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Haiz. Back lerx. Feeling sad and worried, again. =( okiee laa. Let miee just briefly keep you people update about miee bax. I know some of youu choose to know more about miee through blog, whereas some prefers to talk to miee personally. So just keep those is concern through my blog updated about miee bax. Well, thanks in advanced for being concern. =)


27 August 2005
It's Saturday and i am again, down to the hospital to accompany my grandma. Well, she looks better but I am still very worried. She may seem to be fine on the outside but struggling on the inside. I have been trying my very best to keep my smile going each time I visit her. I tried my best not to show her that I am very worried and, scared. I tried to tell her jokes to make her feel better. I wonder how long this last will. Doctor says she might be hospitalized for a month long. Haiz. I hope this will end soon and will not happen again, even if it happens, not like now. Basically, spent my whole day at hospital, and then went for supper at Chinatown with family.


28 August 2005
Well, my day is spent at hospital too. Yaa. Watt else can I do there? It is just the same things. Kind of boring laa. Nevertheless, it is like that de laa. Can understand. Haiz. Miss someone today because I listened to his CD and remind miee of watt he has told miee before. Sad! Spoke to him also. Hmm, this Saturday's band farewell party cum gathering, don't know if majority will turn upp or not sia. Haiz. I hope that they will bax. Today I left earlier cause have to Cheong my homeworks. Yupp. Then, like that lolz. Boring neh? -_-''''


29 August 2005
Today nearly late for school. Ahahaz. Well, after school went to dear's house to take phone from him, for Da Yi. Haiz. He lends his phone to her laa, obviously. Hmm. Nothing much happened laa. Just a very normal day lolz. Hahaz. Now have to go Sun Plaza help mom buy something lerx. Reach home going to Cheong studies lerx. Yupp.


Okiee laa. that's about all laa. Hahaz. Take cares to all.

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Hmm. Back lerx. Haiz. This week, other than worry and stress, I don't know watt else to say lerx. Firstly my dear, secondly, my grandma. =( okiee laa. Let miee update youu people about watt happened for this week, had a miserable week lolz. ('':)


22 August 2005
Today is zhi hao ah ma's birthday. Yaa. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA!!!!. Hmm. Had a so-called 'fun' day in school, hahaz, late for school nehx. Diaoz. Haiz. Dear today went to ECP, training for this Sunday's run. Yupp, he has a competition this Sunday, a 10km run at kallang. Haiz. Miss him dearly. =(. Need him to pei miee!! Haiz. Today quarrel with mom. Also don't know watt is her problem. She was saying tomorrow is Jia Yi's exam, ask miee to revise her works with her, so I gave her some works to do (my mom was sleeping then, she know nothing about this) then I went downstairs for a while. When she wakes upp after that, she thought I never revise with my sister and called miee, blasted miee on the phone and I hang upp just like that. Then lock miee outside the house don't let miee go in the house. By the time she open the door, she wants miee to pack and leave the house, like so unreasonable lolz. Then she keep scolding and scolding until I can't take it and go back to my room. By then, my sister (sec 3 dex) is packing her clothes, saying that she wants to get out of the house. Then I called dear, told him watt happened, then he want miee to go his house first, at least better than staying outside. At first, I was reluctant to leave but in the end, no choice cause mom says if we don't leave, she will. Therefore, we left, to dear's house we go. Didn't sleep. Out of dear's house by 12+.


23 August 2005
(Continue from 22 August 2005) After reaching for a while, my sister say want to skate, so went to skate. Actually she just want to skate for the sake of boredom only laa. Then miee and dear entertain her lolz. Because I'm actually very tired after a cry, I want to sleep. In the end, still go with her laa. Was thinking of skating to ECP, Ahahaz. Somehow, cannot, cause miee and my sister still not stable skating on road, with cars around! Then in the end still took cab. Went to eat supper at the 'ba cuo mee' shop. After that skate to ECP, cause near maa. But my sister still need miee to pull her!! Lazy pig laa. Then miee practise at rink, sister also but after a while, she is tired lerx. Then dear sit there talk to Xiao fen. After Xiao fen leave then dear skate a while. After which, we go fort road. Before reaching fort road, still some distance laa, my sister falls. Then she sits down there, don't want to move lerx. Then miee and dear go and find her, pei her sit sit lolz. Then after resting, all of us tired lerx laa, then take cab go home lolz. After reaching dear's house, my sister went to bath first. Followed by miee then dear. Dear was playing computer game lolz! By the time I come out from the bathroom, my sister has fallen asleep. Then by the time dear comes out from the bathroom, I fell asleep. Then he wake miee upp, ask miee to sleep properly cause I was curling like a worm! Hahaz. Then ask my sister also, same case! Then he sits beside miee, writes his diary. After that I think he continue playing game, cause miee and sister sleep on his bed, then he no bed to sleep. Until his brother goes to school, then he sleeps on his brother's bed. Then I woke upp at 3pm. Woah~ thanks to my sister, wakes miee upp lolz. Then dear still like pig like that, sleep! But I know he's tired laa. Wake dear upp at 4+, ask him to go and eat with miee and sister. Just this very day, I made my darlings in school worry about miee! Sorry darlings! Cause I did not go school today maa. Then they thought watt happened to miee. However, Terence brought my yuzhen darling to see miee! Hahaz. =) hmm. They left around 7+ because Terence has to go for tuition. Then dear and his brother play game. Then we go skate around his house there. Then go and take out dinner, after that miee and sister go home lerx. Reach home there 10+ but mom still doesn’t let us in, so we sit outside the house and wait.


