alright. shall update a little. hahahaha. (: been busy working and spending my precious time with prince and baby boys. (:
FRIDAY.
` went to meet prince for lunch. but it became dinner cause i gotta look after my baby boys. helped them bathe and feed them etc. including coaxing them to sleep. (: hahas. met prince at his place and had KFC as dinner. then stayed at his place for a while and update my ipod. then head to small rink, supposedly to meet lynnee. but end up me and prince went to macdonald's and played PSP before we head to big splash. -.-LOL. skate until 1am. but most of the time i was sitting down cause my knee was still painful. :( sad. how to go for competition like that? hais. =X after skating went to had mee sua with prince, donna and wilson. chatted and stuffs. wilson send us back. took a shower when i reach prince's place. then see him dota etc. and i played one round. then slack until 6am, i took a train home. sleep, 7:30am.
SATURDAY.
` i woke up at 3pm. then use lappy etc. get ready and eat etc. then head to work. worked until 4am. and had supper with my colleagues. home 6am. sleep, 8am. cause my baby boy don't wanna sleep. so i accompanied him until 8am, when he finally sleep. -.- tired sia. :( but i enjoyed myself at work. worked with my store manager, my going-to-be assitant store manager, full-timer, and partners from PS. (: it's nice though. ^^ chatted and my store manager is freaking lame i swear! and my full-timer gave me a mug that i like from the retail wall. thanks zaid. though you're gonna be away from store for ICT. hahahahaha. good luck and have fun! (:
SUNDAY.
` hmm, i woke up at 12pm. get ready and left home to meet prince at bugis. bugis 1:30pm when i'm suppose to meet prince at 1pm. =X i'm sorry prince. thanks for waiting. (: love you lahh! hehees. then head to simlim to get the PSP memory card. we took quite a while before we found the reliable shop. -.- prince paid for it. (: $60. then we head back to bugis junction and had lunch. had swensen. ate our usual and yeahs, food always taste so much better with prince around. ^^ hahas. but i was really tired. could just sleep anytime. =X and what's worse was, i had tummy ache after eating. -.- and i went to shit. LOL. eat and shit = waste food. HAHA! then went shopping and stuffs. chatted about lame stuffs. ahahhahaha. (: and i went to work at 5pm while prince went home to get ready for book in. reach cathay 5:10pm. and met my colleague at MRT station. so walked to store together and chatted etc. worked all the way until 1am. in between prince messaged me and say someone vomitted on his bag in train. fucking disgusting people. eewk! and prince was pissed i suppose? LOL. and he had a lot of things to do when he got back to camp so i didn't disturb him. just before closing, i received a message from him saying he's gonna sleep etc. and yeahs, i continued my closing stuffs. home around 2am. yupps. gonna sleep after i done blogging. hahas. i'll upload the photos tomorrow after i wake up alrights? i'm sorry. =X
* thank you baby, for trying hard to please me. really appreciate everything. thank you so much! love you like human need water! (: xD
okays. i shall end here. my eyes can't take it anymore. wanna close already.
nights sweeties.
xoxo.
sugar honey dreams. (:
Monday, July 28, 2008
Always Be My Baby - David Cook.
new song. listen to the lyrics. expecially prince. (:
Always Be My Baby - David Cook.
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby
Always Be My Baby - David Cook.
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby
Friday, July 25, 2008
good and bad news. ^^ :(
okays. i think i shall start off with the bad news.
1. my younger cousin from malaysia passed away. due to heart infection.
reason : he got in the an accident months ago and since then he's got heart infection until now. plus, he took drugs. which is what people called the ' ice '. and somewhat result to his heart infection as well. i couldn't make it back for the funeral etc. but i've called back and informed. i feel sorry for my uncle and aunty cause they've got four children and now, they're left with two. the first child they lost was my closest cousin. he was drown in the river when i was nine year old. back then, he was only twelve. if he's still alive, he would be 23 already. hais. sad but, i can't do anything about it. like what others told me, life goes on. they would be even more upset if i'm upset. so i'll just let them leave happily. this cousin i've just lost wasn't very close to me. but since he was a young boy, i kind of pity him. cause no one in the family seems to care and appreciate him. everybody is busy with their own things, even his parents. no one cares about him. and since i was already in singapore, i can't be there for him no more. i mean, before i came to singapore, i seems to be the only one who would actually bother to talk to him, accompany him, bring him out etc. now that he's left, i hope he's happier up there in the netherworld. and instead of feeling too upset, i should be glad that he's away from all sufferings. may god be with him and guide him along the way to peace. just hope my uncle and aunty wouldn't be silly. cause the first son they lost, my aunty wanted to commit suicide. hais.......
2. my biological dad got arrested and had been sentence to jail.
