31st Dec 2012.

2013 is arriving.
Time seems to pass very fast for 2012.

So many things have happened and so many things have changed.

I've a lot to say.
But not today.

Happy New Year Everyone!

August Is Coming To An End..

Batam with the skaters. 

Bangkok with L, E and E's papa.

E's papa!

L & myself.

E!

the 3 girls.

half of my loots. or lesser.

return flight on business class and there's in-flight meal. -.- 

leg room super big! :) 

fruit cup!

met up with my primary school friend cause her birthday is coming!

back to malaysia!

look at how they look at each other, so melting!

started this week with E's homemade tiramisu!

met S to celebrate her birthday!

change of my hairstyle. :) 

Just a while ago, i was saying that it's august already. and next week, it's gonna be september. 

scary how time flies. and scary how we, changed with time. 

in august, there are a few things..

1. i went to batam with the skaters.
2. i went to bangkok.
3. i went back to hometown.
4. a lot of people's birthday and one of them is my ex-boyfriend. 

i used to look forward to waking up a brand new day. somehow now i dread everyday. they say it only happens to people who lost hope and i guess that's true. 

august has thus far been so so. i've been thinking a lot.. but that's not anything new. i've always been thinking of the same old things. 

random thoughts.. i thought of my ex-boyfriend as well. not a very good thing to do but somehow i miss the days with him. i don't mean i want to be with him again but just miss the days with him. days when he took my breath away, swept me off my feet and make me feel so loved and protected and i was the one and only in his eyes. days when we argue and quarrel so much because we care about each other so much and we never let a day pass without making up. days when we quarrel so hard yet we could end the day, making up with those passionate kisses. days when he was fighting for me, fighting to be with me, fighting to keep me. days when i really feel that someone really needed me in his life so badly and so real. those were the days.. reminisce. of course and surely, that's before he started cheating on me and lying to me and lost my trust. and i've long gotten over him. i just miss the times when i felt so real about relationship, about love. 

definitely, we will never be able to love another person the way we loved our ex but that doesn't mean we love them lesser than our ex. and i don't see love the way i used to see too. things change, i changed too. people around me change too. i only hoped that with changes everywhere and anywhere, my relationship with the one i love stay. i've been trying hard but.. i feel like giving up already.. 

and i'm so tired..

so, so, so tired. 

from all the thinking..

from all that has happened the past 6months.

feels like 2009. when i was all ready to release everything that i had and let go of what i've been holding on to. i need a really long, and good rest. 

september, i'm not counting on you to be better for me. i just hope it will be better for the people around me. 

goodbye.

until i'm ready, feeling better and maybe, happier. 

Will You? LOL.a joke for myself.

d0lphiin says:
****.. ask you uh..
*will you still want to be in a r/s consisting of domestic violence and cheating?
*** says:
*nope
d0lphiin says:
*if you're the guy.. will you want to be with a girl who always go round telling people what sort of things you've done to her?
*** says:
*depend wat thing...
d0lphiin says:
*like if you're the cheating and violent party.. she go round telling your common friends what you did to her..
*** says:
*She wan pple to pity her
*and feel sorry for her
*self-pity is not a good thing
d0lphiin says:
*but she still choose to stick with you
*that's the weird thing
*** says:
*Its like a dog... even though the master... beat and scold him
*he would still go back to the master
*as the master feed him
*To the extend it apply to human too
*we complain abt our life but we still stick wif it....
*only when u r ready for a change would u break out of the cycle

2nd Year Anniversary.

Baby J was part of our celebration! :)

Handmade card.

Anniversary present for E.

Gucci cardholder.

Sentosa day.

Cable Car. love the ride cause we could over the RWS!

Gift shop.

Tiger sky tower. it's a mehh. just turning on the top. 

Luge. the ride was okay. haha. 

Queuing for  Extreme log ride.

in the waiting room.

dolphin show.

song of the sea.

on cable car, going to mount faber.

too adorable to not love her.

her cheeks are so chubby!

zha! so cute.

outside angus.

E with baby J.

seated.

baby J & me.

nomnom. 

this is super cute!

This is almost two months late. Well.. better than never update at all right? -.- 

so yes, we spent the day at sentosa like as though we're on an excursion. 

the trip was fun. and.. hmm i'm lazing to elaborate. so please look at my facebook for more detailed stuffs. 

so yes, that's about it for my post today. haha. 

update soon. 

Chronicles.

17June. Princess M's ballet performance!

Cousin & I. :)

My mama!

Popo!

& E!

22June. 

Little precious is here. :)

Cannot resist her!

Sooooo cheeky!

V!

Shanghai Dolly.

7July.

On the way to Kukup.

Shopping.

Our beer. -.- 

Lunch.

Night!

E & A.

S & C.

C!

E's poly friend's wedding lunch.

One of the weekend. Super cute. hahaha.

18July. Raffles Annual Bowling.

B & E.

YK, SP & XJ.

My winnings this year.

Dinner with S!

22July. MBS for R's birthday!

L!

L! together with infinity pool. :)

NDP rehearsal fireworks.

Avalon.

K's birthday!

J. K's sister.

with a blink of an eye, it's already august.

so many things happened in the past two months. 

happy, not really because of E but my friends.

sad, none other than because of E. 

too much emotions have been filling up my mind, heart and probably soul that i think i forgot how to even smile.

okay, back to my updates first. 

so JUNE. 

i've not been going out too often other than staying home and doing nothing. -.- 

went for my little princess's ballet performance as well as bringing her to SOTA to settle her registration issues. 

went clubbing with V & her friends.

spent my anniversary day at sentosa.

nothing fanciful. 

and JULY. 

yeap, i've spent most of my days being home too. don't really feel like going out because i'm always feeling tired. 

went to Kukup with E & his friends.

Attended raffles's bowling for the 2nd time in almost 3 years.

meet some old friends for dinner and watch a movie.

went avalon for the first time with my WG friends whom i didn't party with for super long.

nothing much. just catching up with old friends. 

yeap, very short update. 

i don't really want to get too wordy. 

so yes, my mood these days are pretty unpredictable but most of the time it's not exactly good. the only time when i'm always feeling good is when baby J is around. E is definitely not very much helping to make me feel better so yes, i have to help myself.

somehow i feel i'm feeling tired to always having to live for someone.

and yes, i'm gonna start living for myself again. until i'm proven things are worth much more.

end of story. 

update soon.

i'll be away for bangkok from tomorrow till saturday night. goodbye!