24 August 2005
Today is miee and dear's 37 Months anniversary! Hahaz. =) wished dear happy anniversary lerx.
(Continue from 23 August 2005) We are only able to get into the house at 2am. Which was like super duper the 'late'. Then quickly do our things then sleep and that was like, 3am. Yupp. Then woke upp late, late for school. Ahahaz. After school, went to eat with qianhui they all, and when I reach home, I found out my grandma is hospitalized! *sobs*. I was so scared and I could not get dear to confide him my pains then I called qianhui. Talk to her about watt happened. After that feels better lerx. Still cannot get to sleep. Haiz. Then in the end fall asleep when I lie down on bed after doing all the chores. That's about it for today lolz. Was really vexed by all these things that happened recently. Some more today dear is not feeling well, feel like asking him not to go for the run on Sunday lerx. Haiz. Haiz~


25 August 2005
Today nothing much happened. Spent almost the whole evening in hospital. Went to visit grandma straight after social studies timed-test. Then spend the night there lolz. At least today dear is feeling better and he is down to ECP, finally! Reach home 12:40am. Dotz. Tired, very tired. Sleep at 1:30am.


Finally, last entry for the day, TODAY! Today got headache during English lesson. Damn it! Feel so terrible lolz. After school meet dear at Paya Lebar mrt station, go and visit grandma together. Reach there around 2+. Then dear go off around 3:30pm. Then I leave at 4:30pm. Back to home. Haiz~ boring day lolz. Had lots of potato today, or rather recently! Now blogging lolz. *YAWNS~ tired lerx. Take care people!

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it has been a long time since I last blog. Hahaz. So many things happened. =) of course, I would expect more happiness laa. Heheez. Today is Maria's birthday right? Happy birthday daughter. =)

Alright, let miee update about watt has happened for the past week. Heheez.


14 August 2005
Hahaz. Back. I know I had an entry early on right? That was when I am going to meet Kris baby. Yupp. Right after meeting darling, we rush to VCH lerx. Nearly missed the first song worx. Good enough that we are just in time. =) Heheez. Got to know this cute guy by the name of jing kai. Yaa. Just admire him laa. Heheez. Got dear lerx lolz. His solo impressed miee. All the while for trumpet session, he's the soloist. Reminds miee of someone, Kelvin, my assistant drum major! Hahaz. =) after the concert, baby say want to go marina square find her cartel workmate, Mardy. So went with her lolz. Took our dinner there also. Heheez. Had an enjoyable day with Kris baby. Heheez. But Ze yi made miee sad. Cause he pang seh miee. So sad. Hahaz. Never mind laa. After taking our dinner, went home. I reach home around 12+. Then after doing my chores etc, do my English homeworks.


15 August 2005
Hahaz. Dear woke miee upp for school today. Which is like, 4.30am? Heheez. But after that, I say I want to sleep again, then he call miee back at 5.30am. Then I quickly wake upp and get ready for school. Was like Cheong-ing my English homework lolz. Super the lot. Then sleep at 4am. Hahaz. Well, as for my day in school. Hahaz. Guess watt? I slept throughout the day man! Err. Not really sleeping throughout the day laa. After that err. Went home straight after school. Hahaz. =). Was like doing the usual stuff laa. Call dear, talk to him. Chores. Etc and of course, miss my dear and will definitely miss all my darlings and sleep! Heheez. =)