reason : he was caught dealing with drugs. like, heroin etc. there's nothing much i can do about this. call me heartless or whatever, cause i don't even bother to call and ask what happen. not because i want to do so, but because i know even if i does, there won't be any changes. when i was a young girl, i tried telling him many times that he shouldn't do that. but he don't listen to me. and what's worse was, this was the cause of my parents' divorce. yet he doesn't even learn from his mistake. he don't take in people's advice and now he got himself into deep shit. no one can help him. he used to be a ' hero ' in my heart when i was really little. but as i grow older and know what happened, he's no longer that ' hero '. and he became a guy, who doesn't repent, who doesn't learn, who doesn't keep his words and full of lies. and i hated him. queen asked me not to hate him anymore since it's already passed more than ten years. but well, i can't tolerate a guy, who promised to change for the better yet goes back his words and become worse. and i can't tolerate the fact that he said queen went to be a prostitute when queen was working two jobs back then, just to give him money to raise us. and yet, he stays at home and do nothing but take drugs. he, then became a useless guy in my heart. once he apologised to me and said he's really sorry. asked for forgiveness and tell me i could hate him the whole of my life but not forgetting to go back and visit my relatives. i told queen and she ask me not to be so harsh on him. cause, he's getting old, and i won't have many chance to see him anymore. honestly, i hates him still. and i do, hates my biological grandma cause both of them are the same. talk shits about queen and spread the rumour to the whole village, making everyone thinks my queen really is a prostitute. but now, queen has been asking me to forgive and forget. she told me she no longer hate anyone of them. cause to her, they're already nothing. i'm trying my best not to hate them. i'm trying my best to accept them again. but again, they made me hate them in the first place. i know this shouldn't be happening. but, they make my queen suffered from humiliations. think, how would you feel when you know all the ' truths ' were lies. and they were about your mother?
- end of sad news -
- good news -
1. prince and princess's 6th year anniversary yesterday. (:
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY PRINCE! hope everything goes well for us! i love you as much as my queen loves me! (: prince gave me a surprise yesterday cause i worked closing and it was his nights off on wednesday. i didn't know he took off for wednesday and yesterday. and when i was busy doing closing, and tadah! i saw him standing at my store's entrance, with a bouquet of rose and a present. ME * stunt * : AREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE IN CAMP??? then he walked down the staircase, passed me the rose and the present. and said, ' happy anniversary baby! surprise? ' and i was like : ' yeahs. thanks. (: ' then i gave him a kiss. ^^ but still, i asked him why isn't he back in camp. so he told me he took offs. (: so sweet! hmmm.. of all anniversaries, this is the best so far. (: is he trying to compensate? LOL. i asked him this question. cause usually when it's anniversary, i'll be the first to message him. and wish him, or i'll be the one getting present for him. but this year, it's so different. ^^ prince came to my place after that. we had supper at home, supper by dad. cause he brought home his chickens and yupps, prince love it. glad that he enjoyed himself. (: spent the night at my place, with my baby boy! hahas. we're like, one family? LOL. but really appreciate it for what he's done. thanks for all the surprise and accompanying me. thank you so much! i love you baby! and yesterday we woke up at like, 3pm? then he played dota and i continued sleeping. then woke up around 5pm, by prince. cause he gotta go home and get ready to book in. so i got up and get ready to go out. had our dinner at my house's coffeeshop. then head back to his place. left his house at 9:30pm. and prince said he's hungry. so we went to eat again! fried oyster! ^^ then i sent him to jurong east. and i head to admiralty place to meet pris love, micheal, eric and leon. (:
2. yesterday was baby boy's fifth month! (: so nice right? so many things nice happening!!! (: i wish for him to be healthier and cuter! ^^
3. yesterday was also leon's birthday! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON! 24 years old ler! hope you get all the things you want! (: head to admiralty place to celebrate leon's birthday. reached there around 11:20pm. yupps. cut cake everything... then catch up with them. and all of them had fun playing my PSP game, cars. LOL. they were challenging the grand pix mode. have to get the highest point for the total of 4 rounds. and oh! me and prince have completed the story mode! total of 18 stages to clear! i swear it's not easy man! there are stages that we had to played like more than ten times!!! now, we're trying to clear the grand pix mode. (: hahas! stayed there until 2am, PSP. and thanks leon for sending me home. (: hope you like the present. (:
- end of good news. -
alrights, yes, i have photos. but i'm not gonna upload today. cause i'm tired. and i gotta wake up early to meet prince for lunch. as he will be booking out early later! just called him to wake him up cause he gotta go for battlion runat east coast for 16km. woooo. good luck prince! (:
alrights, night k. (: upload photos soon k! ^^
training tomorrow! ^^
1. my younger cousin from malaysia passed away. due to heart infection.
reason : he got in the an accident months ago and since then he's got heart infection until now. plus, he took drugs. which is what people called the ' ice '. and somewhat result to his heart infection as well. i couldn't make it back for the funeral etc. but i've called back and informed. i feel sorry for my uncle and aunty cause they've got four children and now, they're left with two. the first child they lost was my closest cousin. he was drown in the river when i was nine year old. back then, he was only twelve. if he's still alive, he would be 23 already. hais. sad but, i can't do anything about it. like what others told me, life goes on. they would be even more upset if i'm upset. so i'll just let them leave happily. this cousin i've just lost wasn't very close to me. but since he was a young boy, i kind of pity him. cause no one in the family seems to care and appreciate him. everybody is busy with their own things, even his parents. no one cares about him. and since i was already in singapore, i can't be there for him no more. i mean, before i came to singapore, i seems to be the only one who would actually bother to talk to him, accompany him, bring him out etc. now that he's left, i hope he's happier up there in the netherworld. and instead of feeling too upset, i should be glad that he's away from all sufferings. may god be with him and guide him along the way to peace. just hope my uncle and aunty wouldn't be silly. cause the first son they lost, my aunty wanted to commit suicide. hais.......
