maria just messaged me. ask me about my entry yesterday.. why i feel left out etc. baby.. didn't mummy said i don't wanna talk about it already? you arhh. haix~ okays. hmm. yupps. baby mummy's fine. i'm okays. don't worry. i'm fine with everything. so don't need to worry yeah.. having break now. until 2pm then 3 hours of a-maths. then gotta go for COMPRO test. part of the common test i think. yupps. hope i can score well. i have been working on my COMPRO. arghh! stupid module.
well.. kinda feel very stress up. exams are next week. and it will detemine if i'll have a good holiday or not already. 12-26 june is the holidays. heard from qianhui that there might be class chalet but has yet to confirm. but never mind. hope to be informed soon. :) okays. hahas. yesterday was so tired. slept at 4:30am on monday then woke up at 6am. go to school. yupps. haix~ a bit sick of school. everyday have to wake upp early. sians. just started school only then have exams. so moronic. irritating. have been feeling moody recently. thank god darren didn't come to school the past two days. thank god mann. his grandma pass away. it's a sad thing lahh. but good thing is when he's not around. whole class become sooo quiet and the environment become sooo condusive to study. hahas. prefer not to have him in class. concentrate better. lols. yesterday went home straight after school. diaos. too tired. wanted to jabot ELTECH tutorial. but in the end went. hahas. then home around 7:40pm. so early? yes.. hahas. then eat dinner and i sleep at 9pm. hahas. today wake up at 6am. hahas. :) lols. 9 hours of sleep. hehees. so nice. *bleahs* ohhhhh.. i'm tired again.. lols. hahas. think i'm going home straight today again. hahas. :) tired..
tomorrow skating?? going skate club?? don't know. suppose to meet javier and zeyi to skate.. hahas. anyone else wanna skate?? lols. so bored. a bit lazy to skate arhh. a bit lazy to go dada's house to take skate too!!! hahas. like sooo far to me now. hehees. :) okays. arghh!! so hmm.. hould i go skating??? should i?? lols. i think i going bahh. hahas. okays. :) i'll go. hahas. ohh a yahh.. i just remembered i change my blog's song. hahas. yupps. nice nice. hehees. i like. lols. kinda bored now. arghh!!! sians.
hmm.. feel vex now sia. ohh this feeling sucks mann. really sucks to the core. argHH!! i hate this feeling mann. i hate it lohh. arghh!! sians. feel so complicated in my heart. like everything is messed up. feeling damn fan.. feel like being alone for a while. really feel like being alone. super duper feel like. * I DON'T FEEL LOVED NOW* *I FEEL NEGLECTED AND STRESSED UPP* suddenly have the kind of, *don't love* feeling. don't know why lehh. maybe i'm tired bahh. seriously tired bahh. maybe i need a rest before anything carry on. haix~ or maybe this is because i'm stress up? maybe maybe maybe. haix~ feel like having a long term sleep. suddenly i feel like rejecting anything that comes to me now. anything.. anyone.. i don't feel like accpeting anything or anyone now.. wanna be alone.. this is all i want now.. i don't know why.. don't know.. boring.. life like this seriously SUCKS. arww!!!!!!
don't know how to say lahh. enough of my craps lerx. lahh. that's about it bahh. okays lahh. enough lerx. don't wish to write lerx. no mood for blogging now.. bored..
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
it's okays. i mean.. i'm fine with it..
maria just messaged me. ask me about my entry yesterday.. why i feel left out etc. baby.. didn't mummy said i don't wanna talk about it already? you arhh. haix~ okays. hmm. yupps. baby mummy's fine. i'm okays. don't worry. i'm fine with everything. so don't need to worry yeah.. having break now. until 2pm then 3 hours of a-maths. then gotta go for COMPRO test. part of the common test i think. yupps. hope i can score well. i have been working on my COMPRO. arghh! stupid module.
well.. kinda feel very stress up. exams are next week. and it will detemine if i'll have a good holiday or not already. 12-26 june is the holidays. heard from qianhui that there might be class chalet but has yet to confirm. but never mind. hope to be informed soon. :) okays. hahas. yesterday was so tired. slept at 4:30am on monday then woke up at 6am. go to school. yupps. haix~ a bit sick of school. everyday have to wake upp early. sians. just started school only then have exams. so moronic. irritating. have been feeling moody recently. thank god darren didn't come to school the past two days. thank god mann. his grandma pass away. it's a sad thing lahh. but good thing is when he's not around. whole class become sooo quiet and the environment become sooo condusive to study. hahas. prefer not to have him in class. concentrate better. lols. yesterday went home straight after school. diaos. too tired. wanted to jabot ELTECH tutorial. but in the end went. hahas. then home around 7:40pm. so early? yes.. hahas. then eat dinner and i sleep at 9pm. hahas. today wake up at 6am. hahas. :) lols. 9 hours of sleep. hehees. so nice. *bleahs* ohhhhh.. i'm tired again.. lols. hahas. think i'm going home straight today again. hahas. :) tired..
tomorrow skating?? going skate club?? don't know. suppose to meet javier and zeyi to skate.. hahas. anyone else wanna skate?? lols. so bored. a bit lazy to skate arhh. a bit lazy to go dada's house to take skate too!!! hahas. like sooo far to me now. hehees. :) okays. arghh!! so hmm.. hould i go skating??? should i?? lols. i think i going bahh. hahas. okays. :) i'll go. hahas. ohh a yahh.. i just remembered i change my blog's song. hahas. yupps. nice nice. hehees. i like. lols. kinda bored now. arghh!!! sians.
hmm.. feel vex now sia. ohh this feeling sucks mann. really sucks to the core. argHH!! i hate this feeling mann. i hate it lohh. arghh!! sians. feel so complicated in my heart. like everything is messed up. feeling damn fan.. feel like being alone for a while. really feel like being alone. super duper feel like. * I DON'T FEEL LOVED NOW* *I FEEL NEGLECTED AND STRESSED UPP* suddenly have the kind of, *don't love* feeling. don't know why lehh. maybe i'm tired bahh. seriously tired bahh. maybe i need a rest before anything carry on. haix~ or maybe this is because i'm stress up? maybe maybe maybe. haix~ feel like having a long term sleep. suddenly i feel like rejecting anything that comes to me now. anything.. anyone.. i don't feel like accpeting anything or anyone now.. wanna be alone.. this is all i want now.. i don't know why.. don't know.. boring.. life like this seriously SUCKS. arww!!!!!!
