arghh! don't feel like going anywhere today.. but stupid terry wants me to go and count down his birthday with him. well, what can i say? supposed to visit vin at his dad's funeral wake. hmm.. failed to turn upp today and i guess vin is feeling lonely. tomorrow i'll go.. terry, you have your own friends. vin is lonely, i'll accompany him instead. not to be bais or what. i just feel that vin needs someone to be there. anyone. and the rest of them is busy.. and i'm free tomorrow. so i'll go down. sorry.
anyways, had a chat with james this morning. he told me he's going back to australia next week. he took leave for NS. and him, very alike to zac's character.. tells me the same thing when i tell him i don't wish anything to happen to him. " I KNOW HOW TO DO THINGS WITHOUT BEING CAUGHT!" i'm sick of this sentence. didn't wanna argue with him.. so i missed it. i'm just worried about bev. yes, very worried. i don't want anything to happened to him... =[ haven't been seeing bev online.. can't even talk to him.. hais.. james ask me why am i still thinking of bev.. i can't help it. i don't wanna give upp.. and james says i'm mad.. maybe, in a way. mad over bev.
RAHH! don't know lahhs. sians. fucked upp feeling. KNN. yesterday went to velvet. hell boring. though it's to celebrate desmond and terry's birthday.. but.. damn boring.. GRRR! i basically sit there and stone! how retarded to go club and like that. damn stupid. i totally have no mood to club. don't wanna club. wanna be away from club. SICK OF CLUBBING. really. and time for me to stop, i think this is the right time. =]
have been trying to quit smoking.. initially was fuck shit. feeling damn terrible. but now i feel better already. =] don't really have cravings for cigarettes anymore. =] where the's a will, there's a way. =] i believe that. yes. nothing is impossible. kat is a good girl now. no clubbing.. no smoking. =] bev, must be good boy too yeah? =]
just now henry told me something. which i think i totally agree. ' all the more you should avoid him since now he has a girlfriend. ' i wonder.. did he ever tell that to chloe? HA. guys are fucking selfish sometimes. but i can't be fucked bothered now. fuck guys except bev. and NOTE, my fuck doesn't mean sleep with guys. use your fucking brain to fucking think. don't be a moron. whatever.. but i agree with henry. for that fucking sentence.
well, going east coast later.. count down terry's birthday.. and i suppose it's gonna be an overnight thing? gone. i'm gonna so die. tomorrow gonna visit vin.. and today going to drink. someone kill me please.. i don't feel like living.. really have this mindset of dying.. i don't know why.. my heart is feeling terrible. i wanna cry. gosh. this is fucked up. hell shit. WOAH~ KNNPCB LAHH. THIS FEELING GO AWAY. I DON'T WANT TO BE EMO. FUCKING HELL.
no mood to blog. post some photos bahhs.
taken by leon.. hahas. on the way to vin's place on friday.. =] LOL.
the two of them trying to post for their dead photo. -.-
black- mine, white- vin. =]
VD on saturday.
boredom took over me. sians. but i love the pink light. =]
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