i'm so tired.

i slept basically the whole day. at home.

wanted to go sentosa actually. but jaslyn not feeling well.. so call it off. but around 11am jasmine called me. ask me if i wanna go suntan. but i can't go.. my mom left my nephew with me all the way until 4 plus. -.- but planning to go on friday.. (: hahas. yayy! =]

bev called me late afternoon around 4:30pm. 5:30pm in perth. haha. yupps. then after his call i use com surf net a while.. then go sleep. wake up at night. -.- 8 plus i think. haha. then watch tv. eat.. just coax my nephew to sleep. now i'm gonna help mom with a little bit of chores. then go eat some food. and..... SLEEP again! =] working morning tomorrow. 7am. hais.

borings.. -.-

some photos bahh. me and my secondary besties from secondary one to secondary four. =] though have arguements here and there. =] but i still love them! =]




kat//jazren//kamae



kat//jazren//kamae//sarah//mabel.



we all have this!! =]

p/s : sarah you have very good photography skills. -.-

first day at plaza sing.

was okays. was quite lost initially. but after 2-3 hours.. i'm quite familiar with the area and stuffs. i suppose the flow wasn't as much as usual? cause i don't feel much of the 'slamming'? i could still handle.. (: which is a good thing. =] hahaha. fast lehhs? but haven't really adapt to the store yet. hais. how i miss cathay. miss seeing the stairs at cathay.. :( miss my lamazoco. :( hais.......... cathay cathay cathay...

but i have to keep reminding myself that my store is plaza sing now. no longer cathay. not cathay. sians.

messaged bev today. knowing that he's doing well ease my mind. well i know i'm paranoid sometimes. sorry...

haisss. miss everyone in cathay. dzul visited me today when i'm shift. which makes me feel so sad. but have to keep up the lively composure on floor. can't help it but to talk a lot. 3 weeks.. will pass soon. :(

yeah. by then when i got back to cathay, really wonder if i'll still be in the system. hais. might be leaving soon. yet they still put so much effort to train me. i thank them.. but i feel bad.. cause knowing it myself i'm leaving soon yet still doing so much for them like giving them hopes. wanted to tell dzul not to pin too much hopes on me. :( haiss. what should i do? sometimes i just feels so attach to cathay already. until i can't bear to leave them.. everyone is so nice to me. though i got scoldings here and there. but.. they're still nice people.. really. feel so pampered by them so much sometimes. they're always there.. always smiling.. making my day a good one. telling me jokes to make me smile.. they care so much about me. concern about me. this kind of environment.. working environment.. is so nice. where else can i get this kind of nice environment? i don't know.. so far this is the only one i got. managers are so nice. partners are cute and friendly.. i've got regular customers who will look for me.. remembering my name.. long chats.. so nice. :( how should i let out the news of me leaving? can't bear to see them sad.. can't bear to leave the store. hais.

i'm so tired. tired from work. everything. all the shits recently.. all that i've gone through recently. sick and tired.. of everything. kinda like having my PMS? getting moody and stuffs. shit. fuck shits. ARGGG! plus i'm feeling tired.. hais.. i need a long rest.. a really long rest... no disturbs.. nothing. just myself and nothing else.

steph is leaving in four weeks time. to shanghai.. and won't be back until five months later. like OMFG?!?!?! five months... not seeing my girls for so long really kills me. i'll die without them.. :( but hope steph is sound and safe there. she's so far away from me.. i can't be there when she needs me.. feel so helpless.. :( hais.. :( will miss her.. really miss her.. :(

okays. i'm tired. gonna sleep. might be going sentosa tomorrow morning. nights all.

goodbye cathay hellos plaza singapura

yeah. gonna be away from cathay for three weeks. will be attach to plaza singapura. cause cathay's gonna expand. becoming a higher volume store.. i'm send to plaza sing to be train to adapt to high volume store.

cathay's gonna be under renovation from 10th march. ready by 1st april.. with outside seatings. meaning, smoking area will be there also. i seriously wonder how it will look like.. by the time i'm back to store it should be ready. gonna miss cathay so much. my lama! :( gonna miss my lamzoco soso much. :( plaza sing use verismo. hais.. pros and cons. byebye cathay..