2. my biological dad got arrested and had been sentence to jail.
reason : he was caught dealing with drugs. like, heroin etc. there's nothing much i can do about this. call me heartless or whatever, cause i don't even bother to call and ask what happen. not because i want to do so, but because i know even if i does, there won't be any changes. when i was a young girl, i tried telling him many times that he shouldn't do that. but he don't listen to me. and what's worse was, this was the cause of my parents' divorce. yet he doesn't even learn from his mistake. he don't take in people's advice and now he got himself into deep shit. no one can help him. he used to be a ' hero ' in my heart when i was really little. but as i grow older and know what happened, he's no longer that ' hero '. and he became a guy, who doesn't repent, who doesn't learn, who doesn't keep his words and full of lies. and i hated him. queen asked me not to hate him anymore since it's already passed more than ten years. but well, i can't tolerate a guy, who promised to change for the better yet goes back his words and become worse. and i can't tolerate the fact that he said queen went to be a prostitute when queen was working two jobs back then, just to give him money to raise us. and yet, he stays at home and do nothing but take drugs. he, then became a useless guy in my heart. once he apologised to me and said he's really sorry. asked for forgiveness and tell me i could hate him the whole of my life but not forgetting to go back and visit my relatives. i told queen and she ask me not to be so harsh on him. cause, he's getting old, and i won't have many chance to see him anymore. honestly, i hates him still. and i do, hates my biological grandma cause both of them are the same. talk shits about queen and spread the rumour to the whole village, making everyone thinks my queen really is a prostitute. but now, queen has been asking me to forgive and forget. she told me she no longer hate anyone of them. cause to her, they're already nothing. i'm trying my best not to hate them. i'm trying my best to accept them again. but again, they made me hate them in the first place. i know this shouldn't be happening. but, they make my queen suffered from humiliations. think, how would you feel when you know all the ' truths ' were lies. and they were about your mother?
- end of sad news -
- good news -
1. prince and princess's 6th year anniversary yesterday. (:
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY PRINCE! hope everything goes well for us! i love you as much as my queen loves me! (: prince gave me a surprise yesterday cause i worked closing and it was his nights off on wednesday. i didn't know he took off for wednesday and yesterday. and when i was busy doing closing, and tadah! i saw him standing at my store's entrance, with a bouquet of rose and a present. ME * stunt * : AREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE IN CAMP??? then he walked down the staircase, passed me the rose and the present. and said, ' happy anniversary baby! surprise? ' and i was like : ' yeahs. thanks. (: ' then i gave him a kiss. ^^ but still, i asked him why isn't he back in camp. so he told me he took offs. (: so sweet! hmmm.. of all anniversaries, this is the best so far. (: is he trying to compensate? LOL. i asked him this question. cause usually when it's anniversary, i'll be the first to message him. and wish him, or i'll be the one getting present for him. but this year, it's so different. ^^ prince came to my place after that. we had supper at home, supper by dad. cause he brought home his chickens and yupps, prince love it. glad that he enjoyed himself. (: spent the night at my place, with my baby boy! hahas. we're like, one family? LOL. but really appreciate it for what he's done. thanks for all the surprise and accompanying me. thank you so much! i love you baby! and yesterday we woke up at like, 3pm? then he played dota and i continued sleeping. then woke up around 5pm, by prince. cause he gotta go home and get ready to book in. so i got up and get ready to go out. had our dinner at my house's coffeeshop. then head back to his place. left his house at 9:30pm. and prince said he's hungry. so we went to eat again! fried oyster! ^^ then i sent him to jurong east. and i head to admiralty place to meet pris love, micheal, eric and leon. (:
2. yesterday was baby boy's fifth month! (: so nice right? so many things nice happening!!! (: i wish for him to be healthier and cuter! ^^
3. yesterday was also leon's birthday! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON! 24 years old ler! hope you get all the things you want! (: head to admiralty place to celebrate leon's birthday. reached there around 11:20pm. yupps. cut cake everything... then catch up with them. and all of them had fun playing my PSP game, cars. LOL. they were challenging the grand pix mode. have to get the highest point for the total of 4 rounds. and oh! me and prince have completed the story mode! total of 18 stages to clear! i swear it's not easy man! there are stages that we had to played like more than ten times!!! now, we're trying to clear the grand pix mode. (: hahas! stayed there until 2am, PSP. and thanks leon for sending me home. (: hope you like the present. (:
- end of good news. -
alrights, yes, i have photos. but i'm not gonna upload today. cause i'm tired. and i gotta wake up early to meet prince for lunch. as he will be booking out early later! just called him to wake him up cause he gotta go for battlion runat east coast for 16km. woooo. good luck prince! (:
alrights, night k. (: upload photos soon k! ^^
training tomorrow! ^^
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Photos.
okays. everything wasn't what was planned. cause my cousin went out with my queen, making the change of me, STAYING at home the whole freaking day, being a nanny. idiot. =/
and yes, i was a good nanny k! looking after the young one until i literally have no more strength to do antything else. GRR! darn tiring. have to keep looking at the time to feed him. and have to keep coaxing him. but well, i love him. or rather, them. (: hahahas. yupps.
didn't meet vivian and didn't go coaching today. =X sorry, i really can't make it down. i don't even have time to chat with people on msn. -.- hardly even have time to eat. the baby just stick to me like glue like that. my cousin was saying that when she goes back to malaysia, she's gonna die. cause now, the baby doesn't want his own mother to carry. -.- weird baby. hahas.
and now, he's lying on my bed, sleeping. hahas. (: love the sight when i wake up, and i see him. (: it's just like when i'm waking up in prince's arm sometimes. but now, it's a smaller version of prince? LOL. hahas. oops. but it's lovely isn't it? hehees.
chatted with my cousin about me and prince's arguement. and she was telling me, that i shall be forgiving and forgive him because guys are just so very stupid when it comes to relationship, due to their pride and egoism. arh, fuck the pride and egoism. totally crap, and i mean, TOTALLY. can egoism be with you forever? can egoism be your wife? if so, no need to find a wife already. stick with your pride and egoism and be lonely for the rest of your life. stupid.