don't know how to say lahh. enough of my craps lerx. lahh. that's about it bahh. okays lahh. enough lerx. don't wish to write lerx. no mood for blogging now.. bored..
well.. kinda feel very stress up. exams are next week. and it will detemine if i'll have a good holiday or not already. 12-26 june is the holidays. heard from qianhui that there might be class chalet but has yet to confirm. but never mind. hope to be informed soon. :) okays. hahas. yesterday was so tired. slept at 4:30am on monday then woke up at 6am. go to school. yupps. haix~ a bit sick of school. everyday have to wake upp early. sians. just started school only then have exams. so moronic. irritating. have been feeling moody recently. thank god darren didn't come to school the past two days. thank god mann. his grandma pass away. it's a sad thing lahh. but good thing is when he's not around. whole class become sooo quiet and the environment become sooo condusive to study. hahas. prefer not to have him in class. concentrate better. lols. yesterday went home straight after school. diaos. too tired. wanted to jabot ELTECH tutorial. but in the end went. hahas. then home around 7:40pm. so early? yes.. hahas. then eat dinner and i sleep at 9pm. hahas. today wake up at 6am. hahas. :) lols. 9 hours of sleep. hehees. so nice. *bleahs* ohhhhh.. i'm tired again.. lols. hahas. think i'm going home straight today again. hahas. :) tired..
tomorrow skating?? going skate club?? don't know. suppose to meet javier and zeyi to skate.. hahas. anyone else wanna skate?? lols. so bored. a bit lazy to skate arhh. a bit lazy to go dada's house to take skate too!!! hahas. like sooo far to me now. hehees. :) okays. arghh!! so hmm.. hould i go skating??? should i?? lols. i think i going bahh. hahas. okays. :) i'll go. hahas. ohh a yahh.. i just remembered i change my blog's song. hahas. yupps. nice nice. hehees. i like. lols. kinda bored now. arghh!!! sians.
hmm.. feel vex now sia. ohh this feeling sucks mann. really sucks to the core. argHH!! i hate this feeling mann. i hate it lohh. arghh!! sians. feel so complicated in my heart. like everything is messed up. feeling damn fan.. feel like being alone for a while. really feel like being alone. super duper feel like. * I DON'T FEEL LOVED NOW* *I FEEL NEGLECTED AND STRESSED UPP* suddenly have the kind of, *don't love* feeling. don't know why lehh. maybe i'm tired bahh. seriously tired bahh. maybe i need a rest before anything carry on. haix~ or maybe this is because i'm stress up? maybe maybe maybe. haix~ feel like having a long term sleep. suddenly i feel like rejecting anything that comes to me now. anything.. anyone.. i don't feel like accpeting anything or anyone now.. wanna be alone.. this is all i want now.. i don't know why.. don't know.. boring.. life like this seriously SUCKS. arww!!!!!!
don't know how to say lahh. enough of my craps lerx. lahh. that's about it bahh. okays lahh. enough lerx. don't wish to write lerx. no mood for blogging now.. bored..
Monday, May 29, 2006
i kinda feel sick already.. haix~
err, lols. yahh. today is such a tiring day. days have been quite happening the past two days. at both cineleisure and paya lebar runway. but both are tiring days. though saturday cineleisure didn't really perform, more of like giving out the activade products but.. what can i say? or rather what can i do? steven is the instructor, he has the right to choose the best performers to perform. i know it myself i'm not a good skater. but.. it's okay. though it's kind of demoralising cause i can't perform.. but i accept the fact that i'm not up to standard to perform. so it's okays. *well, anyone, any skater, including steven, people from IC, please.. don't talk to me about this issue anymore. it's over and i don't wanna rake up the past. i'm just blogging down my feelings for that day. i don't mean anything. this is just to keep my friends updated about me.*
well, as i said. i enjoyed both days. and both days are happening. especially paya lebar runway, to me lahh. it's kinda fun. :) hahas. it's my first time going for the runway and it's so nice. :p alternatively, both are tiring. it's kinda saddening that dada didn't get to attend the cineleisure performance. he should have gone. he's such a perfect skater (in my eyes. hahas. :) ). such a pity. haix~ too bad he gotta look after the shop. well, honestly speaking, i feel kinda like.. left out in the group ever since i injured my hand. like.. i'm no longer that involved in their activities. maybe i think too much but.. that's my feeling bahh. perharps i'm too sensitive towards anything that happens around me and words coming from anyone's mouth bahh. haix~ don't know lahh. or maybe i'm seriously under stress until i think too much lerx bahh. exams are coming next week and i'm still like.. don't know anyything?!?!?! arghh!! all that is in my mind is skating? and mummy is kinda getting damn pissed at me for always skating?? dots. sians lahh. if i were to choose between two. i know my heart wants me to choose skating. but i know mummy surely won't allow me to quit school just like that. it's like.. i've studied for so many years then give up like this is so wasted. but...... i lost interest in studying!!!! this is real. this is fact. i don't know lahh.. feeling so vexed. so vexed. haix~ what should i do??? so many people yearn for the chance to get into poly. but i want to get out of poly now. how weird. arGhh!!!! i wanna go back malaysia. i hope holidays come faster.. i can't wait to go back malaysia. really can't wait!!!! :) mummy is going back to malaysia on friday. sians. so sians.
woke upp late today. end upp meet classmates at 10am at Macs. yupps. then study COMPRO there until about 12.20pm. walk back to school for EECAD. yahh. then lesson until 4pm. go and meet Ivor with Sam and Guan Cheng. go atrium study COMPRO until 7.45pm. Ivor teach us until he hmself also kinda 'sehh' lerx lohh. hahas. then go home. all that is in my head is COMPRO!!!!!!! damn sick of this module lohh. it sucks. the lecturer also sucks. arghh!!!! i love wednesday!!! but wednesday got COMPRO common test! Ohh shit ohh shit ohh shit!!!!!!!!!!! irritating. i think will fail arghh! i find COMPRO so difficult. i hate COMPRO. seriously hate it to the core mann!!! i love EG1. hahas. EG1 rocks. hahas. :)
miss dada today. didn't talk to him much. cause he sleep early afternoon. arww~ then.. don't know lahh. recently like PMS lahh. i mean the both of us lahh. like so on and off lohh. haix~ hope dada won't always keep things from me bahh. i seriously feel very helpless when i see him upset and i can't do anything. so sians. like i want him to tell me his feelings and thoughts?? so at least i know how is his life now mahh. whether he's happy or sad. troubled or not. so i can feel at ease and won't think so much. but why can't he understand this? haix~ always don't wanna tell me and keep quiet.. so frustrating sometimes. arGhh!!! hahas. afterall still okays lahh. :) hope everything goes well bahh.. tired lerx.. nighty nights everyone.. wanna orhh orhh lerx.. nights dada. love ya always. muacks. huggs.
