chalet at east coast with skaters.

hahas. i'm back. hehees. yahh. hmm, yupps. had fun recently. :)

but unfortunately, unhappiness happened on friday night when i was at east coast. haix. dada made edmond and miee heartbroken and disappointed. especially edmond. i saw him skating away, sadly. i feel so terrible. haix. then i went back to the chalet and drink a lot. i got myself drunk and the next day, i'm hang over! hahas. cause i feel so sad. i cried again lohh. haix. like, whyy can't i be happy? whyy? he was having his class barbecue. so i didn't disturb him or whatt. but, he like, don't want to let his friends know about my presence. was so sad lohh. he like don't want ot acknowledge miee as his girlfriend like. like, am i really that un-seen-able? LOL. but i fuck care already lahh. i enjoy myself with the rest of the skaters. hahas. since he always like to hackcare miee, whyy should i bother? and he made edmond so sad. which i think he ought to apologise to edmond lohh. edmond dotes on him so muchh and is willing to make any sacrifises for him. but he still don't want to change for himself. whatt edmond say is true, if he don't want to help himself, nobody will be able to help him. so i think i better let him do tithings on his own and i do mine. haix, but i know i'm only good at talking but not doing. end upp i will still care a lot about him de lahh. haix. so sad. sobs. :(

well, went to the chalet and it was quite fun lahh. see them play XBOX. hahas. like so cute lohh. then gamble a bit. but no money lahh. just casual playing. hehees. :) i won once in two rounds. hahas. maria went there too. had fun with her. ohh yahh! CONGRATS TO MARIA AND WILSON!!! hahas. wish them all the best lohh. :) may their relationship last. hahas. :) yupps. just came back from the chalet just now. book out at 11am. then skate around at rink until 1.30pm. then go home. later going down again after playing maple bahh. hahas. :) like, so FUN!!! hehees. love skating now. hahas. kekeke.

know quite a lot of new friends recently, all from inline culture. kekeke. they're so funny and entertaining. hehees. like so good right? entertain you when you're bored etc. fun and fun and fun!!

yesterday qianhui they all came over to my house. hahas. karaoke lohh. for a few hours. then leave lerx. :) hmm, then i go east coast. yupps. like, spent this few days at east coast lahh. and i just love it now! except for the day when edmond got sad because of him. haix. so sad. :(

okiee lahh, want to play maple lerx. take care everybody.

chalet at east coast with skaters.

hahas. i'm back. hehees. yahh. hmm, yupps. had fun recently. :)

but unfortunately, unhappiness happened on friday night when i was at east coast. haix. dada made edmond and miee heartbroken and disappointed. especially edmond. i saw him skating away, sadly. i feel so terrible. haix. then i went back to the chalet and drink a lot. i got myself drunk and the next day, i'm hang over! hahas. cause i feel so sad. i cried again lohh. haix. like, whyy can't i be happy? whyy? he was having his class barbecue. so i didn't disturb him or whatt. but, he like, don't want to let his friends know about my presence. was so sad lohh. he like don't want ot acknowledge miee as his girlfriend like. like, am i really that un-seen-able? LOL. but i fuck care already lahh. i enjoy myself with the rest of the skaters. hahas. since he always like to hackcare miee, whyy should i bother? and he made edmond so sad. which i think he ought to apologise to edmond lohh. edmond dotes on him so muchh and is willing to make any sacrifises for him. but he still don't want to change for himself. whatt edmond say is true, if he don't want to help himself, nobody will be able to help him. so i think i better let him do tithings on his own and i do mine. haix, but i know i'm only good at talking but not doing. end upp i will still care a lot about him de lahh. haix. so sad. sobs. :(

well, went to the chalet and it was quite fun lahh. see them play XBOX. hahas. like so cute lohh. then gamble a bit. but no money lahh. just casual playing. hehees. :) i won once in two rounds. hahas. maria went there too. had fun with her. ohh yahh! CONGRATS TO MARIA AND WILSON!!! hahas. wish them all the best lohh. :) may their relationship last. hahas. :) yupps. just came back from the chalet just now. book out at 11am. then skate around at rink until 1.30pm. then go home. later going down again after playing maple bahh. hahas. :) like, so FUN!!! hehees. love skating now. hahas. kekeke.

know quite a lot of new friends recently, all from inline culture. kekeke. they're so funny and entertaining. hehees. like so good right? entertain you when you're bored etc. fun and fun and fun!!

yesterday qianhui they all came over to my house. hahas. karaoke lohh. for a few hours. then leave lerx. :) hmm, then i go east coast. yupps. like, spent this few days at east coast lahh. and i just love it now! except for the day when edmond got sad because of him. haix. so sad. :(

okiee lahh, want to play maple lerx. take care everybody.

back for A WHILE! :)

hahas. well, today is back here. yupps.