GRR! stupid guys.
anyways, i'm working closing tomorrow, and stupid enough, tomorrow i gotta punch in at 3pm and punch out at 12:30am. reason being, my store manager wants us to finish closing in one and a half hour. WOW~ sure. we're all gonna die. and, this is only posibble IF, we close at 10:30 SHARP instead of 11:10pm. nonsense right? argh. don't care. and yet the stupidest thing is, transport will only come at 1am. hahahaha. wish me luck for waiting eys. -.-
didn't talk to prince today, i mean not much. just a message from him asking me what time am i working until tomorrow. simple reply, 1am. that's it. and didn't receive anything then. yupps. still having some cold war. well..... two more days to our big day. i wonder how will it be like. talking about it, it's also leon's birthday. oops. =x
watched a TV show just now, the beach ball babes. argh, hate the storyline. maybe it's just my luck to see the episode today. cause it was about this guy who's with this girl, he promised her that he'll be with her forever and she's gonna be her only woman. but yet when it was his birthday that day, he had sex with the other girl who likes him. sadly, the poor girlfriend of his who wanted to give him a surprise together with the cake she baked and some of his friends, saw them on the bed together, naked. plus, the girl who slept with the boyfriend is actually her best friend. WTF LAHH! so sad can! if i'm the girl, i'm sure i'll just kill that guy. well, i shall not say anymore things in case SOMEONE things i'm trying to bring back the PAST. whatever.
alright, look at this below. i got it from IC forum. it's meant to be a joke. but, it's really a sad thing if things really have so much changes when i couple is dating and after married. i mean, why should there be a need to change so much? can't married couples be as sweet as they were when they're dating? why must it change? it doesn't make sense.
When you are dating..... He takes you out to have a good time.
When you are married ....He brings home a 6 pack, and says "What are you going to drink?"
When you are dating..... He holds your hand in public.
When you are married ....He flicks your ear in public.
When you are dating..... A Single bed for 2 isn't THAT bad.
When you are married ....A King size bed feels like an army cot.
When you are dating..... You are turned on at the sight of him naked.
When you are married ....You think to yourself "Was he ALWAYS this hairy?"
When you are dating..... You enjoyed foreplay.
When you are married ....You tell him "If we have sex, will you leave me alone???"
When you are dating..... He hugs you, when he walks by you for no reason.
When you are married ....He grabs your boob any chance he gets.
When you are dating..... You picture the two of you together, growing old together.
When you are married ....You wonder who will die first.
When you are dating..... Just looking at him makes you feel all "mushy."
When you are married ....When you look at him, you want to claw his eyes out.
When you are dating..... He knows what the "hamper" is.
When you are married ....The floor will suffice as a dirty clothes storage area.
When you are dating..... He understands if you "Aren't in the mood."
When you are married ....He says "It's your job."
When you are dating..... He understands that you have "male" friends.
When you are married ....He thinks they are all out to steal you away.
When you are dating..... He likes to "discuss" things.
When you are married ....He develops a "blank" stare.
When you are dating..... He calls you by name.
When you are married ....He calls you "Hey" and refers to you when speaking to others as "She."
i don't wish things to just change because of marriage. not for me and prince. i don't want all those what people so called, after-marriage-changes to happen on us. GRR. think about it. worth it to change just like that? NO.
okays. imma gonna eat and sleep. and yes, i've uploaded the photos. hahahahaha. (: like finally.
enjoyyy. (:
nights lovelies.
honey sugar dreams.
love love.
xoxo. ^^
and yes, i was a good nanny k! looking after the young one until i literally have no more strength to do antything else. GRR! darn tiring. have to keep looking at the time to feed him. and have to keep coaxing him. but well, i love him. or rather, them. (: hahahas. yupps.
didn't meet vivian and didn't go coaching today. =X sorry, i really can't make it down. i don't even have time to chat with people on msn. -.- hardly even have time to eat. the baby just stick to me like glue like that. my cousin was saying that when she goes back to malaysia, she's gonna die. cause now, the baby doesn't want his own mother to carry. -.- weird baby. hahas.
and now, he's lying on my bed, sleeping. hahas. (: love the sight when i wake up, and i see him. (: it's just like when i'm waking up in prince's arm sometimes. but now, it's a smaller version of prince? LOL. hahas. oops. but it's lovely isn't it? hehees.
chatted with my cousin about me and prince's arguement. and she was telling me, that i shall be forgiving and forgive him because guys are just so very stupid when it comes to relationship, due to their pride and egoism. arh, fuck the pride and egoism. totally crap, and i mean, TOTALLY. can egoism be with you forever? can egoism be your wife? if so, no need to find a wife already. stick with your pride and egoism and be lonely for the rest of your life. stupid.