hahas. a new tagger in my tagboard!! => Simong!!! :) huggs...
well, as i said. i enjoyed both days. and both days are happening. especially paya lebar runway, to me lahh. it's kinda fun. :) hahas. it's my first time going for the runway and it's so nice. :p alternatively, both are tiring. it's kinda saddening that dada didn't get to attend the cineleisure performance. he should have gone. he's such a perfect skater (in my eyes. hahas. :) ). such a pity. haix~ too bad he gotta look after the shop. well, honestly speaking, i feel kinda like.. left out in the group ever since i injured my hand. like.. i'm no longer that involved in their activities. maybe i think too much but.. that's my feeling bahh. perharps i'm too sensitive towards anything that happens around me and words coming from anyone's mouth bahh. haix~ don't know lahh. or maybe i'm seriously under stress until i think too much lerx bahh. exams are coming next week and i'm still like.. don't know anyything?!?!?! arghh!! all that is in my mind is skating? and mummy is kinda getting damn pissed at me for always skating?? dots. sians lahh. if i were to choose between two. i know my heart wants me to choose skating. but i know mummy surely won't allow me to quit school just like that. it's like.. i've studied for so many years then give up like this is so wasted. but...... i lost interest in studying!!!! this is real. this is fact. i don't know lahh.. feeling so vexed. so vexed. haix~ what should i do??? so many people yearn for the chance to get into poly. but i want to get out of poly now. how weird. arGhh!!!! i wanna go back malaysia. i hope holidays come faster.. i can't wait to go back malaysia. really can't wait!!!! :) mummy is going back to malaysia on friday. sians. so sians.
woke upp late today. end upp meet classmates at 10am at Macs. yupps. then study COMPRO there until about 12.20pm. walk back to school for EECAD. yahh. then lesson until 4pm. go and meet Ivor with Sam and Guan Cheng. go atrium study COMPRO until 7.45pm. Ivor teach us until he hmself also kinda 'sehh' lerx lohh. hahas. then go home. all that is in my head is COMPRO!!!!!!! damn sick of this module lohh. it sucks. the lecturer also sucks. arghh!!!! i love wednesday!!! but wednesday got COMPRO common test! Ohh shit ohh shit ohh shit!!!!!!!!!!! irritating. i think will fail arghh! i find COMPRO so difficult. i hate COMPRO. seriously hate it to the core mann!!! i love EG1. hahas. EG1 rocks. hahas. :)
miss dada today. didn't talk to him much. cause he sleep early afternoon. arww~ then.. don't know lahh. recently like PMS lahh. i mean the both of us lahh. like so on and off lohh. haix~ hope dada won't always keep things from me bahh. i seriously feel very helpless when i see him upset and i can't do anything. so sians. like i want him to tell me his feelings and thoughts?? so at least i know how is his life now mahh. whether he's happy or sad. troubled or not. so i can feel at ease and won't think so much. but why can't he understand this? haix~ always don't wanna tell me and keep quiet.. so frustrating sometimes. arGhh!!! hahas. afterall still okays lahh. :) hope everything goes well bahh.. tired lerx.. nighty nights everyone.. wanna orhh orhh lerx.. nights dada. love ya always. muacks. huggs.
hahas. a new tagger in my tagboard!! => Simong!!! :) huggs...
i kinda feel sick already.. haix~
err, lols. yahh. today is such a tiring day. days have been quite happening the past two days. at both cineleisure and paya lebar runway. but both are tiring days. though saturday cineleisure didn't really perform, more of like giving out the activade products but.. what can i say? or rather what can i do? steven is the instructor, he has the right to choose the best performers to perform. i know it myself i'm not a good skater. but.. it's okay. though it's kind of demoralising cause i can't perform.. but i accept the fact that i'm not up to standard to perform. so it's okays. *well, anyone, any skater, including steven, people from IC, please.. don't talk to me about this issue anymore. it's over and i don't wanna rake up the past. i'm just blogging down my feelings for that day. i don't mean anything. this is just to keep my friends updated about me.*
well, as i said. i enjoyed both days. and both days are happening. especially paya lebar runway, to me lahh. it's kinda fun. :) hahas. it's my first time going for the runway and it's so nice. :p alternatively, both are tiring. it's kinda saddening that dada didn't get to attend the cineleisure performance. he should have gone. he's such a perfect skater (in my eyes. hahas. :) ). such a pity. haix~ too bad he gotta look after the shop. well, honestly speaking, i feel kinda like.. left out in the group ever since i injured my hand. like.. i'm no longer that involved in their activities. maybe i think too much but.. that's my feeling bahh. perharps i'm too sensitive towards anything that happens around me and words coming from anyone's mouth bahh. haix~ don't know lahh. or maybe i'm seriously under stress until i think too much lerx bahh. exams are coming next week and i'm still like.. don't know anyything?!?!?! arghh!! all that is in my mind is skating? and mummy is kinda getting damn pissed at me for always skating?? dots. sians lahh. if i were to choose between two. i know my heart wants me to choose skating. but i know mummy surely won't allow me to quit school just like that. it's like.. i've studied for so many years then give up like this is so wasted. but...... i lost interest in studying!!!! this is real. this is fact. i don't know lahh.. feeling so vexed. so vexed. haix~ what should i do??? so many people yearn for the chance to get into poly. but i want to get out of poly now. how weird. arGhh!!!! i wanna go back malaysia. i hope holidays come faster.. i can't wait to go back malaysia. really can't wait!!!! :) mummy is going back to malaysia on friday. sians. so sians.