spend my time training maple lohh. whatt else? hehees. hmm, ehhh, arhh, hahas. don't know whatt to write lehh.

update again. hahas. take care to all.

back for A WHILE! :)

hahas. well, today is back here. yupps.

spend my time training maple lohh. whatt else? hehees. hmm, ehhh, arhh, hahas. don't know whatt to write lehh.

update again. hahas. take care to all.

thanks darling!

hahas. now at kris's house. she's helping miee with the blog skin thingy. hahas.

hmm, darling, thank youu sooooooooo muchh for this. hehees. buy youu yourr ice cream next time kayys? new year coming, must go my house bai nian!!! hahas.

err, i was forced to write this entry before i go home!!! hehees. okiees. darling, my job is done! i cann go home lerx!!!! :)

anyway, thanks a lot!!! i love youu!

kristeena*

haha. life is sooooooooooo boring. was raining today, like so very heavy. and while i'm typing this, someone is staring at ME. haha. shall not say who that someone is, yet. enjoy the suspense ! =)

we played this very super lame game just now. soccer ~ i was the arsenal team, and SHE, controlling the Man United players. and the game ended with a draw la. but i swear i could have won the game hands down ! (she said LOL !) but it's true what. i had two one on one chances with the goal keeper. haha. except that i squandered my chances away. wasted.

it's pretty much obvious by now that i am not that IRRITATING CHEE SIM LA. (she said LOL again, haha) it's kristeenaaaaaa here. don't have as much stuff to write as the original blogger, so i shall LOL LOL LOL my way through this entry and bore all of you out there. what else should i write to fill up this entry ? hmmmmm. ahhhhhhhhh. ehhhhhhh.

anyway, back to business, irritating girl is at my house now. she's sooo tired. and i'm not letting her return back home ! nothing much already, except for watching my bro play resident evil 4 ! damn scary.

haha okay bye ~

kristeena.

i'm happy finally! :)

hellos. hahas. i'm back again!! with the news of miee playing maple! hahas. remember miee saying that i don't like it whenn dada they all kill the cute monster? err, well, i still think the same but... no choice lahh. i'm playing too. hehees. so cute. :)

hmm, saw maria's tag today, asking miee whyy my blog so sad. well, my dear daughter, it's because of daddy. anyway, the unhappiness time has come to an end. it's timw for miee to be happy now yeaa? hahas. hmm, maria, must message miee and tell miee whenn youu're going ecp okiee? then i'll have dinner with youu alright? hahas. i bet it'll be at weekends right? never mind. i'll be there. :) haix, i just hope daddy and miee won't have anymore unhappiness then won't make maria curious whyy my blog so sad alright? keep smiling my darling, don't worry about mummy. :) youu arhh, better study hard alright? o level is important. time pass very fast. so youu must really make good use of all the time youu have to study. studies comes first. kayys? don't be like mummy last year, slack until last mimute then realise the importance of studies. mummy regret it lohh. haix. :( never mind. it's over and i tried my best lerx. :) maria, youu know whatt? i love youu! hahas. :)

dada, it has been almost a week since youu start schooling. hopefully yourr life in college east is good. we haven't been chatting since yourr school starts. well, i miss youu. a sad thing to say, i dare not tell youu personally. i keep having my feelings kept within my heart and dare not tell youu. writing in my blog, i don't know if youu'll get to read this but even if youu do, i don't mind. i just hope, i'll be more open upp with youu about my feelings when the time pass. i don't deny i'm afraid youu'll flirt in college east or maybe to the extend of betaraying miee. whatever it is, i hope it won't happen. dada, don't betray my trust towards youu. remember whatt youu promise miee? i thought of being selfish and suspect youu of having another girl but after asking myself, ''do youu choose to care about yourself or his future?'' i decided to choose yourr future. yourr future is muchh more important than anything else now. so i tell myself, no matter whatt happen. i must at least trust youu for the very least. even when i suspect youu of anything, i mustn't kick upp a big fuss over it without checking out the truth. dada, i'll try my best to compromise with youu and meet yourr needs. but i hope, for as long as i give in to youu, youu won't take miee for granted. okiees? love and miss youu always. muacks. :)

well, want to continue with maple lerx. take care everyone. :)

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Well, now is almost 4am. i'm still wide awake. Yupps. Have to wake upp in an hour time so no need to sleep lerx bahh. Hahas. Working later. Haix.

Went to swensen again yesterday. However, the outcome isn't nice. I was rejected! Reason is that I couldn't work at least half a year without studying. Haix. i'm so sad. :( like so shit-ty now. Darling! Help! They said will be okiee but in the end I got happy out of nothing. Haix. Like so sad yeaa?