GRR! stupid guys.
anyways, i'm working closing tomorrow, and stupid enough, tomorrow i gotta punch in at 3pm and punch out at 12:30am. reason being, my store manager wants us to finish closing in one and a half hour. WOW~ sure. we're all gonna die. and, this is only posibble IF, we close at 10:30 SHARP instead of 11:10pm. nonsense right? argh. don't care. and yet the stupidest thing is, transport will only come at 1am. hahahaha. wish me luck for waiting eys. -.-
didn't talk to prince today, i mean not much. just a message from him asking me what time am i working until tomorrow. simple reply, 1am. that's it. and didn't receive anything then. yupps. still having some cold war. well..... two more days to our big day. i wonder how will it be like. talking about it, it's also leon's birthday. oops. =x
watched a TV show just now, the beach ball babes. argh, hate the storyline. maybe it's just my luck to see the episode today. cause it was about this guy who's with this girl, he promised her that he'll be with her forever and she's gonna be her only woman. but yet when it was his birthday that day, he had sex with the other girl who likes him. sadly, the poor girlfriend of his who wanted to give him a surprise together with the cake she baked and some of his friends, saw them on the bed together, naked. plus, the girl who slept with the boyfriend is actually her best friend. WTF LAHH! so sad can! if i'm the girl, i'm sure i'll just kill that guy. well, i shall not say anymore things in case SOMEONE things i'm trying to bring back the PAST. whatever.
alright, look at this below. i got it from IC forum. it's meant to be a joke. but, it's really a sad thing if things really have so much changes when i couple is dating and after married. i mean, why should there be a need to change so much? can't married couples be as sweet as they were when they're dating? why must it change? it doesn't make sense.
When you are dating..... He takes you out to have a good time.
When you are married ....He brings home a 6 pack, and says "What are you going to drink?"
When you are dating..... He holds your hand in public.
When you are married ....He flicks your ear in public.
When you are dating..... A Single bed for 2 isn't THAT bad.
When you are married ....A King size bed feels like an army cot.
When you are dating..... You are turned on at the sight of him naked.
When you are married ....You think to yourself "Was he ALWAYS this hairy?"
When you are dating..... You enjoyed foreplay.
When you are married ....You tell him "If we have sex, will you leave me alone???"
When you are dating..... He hugs you, when he walks by you for no reason.
When you are married ....He grabs your boob any chance he gets.
When you are dating..... You picture the two of you together, growing old together.
When you are married ....You wonder who will die first.
When you are dating..... Just looking at him makes you feel all "mushy."
When you are married ....When you look at him, you want to claw his eyes out.
When you are dating..... He knows what the "hamper" is.
When you are married ....The floor will suffice as a dirty clothes storage area.
When you are dating..... He understands if you "Aren't in the mood."
When you are married ....He says "It's your job."
When you are dating..... He understands that you have "male" friends.
When you are married ....He thinks they are all out to steal you away.
When you are dating..... He likes to "discuss" things.
When you are married ....He develops a "blank" stare.
When you are dating..... He calls you by name.
When you are married ....He calls you "Hey" and refers to you when speaking to others as "She."
i don't wish things to just change because of marriage. not for me and prince. i don't want all those what people so called, after-marriage-changes to happen on us. GRR. think about it. worth it to change just like that? NO.
okays. imma gonna eat and sleep. and yes, i've uploaded the photos. hahahahaha. (: like finally.
enjoyyy. (:
nights lovelies.
honey sugar dreams.
love love.
xoxo. ^^
bottle tree. how i miss this place. prawning.:(
dota. -.-
the items i formed. LOL
my character. hahaha.
items again. LOL.
look at the moon. it was last wednesday's. so round lahh!!!
my skate with heel brake? for lessons only eys.
ngee ann poly. hi! my ex-school. LOL
wei an, the slacker who used to be my classmate. and cause of me, he's skating. tsk.
my house's floor is under renovaion. i'm sorry i didn't rotate the photo. =X
cathay's rainy day and it's blur that day. that's why i took the photo. LOL
it was very foggy.
sunday morning when i reach store, i saw this. LOL.
this is how my pastry case looks like when there's nothing to display. LOL.
james, dzul, janice and didi waiting for cab to go to the cycling thingy. bluff me lohh!
cathay's outside seating.
they said they're taking train or bus! idiotic!
they had problems putting the container in the booth.
my baby boys and me! ^^
edwin and i.
i woke up this morning, seeing him playing with his own fingers, beside me. so cute lahhs! (:
and he's gonna be five months old in two days time. ^^
okays, i know my scar is ugly. whatever. beauty doesn't lies with looks.
elvin playing with the ball. LOL.
his dad was using a fake rat to chase him and he's running away from it. LOL
hiding beside my queen. LOL
trying to get up the chair. LOL
okay! no more! (: byebye.
Monday, July 21, 2008
family BBQ?
my cousin was saying she wants to have a BBQ. cause it has been a long time since she last ate BBQ foods. hmmmmmmmmmmm....... maybe next week? LOL. if she's still here. but my baby boys how? =x
anyways, i'm having diarrhoea. :( cause my menses is coming. it's damn weird can. would any other girls have this problem? my queen has it too. but i'm not sure about the others. -.- GRR! hate it man. i'll just have diarrhoea whenever my menses is coming. until my menses is ending then it'll stop. how frustrating can it be? GRR!
anyways, i'm off tomorrow. hahas. but gonna meet vivian for a while. then i'll be back home to dye my hair. (:
chatted with prince just now. he was asking me to stop everything and make peace. telling me his feelings due to my ignorance. apologised and asked for forgiveness. and after a VERY long chat, i finally gave way and said okay. not because i'm not angry, but because i find that i'm tired being angry. cause i feels that no matter how i try to explain to him, he'll never understand how i feel. just feel like not caring about anything else now. okay, maybe i shall.