woke upp late today. end upp meet classmates at 10am at Macs. yupps. then study COMPRO there until about 12.20pm. walk back to school for EECAD. yahh. then lesson until 4pm. go and meet Ivor with Sam and Guan Cheng. go atrium study COMPRO until 7.45pm. Ivor teach us until he hmself also kinda 'sehh' lerx lohh. hahas. then go home. all that is in my head is COMPRO!!!!!!! damn sick of this module lohh. it sucks. the lecturer also sucks. arghh!!!! i love wednesday!!! but wednesday got COMPRO common test! Ohh shit ohh shit ohh shit!!!!!!!!!!! irritating. i think will fail arghh! i find COMPRO so difficult. i hate COMPRO. seriously hate it to the core mann!!! i love EG1. hahas. EG1 rocks. hahas. :)
miss dada today. didn't talk to him much. cause he sleep early afternoon. arww~ then.. don't know lahh. recently like PMS lahh. i mean the both of us lahh. like so on and off lohh. haix~ hope dada won't always keep things from me bahh. i seriously feel very helpless when i see him upset and i can't do anything. so sians. like i want him to tell me his feelings and thoughts?? so at least i know how is his life now mahh. whether he's happy or sad. troubled or not. so i can feel at ease and won't think so much. but why can't he understand this? haix~ always don't wanna tell me and keep quiet.. so frustrating sometimes. arGhh!!! hahas. afterall still okays lahh. :) hope everything goes well bahh.. tired lerx.. nighty nights everyone.. wanna orhh orhh lerx.. nights dada. love ya always. muacks. huggs.
hahas. a new tagger in my tagboard!! => Simong!!! :) huggs...
well, as i said. i enjoyed both days. and both days are happening. especially paya lebar runway, to me lahh. it's kinda fun. :) hahas. it's my first time going for the runway and it's so nice. :p alternatively, both are tiring. it's kinda saddening that dada didn't get to attend the cineleisure performance. he should have gone. he's such a perfect skater (in my eyes. hahas. :) ). such a pity. haix~ too bad he gotta look after the shop. well, honestly speaking, i feel kinda like.. left out in the group ever since i injured my hand. like.. i'm no longer that involved in their activities. maybe i think too much but.. that's my feeling bahh. perharps i'm too sensitive towards anything that happens around me and words coming from anyone's mouth bahh. haix~ don't know lahh. or maybe i'm seriously under stress until i think too much lerx bahh. exams are coming next week and i'm still like.. don't know anyything?!?!?! arghh!! all that is in my mind is skating? and mummy is kinda getting damn pissed at me for always skating?? dots. sians lahh. if i were to choose between two. i know my heart wants me to choose skating. but i know mummy surely won't allow me to quit school just like that. it's like.. i've studied for so many years then give up like this is so wasted. but...... i lost interest in studying!!!! this is real. this is fact. i don't know lahh.. feeling so vexed. so vexed. haix~ what should i do??? so many people yearn for the chance to get into poly. but i want to get out of poly now. how weird. arGhh!!!! i wanna go back malaysia. i hope holidays come faster.. i can't wait to go back malaysia. really can't wait!!!! :) mummy is going back to malaysia on friday. sians. so sians.
woke upp late today. end upp meet classmates at 10am at Macs. yupps. then study COMPRO there until about 12.20pm. walk back to school for EECAD. yahh. then lesson until 4pm. go and meet Ivor with Sam and Guan Cheng. go atrium study COMPRO until 7.45pm. Ivor teach us until he hmself also kinda 'sehh' lerx lohh. hahas. then go home. all that is in my head is COMPRO!!!!!!! damn sick of this module lohh. it sucks. the lecturer also sucks. arghh!!!! i love wednesday!!! but wednesday got COMPRO common test! Ohh shit ohh shit ohh shit!!!!!!!!!!! irritating. i think will fail arghh! i find COMPRO so difficult. i hate COMPRO. seriously hate it to the core mann!!! i love EG1. hahas. EG1 rocks. hahas. :)
miss dada today. didn't talk to him much. cause he sleep early afternoon. arww~ then.. don't know lahh. recently like PMS lahh. i mean the both of us lahh. like so on and off lohh. haix~ hope dada won't always keep things from me bahh. i seriously feel very helpless when i see him upset and i can't do anything. so sians. like i want him to tell me his feelings and thoughts?? so at least i know how is his life now mahh. whether he's happy or sad. troubled or not. so i can feel at ease and won't think so much. but why can't he understand this? haix~ always don't wanna tell me and keep quiet.. so frustrating sometimes. arGhh!!! hahas. afterall still okays lahh. :) hope everything goes well bahh.. tired lerx.. nighty nights everyone.. wanna orhh orhh lerx.. nights dada. love ya always. muacks. huggs.
hahas. a new tagger in my tagboard!! => Simong!!! :) huggs...
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
HAPPY 46 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!! :)
honey!! it's our 46 months anniversary lerx.. happy mahh?? i hope you are.. hahas! you were very happy last saturday.. i hope you will always be that happy yeah? like you just saw your seba frame like that.. surprise yeah? a gift from me to you baby! :) hahas! :p
haix~ back here lerx.. like lazy to blog lehh. go a lot of notes to print today lohh.. gotta go home and print.. sians.. hahas. yupps. hmm.. don't know what to say lehh.. yupps.. i'm feeling better as compared to last week. hahas! :) happier of course. duhh! hahas! :)
hmm, i think i wanna go down IC later. kinda miss him. wanna see him. hahas. recently damn piss at marcus. he's so irritating lohh. ARGHH! hate guys like him. always like to boost about himself so much. not as if he's super great lohh. not as if he's the best on earth lohh. always think so highly of himself. like as if everyone else is nothing in his eyes. so what if he know how to do his slide and that slide? everyone who practise hard will be able to do it de lohh. just that it depends on whether they wanna do or not only wadd. hmphh! bleahs. he's still not the best yet lohh. still have a lot to to learn lohh. *arww~ whatever* i don't care.. anyway, i'll just stop here with this, about marcus. to prevent conflict. steven said teamwork is important. hmphh!