16 August 2005
I am having my 'O' level English oral exam today. Well, I think I screwed everything just like my prelim. Nevertheless, it was better than prelim laa. However, I don't think I can do any better. Really don't have much confident when it comes to English. Haiz. So sianz lolz. Every time fail English. Hmm. After oral went to meet qianhui. On the way saw yuzhen darling and anwen at bus stop. Then took the same bus as darling, cause I am suppose to meet qianhui dear at jun feng's house and darling lived nearby, so take the same bus! Hahaz. =) after arriving at Jun feng's house, I meet qianhui under his block then we set off to bugis lerx. Yupp. We took bus 2 there. Went to take dinner first before going to buy dear's present. Hahaz. After that went to the wallet shop, look for wallet for dear. In the bought a white and black with some green colour wordings that will glow in the dark. Hahaz. (Easier for him to find it at night. Hahaz.) I bought one for myself too. Exactly the same as dear but mine is pink in colour. Heheez. Cute? Hahaz. =P after that went home lerx. Reach home around 8.30pm. Then do usual stuffs again lolz. Hahaz.


17 August 2005 (this entry will be shown, but not together with this, because it's my hubby birthday!)


18 August 2005
Well, can't really remember watt I did. Just briefly write alright? Had my physics and chemistry timed-test. But I think I flung everything neh. Cause wasn't prepared for the test. didn't really studied for physics. Chemistry I studied, but only the recent ones, which was like, organic chemistry. Hahaz. Yupp. Blast furnace all I didn't study. Haiz. Just trying my luck throughout the paper lolz. I hope that i will heng heng pass on the dot or something laa. But I doubt so. Ahahaz. After test went to meet dear at his house there. Go home together. I mean, he go my house. Hahaz. Yupp. Pei miee lolz, cause was feeling blue, need him to be by my side. After reaching home do usual stuffs lolz. Had a long chat with dear over the past. So sweet right? Hahaz.


19 August 2005
Didn't go school today. Was too tired and cause I wasn't feeling well. Dear tried to wake miee upp at 5am, but I was too shacked to even want to get upp. Ohh yaa, forgot to say. Dear stayed overnight at my house. Yupp. Then I sleep all the way til 12 noon. Hahaz. So long since I last slept til so late and it is a week day!!!! Ahahaz. Then dear bought miee breakfast for miee. So sweet yeah? Love him so much lolz! Ahahaz. After that dear fall asleep. Cause he didn't really sleep the night before. So he needs rest laa. Of course. Ahahaz. Then after I do all my stuffs, pei him sleep a while, then I wake upp and do chores. Wake him upp at 7pm. Get ready to go off lerx. Cause going ECP to skate overnight maa. Ahahaz. Then leave my house by 8pm, went to northpoint to take dinner at delifrance. Then go his house. By the time we reach his house is about 10.30pm. he write his diary etc then we go ECP at 12 midnight. Reach there around 12.15am. cause took cab. Ahahaz.


20 August 2005
Reach ECP by 12.15am. Skate to jetty with dear, Aunty Felicia and Stella for the first round. Yupp. Then went to skate around Mac area then saw Kris baby. She was with her friends. Her cartel friend's birthday. Ahahaz. Then wait for my sister and her boyfriend to come. Which was like so the damn long. Meanwhile, we teach Kris baby to skate. Hahaz. She was damn frightened. However, she skates well! For the first time. After that, miee and dear go rink. I practise and he rest. Then a while later my sister and abiel arrived. Then play at rink a while. I keep falling than dear was like, heartache. Hahaz. After that set off for our second round to safra country club, which is right at the end of ECP. We set off at 5.15am. Reach there around 7+. Hahaz. Dilly-dally lolz. Then go back at around 8. Miee and dear go lagoon eat. Then by the time, we finish eating, my sister and abiel was at Mac there lerx. Then we quickly skate back to rink there to meet them. After some rest. I say I want to go fort road. None of them wants to go with miee, because too shacked I think. Then I run there alone. On the way back it started raining. Then stayed in the shelter til the rain stops (dear worry about miee then came to look for miee.). Then quickly skate back to rink there. Dear pei my sister skate cause she keep falling maa. Then I skate on my own pace lolz. A while later reach rink lerx. Hahaz. Then after that went to hvper, rest a while. Then I went to buy harsh brown. Eat. Hahaz. After eating, skate a while then go home with dear, his house this time. After his bath, he asks miee to bath then after that rest at his house. His mother bought us nasi lemak. Hahaz. Cute right? Heheez. Then we take a nap. After that, I woke upp at 5pm to go for steamboat. With my class people. Heheez. That night reach home around 11.30pm. Sleep 1am. Ohh goshh, my dear injured himself while skate lolz. So sad. Sobs. *heartache*