and, martin called me like, JUST. ask me to help out at coaching tomorrow. hmm, yeah i will be helping. st joseph convent sia. -.- hahas.
so yeahs, i'm gonna sleep. so i can go work! ^^
nights.
love you all.
xoxo.
anyways, i'm having diarrhoea. :( cause my menses is coming. it's damn weird can. would any other girls have this problem? my queen has it too. but i'm not sure about the others. -.- GRR! hate it man. i'll just have diarrhoea whenever my menses is coming. until my menses is ending then it'll stop. how frustrating can it be? GRR!
anyways, i'm off tomorrow. hahas. but gonna meet vivian for a while. then i'll be back home to dye my hair. (:
chatted with prince just now. he was asking me to stop everything and make peace. telling me his feelings due to my ignorance. apologised and asked for forgiveness. and after a VERY long chat, i finally gave way and said okay. not because i'm not angry, but because i find that i'm tired being angry. cause i feels that no matter how i try to explain to him, he'll never understand how i feel. just feel like not caring about anything else now. okay, maybe i shall.
and, martin called me like, JUST. ask me to help out at coaching tomorrow. hmm, yeah i will be helping. st joseph convent sia. -.- hahas.
so yeahs, i'm gonna sleep. so i can go work! ^^
nights.
love you all.
xoxo.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
PISSED!!!!!!!!
pissed off with the fucked up schedule. told me it was planned. and now tell me things changed. LIAR LIAR LIAR!!!!
everything is not planned.
idiots.
morons.
liars.
i hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate to work on saturday and sunday. what more to say it's a closing? HATE IT SO MUCH!
i'm no longer the full-timer who is WILLING to help no more.
i'm just a SIMPLE, PUNCH IN and PUNCH OUT partner. nothing else. i don't wanna fork out my precious time for them no more.
idiotic. really hate it so much.
all those empty promises.
hate all guys.
guys are always so good at lying.
fuckers.
KNNCCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything is not planned.
idiots.
morons.
liars.
i hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate to work on saturday and sunday. what more to say it's a closing? HATE IT SO MUCH!
i'm no longer the full-timer who is WILLING to help no more.
i'm just a SIMPLE, PUNCH IN and PUNCH OUT partner. nothing else. i don't wanna fork out my precious time for them no more.
idiotic. really hate it so much.
all those empty promises.
hate all guys.
guys are always so good at lying.
fuckers.
KNNCCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(:
my baby boys came to singapore this morning. (:
so happy to see them. (:
i shall take many photos of them and post them up soon. i wanna sleep already. tired after being super woman. (:
take care people.
i love my baby boys. ^^
so happy to see them. (:
i shall take many photos of them and post them up soon. i wanna sleep already. tired after being super woman. (:
take care people.
i love my baby boys. ^^
i'm super woman!
i just got home about half an hour again. which is, around 12:30am. -.-
i'm such a super woman, worked almost 12 hours yesterday and later i gotta be in store by 6:45am. -.- gotta leave my house at 6 in the morning and so i gotta wake up at 5am! gosh! call me god please! -.-
hahas. yesterday was short-handed. and cause zaid was tired so he was asked to punch out and go home, making it even more short-handed. :( and so i worked until 11:30pm. left cathay at 11:40pm, home at 12:30am. yeahs. i'm super woman yesterday! LOL.
my ankle is darn painful, both legs are darn tired. and my eyes are heavy. but i can't really get much rest. =/ hais. feeling hungry and whole body feeling so tired. just wish someone will be here to massage for me. anyone, i mean, anyone who's close to me and is free at the moment, which i doubt there is any.
ohh, i think i forgot to mention, yesterday was a fucking busy days cause the crowd was SUPER consistant, thus, making me even more tired. because the stupid movie ' bad man ' is showing! GRR!!
never mind, i shall ask queen to help me later. or i should just do some stretching. (: pulling my muscles. ^^ feel as if my neck and legs are breaking. standing for such long hour can kill me now. :( it was never a problem last time. hais. until the accident. i feel so old suddenly. =X
alrights. imma gonna eat and do some stretching. then gonna catch some rest. enough of being a super woman. (: hehees.
and, i'm sorry. i'm still lazy to upload photos. when i'm free k. (:
sorry ziyi, i'm not at east coast today. i bet you wanted to rant to me. but remember, i'm just a call away. (:
and TO LYNNEE; sometimes it's not about whether to think about what's the reason for me to fall for him. it's kinda complicated how we got together. and it's not about him doing those funny things to make me laugh. it's about the way he talks, the words he use to put things. the tone he used to talk. and his mentality. everything is a small thing to him. he's the one with most stress and he's always the one who's the most tired. cause whenever i tell him i also have my own stress level and tiredness, he'd just say " mine is worse than yours. " and start to compare our lifes. this shouldn't be the way isn't it? yes he did funny things to make me laugh but sometimes the slightest thing he does, actually hurts the most. yet he doesn't even realise and still wanna be defensive with his wrong doings. once he told micheal, " sometimes i say it's my fault is not because i'm at fault, i said it to make her happy. i don't think it's my fault at all. " does he even repent his own mistakes? he always feels he's right and everyone else in the world is wrong. is this suppose to be the right way? and he always expect me to be understanding towards him having stress in his camp. then what about me? i tried hard to spare thoughts for him. tried hard to get offs on fridays and saturdays so i could spend quantity time with him. cause fridays and saturdays are just so important to him. trying hard to blend in to his life, yet AGAIN. instead of him blending in to mine. what was my life last time without him? has he ever thought about it? and after i got back with him, what do i get in return? i don't expect him to give a WOW WOW WOW return. i just need him to be more understanding and take more of his own initiative. initiative doesn't mean holding my hands or hugging me. it's when he got home, the things he needs to do. why does he always have to wait till i open my mouth then he start doing? or rather, until i start nagging then he feels irritating and he does things so as to entertain me? who am i to him? his maid? his mother or what? or like he said, like his grandma? sometimes i just wonder, why should i be sparing thoughts for him? i could jolly well lead my own life and be with my friends. i could jolly well not tell him to do anything until his grandma flare up. i could jolly well work during weekends and lessen the days i could see him. i could jolly not even contact him and out with someone else. i could do so much more things without sparing a thought for him. but does he even appreciate? whenever things are wrong, things turn sour, it's always my fault. never at once he'll think it's his. i'm tired of all these. i just wanna lead my own normal life.