failed my coffee master challenge (CMC) paper one. but i heard i was close to passing. -.- requirement to pass is 90%! the paper itself is 151 points. freaking a lot lahhs. i can only afford to lose 15 points. -.- haisss. quite dishearten actually.. but i myself know i'm not very ready for the paper.. so it's okay. dzul ask me to go for the next CMC. which is in may.. but by then, am i still in the system? maybe? maybe not? hais..

not feeling happy today. though i keepup the lively composure during work. but once i reach home, i know it myself i'm a different person from work.. peharps cause i'm leaving store and is gonna miss store so much. yeah.. it's one of the reasons. missing someone badly.. missing bev so badly until i'm feeling unhappy.. haven't talk to him for two days. on the phone i mean.. well, maybe i'm too used to talking to him on phone already. bad habit bad habit. wondering how is he now? is his first day in UNI okays? what have he done today? hais. i don't know. he didn't reply my messages. peharps he's too tired and he's sleeping already. cause he's not online either. so i think he's sleeping bahhs. lastly, cause my CMC. hais. don't wish to talk so much about it anymore. sad.

thinking of leaving team elite.. haven't been attending the trainings. and people blaming me for giving excuses for work. claiming i went out etc instead of work. don't wanna be stress over the team stuffs. and steven did state that he needs commitments. yet i can't give him now. too much involvement is needed in store now. i can't fork out much time. even when i'm off, it's not training days. hais. so hard to compromise... i'd love to stay in the team.. but i can't give my commitment now.. maybe after i change job then i can have the time bahhs. HAIS..

one week one day. bev left for 8 days already.. still trying to get used to not seeing him.. yeah.. though 3 months is not long.. time flies people says.. but with him not around it's just pass so slow.. 8 days seems so long to pass. 8 days seems like 8 months. hais..

now is not the time to talk about relationship.. it's time to concentrate on my work and excel in it. to prove to someone i'm much capable than what i am now. someone once looked down on me cause of the CERT i'm holding is only Os. but i'm gonna prove that i'm better than what just an Os is. i'm gonna get my diploma.. my degree.. just you wait and see. work and save money.. work and save money!!

ten years down the road, i'll be what i wanna be.

to my dearest kristeena darling :
sorry kris darling.. about my tagboard.. i'll stop everything.. ignorance is bliss. i'm not hoping for anything anymore. i no longer hope for the return. no longer hope to see the backview of him. pinning no hopes to get back. no faith anymore. no trust anymore. it's an empty shell. hollow inside. left with just memories. good and bad. pinning no hopes to see the smiles i once saw. no longer yearn for his hugs and kisses. no longer yearn for his warmness. no longer yearn to be beside him. no longer yearn for his gentleness. nothing. yearning for nothing. only hoping each day is happy and so is his. only hoping for peace. no hatred no nothing. i just wanna be who i am and lead my life happily. that's all..

done with what i wanna say.. dishearten. missings. worries.. hais..

the conversation -.-

had a chat with zac just now.. obviously it didn't turn out to be good. and well well, it doesn't matter anyway.. i'll let it be.. hais.. not much comments.

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL. especially those who wished me. i went to watch movie with WG people on valentine's day. 'JUMPER' it's like, a MUST to watchh??? =] damn nice! (:

thanks marvin for the rose and thanks harry for the cookie! =]

hahas. after movie went to MOS. basically slack and stuffs. yeah.

nothing much.. talk to bev on the phone until i fall asleep. -.-

okays.. i'm not feeling very well.. gonna end here. can look at the screenshots if you want. hahas.

nights all..

it has been two days...... :(

but i'm still not used to not seeing bev. it's weird i know.. cause he's just a friend. but, still miss him so much.. hais.. :( when will he be back? and not leave anymore? he'll be back in three months.. but he'll be leaving again.. sad. if only he'll be back and not leave. how nice.. fuck. like getting emo and shit. @#$%^&*

bev called me the past two days. which makes me feel so much better. cause physically i can't see him.. but at least i heard his voice. and each time he call, we talk for quite long. =] and i'll move to one corner and talk to him. hahas. no distraction or anything. cause TALKING TO BEV IS PRIORITY! lol. yeah.. treasuring every minute and second talking to him on the phone.. =]

woah.. sounds like we couple, but we're not.. well well, if only we are.. HAHAA. kidding. =]

anyways, really enjoyed myself talking to him, even though it's just talking.. it's good enough. =] hahas. two days already.. haven't seen him for two days.. weird but no choice.. i have to get used to it soon. =] hopefully.. yeahs. if i can fly over to perth now, i WILL!!! hais. really have the urge to go perth! very badly.. though i just hang up the phone.. was talking to him just now.. talked for almost two hours. HAHAHA. so sweet and nice of him to call me even though he's far away. thanks sweetie. =]

just put down the phone and i miss him already. how fast. hahaha.