Okiee, lastly, today! Well. Was like, tired and worry. Hahaz. Worry about dear lolz. Yaa. Wake upp at 12 noon. By mom. Then do all the usual stuffs lolz. Super sick laa. Sianz laa. Called dear to check on him. Scared he goes skate or something then makes his injury worse. So keep watching his whereabouts lolz. Yupp. Luckily he was guaix enough laa. Promised miee will stay at home and rest. So guaix right? Love him so much!!! Hmm. Today is a boring day lolz. Actually can go out de. But my mom don't allow miee to, also don't watts her problem laa. Sianz. Okiee laa. That's all bax. Take care people.

dear's bdae. =P

Today is my Bao Bei, my honey, my hubby, my beloved, my sweetheart, my dear's birthday!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!!!! Love youu so much. Ahahaz. Finally, turn 17 yeah? Same as miee lerx worx. Heheez. =)

Haiz. Finally, dear is 17 lerx!! Heheez. Happy? Hmm. I hope he had a wonderful day yeah? Ahahaz. Heard from him that he went out with his family in the morning. Then back home by 2:30pm. Ahahaz. However, I was like, just out of school, at Trevor's house, changing? Yupp. Then meet him at his house at 3:30pm. Hahaz. Yaa. He was sleeping when I reach his house lolz! Like a pig. Birthday boy still sleep so much! Aiyoo. Heheez. Looks like I seems to be more happy then him lolz. =) Maybe lolz.

After reaching his house, we went to ECP, together with his brother, mother and father. Yupp. The three of us, as in miee, dear and his brother, went to skate around. Then his mother stays near rink there and his father went to attend some lesson. Then after that skate to lagoon. Hahaz. For a drink then continue to skate to jetty there and a little down. Near the toilet. Ahahaz. Nearly trip and fall while skating, cause of the seeds and durians. Idiot. Heheez. Then miee and dear seat at the bench there lolz. *romantic time* Don't tell youu watt happen lehz. Heheez. Hahaz. I hope that tonight will be a very happy and wonderful night for dear as this is the first year I celebrated his birthday with, and it is at ECP, skating with him. =P Hahaz. Right my honey? Well, of course, after that went back to rink, cause aunty Helen bought a cake for him, want to celebrate his birthday for him. Therefore, skate back to rink lolz. Meet his mother and brother at coffee shop first, cause they eating there maa. Ahahaz. Then go back rink lolz. Then leave ECP by 10+. Heheez. Go back to dear house again and leave his house by 11+. Reach home around 12+. Yupp. Summary for the day bax. Yaa. Ahahaz.

Alright, now is time for serious matter. A speech or rather a note for my dear, my beloved. I hope that he gets to read this entry specially meant for him. =P

Dear, it is the first time of these three years that I celebrated your birthday with youu right? I hope that youu will be very happy on this special occasion as it is once a year. I am sorry that I was not able to accompany youu for the previous years due to my mother. I hope youu can be more understanding towards her, as there will be more chances for miee to be by side in the years to come. However, as for her, I do not know how much time I will have with her. Therefore, I need youu to understand this alright? Don't blame her when she wants miee to be home early some time, because she wants miee to spend more time with her only, okiee? Sorry horx. Always make youu worry about miee due to my carelessness. Even on your birthday also. So sorry. Hmm. Well, this year, took out my time to accompany youu, which I am not allowed to be because I wish to amend my past years's absent for your birthday. I want youu to be happy youu know? Also, I hope youu realize that I have taken a lot of my time to accompany youu this year which again, I am not allowed to be cause of my O levels. Nevertheless, I put youu as my first priority still because I know I need youu very much. Moreover, I want youu to realize it not through my words but my actions. All because I know, I cannot afford to lose youu once more. Youu might be wondering, why is it that I always tell youu I am willing to leave for this and that. Well, yeshh, I am willing to leave IF ONLY youu will stay happy, alright? =P. For now, I know I will not leave youu and I need youu to assure miee that youu think the same as miee. I need youu to make miee feel secured, that youu will not want to leave miee again. Okiee? Youu are not young kid lerx. I know somehow, youu depend a lot on miee, but youu need to grow upp and be more matured okiee? I am not saying that youu are not matured but there is still some childishness in youu, which I love it. Cause it is the cuteness in youu. =D. Youu are just so lovely that I love youu so much laa. Heheez. Dear, I never want to leave youu unless I am forced to. So if one day I leave youu, there must some reasons behind it alright? Of course, I would not want to know it so I will make up some stories to make youu give upp on miee laa. Okiee? Hope youu will forgive miee horx. Heheez. Hmm. I have a lot to tell youu. Nevertheless, some is just too mushy to be written in blog, next time tell youu face to face alright? Hahaz. Okiee laa, time to end this long entry for youu lerx laa. Okiee? Love youu always. Hugs and kisses. Miss youu lots too!!! Muackz! I (''v'') U!!!