anyway, thanks for trying to cheer me up. i'm okays. just feeling pissed. (:
bye people, i finished ranting.
nights lovelies.
sugarrr cannyy dreamsss.
xoxo.
* ohh yeah! calling all ICians to fall in! please vote for the outing in IC forum under hangout please!! THANKS. deadline - 23rd July 2008.
i'm such a super woman, worked almost 12 hours yesterday and later i gotta be in store by 6:45am. -.- gotta leave my house at 6 in the morning and so i gotta wake up at 5am! gosh! call me god please! -.-
hahas. yesterday was short-handed. and cause zaid was tired so he was asked to punch out and go home, making it even more short-handed. :( and so i worked until 11:30pm. left cathay at 11:40pm, home at 12:30am. yeahs. i'm super woman yesterday! LOL.
my ankle is darn painful, both legs are darn tired. and my eyes are heavy. but i can't really get much rest. =/ hais. feeling hungry and whole body feeling so tired. just wish someone will be here to massage for me. anyone, i mean, anyone who's close to me and is free at the moment, which i doubt there is any.
ohh, i think i forgot to mention, yesterday was a fucking busy days cause the crowd was SUPER consistant, thus, making me even more tired. because the stupid movie ' bad man ' is showing! GRR!!
never mind, i shall ask queen to help me later. or i should just do some stretching. (: pulling my muscles. ^^ feel as if my neck and legs are breaking. standing for such long hour can kill me now. :( it was never a problem last time. hais. until the accident. i feel so old suddenly. =X
alrights. imma gonna eat and do some stretching. then gonna catch some rest. enough of being a super woman. (: hehees.
and, i'm sorry. i'm still lazy to upload photos. when i'm free k. (:
sorry ziyi, i'm not at east coast today. i bet you wanted to rant to me. but remember, i'm just a call away. (:
and TO LYNNEE; sometimes it's not about whether to think about what's the reason for me to fall for him. it's kinda complicated how we got together. and it's not about him doing those funny things to make me laugh. it's about the way he talks, the words he use to put things. the tone he used to talk. and his mentality. everything is a small thing to him. he's the one with most stress and he's always the one who's the most tired. cause whenever i tell him i also have my own stress level and tiredness, he'd just say " mine is worse than yours. " and start to compare our lifes. this shouldn't be the way isn't it? yes he did funny things to make me laugh but sometimes the slightest thing he does, actually hurts the most. yet he doesn't even realise and still wanna be defensive with his wrong doings. once he told micheal, " sometimes i say it's my fault is not because i'm at fault, i said it to make her happy. i don't think it's my fault at all. " does he even repent his own mistakes? he always feels he's right and everyone else in the world is wrong. is this suppose to be the right way? and he always expect me to be understanding towards him having stress in his camp. then what about me? i tried hard to spare thoughts for him. tried hard to get offs on fridays and saturdays so i could spend quantity time with him. cause fridays and saturdays are just so important to him. trying hard to blend in to his life, yet AGAIN. instead of him blending in to mine. what was my life last time without him? has he ever thought about it? and after i got back with him, what do i get in return? i don't expect him to give a WOW WOW WOW return. i just need him to be more understanding and take more of his own initiative. initiative doesn't mean holding my hands or hugging me. it's when he got home, the things he needs to do. why does he always have to wait till i open my mouth then he start doing? or rather, until i start nagging then he feels irritating and he does things so as to entertain me? who am i to him? his maid? his mother or what? or like he said, like his grandma? sometimes i just wonder, why should i be sparing thoughts for him? i could jolly well lead my own life and be with my friends. i could jolly well not tell him to do anything until his grandma flare up. i could jolly well work during weekends and lessen the days i could see him. i could jolly not even contact him and out with someone else. i could do so much more things without sparing a thought for him. but does he even appreciate? whenever things are wrong, things turn sour, it's always my fault. never at once he'll think it's his. i'm tired of all these. i just wanna lead my own normal life.
anyway, thanks for trying to cheer me up. i'm okays. just feeling pissed. (:
bye people, i finished ranting.
nights lovelies.
sugarrr cannyy dreamsss.
xoxo.
