SCRABBLE!

i had like, two rounds of scrabble with pris and DM. cool right? learning english. -.-

we're having a break now, maybe gonna continue later. hahas. eating the breakfast made by dm~ (: hahas. thanks dude! good host! (:

before that went to MOS's bridge with pris, dm, leon, shan, bevan and song. hahas. yeah. bevan is back for a few days. going back on monday. hahas. HAVE FUN DUDE! then after MOS went to arab street for sheesha. YAYY! lol. slack there for some time. chit chat and talk cock. catch up with bevan and stuffs. then bevan went home, we head to dm's house. talked to his mom.. then start our scrabble. (:

hahas. okays. i'm lazy to type. HAHAHHAA.

bye~

i'm home! (:

hahas. back from malaysia! (: hehees.

leon, pris, jas, dm.. i miss you all too! (: thanks for all the calls and messages. =] will see you all later! (: now is saturday yeah! (: hahas. BBQ~ yayy! hahas.

been away to malaysia the past few days.. missed singapore.. err... not really though. enjoying the relax life there. seeing my newborn nephew.. hearing my mom's naggings. -.- tell you all what my mom nag at later. (: hahas. it's funny. but oh well, all moms are like that. isn't it? nag and nag and nag..

it was a last minute decision to leave for a while.. hmm.. not very though. told pris and dm the night before i leave. but yeah.. to the rest it is bahhs. just feel like leaving for a while.. feeling so confused.. don't know what i should do.. hais.. so decided to go back and have a break. yeahh.. but it doesn't seems to help much by going back though. -.- well, whatever.. hais.. sighss..

my cousin gave birth to her second baby boy.. edwin.. seeing that little boy.. really small! much smaller than his brother.. -.- so light and he looks weak.. feels weak too. and here's where my mom's nagging comes in. -.-

my mom said : ' SEE YOUR COUSIN IS 21 THIS YEAR BUT SHE ALREADY GOT 2 CHILD.. YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE ONE. SO WHEN ARE YOU HAVING YOURS? '

this is damn random.. i was carrying the baby boy when she said that.. -.- i'm like, what the fuck? was just thinking.. to raise a kid in SINGAPORE is NOT cheap. you can have 3 in malaysia but only 1 in singapore! see the difference??? -.- having a baby in singapore cost a BOMB! really. -.- but well, this shows mom wants me to settle down soon. or probably she hopes i'm getting married soon. -.- maybe it's time to start finding a guy whom i wanna settle down with.. this guy is not bev, so don't think it's him. yeah..

i've gotten an answer from bev, which makes me feel relief.. cause all these while, perhaps i'm just waiting for an answer, or maybe that answer from him.. yeah i got it. yupps. thanks bev. (:

WHO DOESN'T LONG FOR SOMEONE TO HOLD, WHO KNOWS HOW TO LOVE YOU WITHOUT BEING TOLD.. SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY I'M ON MY OWN.. IF THERE'S A SOULMATE FOR EVERYONE.

hahas. nice song. (:

tomorrow's is vanvan's birthday. going for her celebration.. (: yupps. thinking about birthday.. was thinking how should i celebrate mine. HAHA. (: yupps. my 20th birthday. LOL. i wonder if uncle keegan's gonna be in singapore. hahas. he's coming back on the 11th next month. yupps. missed him so much. hope he'll be back soon. (: hehees.

well, just read chloe's blog. heard about her sad news.. but well, girl, life is like that. we never know what will happen next.. things usually seems fine.. but end up it's not. hais. this is the part and parcel of life.. the paths we have to go through. paths we can't avoid. maybe things will be back to what it was.. maybe it don't. but whatever it is, live your life well.. take good care of yourself. and remember, love yourself.. (: and be happy..

to turn around or walk away? i don't know. will the same things happen if i turn around? or will i regret if i walk away? i don't know. i'm so confused. i could still remember clearly how he asked me to fuck off from his life.. i could still remember how he scolded me and embarrassed me in front of my friends. i could still remember what he's done. i like the way i am now and i don't wish to just lose it like that. feeling so care-free and happy. i can't bear to lose everything i have now just with one decision. i enjoy what i've been doing all these while when i'm alone. meeting my friends, suppers, hang outs, chats, mahjong sessions, swimming and sauna sessions. all the outings.. so fun.. so nice. hais.. i don't wanna just lose everything like that. i wanna keep everything with me. all these happy memories..