hmm.. exams is starting next week. sians lahh. so fast exam already.. i don't think i'm ready for it lahh. like so unprepared. haix~ later fail then have to repeat one module. boring. don't feel like studying lerx. totally have no mood to study lerx lehh. sians. thinking of study, i suddenly don't have the mood to go IC. cause if i go IC, i'll be home late and have to stay up late to catch up with my studies. sians. but.. i miss him.. i wanna see him lehh. how sia. haix~ ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! sians. hmm, now i'm confused. later have 3 hours of a maths. totally boring mann!!!!!! irritating. i wanna quit school!! i feel like lohh. like lost interest in studying lerx.. haix~ no mood no mood..
eehhh... don't know lahh. so fan over this. so stupid lohh. hahas. okays. enough lerx bahh. stop here lohh. see you all around. bye bye. take care to all. :)
haix~ back here lerx.. like lazy to blog lehh. go a lot of notes to print today lohh.. gotta go home and print.. sians.. hahas. yupps. hmm.. don't know what to say lehh.. yupps.. i'm feeling better as compared to last week. hahas! :) happier of course. duhh! hahas! :)
hmm, i think i wanna go down IC later. kinda miss him. wanna see him. hahas. recently damn piss at marcus. he's so irritating lohh. ARGHH! hate guys like him. always like to boost about himself so much. not as if he's super great lohh. not as if he's the best on earth lohh. always think so highly of himself. like as if everyone else is nothing in his eyes. so what if he know how to do his slide and that slide? everyone who practise hard will be able to do it de lohh. just that it depends on whether they wanna do or not only wadd. hmphh! bleahs. he's still not the best yet lohh. still have a lot to to learn lohh. *arww~ whatever* i don't care.. anyway, i'll just stop here with this, about marcus. to prevent conflict. steven said teamwork is important. hmphh!
hmm.. exams is starting next week. sians lahh. so fast exam already.. i don't think i'm ready for it lahh. like so unprepared. haix~ later fail then have to repeat one module. boring. don't feel like studying lerx. totally have no mood to study lerx lehh. sians. thinking of study, i suddenly don't have the mood to go IC. cause if i go IC, i'll be home late and have to stay up late to catch up with my studies. sians. but.. i miss him.. i wanna see him lehh. how sia. haix~ ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! sians. hmm, now i'm confused. later have 3 hours of a maths. totally boring mann!!!!!! irritating. i wanna quit school!! i feel like lohh. like lost interest in studying lerx.. haix~ no mood no mood..
eehhh... don't know lahh. so fan over this. so stupid lohh. hahas. okays. enough lerx bahh. stop here lohh. see you all around. bye bye. take care to all. :)
HAPPY 46 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!! :)
honey!! it's our 46 months anniversary lerx.. happy mahh?? i hope you are.. hahas! you were very happy last saturday.. i hope you will always be that happy yeah? like you just saw your seba frame like that.. surprise yeah? a gift from me to you baby! :) hahas! :p
haix~ back here lerx.. like lazy to blog lehh. go a lot of notes to print today lohh.. gotta go home and print.. sians.. hahas. yupps. hmm.. don't know what to say lehh.. yupps.. i'm feeling better as compared to last week. hahas! :) happier of course. duhh! hahas! :)
hmm, i think i wanna go down IC later. kinda miss him. wanna see him. hahas. recently damn piss at marcus. he's so irritating lohh. ARGHH! hate guys like him. always like to boost about himself so much. not as if he's super great lohh. not as if he's the best on earth lohh. always think so highly of himself. like as if everyone else is nothing in his eyes. so what if he know how to do his slide and that slide? everyone who practise hard will be able to do it de lohh. just that it depends on whether they wanna do or not only wadd. hmphh! bleahs. he's still not the best yet lohh. still have a lot to to learn lohh. *arww~ whatever* i don't care.. anyway, i'll just stop here with this, about marcus. to prevent conflict. steven said teamwork is important. hmphh!
hmm.. exams is starting next week. sians lahh. so fast exam already.. i don't think i'm ready for it lahh. like so unprepared. haix~ later fail then have to repeat one module. boring. don't feel like studying lerx. totally have no mood to study lerx lehh. sians. thinking of study, i suddenly don't have the mood to go IC. cause if i go IC, i'll be home late and have to stay up late to catch up with my studies. sians. but.. i miss him.. i wanna see him lehh. how sia. haix~ ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! sians. hmm, now i'm confused. later have 3 hours of a maths. totally boring mann!!!!!! irritating. i wanna quit school!! i feel like lohh. like lost interest in studying lerx.. haix~ no mood no mood..
eehhh... don't know lahh. so fan over this. so stupid lohh. hahas. okays. enough lerx bahh. stop here lohh. see you all around. bye bye. take care to all. :)
haix~ back here lerx.. like lazy to blog lehh. go a lot of notes to print today lohh.. gotta go home and print.. sians.. hahas. yupps. hmm.. don't know what to say lehh.. yupps.. i'm feeling better as compared to last week. hahas! :) happier of course. duhh! hahas! :)
hmm, i think i wanna go down IC later. kinda miss him. wanna see him. hahas. recently damn piss at marcus. he's so irritating lohh. ARGHH! hate guys like him. always like to boost about himself so much. not as if he's super great lohh. not as if he's the best on earth lohh. always think so highly of himself. like as if everyone else is nothing in his eyes. so what if he know how to do his slide and that slide? everyone who practise hard will be able to do it de lohh. just that it depends on whether they wanna do or not only wadd. hmphh! bleahs. he's still not the best yet lohh. still have a lot to to learn lohh. *arww~ whatever* i don't care.. anyway, i'll just stop here with this, about marcus. to prevent conflict. steven said teamwork is important. hmphh!
hmm.. exams is starting next week. sians lahh. so fast exam already.. i don't think i'm ready for it lahh. like so unprepared. haix~ later fail then have to repeat one module. boring. don't feel like studying lerx. totally have no mood to study lerx lehh. sians. thinking of study, i suddenly don't have the mood to go IC. cause if i go IC, i'll be home late and have to stay up late to catch up with my studies. sians. but.. i miss him.. i wanna see him lehh. how sia. haix~ ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! sians. hmm, now i'm confused. later have 3 hours of a maths. totally boring mann!!!!!! irritating. i wanna quit school!! i feel like lohh. like lost interest in studying lerx.. haix~ no mood no mood..