Alright, this entry will end here. Take care to all. =P

hellos.

hellos! Back. Today going to saint pats concert. Meeting Kris and Ze Yi and Raffles at 4:30pm. Hmm. Going outt soon. Just here to post a quick entry. Hahaz

finally, yesterday, I laugh like before. Thanks to skating. Hahaz. Feel better after skating. Hmm. Yesterday after going for social studies lesson went to meet Terence than go ecp. Wanted to say hi to Stella de. But she left not long after I arrived. Hahaz. Then I ask Terence to go and skate with miee lerx. Then go rink, thought dear would be there by then. but never see him. Call him then he just wake upp. -_-'''' hahaz. But okiee laa. I went to skate with Terence lolz. Saw jun heng and friends. Hahaz. Then talk a while. Go skate to lagoon for a drink. Then continue to skate to safra there. Then back to rink by err 7:30, I think. Hahaz. Before that went to jetty but I left after a while. To lagoon and drink water. Thirsty. Heheez. Dear and Terence came to find miee after they are done with their things. Hahaz. Hmm. Then I stop skating lerx. Cause tired and cause Terence is going home lerx, for dinner. Hahaz. Guess watt? Terence went to eat at cafe cartel lehz. At siglap. Then met Kris darling. Hahaz. Hmm. I leave ecp by 9pm. Reach home 9:40pm. Hahaz.

Ehh. okiee laa. Going to be late for meeting darling lerx. Got to go lerx. Take care. Update soon. =)

miss stella.

back again. Haiz. Just now sms Stella. Rather miss her lerx. Rollerline also. Haiz. Stella also ask miee to go back and visit them. Hahaz. Find one-day bax. Ask dear go back with miee. Heheez. =)

Hmm. Messaged her, she thought miee and dear not together lerx. Weird right? Hahaz. She is a cute lady laa. Hahaz. Enjoy talking to her. Heheez. Hahaz. Aiyaa. Don't know lehz. Like so long never go rollerline lerx. Hmm. Haiz~ Hahaz. Glad to know that Stella is fine and so do rollerline. =)

Err. Back for this only laa. Hahaz. Okiee laa. Enough lerx. Have to do my things lerx. Have to sleep early tonight, having social studies with Ms Shek tomorrow morning in school! Hahahahahahhahahahahaha.

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Haiz. Back from school lerx. Today got back Mother Result. Well, I didn't score watt is expected! I got a B3!!!!!!!! I will retake, and I must score A1 this time round. My oral got a distinction, writing paper must not be the cause for miee to score a B!!!!!!!! IT MUST NOT!!!!!

Yeshh, I am very sad that I scored a B and I can guarantee that many people is happy to see miee getting a B, cause I have not been working hard since the beginning of the year, firstly is because of band's SYF. Secondly is myself - lazy! Haiz. I want to drop A Maths. I know it is too late saying that but I don't want to take A Maths lerx. I find A Maths a burden, a stress to miee. I want to get rid of this stressfulness. I am not genius! Neither do any BDSian. Cause like I said, no genius will end upp in BDS!!! Ms Shek asks miee to consider dropping A Maths again. Well, I know I can't score well for this subject, why bother to actually make myself so stressed upp? I find it totally useless to spend time studying a subject that I know I will fail in the end. Hahaz. I rather study other subjects ahh. Waste of time only. Why make mischief for the teachers? Hahaz. I rather I score an A for MT and make Mdm Tan happy. She dotes on miee so much and yet I did not score watt is expected. Haiz. I am not going to stop harassing Ms Shek to let miee drop A Maths lolz. Haiz. Very disappointed with myself. Very! =(