bottle tree, he once said he would bring me there. but the one who brought me there are my friends. dm and pris.. yishun dam.. he once said we'll go there. but my friends are the ones with me there. vivo for movie.. he once said he would go there with me.. but the person who brought me there is bev. mount faber.. he once said he would bring me there for dinner. but the one who bring me there was shaun. he once said so many things he would do with me.. but none.. he did none. empty words. am i suppose to believe him again? am i? he once said he'd be mine forever, he'll be with me forever no matter what, he made so many promises last time. our vows.. the promise to be there for me whenever i need him, the promise to shelter me from rain.. the promise to lend me his shoulder to cry on.. the promise of promises.. all are empty. just words.. nothing was done.. what does 12 stalks of rose means? what does 9 stalks of rose means? what does 3 stalks of rose means? nothing.. all the efforts.. are nothing no more. maybe things will just stay like this.. will it change? i don't know..

came back last night, home around 12am. rushed out of house to rink a while.. pass lynnee the present i bought for her. then left with jaslyn and joseph.. dropped at parkway to find steph they all. she leaving for shanghai for five months. :( gonna miss her so much. :( then slack there and stuffs. had a nice session with them. love them so much. but sorry darlings, i made you all worry.. :( sorry.. million sorries. but i still love you all so so much! (: thanks for being there always. really.. (:

when i was back in malaysia.. i watched the taiwan show, 公主小妹. damn nice lahh! (: rate 4.5/5! yupp! go watch!!!! (:

okays. i think i'm done blogging. getting naggy eys? (: BYE!!~~



为什么我始终会舍不得?

boredom.

nowadays i feel myself having so little things to do. hais. only left myself in the room to think. wild thoughts. so many things. hais. i hate this kind of feeling.

HE'S THE REASON FOR THE TEAR DROPS ON MY GUITAR.

nice song.

yeah, random i know. but oh well, i have nothing much to blog about nowadays eys.

YES! 14 more days! (: yupps. hahas. must be wondering what so special about that day right? hahas. don't tell you all now. (: BLEAHS.

well, my injuries are recovering fast. ankle also.. not so much pain anymore. (: yes! hopefully i can walk soon. as in, using both my legs to walk and not the stupid clutches. so reliant on clutches now lahh! -.- look like some idiot though. hahas. walking around with clutches. then everyone give you that ' stare '. like, 'wtf happen to her. paika! ' -.- hahas. oh well, i'm still living fine with clutches eys? (: hahas. oh! sudden reminds me of something. -.- someone said i have no legs cause i walk on clutches. -.- LAME SIA. hahas. yeah whatever. i still have my legs. (:

past few days have been meeting up with some friends.. terry, priscilla, DM, jaslyn, leon, archdevil.. yupps. the usual people eys? (: hahas. (:

okays. i'm kinda bored and HUNGRY! i wanna eat! :(

your call - secondhand serenade.

SECONDHAND SERENADE LYRICS

"Your Call"

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

GHOST GAME! -.-

LOL. last night all of us went to DM's house and watch DVD. stupid DM choose ghost game! walao eh! so scary lahh! kinda sad lohh. :(

but before that i went to taka with priscilla. she wanna get some tattoo books for her friend. so i accompany her lohh. (: yeah. then after we get her stuffs we head to chong pang, as usual. then meet leon there. on the way to chong pang we're like, BOMBING dm's phone! -.- no one pick up. diaos. it's seriously BOMBING! -.- hahas. end up his dad wake him up. hahas. (: and he meet up at chong pang. he reach around 10:30pm i think. hahas. thn acrhdevil came not long after that. slack there and stuffs. oh and i met shilei.. she was telling me she's going overseas today.. this morning. hahas. -.- lol. wanted to message her wish her happy holiday, but realise i didn't have her number.. called rick but he didn't pick up. -.- so last person i know could have her number is zac. but didn't contact him for her number lahhs. -.- hahas. well, don't have the need i guess.

anyways, i receive the MAGIC CALL las night when i'm at dm's house! (:(:(:(:(:(:(: hahas. the call that can make me smile! the call that makes my day! the call that means everything. (: so happy! ^^ yeah. ^^ though it's only a 20 minutes. but it's more than enough. (: yupps! ^^

watched ghost game. but half of the show i was watching 'blanket'. -.- cause i was too scared until i'm covering myself with blanket. stupid dm choose this show. damn scary lahh! but it's a good show lahhs. (: afterall. hahahas. (: after the show we all go downstairs smoke. then priscilla send me home. (: thanks love love! (: hahas. yupps.

back home.. 4:30am. sleep around 5:15am. hahas. yeahs. (:

MAGIC CALL! (:

OH YEAH! i just change my blog song, again. (:

YOUR CALL - SECONDHAND SERENADE. (:

i miss you..

