self-obsess. (:

i love me! (: hahas. i mean, who don't? hehees. just that recently i found out i'm loving myself more and more. (: hahahas. yeah! I LOVE MYSELF.

well, lucas dropped by at my workplace to visit that yesterday. (: so nice of him. to still remember me lahs. cause eventhough sometimes i'm at the rink, he's not there. and many a times, he dropped by with the skaters to say ' hi ' to me. hahas. thanks yeah. (: it's always nice to have someone visiting you once in a while isn't it? (: hahahas. maybe not to you, but to me, it is. (:

anyways, before he leave he left me a ' balloon bracelet ' thingy. hahas. so cute. and i so like it much lahhs. was taking photos with it when i was on my way home. ON THE WAY OKAY! (: hehees. (: thanks lucas for the thought. (: i like it though. =] hahas.

well, so much of everyday life now. back to some reality facts. yupps.

well, as for my work wise.. i'm having a hard time deciding. whether to stay or leave. by right, i should have gotten a confirmation from the other side on tuesday and i have to give an answer on wednesday. but i got no confirmations. so, what am i to do? -.- confused. hais. the pay is tempting though. -.- yeah.

well well, threatening is like, fuck up? when you don't feel like doing something, yet someone keep forcing you to do. asking you and telling you what to do. the feeling is fuck up. so tight up and stress. i mean, my life, for fuck you wanna control so much? no reasons for you to do so when you're MR.NOBODY. fuck that shit. enough is enough. don't threaten me with stupid stuffs. i'm not buying it. the most if worst come to worst, i'll call police. i had enough of relationship stuffs. I ONLY WANNA BE FRIENDS NOW. stop forcing me. no point, fucking no point. wake up your bloddy idea fuck. I'M NOT A PUPPET. find someone else to be your puppet. stay away from me. i just wanna be single for now. i had enough of all the emo shits, craps and nonsense you've been giving me. though you tried to me nice to me. and i can feel it. but i don't want any of them right now. just leave me alone or find someone else better. don't keep coming to me and be like some kinda emo freak. don't make me ignore you completely. so, don't cross the line as a friend. i hate people who shows me their emo-ness all the time. i had people who question me so much and i hate to feel like being controlled and watched. fuck! go find someone else who can stand all these. i'm DEFINITELY not the one. cb sia. knn. ANGRY LAHHS. fuck this. not gonna continue. _I_

okays. i'm tired. wanna sleep. but i have some photos for you all. (:


did coffee tasting with jess and liyana. our food pairing. (: buttery crossaint.


this is when i'm bored. [ black tea latte and skinny blueberry muffin ]



the ' balloon bracelet ' lucas gave me! (:


before.


after. =] i love the effect. (:





obssesed with the balloon. =] loves!

okays. off to bed. nights all. (:
mwaks.
xoxo.

TONIGHT. (:

hahahas. i like this song. (: thanks SLURRY. nice song introduced. (:

FM Static - Tonight lyrics

Artist: FM Static
Album: Critically Ashamed
Year: 2006
Title: Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

FACEBOOK. (:

this is the type of bride i'll be in future.



this is the kind of guys i attract. -.-



the love test.



the kind of smiles i have.. (:



i'm flirty. LOL.

make me a happy person. (:

' I STAY AT EAST COAST FOR YOU, BY THE WAY ' - thank you to the person who said this to me. hahahas. so nice and sweet of you. (: hahahaha.


had fun at east coast last night. though a 'surprise' was out suddenly. but at the end of the day is fine. (: yupps. before that i was at cineleisure with seductives. (: amy was with me too. (: hahas, glad she had fun with seductives. (: see them finally, after so so long. (:

met up with bev and he told me about he deferred his NS. so he's going back to australia to study again. bridging course and then uni. well, good luck. and all the best. (: don't forget to come back and visit us. (: hahaha. STUDY HARD THIS TIME. don't play around. (:


just woke up not long ago.. still feeling tired though. haha. so.. i'm not gonna blog so much. gonna be just like, photos? hahha.


look at my ankle. so pain. :(




amy and me at cineleisure. (:



east coast. marine cove. (:

well it's all done.

' I THINK YOU MIGHT BE ATTACHED SOON.. AND I THINK THE PERSON IS BEVAN '

well, whatever. zac said that to me. i'm not really bothered by that sentence no more. no relationship stuffs for me now. say whatever you wanna say. it's not really gonna affect me. sick of relationship and the things you have to go through. commitments and responsibilities. and the burden to have in mind. fuck those stuffs now. stay away from me now, cause I BITES! (:

attended learning coach workshop on tuesday. know a lot of new partners from different stores. nice knowing them. and WE ALL clicks. cause we're auditory and global people. (: HAHAHA. learnt a lot that day.. how to handle new partners. how to coach them the correct way etc. (: interesting. (: haha. enjoyed myself there.. (: nice experience. (:

just got the news of bev's gonna leave in february. gonna be away for a few months. well, he's from there. it's necessary for him to go back. haha. he misses his friends there i think. yupps. just hope he's happy. (: HAVE FUN BEVYY. (:

anyways, i'm gonna go for CMC ( coffee master challenge ) in february. 23rd i think. WELL WELL WELL, kat's gonna study AGAIN after SO LONG. hahaha. gonna bring back my black apron. (: haha. BLACK APRON IS MINE. (: YESSA!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA. (:

and i've to attend retail lobby workshop too. WOW~ busy busy katty. (: good hors? all my time for work. and nothing else. probably the next thing is my girls. (: hahaha. (:

GIRLS, AS LONG AS I HAVE YOU THREE, I'LL BE ABLE TO PULL THROUGH EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU ALL..

yayy.. hopefully can meet up with steph before she leave for shanghai. hais. she's going to shanghai for five months. FREAKING FIVE MONTHS OKAY! :( she'll missed my birthday... :( SOBS. but i don't care. she better get me my birthday pressie though! (: hehees. i love you.. and i know you love me toooooooooooooooo. (:

okays. i'm lazy to blog.. off for two days though. hahaha. might be meeting up with ben and all. hahaha. tomorrow night maybe.. if they going east side. cause i'll be at east coast!

AND..........

I'M MEETING SEDUCTIVES ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! (: missed them. tsktsk.

maybe things would be better..

yeah.. those who know what happened knows. i don't wanna say so much.



just remember one thing - KAT IS UNAVAILABLE NOW. (even if i am to be, it's only open to YOU-KNOW-WHO )





yupps. went to meet up with bev they all. had fun with them cause they know what happened.. and was trying to cheer me up. so i won't think so much. so much of the beer (yeewks!) hahas. but i didn't drink much lahhs. a cup or so? LOL. photos so funny. LOL. shall upload some later. (: hahaha.



went to DBLO with vivian and skaters. skatesports and IC. yupps. had an enjoyable night. (: HALF-DRUNK. lol. but sobber after being crazy for a while. retarded. (:




fuck it's 1:04am already. and i'm suppose to be sleeping. tomorrow gotta go for learning coach workshop at commonwealth. fucking far. need to wake up 6:30am. what the fuck. gonna go there sit down from 9am-5pm. SO LONG HOURS LAHH. but never mind.. (: go there to upgrade my knowledge. learning new skills. yupps. i must be at my best form tomorrow. (: musn't let cathay down. YES. (:




have been stuffing myself with works. well, it's a good thing, for me lahhs. cause basically i don't wanna think of anything right now other than work and family. and my girls. yupps.



i need rest. need sleeps. now that i don't have to fork out time commitment, i believe i can rest more. no need to always listen to comparism about time commitment. (: cause i'm all by myself. i do what i want. (: i believe everyone hope for this also right? yupps. (:




went to uncle edmond's new house at tanjong pagar on saturday. zac went too. well, i met him at tanjong pagar and he brought me there. the swimming pool is SO HUGE. so nice. the place itself is darn nice also. (: RAHH. i took some photos. hahaha. SOME only. (: hmm.. yupps.







think i should go to bed now. (:







night people.







DBLO NIGHT. (: 090108


kat falls into the bushes. -.-

the night out with them. so funny.

UNLCE EDMOND'S HOUSE.

i got this at $2. (:

the new me.. (: -changing in progress.-

BLEEDING LOVE

i've been listening to this song. it's nice.. but sad............... listen and feel how i feel....


BLEEDING LOVE - LEONA LEWIS.

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

[Bleeding Love lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

fuck the fucking new year. CB.

fucking new year just started and i'm feeling fucking stress. CB. sians.

started a new year with a fucking hell mood. -.-

lazy to blog. blog when i feels like.

bye.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. ^^

yeah. finally it's 2008. a year had gone. and so much memories for 2007. yeah.

break ups. sadness. Whosgoing. gelare. cedele. starbucks. clubbing. drink drank drunk. hahaha. so much of memories. happy and sad. (: :(

rahh.. did so many things last year. know so many friends. so much shits happened. and things seems to be in a cycle. -.- rather stupid having things is cycle. LAME. hahahaha.

thanks to those who came into my life last year.. made me a happy person. made me a cheerful person. (: thank you to those who pampered me and loved me! (: I FELT LIKE A LITTLE PRINCESS. (: really. (: all those who cared and concern about me. asking how am i everytime. talk to me online when i'm bored. entertain me.. hahas. those memories.. never be erased.. it's in ---> ("V")--> my heart. (: and those who made me cry.. YOU BETTER WATCH OUT. cause i think i'm gonna make you pay back DOUBLE THIS YEAR. hahaha. *curse you*. hehees.

well well.. i like whatever that happened last year.. (: new life experiences for me. cause these are things you never know how is it if you don't try them yourself. (: yupps. getting to know friends on webs. getting to go out with them. clubbing with them.. all these.. are fond memories. yupps. (:

I FEEL LIKE DOING A SHORT RECAP FOR THE PAST 12 MONTHS. (: they're past.. :(

JANUARY:
broke up with zac. and met bevan. (: he turn me into the happiest girl ever in my life. (: hahahas. i broke zac's heart.. well, at this point of time.. i felt hurt too. -.- cause he calls me a....... ( shall not mention ). and days with bevan is so nice and sweet. haha. (: though the time is short but he's so nice to me. (: pampered me the way i've never been. felt so loved that time.. (: but soon.. he left me.. back to australia on 27th. and i cried.. :( hahas. but he's back there to study. i should be happy for him. on the surface though. :( RAHH! we're still friends. (: that's the good thing. we didn't turn things nasty between us. yupps. i'm glad to have known him. (: though i grieve over his leaving. red rose, movie tickets, dxo, baby chloe, vivo..

FEBRUARY:
patched with zac. so much shits happened still. well.. we promised to give it a shot. try things out. but.. we ain't happy.. cause i was still having bev in my heart. so it's kinda hard for us too.. :( hais. nothing much happened.. working at gelare.. was fine initially.. well well.. look where am i now.. -.-

MARCH:
broke up with zac AGAIN. cause he lied. -.- and again he calls me a...... i cried again.. hais. called mom to tell her what happened. met him the next day to return the presents i owe him. -.- what the hell.. okays. then home i go. sleep! (: then few days later henry call me up to go and find him. i remembered i was at party world with steph. then i was telling her what happened and i was crying. :( then henry ask me go east coast.. end up i went.. zac ask for one last chance. and he cried.. which makes me feel soft hearted. -.- got back with him again.. -.- like every month must break up once then happy. -.-

APRIL:
went to batam with skaters. ivan, zhu, ron, zac and chee mai. had fun there. played sports like go cart and ATV. hahas. so fun. (: and again, me and zac broke up. just before he enlist.. whatever that happened after that night.. i don't wish to say. people who knows know. people who doesn't, too bad. ahaha.

MAY:
i'm leading my clubbing life. left gelare. and got to cedele. yupps. know a lot of friends in WG. a place i call 'heaven' cause i feel happy with my clubbing kakis. (: they're so funny and cute. hahaha. -bev days...-

JUNE:
hmm.. left cedele.. and still clubbing away.. couldn't count how many times i clubbed. -.- edison.. desmond.. vin.. HAHAHA. (: those people. nice and cute. HAHA. gone back to malaysia. hahas. well, yeah. had fun though. haha.

JULY:
back to singpore a few days before WG anniversary. hahas. nice! clubbed with the usual people. fun fun and fun! (: i love my clubbing life. (: my nightlife. YEAH! zac started to contact me again.. well, i ignored him at first.. CAUSE HE'S ATTACHED. -.-and he's telling me things that he told people how he feels about me. -.- met up with him & terry. cause promised him to see him before he goes to confinement. -.- i regret meeting him. cause it's not fun at all. -.-

AUGUST:
patched with zac. -.- i know i shouldn't. and my mom also don't agree. but again, he cried in front of me.. makes me soft hearted. i enjoy being single though.. we were supposed to be trying out for a month. things were sweet at the beginning. no problems.. nothing.. just sweetness. FIREWORKS FESTIVAL. (: and, STARBUCKS.

SEPTEMBER:
things were still alright.. i promise zac i'll try to let go of bev. though i know it's kinda impossible. but i still ask myself to try.. yeah.. cried over that. hais. over bev i cry again. :( hais. went to sentosa with zac for the FIRST TIME. lols. had fun though. ^^

OCTOBER:
well, nothing much happened. just that zac has got a lot of MCs. -.- meet him almost everyday. -.- like damn what lahhs. see each other everyday.. -.-

NOVEMBER:
club on the 7th. -.- once a MONTH. what the fuck. asking someone who clubs almost everyday last time to club ONCE a MONTH! dying.. really feel like dying.. -.- but i was working like mad also.. wanna find time to club also hard.. :( SO SAD. i miss my clubbing life and friends. :(:(:(
national freestyle competition.. i got 3rd.

DECEMBER:
went back to malaysia. bev's back. met up with him. catch up. it's a nice feeling. (: he grew FATTER. hahaha. double chin. LOL. the first sentence i told him was " you grow fatter! " LOL. and after he's back.. zac quarrels with me so often.. :( hais. went back to malaysia. cut my hair.. dyed my hair. went for hair show. pub with mom, uncle and aunt. cool right? SENTOSA with zac, aloy and amy. yeah..

that's the rough idea. LOL. whatever happened, it's part of my life. and i love them all. ahahaha. even the sadness. cause it's something that allows me to grow. grow to become a better person and know people from different angles. (:

okays. time to zZzzZzzz

bye alls. (:

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