' WHEN I SEE YOUR SMILE '

this sentence, reminds me alot about him.. and

' WITH EVERY KISS AND EVERY HUG YOU MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE '

also reminds me of him! how i wish he's in singapore now.. by my side. HAHAHA. so selfish right? LOL. sorry, i'm kidding. but it'll really be good if he's here. =] miss all the late nights out with him and WG people. chinatown.. supper.. hahas. everything. swimming.. so fun. days just past like this.. leaving each day with happy memories. hais.. but he's not here now. talk so much as if he's flying back tomorrow.. -.- :(

today had company dinner. went to the golf club at east coast.. had a nice dinner.. taking photos and stuffs. then went over to georges. reminds me of last time when i go there with bev and friends.. so much old memories there. and the place reminds me of bev.. vivian asked me when we were at georges ' did you guys got back together? ' i looked at her, shake my head and said ' no '. cause when we were on the way there.. in vivian's car, bev called. then i talk to him all the way.. reach georges at 11:15am. i stayed outside to talk to bev until 12am before i eventually go inside.. yeah.. cause he's so far away from me, i doesn't wanna miss any chance to spend some time with him, even if it's on the phone. =]

in love? maybe. bev has always been a special someone, to me. no answer no nothing. yupps. i think to him, now it's best staying what we are now since he's far away. ( that's what he always tell me since last time. ) so if he still thinks this way, this is the only answer i get if i ask him anything.. =] BEV CAN YOU TELL ME SOMETHING ELSE? well, he did talked to me. conversation shall remain secret. cause it's between us. but bev, if you ever have something else to tell me, just tell me. okay? =] hahahas. MISS YOU! come back here and accompany me! =] and let's go out! hahahaha. xoxoxoxoxo.

after georges went to chong pang to find leon and DM. with jaslyn.. yeahh.. ate a little.. talk some shits. then home i go.. talked to bev until 4:30am. then now, blogging. it's already 4:55am. so late already.. think i'm gonna sleep. hahas. tomorrow working. RAHH! cannot talk to bev already. :( never mind.. shall message him tomorow then. =]

bye bye! nights.

HAPPY ENDING.

Happy Ending lyrics

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

HAPPY ENDING. WTF.

change my blog song. haha. nice?

BEV CALLED ME JUST NOW. AND UNCLE KEEGAN MSN ME JUST NOW. glad that they are sound and safe. =]

missing them still.. hais.. met shan just now.. suppose to send ben and dylan off.. but when we reach there we can't find them.. and we couldn't contact them.. walked around.. but still can't see them.. so we left..

meeting leon they all later. gonna slack etc.. jialat.. everyday like this.. siao liaos..

talking to bev on msn now.. awww... i miss talking to him.. :( :( :( :(

listening to all the songs that reminds me of him.. makes me miss him more. WTF. -.-
bev fucking get your ass back here.. :(

okays need to get ready to go out soon. blog soon.

YAYY TOMORROW INLINE CULTURE COMPANY DINNER! =]

bye bye bevvy and uncle keegan... :(

the plane just got off like, 45 minutes ago.. :( hais. start missing them already. WTF?!

spent the last few days with bev and WG people.. just wanna see him for a while more before he leave.. :( hais.. was at wayne's house party last night with bev and shan.. know some new friends.. got like drunk.. not very lahhs. keep telling myself not to sleep.. must open the eyes BIG BIG. hahas. and i managed to pull through the whole session.

left at 7am. go to sentosa house with bev and shan.. then wait for bev to get ready and aunty jessica send us to airport... :( i hate airport.. everytime go aiport will be sad one! :( hais.........

