy face! Super cute. (:


Princess Jiamin. (:


I think my Queen asked her to take like this. LOL.


Lol. My Queen has good photography skills. >.<


Damn, have I inculcate this to my Princess Jiami? -.-


After dinner, walking around at 313. (:


:D

We celebrated a be-early Mama's day on 7th May because I have exam on 8th May and timing sucked. 7-10pm. -.- Met Uncle Chris at Somerset MRT before heading over to Marche. (: Cousin and her Boyfriend came too. It's the first time her Boyfriend met her Dad. (: Hope everything is good! :D But can see Uncle Chris's happy face la! (: Walk around at 313 for a while before heading home. Afterall it's a fruitful evening! (:

妈咪，妈妈节快乐！ (:

我永远爱你！

And so my Business Accounting exam was on Sunday. Woke up at 11ish to study and get ready to go to school at 4ish. Reach school at 6:30pm, went to submit assignment and find my classmate before going to exam hall! I swear I was damn nervous. First time in 5 years I'm so nervous!! First exam after 5 years. Omg I was so stress for a while until I keep telling myself everything's gonna be fine don't worry. Sat through the 3 hours exam and I'm pretty shock there are people leaving at 8:30pm when paper starts at 7pm. -.- Some more he's late for paper. Either he really damn zai or he know he's gonna fail or he has too much money to spend. -.- Yeah, so 10:05pm, Queen called and ask ' 怎么样啊？可以做吗？' Hahaha. Damn nice to receive call from her straight after paper. (: Yeah, the paper was okay. It's 50% of the total result so I'm pretty confident. HEH. (:

And so, I've started my second module yesterday; Tourism System.

This are the materials for my Second Module. -.- Going to faint. 

Okay let me tell you what happened when I went to collect my materials cause it was damn funny. You gotta go to this ' Materials Collection ' counter and queue for your turn. When it's my turn, I handed my receipt to the person at the counter and then he was like ' hold on ' and he went to get this piece of paper for me to sign on it and after I sign I just stood there and wait. He came back with two thick books and I was shocked until I took a step back. -.- So the guy behind me was like giggling. Zzzz What the hell la! Damn thick. -.- And all words. Zzzz. Yeah, so being very Kiasu, I went straight to school library to borrow books for the assignment's purposes. End up the book also very thick. -.- The 3 Books added up to be like my A-math and E-math books in Secondary School times. -.- Damn heavy. On the way home, I flipped through the study guide and I saw the first assignment requirement : 2500 Words, 10 References, Maximum 14 pages. OH MY GOD. I nearly fainted. -.- that time ask me write 200-300 words my brain like dying already. -.- G_G But never mind, I'll start doing it early. (:

  I received a message from St James yesterday morning. Haha. Lynn Baby told me that her St James membership card expired and said she has to pay to renew. But I always get complimentary one. I also don't know why. :\     I bought this soap cause Kimy said it's good and effective for white spots. It smells okay from the outside but when I use it, the aftermath was horrible. Like seriously horrible. -.- Grrr no choice. ):

 
 Ending today's post with this GIF.

People tell me that everyone make mistakes. 

Yes I know, I'm just tired of all the mistakes made, on me.

Can it be my turn to make a mistake and people take my shits for me? 

Dear Heart, 

Stop thinking.

Stop missing.

Stop looking.

Love,

Me.