exactly 3 weeks since he left.

but he'll be back soon. (:

much earlier than i expected. (:

hope to see you soon dude! (:

together with ben, my GONG! (:

but too bad dylan and keegan not coming back. :(

miss all of them so much..

my life has been in a mess. need some tidy.

yeah i will. sort out everything soon.

recently i have weird dreams. dreams i thought i would never have. but yeah.. i got them. weird. hais.

i'm so bored. need a smoke. bye..

total disgrace.

yes it is. yes he is. not bev, never bev.

nuisance.

what for make my life so hard now? when i'm ignoring, just leave me alone. don't understand this international language?

a guy who can't put down his ego is as good as losing the battle.

yes he lost. neither did i win. cause i lose my cool. my bad. i could have tolerate all the way and ignore. but tolerance has a limit.

he's a disgrace to all man.

for being such a 'gentleman'. and being so 'civilised'.

things could have been better. but he made it worse. so much worse than before. it doesn't help in any way to make the situation better by treating me this way.

firstly, no respect.
secondly, self-degrading.

remove the ring on your finger if you're treating me like this. no point wearing it when you wanna behave like that. it doesn't touch me in any ways. nor make me wanna do anything. finds it rather irritating you're doing that cause if that ring meant something to you, you shouldn't be behaving like this. well, main point is, i don't care. so remove the ring. don't try to be 'faithful' in front of others.

only when you're able to put down your egoism.. if not, don't ever come near me. ignore is the only reaction. and don't expect anything else from me cause you're nobody.

made myself clear. don't bother me with your nonsense.

BENEDICT! MY GONG! ^^

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
oh so you know i got into accident?

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
-.-

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
hahas

Beh DB Bro says:
o yea i heard !

Beh DB Bro says:
u ok?

Beh DB Bro says:
IDIOT

Beh DB Bro says:
FORGET TO SCOLD U

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
haha

Beh DB Bro says:
WHY THE FUK WLD U GET ON A BIKE WITH A DUMASS WHO CRASHES LIKE THAT

Beh DB Bro says:
FUUK

Beh DB Bro says:
WTF

Beh DB Bro says:
U IDIOT

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
your brother told you?

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
hahas

Beh DB Bro says:
yes

Beh DB Bro says:
u idiot

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
sorry

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
i'm okay lahhs

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
(:

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
never die

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
thought i would though

Beh DB Bro says:
that doesnt change the fact that ur an idiot

Beh DB Bro says:
when i get back nxt month first thing i do is smack u

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
i'm disfigured

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
oops

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
you coming back with your brother?

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
accpet the song lah!

Beh DB Bro says:
wad songg?

Beh DB Bro says:
cant see

Beh DB Bro says:
yea

Beh DB Bro says:
ur wad?

Beh DB Bro says:
ur face cut?

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
my face

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
:(

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
sad

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
hais

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
ugly already now uglier

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
-.-

Beh DB Bro says:
u idiot

Beh DB Bro says:
ur not ugli

Beh DB Bro says:
but ur an idiot

Beh DB Bro says:
u stupid idiot

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
sorry

Beh DB Bro says:
if im there now i scream at u

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
:'(

Beh DB Bro says:
wtf sia

Beh DB Bro says:
dun ever get on a bike again

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
my friends already screamed at me

Beh DB Bro says:
unless im riding it =D

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
okay

☆ KAT 05 is dead says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

hahas. ben's so nice. (: thanks ben for your care and concern! hahas. XXXXXX
i miss you so much gong! come back soon!
SEE YOU SOON. but don't scold me k? (:

i will NEVER know

if you never tell me anything.

i'm no god. i'm nobody. i can't guess.
all these while the 'hack care' feeling you've been giving me,
makes me feel that you no longer care.
how am i suppose to know, if you don't say.

i just hope you'll tell me..
tell me whatever is on your mind.
so at least i know.
even just by telling me you somehow missed me.
it's good enough.

i miss you.

KAT IS DEAD.

KAT IS DEAD in heart.



thanks moomoo.




thanks viff.


thanks lucas.




thanks eddy, lynn, zhu, simong, wilson2, lucas and the rest of you! :(


thanks simong.

thanks lucas very much! making me smile with your suit. (:

it really is like years since i last receive a bouquet of flower with 12 stalks of roses. really. the first and last i got was when i was in secondary school. how pathetic right? hais. got boyfriend that time like no boyfriend.

but this year's valentine's day i got a ' fake rose ' from bev. 12 stalks with rainbow colour. COOL RIGHT. so sweet. well at least the thought is there.

okay. i'm as good as dead. my heart is dying. goodbye.