Today is totally a blue day for miee. Cause of the result. Haiz. I was not really being affected until I get to know my result. Haiz. Don't want to talk about the result lerx. So sad hope dear can hug miee now!!!!! Feel like crying when I was talking to teacher about taking the exam again. Ms Loo don't allow miee to drop a Maths. Ms Shek wants miee to reconsider it. Guo Wei asks miee not to drop also. Ask miee to pia for both papers. Well, not I don't want laa. I'm scared that I won't be able to cope with papers. Really lolz. Feel so dishearten with my MT results. Haiz. Now really need to work hard lerx. Left with only less than 100 days to O levels lerx. Moreover, in three weeks time, I'm going to take my preliminary exam. Haiz. Don't even know if I will have the time to blog or not. Kris darling, if youu see my blog is not updated, be patient alright? I will write down everything first then blog them in to keep youu updated about miee! =)

Okiee laa. Enough of blogging for today. Have to study lerx. Need to do English homeworks. Take care people.

PISSED WITH HONG YI!!!!!!!!

Back from school lerx. Just finish helping mom with chores. Haiz. Today in school. Pissed off with that barbaric idiot who always think himself is the greatest in 4B!! Of course, he is none other than LIM HONG YI!!!! (Jaz, I know youu will read my blog, but pardon miee for doing this, he is really getting upp my nerve!)

Watt actually happened was, after geography timed-test, he left the class without even putting back our class's tables. It is not the first time he did this, that is why I am pissed. I mean, who the hell does he think he is? So watt if his dad is a police officer? The son behaves like some hooligan lolz. don't show respect to anyone, like to make fun of people. So uncivilized. Moreover, no manners! SOUNDS DEVOTED TO JAZREN BUT WAS ACTUALLY A FLIRT!!!! Ohhh goshh, to think himself such a great person to be. Joke man! Give miee free also I don't want. I guess only jazren can tolerate him bax. Since don't know when I have been hearing people saying that he did a lot of unfaithful things to jazren lerx lolz, just that I never tell jazren watt people said about him lolz. I'm showing my respect to jazren because I've known her since sec one lolz. All along, I have been hearing people saying that hong yi can never make a good boyfriend but jazren thinks he is, so watt can we do? As her friend, I don't wish to tell her straight to her face ''heyy, dream on laa, many people is saying that he is a BIG FLIRT laa.'' I was very shock when people told miee about him putting the photo of him and Veron on his blog lolz. Ohhh my, that is call devoted?? My foot ahh!!! Lucky Mabel didn't continue to be with him! I'm happy for Mabel lolz. Pity jazren, have to endure all these kind of things. Normally see him, like shouting at her, scolding her or even beating her, I was like, watt the hell are youu doing?? Youu are her boyfriend yet youu did this to her. Girlfriend is being treated this way one mehz? Might as well buy a dog better, torture the dog for all I care! Jazren is not animal lolz, she is to be doted on lolz, not like watt he is doing to her lolz. Every time like to act big, talk big but is actually a hum ji lolz. Got problem the first one to run away ahh. Still dare to call himself a potential leader. If he can be one, my 5 years old sister also can be lerx lolz. Furthermore, my sister is much more discipline than him! Ohhh, wondering watt is he police officer dad have been doing all along, teach a son until like that. Hahaz. Ill-bred child, just like watt Mdm liew used to scold people!!!! He is a perfect example!!!! Hope he wake upp soon laa, not everyone on this earth will obey him de laa. He is not the son of the President or Prime Minister laa. He is just one NORMAL kid lolz. BUT IS A BARBARIC ONE!!!!!!!!!!

Forget it, do not wish to talk about him lerx. Makes my blood boil only. Today Nicole spoke to miee, it is the same thing that Barney had told miee yesterday. Haiz, looks like more and more people knows about this thing lerx. Well, I don't think I am the one who make things big lolz. I think it is her big mouth, go round telling people about it bax. Hahaz. Like watt darling they all say, should bring a chopper to school and chop her head off. She is just a BITCH, a HYPOCRITE, and then why care whether she exists or not? Another one who deserves a tight slap bax. Ohhh yaa, HONG YI say he wants to slap miee, hahaz, go ahead and slap if he dare lolz, at most I will tell teachers, in the end he kena not my problem. I can't wait to see him die also! Yaa, I am being evil here, so watt? Youu think I give a damn about him? I rather go play with some stray animals than bother about him lolz. I mean, who is he? A bastard? Yaa! And her? A bitch? Yeshh! Ohhh my, no wonder both of them call each other brother and sister. Perfect pair!