eehhh... don't know lahh. so fan over this. so stupid lohh. hahas. okays. enough lerx bahh. stop here lohh. see you all around. bye bye. take care to all. :)
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
what should i d? i feel so vex..
haix~ back here today. at 12:46pm. listening to "my happy ending". in ngee ann, having a two hours break. at canteen four. feeling sad. unhappy. insecured. haix~ i need an answer now. i need. i really need. haix.
yesterday dada told me that if he can get rid of me, he will do that. i feel very sad about this. very sad. and disappointed. very. don't know how to say.. but.. i'm really bothered by this. this bothers me the whole day and i'm seriously feeling low over this. what should i do? if this continues, i know it'll affect my studies sooner or later. it dfinitely will. haix.
okays. tomorrow going to the skate club to see see. see how's it like. if i don't like then i'll just join band bahh. anyway i still have commitment for band mahh. not as if i don't like band anymore. yupps. haix. now i'm thinking if i should continue to stay in demo team or not. i wanna continue. but once i bought dada the seba frame, change everything, i think dada is ready to use twister. but i've yet to buy my crossmax. plus now no stock lerx. have to wait now. don't know must wait until when lohh. haix. the sliding competition is in august. i don't think i'm ready for the competition lohh. how to take part? haix~ argHHH!!! don't know lahh. see how bahh. if my hand fully recover already then i'll practise hard bahh. but if my hand not okay then maybe i'll not go lohh. but steven say all must go lehh. never mind. i think steven is understanding enough bahh. hahas! :)
spoke to kaishi on msn just now. told her about me and dada. then she say from what she thinks, dada has got another meaning for saying that. which was he can't let go of this relationship easily. i understand what she mean. cause i'm like that. haix~ don't know lahh. so vex about this. hao bu rong yi we can get bacck to be as happy as last time. now this kind of thing happen. haix. so sad.. sobs.. kaishi ask me to ask him some questions, which i think i want to find out too. yupps. will do that soon....
haix~ what will happen to us in the end? i don't know. haix~ okays lahh. i don't know what i wanna do lerx lahh. stoning lahh.. take care to all. :)
yesterday dada told me that if he can get rid of me, he will do that. i feel very sad about this. very sad. and disappointed. very. don't know how to say.. but.. i'm really bothered by this. this bothers me the whole day and i'm seriously feeling low over this. what should i do? if this continues, i know it'll affect my studies sooner or later. it dfinitely will. haix.
okays. tomorrow going to the skate club to see see. see how's it like. if i don't like then i'll just join band bahh. anyway i still have commitment for band mahh. not as if i don't like band anymore. yupps. haix. now i'm thinking if i should continue to stay in demo team or not. i wanna continue. but once i bought dada the seba frame, change everything, i think dada is ready to use twister. but i've yet to buy my crossmax. plus now no stock lerx. have to wait now. don't know must wait until when lohh. haix. the sliding competition is in august. i don't think i'm ready for the competition lohh. how to take part? haix~ argHHH!!! don't know lahh. see how bahh. if my hand fully recover already then i'll practise hard bahh. but if my hand not okay then maybe i'll not go lohh. but steven say all must go lehh. never mind. i think steven is understanding enough bahh. hahas! :)
spoke to kaishi on msn just now. told her about me and dada. then she say from what she thinks, dada has got another meaning for saying that. which was he can't let go of this relationship easily. i understand what she mean. cause i'm like that. haix~ don't know lahh. so vex about this. hao bu rong yi we can get bacck to be as happy as last time. now this kind of thing happen. haix. so sad.. sobs.. kaishi ask me to ask him some questions, which i think i want to find out too. yupps. will do that soon....
haix~ what will happen to us in the end? i don't know. haix~ okays lahh. i don't know what i wanna do lerx lahh. stoning lahh.. take care to all. :)
what should i d? i feel so vex..
haix~ back here today. at 12:46pm. listening to "my happy ending". in ngee ann, having a two hours break. at canteen four. feeling sad. unhappy. insecured. haix~ i need an answer now. i need. i really need. haix.
yesterday dada told me that if he can get rid of me, he will do that. i feel very sad about this. very sad. and disappointed. very. don't know how to say.. but.. i'm really bothered by this. this bothers me the whole day and i'm seriously feeling low over this. what should i do? if this continues, i know it'll affect my studies sooner or later. it dfinitely will. haix.
okays. tomorrow going to the skate club to see see. see how's it like. if i don't like then i'll just join band bahh. anyway i still have commitment for band mahh. not as if i don't like band anymore. yupps. haix. now i'm thinking if i should continue to stay in demo team or not. i wanna continue. but once i bought dada the seba frame, change everything, i think dada is ready to use twister. but i've yet to buy my crossmax. plus now no stock lerx. have to wait now. don't know must wait until when lohh. haix. the sliding competition is in august. i don't think i'm ready for the competition lohh. how to take part? haix~ argHHH!!! don't know lahh. see how bahh. if my hand fully recover already then i'll practise hard bahh. but if my hand not okay then maybe i'll not go lohh. but steven say all must go lehh. never mind. i think steven is understanding enough bahh. hahas! :)
spoke to kaishi on msn just now. told her about me and dada. then she say from what she thinks, dada has got another meaning for saying that. which was he can't let go of this relationship easily. i understand what she mean. cause i'm like that. haix~ don't know lahh. so vex about this. hao bu rong yi we can get bacck to be as happy as last time. now this kind of thing happen. haix. so sad.. sobs.. kaishi ask me to ask him some questions, which i think i want to find out too. yupps. will do that soon....
haix~ what will happen to us in the end? i don't know. haix~ okays lahh. i don't know what i wanna do lerx lahh. stoning lahh.. take care to all. :)
yesterday dada told me that if he can get rid of me, he will do that. i feel very sad about this. very sad. and disappointed. very. don't know how to say.. but.. i'm really bothered by this. this bothers me the whole day and i'm seriously feeling low over this. what should i do? if this continues, i know it'll affect my studies sooner or later. it dfinitely will. haix.