* ohh yeah! calling all ICians to fall in! please vote for the outing in IC forum under hangout please!! THANKS. deadline - 23rd July 2008.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
you won't die without me.
just suddenly woke up from sleep and had a chat with prince. it didn't make me feel better, but worse.
it's like, who does he think he is? he got stress, everyone else don't? and whenever things are not right and i'm to be blame? cause we argued an he can't concentrate? why not say he doesn't know how to prioritise? instead of pushing all the blames to me? fuck.
anyways he won't just die without me. if he will, he would have died long time ago. but no. he's got so so so many girlfriends. short of me, he won't die. and, why i should i bother? other girls can take care of him wadd. and to him, i'm always the one creating all th problems, making him stress. and i do no good at all. so why should i be bothered? nahhs, waste my time.
what plans? what future? all are just words and nothing else. if he can say i'm exactly like his grandma, then be with his grandma the rest of his life. he don't need me wadd. just the grandma is good enough.
like, whatever? i don't care. i'll lead my life, and he'll lead his. anyways i won't see him for damn long also. better, cause there'll be no chance for us to argue. see him less = less arguements = less sadness. i wanna say things like i'll miss him and stuffs. but NO! i'm not gonna do that.
*why should i be thinking of someone who pissed me off and still trying to be defensive with his stupid fucking words?
fuck everything.
go and meet whoever you wanna meet. i shall, do the same as well. for the fair treatment i deserves.
it's like, who does he think he is? he got stress, everyone else don't? and whenever things are not right and i'm to be blame? cause we argued an he can't concentrate? why not say he doesn't know how to prioritise? instead of pushing all the blames to me? fuck.
anyways he won't just die without me. if he will, he would have died long time ago. but no. he's got so so so many girlfriends. short of me, he won't die. and, why i should i bother? other girls can take care of him wadd. and to him, i'm always the one creating all th problems, making him stress. and i do no good at all. so why should i be bothered? nahhs, waste my time.
what plans? what future? all are just words and nothing else. if he can say i'm exactly like his grandma, then be with his grandma the rest of his life. he don't need me wadd. just the grandma is good enough.
like, whatever? i don't care. i'll lead my life, and he'll lead his. anyways i won't see him for damn long also. better, cause there'll be no chance for us to argue. see him less = less arguements = less sadness. i wanna say things like i'll miss him and stuffs. but NO! i'm not gonna do that.
*why should i be thinking of someone who pissed me off and still trying to be defensive with his stupid fucking words?
fuck everything.
go and meet whoever you wanna meet. i shall, do the same as well. for the fair treatment i deserves.
Friday, July 18, 2008
change of shifts.
hais. just receiced a call from store, asking me to go for shift tomorrow at 12pm - 9:30pm. was reluctant cause sunday i gotta reach store at 6:45am. ARGHH! hate it when they do this. stupid. but i said okay, unwillingly. well, don't blame me if i can't wake up on time the next day retarded. and all the rest of the partners are just so inconsiderate. idiots. always put shifts that people will take. and left the not-so-popular shifts to die. URGH! never mind, it's just one more week. help them for the last week else they say i heartless or whatever shit. save those shits. fuck. i'm just kinda angry with the way they last minute change my shift. or rather, i should just put there, once timing fixed, no changing. arh whatever eys. fuck.
queen called me just now when i was on my last twenty minutes break. ask me what time i finish work. so i told her 7:30pm. then she ask if i'm going home straight and i said yeah. and she was like, ' today is friday lehhs. so guai come home?!?! ' then i'm like, ' yeahs. cannot go home mehhs. my knee pain wadd. i don't wanna skate. ' and she goes like, ' woah! first time hear you say don't want to skate on friday lehhs. ' and me, ' why not? ' so she ended the call telling that she bought my favourite duck rice for me, ask me to eat it when i'm home. (: how awesome can it be to have a mother, who talks to you like a friend, care for you like a mother. and love you like no one else's does. hahas. and lastly, give you your freedom and trust you like no one else. (: it's no wonder i only have this mom as my queen. ^^ IF only prince is like her. but sadly, he's gonna tell me, i'm not your mother, of course i can't be like her. well, who doesn't know he doesn't have what a girl has? what i meant was the way me and my queen communicates with each other, the trust, the care, everything! prince, somehow just make me feel very lost, which is not what he's suppose to be giving me.
URGH! fuck all unhappiness, imma gonna sleep now. getting sleepy already. gonna get some stuffs done first before i go to bed.
nights lovelies.
*aww, i miss skating on friday though. and yes, no photos again. PS! (: soon lahhs k. when i'm not lazy. ^^
queen called me just now when i was on my last twenty minutes break. ask me what time i finish work. so i told her 7:30pm. then she ask if i'm going home straight and i said yeah. and she was like, ' today is friday lehhs. so guai come home?!?! ' then i'm like, ' yeahs. cannot go home mehhs. my knee pain wadd. i don't wanna skate. ' and she goes like, ' woah! first time hear you say don't want to skate on friday lehhs. ' and me, ' why not? ' so she ended the call telling that she bought my favourite duck rice for me, ask me to eat it when i'm home. (: how awesome can it be to have a mother, who talks to you like a friend, care for you like a mother. and love you like no one else's does. hahas. and lastly, give you your freedom and trust you like no one else. (: it's no wonder i only have this mom as my queen. ^^ IF only prince is like her. but sadly, he's gonna tell me, i'm not your mother, of course i can't be like her. well, who doesn't know he doesn't have what a girl has? what i meant was the way me and my queen communicates with each other, the trust, the care, everything! prince, somehow just make me feel very lost, which is not what he's suppose to be giving me.
URGH! fuck all unhappiness, imma gonna sleep now. getting sleepy already. gonna get some stuffs done first before i go to bed.
nights lovelies.
*aww, i miss skating on friday though. and yes, no photos again. PS! (: soon lahhs k. when i'm not lazy. ^^
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