Not The First Time.

you always think you're right.
you always think I think I'm right.
you always think I'm picking a fight.
you always think I'm finding fault with you.
you always think everything you do is okay.
you always think that whatever you do is 'okay wad'.

but no.
I've asked a few girls.
what you think and do is fucking not right.

spending the whole of last week's weekdays on your game I already never say anything ( I think I'm very kind to obey my 'you can play during weekdays when I not with you' when I was staying at your house ) but too bad you crossed the line on weekend.

I don't care whether or not are you watching EURO but fact is even when you can't fucking stream the channel you still play the game. for all I know, I slept way earlier than you everyday.
you start playing game after dinner, no?
you want to play or watch or whatsoever, you make sure you have enough rest. if you don't have enough rest, I really don't expect myself to be facing a 'tired' you. just like you said you don't like me giving you a black face cause I'm tired.

we agreed that weekend we are supposed to spend time with each other.
but look at what you're doing. - diablo.
you said you won't neglect me but end up what were you doing the whole time? - diablo.
yeah you gave me that few seconds of attention cause I was looking at you and you ask 'why? what?' you call that attention?
and end up you ask me 'why am I suppose to spend time with you?'. - this is what I get from such a lovely boyfriend. bravo.

we were supposed to go back to my house but end up you kept playing your game, dragged the time and knowing I won't wanna go back late you ask me at 8+ 'you still wanna go home?'
so now you know how to play with time and fucked me around is it?

just because I kept quiet, doesn't mean I'm okay with what you're doing.
if I make noise you say I get angry easily.
if I kept quiet, you said I never tell you.
can you be anymore selfish than now?

all you think about is you yourself and you. it's not me and you, we or us.

you just always never spare a thought for me.
you just always never think about how I will feel.
you just always never remember anything you said before.
you just always never mean what you said/did.

you're always right in your opinion.

you expect me to put myself in your position. but have you ever put yourself in mine?

yeah, I put myself in your position.
of course I would be happy to do what I wanna do.
of course I wouldn't want my girlfriend to stop me or get angry with me with game stuffs.
of course I'll be glad if she could join me in the game.

but you've never put yourself in my position.
since you don't then I'll tell you, as usual. (cause you don't give a fuck about how I feel.)

so now game is more important than me?
so now game could cause you to break our agreement to spend time with each other and allowing you to ask me this fucking stupid, moronic and idiotic question of 'why am I suppose to spend time with you?'
so now game replaced my position?
so now, you're telling me I'm nothing compared to your motherfucking game?
so now cause of your game you decided to say I'm unreasonable when you yourself is indeed and in fact spending so much time on it?
so now you wanna continue to pissed me off, argue with me and quarrel with me over something that's not even existing in real life? something that you can't even have physical contact with?

you said it was just a game.
then why is it that you want me to stop clubbing and I could do it but when I want you to do something for me, you always find me excuses?

this is just gonna be another beginning.
I will not stop doing things for you anymore since you won't do that for me.

you expect me to be selfless when you're so selfish?

honestly?
bullshit and fuck you.