okays. tomorrow going to the skate club to see see. see how's it like. if i don't like then i'll just join band bahh. anyway i still have commitment for band mahh. not as if i don't like band anymore. yupps. haix. now i'm thinking if i should continue to stay in demo team or not. i wanna continue. but once i bought dada the seba frame, change everything, i think dada is ready to use twister. but i've yet to buy my crossmax. plus now no stock lerx. have to wait now. don't know must wait until when lohh. haix. the sliding competition is in august. i don't think i'm ready for the competition lohh. how to take part? haix~ argHHH!!! don't know lahh. see how bahh. if my hand fully recover already then i'll practise hard bahh. but if my hand not okay then maybe i'll not go lohh. but steven say all must go lehh. never mind. i think steven is understanding enough bahh. hahas! :)
spoke to kaishi on msn just now. told her about me and dada. then she say from what she thinks, dada has got another meaning for saying that. which was he can't let go of this relationship easily. i understand what she mean. cause i'm like that. haix~ don't know lahh. so vex about this. hao bu rong yi we can get bacck to be as happy as last time. now this kind of thing happen. haix. so sad.. sobs.. kaishi ask me to ask him some questions, which i think i want to find out too. yupps. will do that soon....
haix~ what will happen to us in the end? i don't know. haix~ okays lahh. i don't know what i wanna do lerx lahh. stoning lahh.. take care to all. :)
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
i'm confused......
haix~ back here FINALLY!!!! feel kinda sad.. yahh.. don't know why.. i mean, i know but don't feel like saying it out here. haix~ well, i think it's better for me to say out bahh. so i'll feel better and not sad yeah? haix~
recently, i suddenly feel that i'm unable to give dada happiness. it's like, i don't seems to be able to be the perfect girl in his eyes. i can't change myself for him.. caus ei find that once i change myself, im no longer me. i wanna ba who i am now and not anyone else. i'm better off being myself. i seriously feel this way.. but..... dada wants me to change myself to another personality and i feel really uncomfortable doing it.. thus, i feel that i'm not a good girlfriend and i think he'll really be better without me. saying all these, i'm feeling upset but.. what can i do? i really feel very confused now. what should i do? i wanna keep hiim with me. but i don't wanna see him sad.. it's not just i love him now. i want him to stay happy always. but i can't do it.. i didn't make this happen.
haix~ so vexed over this the pasrt two days. yupps. wanna let my sorrows out but feel that i shouldn't trouble anyone. cause they have their own problems too. why should i add on to their burdens? i feel kinda bad doing that.
exams are coming.. shouldn't i care about my studies now instead of all these? but nothing can stop me from thinking about him. simply nothing can. even myself also cannot. i just can't help but to think about him. even when i'm angry with him, he's still in my mind. every second.. every minute.. why? maybe he can't even be bothered with whether i'm happy or sad? maybe he won't even wanna know what's in my mind now. cause he simply doesn't care.. all he care about is himself..
haix~ don't know lahh. i feel kinda sick? mentally? yahh.. feel so lousy and sucks now. seems like i'm making my life difficult for myself because i care too much? but.. isn't this what i'm suppose to do when i'm in a relationship?? it takes two to clap but why he don't understand this? haix~ don't know lahh.. ARgHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school also don't seems to good either. rumours have been passing around about me and sam being an item by darren. i hate him mann! i seriously hate him. can he just stay out of my peaceful life? can he stop all these nonsense? can't he understand that whatvever he does will affect the friendship between me and sam? and it might affect both me and dada, sam and yvonne[my primary school friend, sam's girlfriend.]? he better not cross the line before i eventually go over to him and give him a tight slap. he's getting up my nerve. he better be remorseful now. ArGhhH!!! sucker!
life's getting from bad to worse. i feel so much stress coming towards me now. feeling very very stress. i need to find a way to reduce my stress. i seriously need to. i know i have been cheerful all these while. but it's just to cover up my unhappiness and stressfulness. this is the only way i can keep my friends and loved ones no worries. i don't want them to think so much about me. yahh.. haix~ i'll be okays. so no need to worry also.
hmm, okays bahh. enough of all these ler lahh. wanna put my present's pictures lerx..
Blue Rose From Dada.
Dolphin Pendant from Mummy! :)
Necklace From Maria and Wilson2
Watch From Yuzhen and Chuti.
Present From Qianhui and Junfeng.
all my presents!! :P
recently, i suddenly feel that i'm unable to give dada happiness. it's like, i don't seems to be able to be the perfect girl in his eyes. i can't change myself for him.. caus ei find that once i change myself, im no longer me. i wanna ba who i am now and not anyone else. i'm better off being myself. i seriously feel this way.. but..... dada wants me to change myself to another personality and i feel really uncomfortable doing it.. thus, i feel that i'm not a good girlfriend and i think he'll really be better without me. saying all these, i'm feeling upset but.. what can i do? i really feel very confused now. what should i do? i wanna keep hiim with me. but i don't wanna see him sad.. it's not just i love him now. i want him to stay happy always. but i can't do it.. i didn't make this happen.
haix~ so vexed over this the pasrt two days. yupps. wanna let my sorrows out but feel that i shouldn't trouble anyone. cause they have their own problems too. why should i add on to their burdens? i feel kinda bad doing that.
exams are coming.. shouldn't i care about my studies now instead of all these? but nothing can stop me from thinking about him. simply nothing can. even myself also cannot. i just can't help but to think about him. even when i'm angry with him, he's still in my mind. every second.. every minute.. why? maybe he can't even be bothered with whether i'm happy or sad? maybe he won't even wanna know what's in my mind now. cause he simply doesn't care.. all he care about is himself..
haix~ don't know lahh. i feel kinda sick? mentally? yahh.. feel so lousy and sucks now. seems like i'm making my life difficult for myself because i care too much? but.. isn't this what i'm suppose to do when i'm in a relationship?? it takes two to clap but why he don't understand this? haix~ don't know lahh.. ARgHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school also don't seems to good either. rumours have been passing around about me and sam being an item by darren. i hate him mann! i seriously hate him. can he just stay out of my peaceful life? can he stop all these nonsense? can't he understand that whatvever he does will affect the friendship between me and sam? and it might affect both me and dada, sam and yvonne[my primary school friend, sam's girlfriend.]? he better not cross the line before i eventually go over to him and give him a tight slap. he's getting up my nerve. he better be remorseful now. ArGhhH!!! sucker!
life's getting from bad to worse. i feel so much stress coming towards me now. feeling very very stress. i need to find a way to reduce my stress. i seriously need to. i know i have been cheerful all these while. but it's just to cover up my unhappiness and stressfulness. this is the only way i can keep my friends and loved ones no worries. i don't want them to think so much about me. yahh.. haix~ i'll be okays. so no need to worry also.
hmm, okays bahh. enough of all these ler lahh. wanna put my present's pictures lerx..