Whatever laa. Both of them can die together for all I care laa. I know quite a number of 4B students is not pleased with miee laa. So? I care? I don't need hypocrites in my life, I don't need liars in my life! All I need is SOME true friends and that is enough for miee lerx. Those who can't be bother, why must I care? It is pointless faking myself throughout the year that I like him or her as friends. Eeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! I hate this, so gross!!!! Arghh!! So pissed! So pissed! So pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghh~ going to stop here lerx. Need to cool myself down. Really pissed. Take care people.

hellos.

Hahahahahahhahahahahaha. Now is 12.15am. Guess watt? Got to know from qianhui and yuzhen watt dear said on train that day when they were on train, going home! Haiz. My heart is like. Hmm. Kinda no feelings, cause expected wadd. *ha*

Qianhui is very pissed for all I know. I know she is concern. Nevertheless, I don't wish to see her so worried about miee. =) stay happy alright? I will be fine. No worries. Hahaz.

Today got to know something from Barney. Well, at first, my heart was aching. After giving some thoughts about it. I find that it is not worth it laa. I have decided to give upp. Give upp the friendship between miee and HER. I find that I have been fooled again. Haiz. I thought things would be better after the negotiation. However, don't seems to turn out better lehz. Hahaz. My heart is dying, towards this friendship. I can't believe that SHE actually told Barney that SHE find the negotiation a waste of time, it is stupid?? Then why hug miee and apologise? Then why tell miee YOUU want to start afresh? Why cheat on my feelings again? YOUU said YOUU would not take miee as a fool anymore. Butt YOUU are doing it again. YOUU hurt miee once and again. Why must YOUU take miee as a fool? Why are YOUU treating miee like that? Why cheat on miee? Why play miee out? In the whole of these two years, I never at once take YOUU as a substitute of anyone. Never at once had the intention to make YOUU feel like a substitute. YOUU made miee feel so, do YOUU know? Though I never say. But do YOUU know I feel it that way? I view it that way. YOUU asked miee not to view myself as a substitute, but have YOUU ever try to make miee not feel that way? I really give upp lerx. I think in everyone's life, there will come a time when your friend will leave youu for some reasons. Well, now it is my turn to decide whether to leave or stay. I choose to leave lerx. I have given YOUU the chance but I doubt YOUU appreciate it. It is a sad thing to do but I think this is the best way out bax. This is the best way have a clear cut to our ''misunderstandings'. Well, as for YOURR close friend (YOUU should know who), to YOUU I can say, I've known YOUU for so long. Yet I still don't know watt YOUU really thinks of miee. I don't know why, of all people, it must be miee that YOUU actually choose to do this to. I mean, watts YOURR motive? Do YOUU feel happier seeing miee like that? If yeshh, I can only conclude that YOUU are really very EVIL, very CRUEL. Take it as I've made a wrong choice to make YOUU my friend. I know all along, I'm not as close to YOUU as HER. It is YOURR choice to choose YOURR friend. I can't interfere if YOUU want to be with HER. Yupp. that's all that I can say bax. Towards this two friendship, other than sadness, I don't think there's anymore other feelings lerx. Yaa. Just hope that they will stay happy always. May they be friends forever.

Hmm. Hahaz, suppose to be calling dear, to clarify things with him de. Messaged him he never replies, which pissed miee off. Ohhh my, can't stand this lerx lolz. Really wondering watts his problem lolz. Yesterday told zhen they all watt, ''if I go out with my NCO friend, he would say bye to miee''. Ohhh my, if he really does this, and if I were like him, I would have said bye long ago! Not wait until now lolz. Just full of craps and I finds it lame laa. All bullshit laa. Kao! Terence questioned dear today, well, hmm. Just some private conversation bax. Haiz. Really don't know watt he's thinking lolz. My heart is really confused. Haiz. I have no idea watt he really wants in this relationship. Have no idea watt is he looking for in this relationship. I hope he can answer miee, but all he will do is keep quiet. This is like watt Hani did on Tuesday. Worse, he will cry and beg for forgiveness. This is watt he has done before. When I nearly ask for break upp when I'm in sec two. It is like, my blog song now. ‘‘Happy ending''. Hahaz. Ohhh goshh. Like so the fairytale lolz. Which is like, damn stupid? How can fairytale happen in real life? Is my meeting with him a fairytale? Is our relationship meant to be fairytale like? Haiz. I'm facing so many problems now, but whom can I confide? Whom can I tell my problems to? My darlings have their own things to attend to. I don't wish to burden them. I know they are all concern, but they are busy with their studies lerx. That is why I don't wish to get them troubled with mine. Haiz. Watt should I do now?? Continue or end??????