Hmm, finally, after a long period of quarrel with dada, things turn out to be better. We talked out and it's so dramatic lohh. Dada asked miee to choose between yes or no. yes stands for I want to leave him and I must leave him immediately, never to come back to him anymore. And no stands for we'll start all over again. At that moment, I was crying like waterfall, my mind is messy and heart isn't clear at all, how am I to make decision? He wants miee to give him the answer in one hour time and I doubt it's possible lohh. I didn't give him the answer still. Until the next day, which was a Monday, I gave him my answer at night after giving a serious consideration. Yupps. I never thought of leaving him from the start, all I need was time to make myself feel better so I could accept him again, but he's forcing miee to make a decision. I have no choice but to make upp my mind. Honestly speaking, at the spur of a moment, I did think of disappearing for a while but my heart don't allow because I know I couldn't let go of this relationship. Haix. But now, there's a promise between us, and it is that if he ever repeat the same mistake again, I will never think of going back to him, the only consequence is that I will leave him! He promised he wouldn't do it again. Now it's time for him to prove his sincerity by keeping his words well. I trust him not to cheat miee and I hope he really won't disappoint miee again.

Yesterday after going swensen, I went to meet dada at his house. He was playing maple, as usual! Like killing all the cute cute monster fun mehh?? I don't like. Irks miee whenever I see them killing the monsters. Haix. Then went to take dinner with dada and his brother at KFC. Then after that I go home and dada went to his boss's father's wake. Yupps. Then I make him go home before twelve cause he's having running nose. Want him to rest well mahh. Hahas. Thank god he's a good boy and he reach home on time. Hehees.

Haix, dada is starting school next Monday. i'm kind of worry for him. About his determination to study hard. I really hope he will really study for his own future and he won't be fooling around, wasting his time at college east. If that's the case, I rather he join the workforce now. Haix. Whyy bother to waste time there and in the end learn nothing at all. Haix, don't know how to open my mouth and tell him face to face. But, I know I will have to say it out soon no matter whatt. I will tell him soon, hopefully I will feel better after that. Dada, if youu ever read my blog, please, don't blame miee for being strict with youu now, I don't want youu to regret next time. youu've regretted once, I don't want youu to feel the same again. Please remember, my support will always be with youu no matter whatt. If youu're feeling stress or troubled, please, tell miee. I might not be able to help youu much, but, at least I know whatt is going on in your life, i'll be more relieve. And I know, by telling miee, youu won't be feeling that unhappy anymore. Lastly, if youu need miee by your side, let miee know and i'll be there for youu, now and forever.

Okiee lahh, enough of crapping. I need to get ready to go to work now. Will blog again de. Everybody, take care! Hahas.

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Haix. I'm back lerx. Well, like before. i'm unhappy today. Yupps. Still because of dada. Haix.

My heart seems to be bleeding since that day. I don't wish to write out whatt has happened but, I don't know. I cried again. :( Haix. Anyway, I hope I can pack all my unhappiness upp and carry on my happy life. I don't want to always cry or etc. Haix.

Well, don't know whatt to write lehh. Like very empty in my mind. Could it be because I haven't been blogging? don't know. Haix.

Went back to band for the CCA fair on last Friday. It was such a let down. Haix. So disappointed lohh. The band was less than 35 members! i'm extremely sad. And the marching squad. i'm more or less like, give upp? Haix, anyway, i'm out of band. Should be like, stay away from band stuffs? Maybe I really should. But one thing i'm happy about that day was, i'm back to BDS!!!!!! :) hahas. Nevertheless, my happiness could never cover upp my sadness. Never compare a moment of happiness to the long period of sadness cause this moment of happiness will mean nothing in the end. Haix.

Hmm, I don't know whatt to say lerx. Hope i'll update soon. Yupps.

malaysia days.

hi all. i'm back. now in malaysia. yupps. at the cyber cafe. wasn't feeling happy actually.

haix. feeling really sad. i've cried for the past three days, because of dada. some problems crop upp between the both of us and, it's a long story. just hope everything will be fine. and i seriously need time now. everything happened so fast until i couldn't get myself prepared to face it. i'm just too sad to comment on whatever things that has happened. don't wish to say

dada has been with miee in malaysia until yesterday night. we had happy days until 1st Jan 06. he went back to singapore on monday night. we had dinner with my family before sending him off. he went back with abiel, my sister's boyfriend. i said something very harsh to dada. at that moment, i wanted to cry but i hope back my tears. at that spur of moment, i really wish a car could just run pass miiee and i'll just die like that. i couldn't stop myself from having all those negative thinkings. i doubt i have a clear mind bahh. i just couldn't control myself. really can't.

haix. don't know whenn i want to go back. don't feel like going back actually. but, i can't. haix. don't know lahh. feeling so damn sad lohh.

haix. ,don't know lahh. don't want to blog lerx. take care to all.