Blue Rose From Dada.
Dolphin Pendant from Mummy! :)
Necklace From Maria and Wilson2
Watch From Yuzhen and Chuti.
Present From Qianhui and Junfeng.
all my presents!! :P
i'm confused......
haix~ back here FINALLY!!!! feel kinda sad.. yahh.. don't know why.. i mean, i know but don't feel like saying it out here. haix~ well, i think it's better for me to say out bahh. so i'll feel better and not sad yeah? haix~
recently, i suddenly feel that i'm unable to give dada happiness. it's like, i don't seems to be able to be the perfect girl in his eyes. i can't change myself for him.. caus ei find that once i change myself, im no longer me. i wanna ba who i am now and not anyone else. i'm better off being myself. i seriously feel this way.. but..... dada wants me to change myself to another personality and i feel really uncomfortable doing it.. thus, i feel that i'm not a good girlfriend and i think he'll really be better without me. saying all these, i'm feeling upset but.. what can i do? i really feel very confused now. what should i do? i wanna keep hiim with me. but i don't wanna see him sad.. it's not just i love him now. i want him to stay happy always. but i can't do it.. i didn't make this happen.
haix~ so vexed over this the pasrt two days. yupps. wanna let my sorrows out but feel that i shouldn't trouble anyone. cause they have their own problems too. why should i add on to their burdens? i feel kinda bad doing that.
exams are coming.. shouldn't i care about my studies now instead of all these? but nothing can stop me from thinking about him. simply nothing can. even myself also cannot. i just can't help but to think about him. even when i'm angry with him, he's still in my mind. every second.. every minute.. why? maybe he can't even be bothered with whether i'm happy or sad? maybe he won't even wanna know what's in my mind now. cause he simply doesn't care.. all he care about is himself..
haix~ don't know lahh. i feel kinda sick? mentally? yahh.. feel so lousy and sucks now. seems like i'm making my life difficult for myself because i care too much? but.. isn't this what i'm suppose to do when i'm in a relationship?? it takes two to clap but why he don't understand this? haix~ don't know lahh.. ARgHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school also don't seems to good either. rumours have been passing around about me and sam being an item by darren. i hate him mann! i seriously hate him. can he just stay out of my peaceful life? can he stop all these nonsense? can't he understand that whatvever he does will affect the friendship between me and sam? and it might affect both me and dada, sam and yvonne[my primary school friend, sam's girlfriend.]? he better not cross the line before i eventually go over to him and give him a tight slap. he's getting up my nerve. he better be remorseful now. ArGhhH!!! sucker!
life's getting from bad to worse. i feel so much stress coming towards me now. feeling very very stress. i need to find a way to reduce my stress. i seriously need to. i know i have been cheerful all these while. but it's just to cover up my unhappiness and stressfulness. this is the only way i can keep my friends and loved ones no worries. i don't want them to think so much about me. yahh.. haix~ i'll be okays. so no need to worry also.
hmm, okays bahh. enough of all these ler lahh. wanna put my present's pictures lerx..
Blue Rose From Dada.
Dolphin Pendant from Mummy! :)
Necklace From Maria and Wilson2
Watch From Yuzhen and Chuti.
Present From Qianhui and Junfeng.
all my presents!! :P
recently, i suddenly feel that i'm unable to give dada happiness. it's like, i don't seems to be able to be the perfect girl in his eyes. i can't change myself for him.. caus ei find that once i change myself, im no longer me. i wanna ba who i am now and not anyone else. i'm better off being myself. i seriously feel this way.. but..... dada wants me to change myself to another personality and i feel really uncomfortable doing it.. thus, i feel that i'm not a good girlfriend and i think he'll really be better without me. saying all these, i'm feeling upset but.. what can i do? i really feel very confused now. what should i do? i wanna keep hiim with me. but i don't wanna see him sad.. it's not just i love him now. i want him to stay happy always. but i can't do it.. i didn't make this happen.
haix~ so vexed over this the pasrt two days. yupps. wanna let my sorrows out but feel that i shouldn't trouble anyone. cause they have their own problems too. why should i add on to their burdens? i feel kinda bad doing that.
exams are coming.. shouldn't i care about my studies now instead of all these? but nothing can stop me from thinking about him. simply nothing can. even myself also cannot. i just can't help but to think about him. even when i'm angry with him, he's still in my mind. every second.. every minute.. why? maybe he can't even be bothered with whether i'm happy or sad? maybe he won't even wanna know what's in my mind now. cause he simply doesn't care.. all he care about is himself..
haix~ don't know lahh. i feel kinda sick? mentally? yahh.. feel so lousy and sucks now. seems like i'm making my life difficult for myself because i care too much? but.. isn't this what i'm suppose to do when i'm in a relationship?? it takes two to clap but why he don't understand this? haix~ don't know lahh.. ARgHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school also don't seems to good either. rumours have been passing around about me and sam being an item by darren. i hate him mann! i seriously hate him. can he just stay out of my peaceful life? can he stop all these nonsense? can't he understand that whatvever he does will affect the friendship between me and sam? and it might affect both me and dada, sam and yvonne[my primary school friend, sam's girlfriend.]? he better not cross the line before i eventually go over to him and give him a tight slap. he's getting up my nerve. he better be remorseful now. ArGhhH!!! sucker!
life's getting from bad to worse. i feel so much stress coming towards me now. feeling very very stress. i need to find a way to reduce my stress. i seriously need to. i know i have been cheerful all these while. but it's just to cover up my unhappiness and stressfulness. this is the only way i can keep my friends and loved ones no worries. i don't want them to think so much about me. yahh.. haix~ i'll be okays. so no need to worry also.
hmm, okays bahh. enough of all these ler lahh. wanna put my present's pictures lerx..
Blue Rose From Dada.
Dolphin Pendant from Mummy! :)
Necklace From Maria and Wilson2
Watch From Yuzhen and Chuti.
Present From Qianhui and Junfeng.
all my presents!! :P
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