Hmm. I think I have had enough trying tantrum in blog lerx. Take care peoples, stay happy always! =)

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back lerx. Hmm. Yaa. Yesterday went to celebrate national day. Was with dear at first, then meet upp yuzhen, Terence, qianhui and Julian. Yupp. Then six of us walk around together.

Haiz. Dear pissed miee off again. I'm like, watt the hell. I know he is jealous about miee going to ice skate with my friend, but can't he just tell miee that nicely so I will not go with my friend? Instead of shouting or scolding miee, why can't he try to talk to miee nicely? Why must he try to be harsh to miee? Make miee want to go against him even more? I'm not the type who will take scolding lolz. The more youu scold miee, the more I hate it! I got so pissed until I actually walk away from the group lolz. Don't feel like seeing him at all lolz. In the end join back the group, cause qianhui called, say Hani they all there also. So was thinking of going back to say hi to them or something. Soon after, I reach and said hi to them, dear and Terence was on their way back to meet them lerx. So miee and qianhui go away first. Then dear and Terence came after us, looking for us. We got away from them, like playing hide and seek like that lolz. Then after that went to meet zhen and Julian. Then go look for foodcourt, cause qianhui hungry. Then go lolz. In the end dear and Terence got to meet upp with us in the end, cause zhen told Terence where are we. At first see that moron was feeling very angry still, don't want to see him at all. Then in the end he use tiramisu to coax miee. Say sorry to miee and make miee laugh and I thought this would be the end of our unhappiness. To my dismay, it is not! On the way back, he started to reprimand miee again! Which I'm like, ''watt the hell, just now youu just said sorry to miee, now youu start again!!!!'' in the end still ended my day with unhappiness. Each time I go out him, it would be a sad ending. Seldom will be happy. I thought it would be like when I'm out with my NCO friends, happy beginning, happy ending. Though we will be feeling sad because we will not know when the next time is we are seeing each other but when we are together, we will never make each other feel sad. Why can't dear do this? Really lolz! When I'm out with my NCO friends, he will be unhappy. Has he ever thought of why I prefer to be with NCO friends? Cause they really know how to cheer miee upp. Why dear can choose to be with the people he wants to be with and I can't? Why am I always the one who spare thoughts for him before I do anything? Why must it always be miee who is concern about this relationship? I thought love takes two? Then why am I the only support for this relationship? I'm feeling tired lerx. I can't be the only support for this relationship, I really can't. I need his support too. I need him to really support this relationship before it turns sour. I feel that I'm really being unfairly treated. Why he can have all he wants and I can't? I'm really sick of it, very!!!!!!!

Haiz. Dear still can't give miee watt Kris has given miee. The kind of trust and faith that I have towards him seems to lessen each time he hurts miee. Why can't he be like Kris? Be with miee when I needs him, let miee confide when I'm troubled? Give miee advices and help miee with my problems? Kris darling, my heart is aching. I'm so hurt. =( Sobs.

Yesterday Terence was like telling to give dear some time to change himself. But I doubt dear will make much changes bax. Haiz. If separation the only way out? I don understand why must the both us end upp like this lolz. Really, I want to keep him by my side, which is why I choose to go back to him. However, once and again, he made miee so unhappy. I remembered HE told miee when we broke upp, HE wants dear to treat miee well. HE hopes I'm happy. However, I'm like that now. Ohhh goshh. Have I done something wrong? Everything seems to be so fine at the beginning. However, why it is like that now? I don't know if he's still concern about this relationship, whether he still wants this relationship. I also don't know whether he still needs miee or not, whether he really wants miee to be with him or not. My mind is in a state of confusion now. my mind needs to be answered to all these questions. I FEEL LIKE CRYING!!!!! It has been ages since I'm last like that. All the while I thought, things would be better after we patched, but it seems to be not. Did I make the decision on the spur of my emotion? Did I make the wrong choice? I really hope I didn't. Cause I don't want to regret. I know I love him. Nevertheless, I really need him to grow upp, change his childish mentality and blend in with mine. I really needs him to do so. =(

Haiz. Don't wish to talk lerx. Just a quick summary, have not been happy all these while, mainly cause of dear. Partly cause of my friendship with Hani. Haiz. Listening to ''tong hua'' now. sad feelings just arouse like that. Haiz. Okiee laa. I have to end off here lerx. Meeting qianhui and zhen they all at jun feng's house study. Tae care people. Hopefully will be happier for the coming week. =)