HATE IT HATE IT!!

and that fucker zac made me so pissed off with him yesterday.. super duper pissed off. quarrelled with him on the phone when i was at DM's house. FUCKING CHEEBYE. SHUT THE FUCK UP. seriously hate him for SPREADING rumour about me and bev. hahahahaha.. just because he's JEALOUS me and bev and be good friends.. RETARDED. and really CHILDISH. hahaha. i think he seriously need to consult some doctors.. hahaha. go and test his level of childish-ness. confirm very HIGH! =]

like uncle edmond said before.. he always think he's not childish and thinks everyone is childish.. but actually the childish one is himself yet he don't realised. HAHA. so TRUE! ^^ yeah. craps. i don't care already lahhs. he want his ego so much then go ahead. i don't care anymore. say whatever he wanna say.. bev already not in singapore.. i doubt he can say much. and fact is, ME AND BEV DID NOTHING WRONG. WG people can be witness. they have been with us for so many days. HA. zac=JOKER! which i don't give shit about. HAHAHAHA.

the more you try to get attention from me, the more i don't care. cause i don't bother about people who give shit and talk shits. i've got better people to talk to and be with.. =] and DON'T compare my friends to yours. cause you have NO rights to. YOU'RE NOBODY TO DO THAT. even prime minister also don't have the rights. cause it's humans rights to be with people they wanna be with.

HAI.... will upload the photos when i'm okay. fucking tired now.. didn't sleep the whole night. gonna catch some sleep before going to airport again to send ben off.

nights.

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kat//boss


kat//harry



i looks funny. haha.


JK//kat.


kat//marv

LAST NIGHT SUPPER // CHINATOWN // GEYLANG..

aww i'm cute. *ahem.*


must be leon who took this. -.-


by leon. =] yay kat is blur. -.-


jas//kat


bevyy//katty





back view? leon wants it. funny. -.-


bleahs!=]


quarrelling. hmphh. hahahas. KIDDING.



GEYLANG.

stone.

4 more days..

til bev and keegan leave for australia.. hais.. feeling upset already.. hais.. can't imagine if they leave already, how boring my life is gonna get for some time. :(

anyways, yesterday worked until 5pm. then head towards simlim square. need to change my MP3 battery. lol. fucking cost $75 lohh! CB!!!! no money already. ang bao lai ang bao lai. LOL. met bev at bugis after simlim. then walk around.. damn retarded. like no sense of direction. don't know what to do. then i say i'm hungry.. wanted to eat.. then go bugis junction.. wanted to eat pastamania. but no more. :( sucker. then had MOS burger. bev was like complaining all the way.. not nice.. this and that. -.- fuck sia. so noisy.. hahaha. =] *peace.

then smoke outside. bev asked me questions about car and he concluded i'm a girl type. -.- wtf. from those questions conclude i'm girl type of carss. as in i go for girlish car. LOL. actually... TRUE~ hahaa. after that really nothing to do.. so i decided to go home bathe and etc. he followed me. fucking funny lahhs. he reading my dairy i don't know.. CAUSE HE USE MY SMALL PILLOW TO COVER. so i thought what he doing.. -.- asss. then he said my room is cosy.. ^^ =] haha. then we watch the crip walk dance etc. he danced.. in front of me. so funny can. hahaha. can't help but to laugh when i see him expressions. HAHAHAHA. so funny.

after that went chong pang meet leon, DM, priscillia, harry and jaslyn. chat there.. and stupid DM ask bev super lot of nonsense. funny sia. then go chinatown after that.. walk walk. took picture.. so funny ones. (: hahas. bev piggy back me cause i'm TOO LAZY to walk. bt for a while only lahhs. hahahaha. thanks anyways. saved me from that little distance. =] after that we go geylang there eat frog porridge ( tianji zhou ). damn nice!!!! =] yupps. then bev went home etc.

and BEV DYED HIS HAIR LIKE, with BLUE HIGHLIGHT.. cool~ nice nice. i like.. lol. the colour i mean. hahas. i wanna go dyed pinK!! =] hahaha. funny funny.. and he removed his mole on the side of the nose.. =] ouch. pain sia.. :( hahaha. not on me so never mind. =]

and today is new year eve. and i'm home alone. fucking bored. think later have to go over to grandma house for dinner, ALONE. fuck sia. then maybe later tonight going out with leon they all again. lol. slacking.. or maybe stay home sleep. hahas.

okays. i'm bored. gotta call grandma. BYE! =] photos soon k? haven't upload..